Dropping in December on Stillman’s Snowy Sleigh Ride! - Page 13

Getting there!!! · 12-11-2010, 04:10 PM

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Originally Posted by aleriaaa

what happens after "very gabby LCF member"?

Too much time on my hands---I think!! I've seen it!

Getting there!!! · 12-11-2010, 04:12 PM

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Originally Posted by IM2fat

Guys! I'm here.

thank goodness you've come back, Al! We need to get serious. . I've been very, very good.. for the most part

went to dinner with the family and I ordered a burger. tossed the bun. . had a side salad and cabbage soup. . I think I'm still good

Good you!!!

Getting there!!! · 12-11-2010, 04:14 PM

[QUOTE=IM2fat;141644. . but I do want humongus boobs, too. . How does one get those without gaining weight?
[/QUOTE]

You hot foot it down to the nearest hot Dr..!!!!!!!

Getting there!!! · 12-11-2010, 04:17 PM

Ok I'm off to bed! Nite nite!

aleriaaa · 12-11-2010, 05:28 PM

mmmmmm cabbage soup sounds yummy!!!! Have fun decorating the tree IM2!!!! Pour some wine too!!! its only a couple points!!

aleriaaa · 12-11-2010, 05:32 PM

nite-nite!

VeeH · 12-12-2010, 03:11 AM

Hi there! I'm back! Hubby was hogging the computer for most of yesterday--I let him, because I figure he was buying my xmas gifts! HAHAHA! We did some Christmas shopping and then I came home to work out while he did some more errands. I now have a Honey-Baked ham in my frig, because my husband is bringing it to his office potluck on Monday. I don't even like ham that much (too salty), but it looks delicious.

Anyway, I read through all the posts this a.m., and I can so relate to both of you, A and GT. I am a perfectionist to a fault, and food has always been about control for me as well. I have no idea how or why I let myself gain so much weight in the past two years, except that I went to residential treatment almost 3 years ago for anorexia, and my food intake just started going in way the other direction once I started eating.

Even after treatment, I have a VERY unhealthy relationship with food. I can totally relate to the loving to eat but also feeling guilty about eating. I used to go to a nutritionist (a PhD who specialized in eating disorders), and this was helpful, but eventually I just got fed up with paying her all that $$$, and thought I could manage the food on my own. NOT! And then I gained 10 more lbs after I stopped seeing her.

GT, my weight hasn't budged in the past two weeks, because--and I'm ashamed to admit it--I've only been "really good" on Stillman's about every other day. I seem always to find ways to self-sabotage--a "cheat" here, a "cheat" there.

That said, you all inspire me and, I think, help me to have a better relationship with food. Sharing here and being honest helps. I'm determined to have a great day today, and I hope it will really be the anchor I need. I have maintained my 7 lb. weight loss, but I'd still like to lose 15 more.

I don't want to be "stick" thin, because that's a danger zone for me, and I have a lot of fear surrounding that (maybe that's why I self-sabotage?), because there is NO WAY iN HELL I am ever going back to treatment. I don't ever want to be anorexic again.

That said, do I currently have an eating disorder? I don't know. I do know that my attitude towards food is disordered, that's for sure, but I don't think I am acting out in any life-threatening ways.

Sometimes I joke that I WISH I could be anorexic again, because I want so desperately to be thin, but I really don't mean it.

Sorry for the NOVEL this morning! Making up for yesterday.

Getting there!!! · 12-12-2010, 05:32 AM

Vee thanks for sharing your story and opening up. Yup I had anorexia as a teenager. Did the whole psychologist thing at the time--hated every minute--told them what they wanted to hear and got outta there!! To be fair I got better, became a normal healthy weight--which I hated-but it was better than being sick. Tho I hated when people used to say--oh you look so healthy, to me it always meant fat!!

Maintained it well few years--and found ways of controlling weight-not good but hey........and actually on that subject--those kind of stories should never ever be printed in magazines--that's where I "learned" how to stick my fingers down my throat-it had never occurred to me before---first time I tried,couldn't do it- but you know me being the perfectionist read up on it and tried until I could do it well!!

Then I had to take meds for something and I mean literally gained 30lbs in a month---hated it and after that it just spiraled.Then it just got completely out of control and I went the other way. (you've seen the stats!)
I think it's like in "Friends"--Rachel goes to Ross---once a cheater, always a cheater-----once a bad relationship with food always a bad relationship with food!!
I know being "thin" is dangerous for me--again it's the perfectionist thing-(hey I even gained weight well!!!)-how far can I push it?? Can I be thinner than my friends, can I reach a celeb weight. The smallest size in the store--I want to wear it!! I've always associated being thin with being successful and in control! And I don't think that's gonna change!

Getting there!!! · 12-12-2010, 05:35 AM

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Originally Posted by VeeH

Sometimes I joke that I WISH I could be anorexic again, because I want so desperately to be thin, but I really don't mean it.

I do too--sometimes---but again not really!! A healthy attitude to food would serve me better!!

Getting there!!! · 12-12-2010, 05:36 AM

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Originally Posted by VeeH

Sorry for the NOVEL this morning! Making up for yesterday.

Oh Girl mine is like the Harry Potter series!!!!!!!

aleriaaa · 12-12-2010, 05:36 AM

Hi Vee! Thank you so much for sharing.

We are all so much alike! Thats why we have to stick together to get through each and every struggle!

I think its great that you've maintained your 7 lb loss!

Have you made it 3 days yet? For me, hopping back and forth every other day would be like prolonging the torture. The first 3 days is meat misery and then a whole new world opens up!!!

Im interested in what treatment is for Anorexia? You dont have to give details if you dont feel like it, I can try to look it up. If you had to place me somewhere, I think Id fall in the Overeaters Anonymous Club. I can be so good when Im in the zone, but out of the zone and its trouble! Girlies... I weighed myself today.. 138 :blush:

I hope hubby gets you everything you asked for, Vee!!

aleriaaa · 12-12-2010, 05:37 AM

Morning GT!!!!

aleriaaa · 12-12-2010, 05:39 AM

I dont think a phycologist would even work for me. What could they say that you guys dont already do for me? Love you!!!

aleriaaa · 12-12-2010, 05:42 AM

I gained 25 pounds!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!

aleriaaa · 12-12-2010, 05:42 AM

I have to put my goal weight back up. This free for all is stopping right now!

becky123abc · 12-12-2010, 05:46 AM

I have to get ready for church so I can't post long...

Some really great discussion going on this weekend! You all are better than therapy! : )

I ate a huge steak around 4:00 it had lots of fat on it...by the time I got to the party at 6...I just wasn't hungry.

I ate some gumbo meat (chicken) without the rice...(it had whole boiled eggs floating around ... is that common?) and a little bit of cheese.

All of the cakes & sweets didn't call out to me...I'm thankful for that. (The "thing" this year is treats made from Special K cereal...mixed with peanut butter and Caro syrup...that did look sorta good...ha)

No loss this morning...but I was having cheat dreams before I awoke! haha

I'll post more later this afternoon!!

Getting there!!! · 12-12-2010, 05:47 AM

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Originally Posted by aleriaaa

Morning GT!!!!

Afternoon Al!! Saw your light!!! You at work? you poor thing--it just sucks you have to work Sundays... and so near to Christmas.

Getting there!!! · 12-12-2010, 05:48 AM

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Originally Posted by aleriaaa

I dont think a phycologist would even work for me. What could they say that you guys dont already do for me? Love you!!!

I agree!!!!!!! It's not like I don't know I'm weird with food!!!!!!!!

Getting there!!! · 12-12-2010, 05:49 AM

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Originally Posted by aleriaaa

I gained 25 pounds!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!

You'll drop it quickly!!!!!

aleriaaa · 12-12-2010, 05:49 AM

YOU MADE IT BECKY!!!!!! Woohoo!!!!

Now why didja have to go and mention Special K treats?!? hahaha Never heard of it!! But I want some now!!! Are they suppossed to be healthier? Yeah right!!

I had to look up what gumbo was yesterday..I thought it was like a fish and vegetable soup..

To heck with the scale, its just setting you up for a whoosh!

Getting there!!! · 12-12-2010, 05:50 AM

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Originally Posted by aleriaaa

I have to put my goal weight back up. This free for all is stopping right now!

Good!!!!

aleriaaa · 12-12-2010, 05:50 AM

What kind of things do the doctors say/ask? Like do they focus on the perfectionism or focus on the food?

Getting there!!! · 12-12-2010, 05:51 AM

Well i'm just stuck, stuck, stuckety stuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ........AND I swear I'm putting on inches because of Callanetics!!!!!!!!! Seriously!!!! Don't know if that's possible....but on me probably!!!!!!

Getting there!!! · 12-12-2010, 05:53 AM

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Originally Posted by becky123abc

I have to get ready for church so I can't post long...

Some really great discussion going on this weekend! You all are better than therapy! : )

I ate a huge steak around 4:00 it had lots of fat on it...by the time I got to the party at 6...I just wasn't hungry.

I ate some gumbo meat (chicken) without the rice...(it had whole boiled eggs floating around ... is that common?) and a little bit of cheese.

All of the cakes & sweets didn't call out to me...I'm thankful for that. (The "thing" this year is treats made from Special K cereal...mixed with peanut butter and Caro syrup...that did look sorta good...ha)

No loss this morning...but I was having cheat dreams before I awoke! haha

I'll post more later this afternoon!!

Well done you!!!!!!!!!!!! Amazing!!!!!! You're so in the zone Becky!!!!!!!

aleriaaa · 12-12-2010, 05:54 AM

this is completely off topic, like a lot of what I say (sorry)

I had a dream last night.

In my dream I was sleeping and dreaming my inground pool turned green and yucky. And in my dream, I woke up and looked out the window and the pool was green.

Now... Dreaming in a dream is weird, and I dont have an inground pool.

Carbs are even creeping into my dreams peeps and messing me up!!!!

Getting there!!! · 12-12-2010, 05:55 AM

I wondered what gumbo was-----but I was too lazy to look it up!!!!!!!!!

Getting there!!! · 12-12-2010, 05:55 AM

Peanut butter just doesn't do it for me!!!!!!!

IM2fat · 12-12-2010, 05:56 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by aleriaaa

I have to put my goal weight back up. This free for all is stopping right now!

Morning, Al! I'm holding you to it.. We must get back in the zone. .no matter what. . Christmas is right around the corner and we want to look hot in our ugly Christmas Sweaters, now. .don't we?

Morning, peeps!

just drinking my coffee and catching up on the posts! Boy. . what intersting reads. Thank you for sharing your stories. I think I have Al's problem . Overeaters Annon. . I Love/love Food.. wish I didn't but I do. .I am totally obsessed and have spells that will last days, months and sometimes years..

IM2fat · 12-12-2010, 05:59 AM

Morning, Becks! We are snowed in this morning so I think we are skipping church. . The first real snow always brings out crazy drivers and I'm scared to death of slippery roads. . I suppose I probably shouldn't live in Michigan, then eh?

IM2fat · 12-12-2010, 06:01 AM

I dream about food all the time. . ZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzz Of course, I'm much thinner. . and food has no points and I never have to worry about gaining. . that's why they are called . . DREAMS!

12-12-2010, 03:11 AM	#367
VeeH Senior LCF Member Join Date: Nov 2010 Posts: 152 Gallery: VeeH	Hi there! I'm back! Hubby was hogging the computer for most of yesterday--I let him, because I figure he was buying my xmas gifts! HAHAHA! We did some Christmas shopping and then I came home to work out while he did some more errands. I now have a Honey-Baked ham in my frig, because my husband is bringing it to his office potluck on Monday. I don't even like ham that much (too salty), but it looks delicious. Anyway, I read through all the posts this a.m., and I can so relate to both of you, A and GT. I am a perfectionist to a fault, and food has always been about control for me as well. I have no idea how or why I let myself gain so much weight in the past two years, except that I went to residential treatment almost 3 years ago for anorexia, and my food intake just started going in way the other direction once I started eating. Even after treatment, I have a VERY unhealthy relationship with food. I can totally relate to the loving to eat but also feeling guilty about eating. I used to go to a nutritionist (a PhD who specialized in eating disorders), and this was helpful, but eventually I just got fed up with paying her all that $$$, and thought I could manage the food on my own. NOT! And then I gained 10 more lbs after I stopped seeing her. GT, my weight hasn't budged in the past two weeks, because--and I'm ashamed to admit it--I've only been "really good" on Stillman's about every other day. I seem always to find ways to self-sabotage--a "cheat" here, a "cheat" there. That said, you all inspire me and, I think, help me to have a better relationship with food. Sharing here and being honest helps. I'm determined to have a great day today, and I hope it will really be the anchor I need. I have maintained my 7 lb. weight loss, but I'd still like to lose 15 more. I don't want to be "stick" thin, because that's a danger zone for me, and I have a lot of fear surrounding that (maybe that's why I self-sabotage?), because there is NO WAY iN HELL I am ever going back to treatment. I don't ever want to be anorexic again. That said, do I currently have an eating disorder? I don't know. I do know that my attitude towards food is disordered, that's for sure, but I don't think I am acting out in any life-threatening ways. Sometimes I joke that I WISH I could be anorexic again, because I want so desperately to be thin, but I really don't mean it. Sorry for the NOVEL this morning! Making up for yesterday. Last edited by VeeH; 12-12-2010 at 03:13 AM..

12-12-2010, 05:32 AM	#368
Getting there!!! Big Yapper!!!! Join Date: Sep 2009 Location: Ireland Posts: 8,148 Gallery: Getting there!!! Stats: 252/116/105 5'6 WOE: Stillmans QWL/Dukan Start Date: 1 November 2008	Vee thanks for sharing your story and opening up. Yup I had anorexia as a teenager. Did the whole psychologist thing at the time--hated every minute--told them what they wanted to hear and got outta there!! To be fair I got better, became a normal healthy weight--which I hated-but it was better than being sick. Tho I hated when people used to say--oh you look so healthy, to me it always meant fat!! Maintained it well few years--and found ways of controlling weight-not good but hey........and actually on that subject--those kind of stories should never ever be printed in magazines--that's where I "learned" how to stick my fingers down my throat-it had never occurred to me before---first time I tried,couldn't do it- but you know me being the perfectionist read up on it and tried until I could do it well!! Then I had to take meds for something and I mean literally gained 30lbs in a month---hated it and after that it just spiraled.Then it just got completely out of control and I went the other way. (you've seen the stats!) I think it's like in "Friends"--Rachel goes to Ross---once a cheater, always a cheater-----once a bad relationship with food always a bad relationship with food!! I know being "thin" is dangerous for me--again it's the perfectionist thing-(hey I even gained weight well!!!)-how far can I push it?? Can I be thinner than my friends, can I reach a celeb weight. The smallest size in the store--I want to wear it!! I've always associated being thin with being successful and in control! And I don't think that's gonna change! __________________ Nothing tastes as good as thin feels!(not even chocolate!)

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12-11-2010, 04:14 PM	#363
Getting there!!! Big Yapper!!!! Join Date: Sep 2009 Location: Ireland Posts: 8,148 Gallery: Getting there!!! Stats: 252/116/105 5'6 WOE: Stillmans QWL/Dukan Start Date: 1 November 2008	[QUOTE=IM2fat;141644. . but I do want humongus boobs, too. . How does one get those without gaining weight? [/QUOTE] You hot foot it down to the nearest hot Dr..!!!!!!!

12-11-2010, 04:17 PM	#364
Getting there!!! Big Yapper!!!! Join Date: Sep 2009 Location: Ireland Posts: 8,148 Gallery: Getting there!!! Stats: 252/116/105 5'6 WOE: Stillmans QWL/Dukan Start Date: 1 November 2008	Ok I'm off to bed! Nite nite!

12-11-2010, 05:28 PM	#365
aleriaaa Blabbermouth!!! Join Date: Sep 2009 Posts: 6,743 Gallery: aleriaaa Stats: 189/127/110 5'2" WOE: QWL	mmmmmm cabbage soup sounds yummy!!!! Have fun decorating the tree IM2!!!! Pour some wine too!!! its only a couple points!!

12-11-2010, 05:32 PM	#366
aleriaaa Blabbermouth!!! Join Date: Sep 2009 Posts: 6,743 Gallery: aleriaaa Stats: 189/127/110 5'2" WOE: QWL	nite-nite!

12-12-2010, 05:36 AM	#371
aleriaaa Blabbermouth!!! Join Date: Sep 2009 Posts: 6,743 Gallery: aleriaaa Stats: 189/127/110 5'2" WOE: QWL	Hi Vee! Thank you so much for sharing. We are all so much alike! Thats why we have to stick together to get through each and every struggle! I think its great that you've maintained your 7 lb loss! Have you made it 3 days yet? For me, hopping back and forth every other day would be like prolonging the torture. The first 3 days is meat misery and then a whole new world opens up!!! Im interested in what treatment is for Anorexia? You dont have to give details if you dont feel like it, I can try to look it up. If you had to place me somewhere, I think Id fall in the Overeaters Anonymous Club. I can be so good when Im in the zone, but out of the zone and its trouble! Girlies... I weighed myself today.. 138 :blush: I hope hubby gets you everything you asked for, Vee!!

12-12-2010, 05:37 AM	#372
aleriaaa Blabbermouth!!! Join Date: Sep 2009 Posts: 6,743 Gallery: aleriaaa Stats: 189/127/110 5'2" WOE: QWL	Morning GT!!!!

12-12-2010, 05:39 AM	#373
aleriaaa Blabbermouth!!! Join Date: Sep 2009 Posts: 6,743 Gallery: aleriaaa Stats: 189/127/110 5'2" WOE: QWL	I dont think a phycologist would even work for me. What could they say that you guys dont already do for me? Love you!!!

12-12-2010, 05:42 AM	#374
aleriaaa Blabbermouth!!! Join Date: Sep 2009 Posts: 6,743 Gallery: aleriaaa Stats: 189/127/110 5'2" WOE: QWL	I gained 25 pounds!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!

12-12-2010, 05:42 AM	#375
aleriaaa Blabbermouth!!! Join Date: Sep 2009 Posts: 6,743 Gallery: aleriaaa Stats: 189/127/110 5'2" WOE: QWL	I have to put my goal weight back up. This free for all is stopping right now!

12-12-2010, 05:46 AM	#376
becky123abc Major LCF Poster! Join Date: Jul 2002 Posts: 1,769 Gallery: becky123abc Stats: (209)198/194/160 5'5.5" Start Date: April 27, 2013 (Before that -June 14, 2010)	I have to get ready for church so I can't post long... Some really great discussion going on this weekend! You all are better than therapy! : ) I ate a huge steak around 4:00 it had lots of fat on it...by the time I got to the party at 6...I just wasn't hungry. I ate some gumbo meat (chicken) without the rice...(it had whole boiled eggs floating around ... is that common?) and a little bit of cheese. All of the cakes & sweets didn't call out to me...I'm thankful for that. (The "thing" this year is treats made from Special K cereal...mixed with peanut butter and Caro syrup...that did look sorta good...ha) No loss this morning...but I was having cheat dreams before I awoke! haha I'll post more later this afternoon!!

12-12-2010, 05:49 AM	#380
aleriaaa Blabbermouth!!! Join Date: Sep 2009 Posts: 6,743 Gallery: aleriaaa Stats: 189/127/110 5'2" WOE: QWL	YOU MADE IT BECKY!!!!!! Woohoo!!!! Now why didja have to go and mention Special K treats?!? hahaha Never heard of it!! But I want some now!!! Are they suppossed to be healthier? Yeah right!! I had to look up what gumbo was yesterday..I thought it was like a fish and vegetable soup.. To heck with the scale, its just setting you up for a whoosh!

12-12-2010, 05:50 AM	#382
aleriaaa Blabbermouth!!! Join Date: Sep 2009 Posts: 6,743 Gallery: aleriaaa Stats: 189/127/110 5'2" WOE: QWL	What kind of things do the doctors say/ask? Like do they focus on the perfectionism or focus on the food?

12-12-2010, 05:51 AM	#383
Getting there!!! Big Yapper!!!! Join Date: Sep 2009 Location: Ireland Posts: 8,148 Gallery: Getting there!!! Stats: 252/116/105 5'6 WOE: Stillmans QWL/Dukan Start Date: 1 November 2008	Well i'm just stuck, stuck, stuckety stuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ........AND I swear I'm putting on inches because of Callanetics!!!!!!!!! Seriously!!!! Don't know if that's possible....but on me probably!!!!!!

12-12-2010, 05:54 AM	#385
aleriaaa Blabbermouth!!! Join Date: Sep 2009 Posts: 6,743 Gallery: aleriaaa Stats: 189/127/110 5'2" WOE: QWL	this is completely off topic, like a lot of what I say (sorry) I had a dream last night. In my dream I was sleeping and dreaming my inground pool turned green and yucky. And in my dream, I woke up and looked out the window and the pool was green. Now... Dreaming in a dream is weird, and I dont have an inground pool. Carbs are even creeping into my dreams peeps and messing me up!!!!

12-12-2010, 05:55 AM	#386
Getting there!!! Big Yapper!!!! Join Date: Sep 2009 Location: Ireland Posts: 8,148 Gallery: Getting there!!! Stats: 252/116/105 5'6 WOE: Stillmans QWL/Dukan Start Date: 1 November 2008	I wondered what gumbo was-----but I was too lazy to look it up!!!!!!!!!

12-12-2010, 05:55 AM	#387
Getting there!!! Big Yapper!!!! Join Date: Sep 2009 Location: Ireland Posts: 8,148 Gallery: Getting there!!! Stats: 252/116/105 5'6 WOE: Stillmans QWL/Dukan Start Date: 1 November 2008	Peanut butter just doesn't do it for me!!!!!!!

12-12-2010, 05:59 AM	#389
IM2fat Very Gabby LCF Member!!! Join Date: Aug 2009 Location: The Great Lake State Posts: 4,306 Gallery: IM2fat Stats: 190/182/150/140 WOE: Stillmans / ww pp and stillmans Start Date: July 2009 ! Life changing April 9 2012	Morning, Becks! We are snowed in this morning so I think we are skipping church. . The first real snow always brings out crazy drivers and I'm scared to death of slippery roads. . I suppose I probably shouldn't live in Michigan, then eh?

12-12-2010, 06:01 AM	#390
IM2fat Very Gabby LCF Member!!! Join Date: Aug 2009 Location: The Great Lake State Posts: 4,306 Gallery: IM2fat Stats: 190/182/150/140 WOE: Stillmans / ww pp and stillmans Start Date: July 2009 ! Life changing April 9 2012	I dream about food all the time. . ZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzz Of course, I'm much thinner. . and food has no points and I never have to worry about gaining. . that's why they are called . . DREAMS!