Ramblings for Thursday, May 26, 2005

[zeraspride]

I was thinking this morning as I got on the scale as I do everyday and saw that my weight was up one pound from where it was this time last week and I started to get a bit upset. Now as I think about it that is a pretty silly attitude to have. We have all talked about the power of the scale and most of us agree that we are NOT going to give it power over us.

In addition, I was thinking about all the ways that I have progressed that are not scale related - some of them are little or subtle things but things I am grateful for nonetheless. I want to list them here and feel free to add a post with your own list of things that you are grateful for as well!

List of things I can do now:

1. Cross my legs (I feel like a real girlie girl when I do!)
2. Sit in my own seat without spilling over to the next one on the bus
3. Shop in regular size clothing stores
4. Get down on the floor and get back up again with no effort
5. Sit comfortably in my bathtub
6. Comfortably use my 1/2 bath - it was a tight fit before
7. Enjoy my reflection in a full length mirror
8. Cute clothes to wear to work and play in my closet
9. Not have to lean against a wall while waiting for an elevator
10. Wear size 7-1/2 or 8 shoes
11. Work out everyday
12. Not needing a nap every afternoon
13. Have a happy outlook on my future
14. Had my wedding ring re-sized from a tight size 7 to a loose size 5
15. Run up the stairs in my condo and not be out of breath
16. Fit comfortably in an airplane seat
17. Tie my tennis shoes with ease
18. Sit on hubby's lap (blush)
19. Pass by a fast food place without feeling compelled to go in and eat
20. Smile a lot more

These are just some of the things I can think of and like I said, they each have absolutely nothing to do with the scale. Numbers are important, I know that. But I don't want to be defined as a person by being up or down 1 lousy pound each day. I want to be happy and rejoice in all my accomplishments so far. I keep hearing my doctor's words in my ear when I saw her in March. She said considering where I have come from, she would be happy if I could just maintain my current weight and I was about 180 pounds then. I have to remind myself that I could stop here. If I don't lose another pound and just maintain in the 175-180 pound range, I will be doing good. These last 15 pounds that I want to come off are strictly vanity for me so I can't get upset if my body likes it here where I am. It might take me a long long time to get these last few pounds off and I have my list of items above to keep me going when the scale doesn't cooperate.

[armypiglet]

what a great list! i truly applaud your accomplishments, and am amazed at the everyday things that most take for granted. it's nice to have a thankful heart, i am sure it is showing from the inside out! for me, my list comes from after i had my son, i weighed 163 pounds. it was such an odd sensation to not have my son in my belly! i swore i looked like a supermodel HAHA and kept staring at myself in the mirror at the hospital... but when i got home, nothing fit. i had to still wear my maternity clothes for the comfort of my c-section incision. then my step-daughter (who was still dealing with issues of us having a baby... im ok with this now) said to me "why do you still look pregnant?" - i was crushed. i thought "you mean i don't look like claudia schiffer???" - i was embarassed of my figure, and hated the way i looked in pictures, even though the pictures were supposed to be of our beautiful new family, i really looked like crap, partly i am sure from the post partum depression that was setting in..... i got over that, with thanks to God, and went on atkins with my husband. i lost 30 pounds! the differences for me, my list, would include:
1. being able to walk around nakie again and not have to run to hide
2. stop having to buy bigger clothes!
3. taking a pretty picture with my beautiful family!
4. not having a handful of gut to worry about when my husband wraps his arms around me...
5. not feeling like i needed to cover up in a bathing suit.
6. loving the "you look great!" and "how did you do it?" comments!

i am sure there are many more if i sat here long enough i could fill the page. unfortunately i gained back about 15 pounds, lost 5 and now im back to losing that last 10 pounds AGAIN. BUT, all of those things above still apply, and i am thankful for my health and strength a smaller body comes with!

good ramble lisa!
~jackie~

[karlak85218]

What a great list of can do, I hope that I can start a list real soon.

Good for you all.

Karla