****Lisa Marie's Journal****

Lisa Marie · 09-13-2005, 09:31 AM

TUESDAY, SEPTEMBER 13, 2005

Today I am recommitting to Low Carb. Again.

I don't even know where to start. I'm mad at myself for backsliding and gaining. Again.

I'm trying to find the good in all of this. I guess maybe it's because I didn't allow myself to fall away from a healthier diet for two years like before. This time was bad enough - 3 months - but not two years. I think what helped this time is that I got rid of the clothes that became too big as I lost weight, and now I'm finding that my current size is getting tight. I'm going through that all-to-familiar morning ritual of "I don't have ANYTHING to wear!" It's depressing to the point that I don't want to get out of bed because I know that there is going to be a problem when I open that closet door!

I don't know how much I've gained and I'm not going to find out. I'm starting over again today and I will wait a full two weeks before I get on the scale. I know that if I weighed myself today it would be too frustrating.

I'm hoping that journaling here will help because it will keep me accountable. I'm making a committment to journal my thoughts and feelings every day, as well as my meals/snacks.

So here goes...

Breakfast - 2 eggs (scrambled), 3 slices of bacon
Snack - 2 slices of thin sliced turkey deli meat

Lisa Marie · 09-14-2005, 09:02 AM

Wednesday, September 14th, 2005

Yesterday’s Meals
Breakfast: Scrambled Eggs and Bacon
Snack: 2 slices of thin-sliced turkey
Lunch: Small bowl of chili (I don’t think this is low-carb, but I couldn’t see throwing it out, then turning around and buying lunch!)
Supper: Salad with grilled chicken and ranch dressing
Snack: Slice of leftover roast beef

Since I’m here most often in the mornings, I decided I’d be better off posting the previous day’s meals each morning.

After only one day back on plan, I’m already feeling better, both physically and mentally. It’s amazing what a difference it makes with my brain when I get off the sugar! Truly, I’m a much happier person.

Work is really, really getting me down right now. Too much to write out, just suffice it to say that I dread coming in here every day. Over the last few months, especially the last month, this has really had an affect on my eating. It’s sort of an escape thing. Things are
bad in the office, so I just want to run to the candy machine and escape. I can clearly see
the pattern, but for weeks I felt powerless to stop it. I’m feeling much better now, stronger.

I’ve been thinking a lot this morning about goals, but since I don’t know what my actual weight is right now, it’s tough to try to set goals. I’m not going to weigh myself until I’ve been back on plan for two weeks, which will be September 27th. If I had to guess, I’d say I’m back up to around 190 or 192, which is a bummer since I had made it to 184. If I had to make a goal right now, not knowing exactly where I am, I would say I’d like to be at 179 by Halloween. I haven’t been below 180 in many years and for some reason every time I get to the low 180’s I give up.

I think that’s about it for today… I’m glad I have this journal to make me accountable! I know that what I choose to eat today will be recorded for all to see tomorrow!

Lisa

LCinHouston · 09-14-2005, 09:37 AM

one day at a time!!!

09-13-2005, 09:31 AM	#1
Lisa Marie Big Yapper!!!! Join Date: Feb 2005 Posts: 8,244 Gallery: Lisa Marie Start Date: Restart 6/26/07	**Lisa Marie's Journal TUESDAY, SEPTEMBER 13, 2005** Today I am recommitting to Low Carb. Again. I don't even know where to start. I'm mad at myself for backsliding and gaining. Again. I'm trying to find the good in all of this. I guess maybe it's because I didn't allow myself to fall away from a healthier diet for two years like before. This time was bad enough - 3 months - but not two years. I think what helped this time is that I got rid of the clothes that became too big as I lost weight, and now I'm finding that my current size is getting tight. I'm going through that all-to-familiar morning ritual of "I don't have ANYTHING to wear!" It's depressing to the point that I don't want to get out of bed because I know that there is going to be a problem when I open that closet door! I don't know how much I've gained and I'm not going to find out. I'm starting over again today and I will wait a full two weeks before I get on the scale. I know that if I weighed myself today it would be too frustrating. I'm hoping that journaling here will help because it will keep me accountable. I'm making a committment to journal my thoughts and feelings every day, as well as my meals/snacks. So here goes... Breakfast - 2 eggs (scrambled), 3 slices of bacon Snack - 2 slices of thin sliced turkey deli meat Last edited by Lisa Marie : 09-13-2005 at 09:34 AM.

09-14-2005, 09:02 AM	#2
Lisa Marie Big Yapper!!!! Join Date: Feb 2005 Posts: 8,244 Gallery: Lisa Marie Start Date: Restart 6/26/07	Wednesday, September 14th, 2005 Yesterday’s Meals Breakfast: Scrambled Eggs and Bacon Snack: 2 slices of thin-sliced turkey Lunch: Small bowl of chili (I don’t think this is low-carb, but I couldn’t see throwing it out, then turning around and buying lunch!) Supper: Salad with grilled chicken and ranch dressing Snack: Slice of leftover roast beef Since I’m here most often in the mornings, I decided I’d be better off posting the previous day’s meals each morning. After only one day back on plan, I’m already feeling better, both physically and mentally. It’s amazing what a difference it makes with my brain when I get off the sugar! Truly, I’m a much happier person. Work is really, really getting me down right now. Too much to write out, just suffice it to say that I dread coming in here every day. Over the last few months, especially the last month, this has really had an affect on my eating. It’s sort of an escape thing. Things are bad in the office, so I just want to run to the candy machine and escape. I can clearly see the pattern, but for weeks I felt powerless to stop it. I’m feeling much better now, stronger. I’ve been thinking a lot this morning about goals, but since I don’t know what my actual weight is right now, it’s tough to try to set goals. I’m not going to weigh myself until I’ve been back on plan for two weeks, which will be September 27th. If I had to guess, I’d say I’m back up to around 190 or 192, which is a bummer since I had made it to 184. If I had to make a goal right now, not knowing exactly where I am, I would say I’d like to be at 179 by Halloween. I haven’t been below 180 in many years and for some reason every time I get to the low 180’s I give up. I think that’s about it for today… I’m glad I have this journal to make me accountable! I know that what I choose to eat today will be recorded for all to see tomorrow! Lisa Last edited by Lisa Marie : 09-14-2005 at 09:05 AM.

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09-14-2005, 09:37 AM	#3
LCinHouston MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Nov 2003 Location: The Edge of Insanity Posts: 2,436 Gallery: LCinHouston Start Date: 12/12/07	one day at a time!!!