Losing it in June the Stillman Weigh

[swebb]

Originally Posted by BrattyS

I will see your week and raise you 14 days. Might explain my .2 losses for the last cou0ple days.
I was coming on to see if anyone knew if milk of mag. is ok to take?

MOM works for me - sometimes i have to take a double dose

[kamills]

Right, am going to watch True Blood. Alex skarsgard is so sexy. And I usually hate blondes. Need to switch off my brain. Too diet obsessed. BBL

[GwnStfni]

Originally Posted by IM2fat

do some of you ever feel like you have so many issues with food that you will never get out of the diet mode? Why. .after we have one little "treat" do we feel like we've blown it? Why do we feel like it is a license to 'start' Over again? Why, I say. .because that's just what i did today. . I was doing sooo well. .all day and then. . Ugg. I won't go into details but I caved and I tasted and I tasted some more and then I said. .what the heck. and ate some more. I'm being honest because I think that slip up yesterday planted some seed in my pea brain or something. . Now I need to re-program! I think I have to quit calling these events failures and call them living!!! I am just like anyone else. . and food is supposed to be enjoyed!! I just can't seem to enjoy it in small quantities. . but I am learning. .slowly. .slowly. . I am..

Why, then am I bloated like a beached whale right now? O. .stupid carbs. . you are evil - On that note, I hope the Acaci Berry kicks in!

OK. .I'm back to normal. . I'm gonna go home and put on my walking shoes and walk off this event in my life and move on to the next meal and not feel too guilty. .

Thanks for fessing up, IM2. Doesn't that, in itself, make you feel a bit better? Holding yourself accountable? And yes, life happens and we should not make ourselves feel so deprived that we are miserable. Of course, if indulging in those things makes us equally miserable, then we really are hopeless lololol.

[GwnStfni]

GT, there is nothing annoying or self-absorbed about you, now stop it and stop apologizing! You are a wealth of information for all of us and we all eagerly listen, with open ears, er eyes. At least I do! You're not at all pompous about your attitude! Pfft!! Keep sharing!

This made me feel better about asking this question and it's a question I have always wondered... I wonder how many people lose all this weight, on low carb or whatever other diet and then get obsessed with the number on the scale and want to be lower, lower, lower? To me, your goal weight and Als goal weight, seem low, even for shorties. I say now I'd be okay at 147 but then I wonder, when I get there, if I will then want to be 131, then when I get there, well what about the 120s, never been there, well okay except maybe when I was 9. I just think we focus for so long on losing the weight and the losing part is what keeps us so focused and keeps us thin, that if we stop focusing on that, what then? Maybe we're scared that then we start putting the weight back on!? I'm talking about being okay with a size 8, but what if I get there and want to be a 4 then a 0. IDK. Obviously, we all have issues with food... if not at one end of the spectrum, then maybe the next? Scared to eat carbs or sugar or what not. I, for one, am tired of this routine. Been dieting since I was like 14, more than half my life. I keep losing and I keep gaining but I have never been lower than 147 and thoughts in the back of my head tell me that's my problem, maybe if I get really skinny, that will be the trick to keeping it off? Ugh. I walk around the city and see all these peeps enjoying dinners on the sidewalk, in the park, couples walking around, holding hands and licking on ice cream cones and it makes me depressed that every minute of the day, I have to fight what I put in my mouth. Every decision is almost exaggerated... I spend probably hours of my day just thinking about food, what I'll put in my mouth, what I want to eat, what I wish I could eat, what I'll eat this weekend, what I'll have when I reach goal, if I'll ever have ice cream again. lolol. It never ends...

[Mim]

GT - thank you.

I have gone back into lurker mode because I can't get on plan, let alone stay there. I don't see myself getting back on until Monday. I haven't found my diet mojo again.

[BrattyS]

Originally Posted by kamills

don't feel ashamed, confide in us more often, because we are here to support you. Under no circumstances am I going to judge your actions.

What she said

It takes guts to admit that and I am glad you were able to say it now. It's easy to sit there and post your daily dieting stuff. I'm sure it is a lot harder to get into your past and the detail of how/why you got where you are today. Thank you for sharing.

[BrattyS]

Originally Posted by kamills

Right, am going to watch True Blood. Alex skarsgard is so sexy. And I usually hate blondes. Need to switch off my brain. Too diet obsessed. BBL

Mmmm he is yummy I love that show. I have not watched this season yet as I am waiting till the hubby and I can watch together. I have them recorded.

[CCGirl]

Originally Posted by aleriaaa

hey- what poor princess is getting a noogy from Sleeping beauty?! that avi is hilarious! I like CC's bad-a$$ princess's too! whats up C?

Thanks Al-Saturday is my run to civilization for provisions for the week so I'm pretty beat after all that shopping.
It's 32 miles one way and if I don't get everything in that one day then I'm screwed for the week. Sunday I take his ride to gas it up and hit some garage sales but I had to go back to town b/c I forgot some things. I did pick up some meat on markdown so that was cool.
Today I had to get hot things done early cuz we have heat and humidity coming our way, so while working I made him his homemade carbs and did laundry.

Back to read all the posts!

[Mim]

My brain is fried! Kamills, I would love a copy of the thin commandments if you would be willing to email the document to me. But I don't see how to send you a private message so I can give you my email address.

[BrattyS]

I just wanted to say sorry for the drive by posting today. Kids are needy today. With no school they are needing constant entertainment.

TO those of you that had spilled your guts about your weight issues in the past, thank you. Takes strength to do that.

I know I love reading all of your posts. Weight issues are fairly new to me. Just the last 3 years or so. I have always been very athletic, weight never even crossed my mind.

4 years ago I had a hysterectomy and my hormones went haywire or something because I gained 40 pounds in a short period of time without any diet change.

I lost 20 of that 40 then I quit smoking... I gained my 20 back and they brought 32 of their friends. I went from 160 to 232 in under a year. I have been halfheartedly been losing/ gaining ever since.

I am hoping that this time is different. I do not want this to drag on for years and years. I think I finally found the right place to go with it. You are all a great group.

[CCGirl]

Originally Posted by kamills

All I wanted to do at school was get a pair of tits and put on weight... Dam, why didn't I appreciate it when I had it. I have a really warped self image.

OMG didn't we all want that..........and ditto for the self image thing, too!

[CCGirl]

Originally Posted by GwnStfni

I work with this cute little gay boy who is into fashion and does styling on the side and he really helps me out with advice and shows me online what he thinks would look good on me. His number one thing is don't wear clothes that are big on you, just makes you look older, fatter, and frumpier and do we want to look that way? No! So you skinny minnies need to dump those big clothes!

Oh yeah baby I'm SO there! My dad brought one of his bimbos to my place a cupla years ago and she asked me why I wore my jeans so tight.

I shot right back, "Because I can"

WTG on those tens girl, the only thing that saved my bigass is I never let myself buy bigger clothes. Mom sends 12's Ralph Lauren and I give them to the church...tags and all. Those heifers can havem!

[CCGirl]

Originally Posted by kamills

I'm a bit warmer after some chicken and hot sauce.

LOL I read somewhere feeling cold is a side effect of LC. Mom got really cold after the first week.

Of course, coming from 92F in Miami to 41 degree nights and 70 degree days didn't help

[CCGirl]

Originally Posted by kamills

I keep repeating to myself "I've tasted it all before, it's nothing special, it DIDN'T make me happy, it made me FAT".

OMG words to live by

[lisarenee]

hi guys! Tomorrow eve. I have my appointment with the plastic surgeon! I still have 30 something pounds to drop, but I am really hoping that he will prescribe me a pill that will help me burn fat faster. Like phentermine hydrochloride, the "upper" that was in phen phen. It was the downer that caused the heart valve defects. I really hope he can give me something to help get the weight off a bit faster. I was up .4 today, but I didn't have enough water yesterday.

I hope everything is going well from everyone. I will check bk in tomorrow!

[CCGirl]

OMG I have been soooooooo bad with my water lately somebody slap me...........


well, I'm caught up mow, love u all and good night!

[IM2fat]

Originally Posted by GwnStfni

Thanks for fessing up, IM2. Doesn't that, in itself, make you feel a bit better? Holding yourself accountable? And yes, life happens and we should not make ourselves feel so deprived that we are miserable. Of course, if indulging in those things makes us equally miserable, then we really are hopeless lololol.

The only thing I can say about today. . I at least kept it (semi) under control. . that is a step in the right direction. .I hope to feel better tomorrow. and I did walk tonight so at least all is not lost. .

[IM2fat]

Originally Posted by Mim

GT - thank you.

I have gone back into lurker mode because I can't get on plan, let alone stay there. I don't see myself getting back on until Monday. I haven't found my diet mojo again.

Don't leave us! continue to log in . .something or someone will inspire you!

[IM2fat]

Originally Posted by GwnStfni

GT, there is nothing annoying or self-absorbed about you, now stop it and stop apologizing! You are a wealth of information for all of us and we all eagerly listen, with open ears, er eyes. At least I do! You're not at all pompous about your attitude! Pfft!! Keep sharing!

This made me feel better about asking this question and it's a question I have always wondered... I wonder how many people lose all this weight, on low carb or whatever other diet and then get obsessed with the number on the scale and want to be lower, lower, lower? To me, your goal weight and Als goal weight, seem low, even for shorties. I say now I'd be okay at 147 but then I wonder, when I get there, if I will then want to be 131, then when I get there, well what about the 120s, never been there, well okay except maybe when I was 9. I just think we focus for so long on losing the weight and the losing part is what keeps us so focused and keeps us thin, that if we stop focusing on that, what then? Maybe we're scared that then we start putting the weight back on!? I'm talking about being okay with a size 8, but what if I get there and want to be a 4 then a 0. IDK. Obviously, we all have issues with food... if not at one end of the spectrum, then maybe the next? Scared to eat carbs or sugar or what not. I, for one, am tired of this routine. Been dieting since I was like 14, more than half my life. I keep losing and I keep gaining but I have never been lower than 147 and thoughts in the back of my head tell me that's my problem, maybe if I get really skinny, that will be the trick to keeping it off? Ugh. I walk around the city and see all these peeps enjoying dinners on the sidewalk, in the park, couples walking around, holding hands and licking on ice cream cones and it makes me depressed that every minute of the day, I have to fight what I put in my mouth. Every decision is almost exaggerated... I spend probably hours of my day just thinking about food, what I'll put in my mouth, what I want to eat, what I wish I could eat, what I'll eat this weekend, what I'll have when I reach goal, if I'll ever have ice cream again. lolol. It never ends...

Spoken like a true champ. . I'm the same way and I think 147 was the smallest I ever got in my adult life too. I went from 101 to 150 in like 60 seconds! Realistically,. .I think I was in my 130;s in my 20's but since I've had kids. . I've never seen 140 something for long. .and I used to think that was fat. . I often wonder what I'll be like if I ever actually get to goal and stay there for awhile. . Boy. I sure am great at staying overweight. .

I guess we are all stuck with one another now that we've spilled our guts and shared out secrets .

[IM2fat]

GT! I'll confess. . I took laxatives today when I got home.. haven't done that in a long , long while but I'm so afraid of going backward right now.. .(however. . taking them makes me feel even worse . .kinda like that out of control feeling..). . .I've tried all the other alternatives, too. . but never for very long. . I consider myself more of a binge eater. .consider. . Pfft. . I am a binge eater. . which is why this diet is so perfect for me. . It is difficult to binge on meat and more meat. . I have. . but it doesn't have the same effect as chocolate. .ya know? I failed at being anorerixic and bulemic so I took up chronic dieting. . . What is it that makes food such a driving force? I know you've all really wondered how those skinny chicks do it. . they just don't think about eating. .at least not in the same capacity . . We need a therapist to join our group . ehehehe. .figure us all out!

Thank you for being so honest. . I know it's difficult. . I've been lying to myself for years and thought i had many of my issues under control until this last week. .it's killing me but I think once I get through this weekend. .I can go back to doing this for me! I always thought having a reason to diet was the trick. . .but I'm thinking that I like to stay on plan when the only thing I have to worry about is me . If I mess up. .O well. no clock ticking . . I don't know. .something must be in the air today because my friend called with all kinds of issues too.. .MMm..

Tomorrow shall be a glorious day in STillman land! I bought some flavored Tuna today. . some Talapia. . and turkey was 99 a pound. . for the frozen breast. . I'm throwing one in my slow cooker tonight with onion soup mix. . MMmm.. it will be delicious for lunch tomorrow. .

I would love a copy of the Thin Commandments, too. .

[IM2fat]

Originally Posted by lisarenee

. Like phentermine hydrochloride, the "upper" that was in phen phen. !

I want Phentermine! One of my co-workers took it and she shrunk to nothing in no time . .I need some but I'm too chicken to go ask for it. .What happened to the good ole days when you could order if off the internet. . hehehe

[sas202554]

Where is Nermo? I haven't seen her post in awhile. I read all the posts and enjoy hearing how everyone is doing on Stillman's. This is such a friendly and encouraging group.

[IM2fat]

Originally Posted by sas202554

Where is Nermo? I haven't seen her post in awhile. I read all the posts and enjoy hearing how everyone is doing on Stillman's. This is such a friendly and encouraging group.

We all miss Nermo, too.. very very much. .

The last I heard from her. . she was having computer problems. .

[becky123abc]

Originally Posted by IM2fat

I want Phentermine! One of my co-workers took it and she shrunk to nothing in no time . .I need some but I'm too chicken to go ask for it. .What happened to the good ole days when you could order if off the internet. . hehehe

I know a woman who lost about 40 pounds...she got help from going to a dr. that prescribes adipex (sp?) She said she loves it and has an incredible amount of energy.
Weight loss and extra energy sure sounds great...I even called a couple of weeks ago to make an appointment...and they couldn't see me until July 14!!!

I'm hoping I can achieve the goal following Stillman's. There's just something that doesn't set right with me about pills for weight loss...that scares me. And it disturbs me that I was getting so desperate that I would do something...I thought I never would...

But, my friend looks great, and if I don't have great results on Stillman's, I may go check that doctor out!

[GwnStfni]

Okay guys, since we're all confessing our dirty secrets, my secret is for like two years, before coming back to this wonderful low carb forum, I used to spend day after day on a pro-ana website (definitely won't say which one), so that I could be "thinspired". I know it's really sick... It's a real illness and I feel terrible for those people who suffer from it, but I almost wished that I had too and I guess in a way, I wanted to brainwash myself into thinking that way. That's when I started eating just 1/2 cup of oatmeal for breakfast w/ water and nothing else in it then for dinner I would eat 1/4cup brown rice w/ 1/8cup black beans & 1/8cup stewed tomatoes. That's all I'd eat for the day. I ate that way every day for a few months and dropped a bunch of weight but of course regained it. People on that site would go away and it always made me wonder if they died Sorry to be so depressing... I think it just shows how messed up some of us are when it comes to food and the girls on that site were some of the worst. I thought I obsessed about food but I truly believe for every 5 hours a day I thought about food, they spent 12 hours a day obsessing. I should probably be thankful I don't have issues with drugs or alcohol, never have.

[kamills]

CC! Drink up! Glug glug glug. How's everything going? I think I got so cold over the weekend because I didn't have my usual walk. Still feeling the chill though.

Mim, let me try and PM you, then you can reply that way. Otherwise, someone can explain how to do it better than me. And do not go into lurker mode! Stay with us. I post so much to keep me from eating bad stuff.

IM2, will send those commandments right away. From your posts, I know that they will really help you.

Lisa, Good luck at the docs! A friend of mine took phentermine, but it screwed her up so badly I've been put off taking drugs for life, so please be careful if he does prescribe them. You can do this without them though!

GWN, been there too :blush: That definitely made things worse though. I was obsessed with Nicole Richie's weight loss a few years back... And she looked so gross that thin. I'm warped I tell thee, completely warped.

Bratty, I'm watching season 3 now. I wasn't all that into the show at the beginning, but now I kinda like it.

Al, oh Allllllllll? Where art thou? I'm going to go and get my running shoes this morning! Check in please!

Good morning to everyone else. Are less people checking in lately? Smalls, nermo, denise, bbp... come back!

[kamills]

I'm down another pound today. Yipee! 7 lbs down on the 10 lb challenge. Off to buy running shoes now! Have a good day peeps. BBL

[kamills]

Mim, I can't send you a PM. Not sure why...

[kamills]

It's so quiet in here today! I bought my running shoes and I officially have absolutely NO MORE EXCUSES not to do exercise. I am going to start the couch to 5k tonight after work (I'm going runnning in the dark, thank you very much! Too embarassed to run in broad daylight).

[Getting there!!!]

Originally Posted by becky123abc

Don't sugarcoat it for me!! (literally & figuratively! haha) I need the tough love...