What is wrong with my head?

Purple Sage · 12-16-2007, 08:47 AM

I have been so scared of "junk carbs" for so long....I have been happily maintaining for 1.5 years and have just now started adding in an occasional "splurge". Last night it was 2 small (about 2inch) whole grain pancakes with SF syrup....this morning the scale is not up but I get dressed and my clothes fit the same but I look in the mirror and see FAT!! Why am I don't this to myself? I don't understand it....

Help me with the whole maintenance mind frame. I have gotten over my total horror of carbs of any kind and now eat around 60-70 per day in things like beans, fruit, etc....but I don't understand this.....

Loretta V · 12-16-2007, 12:08 PM

Christa, congrats on that great weight loss you have accomplished.

I don't think that there is anything wrong with your mind. You are probably afraid, as I am, of reverting back to your former woe. It is scary that just a few changes and we lose our self control and are "triggered" into eating more bad choice foods.

It is a good thing to continue to have that horror of bad carbs. Good for you.

I too just feel "fat" occasionally and worry about what will happen, but I know the answer. That alone keeps me on the right path. I make an occasional planned slip occasionally, but know I can get back in control. Maintaining now for 7 years within my goal by 3 pounds.

KUTGW

JuliaL · 12-16-2007, 03:19 PM

Christa: I agree with Loretta, what you're experiencing is very normal. I have days when I feel fat and see fat in the mirror even when the scale and my clothes don't reflect it.

I also have this thing where when I feel full from eating a meal I always think I've eaten too much, even if I know that I haven't. I don't know to explain it other than it's almost like if I don't feel slightly hungry I feel fat.

steady · 12-16-2007, 06:33 PM

Loretta you are so right! I don't have any additional advice, but can totally relate.

homestretch · 12-16-2007, 08:49 PM

I think this has a lot to do with my feeling like I look fat. I am so used to being so strict and having so much control that adding things to my diet makes me feel like a failure. Oh and I am always sure that the scale is going to show a 5 pound gain. Then I step on and it reads exactly the same (not complaining). The tricks our mind plays on us are crazy!

Purple Sage · 12-17-2007, 06:10 AM

Thanks everyone. With my eating disorder history I know that I have disordered thinking but just when I think I am getting on top of it to some degree then I get hit with one of these days! It is just really frustrating.....when I am just living with 20-30 grams of carbs I am totally happy, but I am kind of addicted to the number going down and that is a bad thing with my history and also bad for my metabolism because it seems to get more and more efficient! I just want to have "healthy" attitude towards food instead of feeling like either I control it or it controls me, like food is something I battle....KWIM?

BellaHMB · 12-17-2007, 09:17 AM

I think many of us have distorted views of our bodies. I know sometimes I feel fat and then think geeeez Victoria, you weigh 135! I have to say to myself "knock it off!" when I get self critical.

Bella

Kissa · 12-19-2007, 12:08 PM

Hey! We are on a website designed to help people just like us! We are all in the same boat. The struggle goes on, thank the Lord for all the wonderful people herewho help and support each other.

Christa we all know what you are feeling. We all get scared. You sound as if you are doing just fine.

Be proud!

12-16-2007, 08:47 AM	#1
Purple Sage Blabbermouth!!! Join Date: Jan 2005 Location: Colorado Springs, CO Posts: 6,418 Gallery: Purple Sage Stats: 256/148/150 exercising now: 6-08, 159 WOE: Random, watcing calories and exercise Start Date: January 1, 2005	What is wrong with my head? I have been so scared of "junk carbs" for so long....I have been happily maintaining for 1.5 years and have just now started adding in an occasional "splurge". Last night it was 2 small (about 2inch) whole grain pancakes with SF syrup....this morning the scale is not up but I get dressed and my clothes fit the same but I look in the mirror and see FAT!! Why am I don't this to myself? I don't understand it.... Help me with the whole maintenance mind frame. I have gotten over my total horror of carbs of any kind and now eat around 60-70 per day in things like beans, fruit, etc....but I don't understand this..... __________________ Christa insert creative signature here

12-16-2007, 12:08 PM	#2
Loretta V Way too much time on my hands! Join Date: Jun 2002 Location: Kentucky Posts: 14,104 Gallery: Loretta V Stats: 140/122/120 WOE: Low Carb & Low Fat Start Date: July 2001/ Low Carb Friends 9/2001	Christa, congrats on that great weight loss you have accomplished. I don't think that there is anything wrong with your mind. You are probably afraid, as I am, of reverting back to your former woe. It is scary that just a few changes and we lose our self control and are "triggered" into eating more bad choice foods. It is a good thing to continue to have that horror of bad carbs. Good for you. I too just feel "fat" occasionally and worry about what will happen, but I know the answer. That alone keeps me on the right path. I make an occasional planned slip occasionally, but know I can get back in control. Maintaining now for 7 years within my goal by 3 pounds. KUTGW __________________ Loretta Goal 120 12/01/01 5'2" Maintaining 118/122 **** 7 YEARS 2 pounds over goal 4/06 WHEREVER YOU ARE - BE ALL THERE! BarbCO 4-15-2007 Last edited by Loretta V : 12-16-2007 at 12:09 PM.

12-16-2007, 06:33 PM	#4
steady Senior LCF Member Join Date: Jun 2007 Location: NYC Posts: 982 Gallery: steady Stats: 110/85-90 5'2 WOE: ATKINS Start Date: Feb 2007	Loretta you are so right! I don't have any additional advice, but can totally relate. Last edited by steady : 12-16-2007 at 06:37 PM.

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12-16-2007, 03:19 PM	#3
JuliaL Way too much time on my hands! Join Date: May 2003 Location: Louisville, KY Posts: 17,180 Gallery: JuliaL Stats: 190/142/140 16/8/6, height 5'8", age 48 WOE: Atkins/BFFM Start Date: 4/22/03	Christa: I agree with Loretta, what you're experiencing is very normal. I have days when I feel fat and see fat in the mirror even when the scale and my clothes don't reflect it. I also have this thing where when I feel full from eating a meal I always think I've eaten too much, even if I know that I haven't. I don't know to explain it other than it's almost like if I don't feel slightly hungry I feel fat.

12-16-2007, 08:49 PM	#5
homestretch MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Jul 2007 Posts: 1,347 Gallery: homestretch Stats: 206.5/153/155 WOE: Lost 35 on SB/Now Atkins and calorie counting Start Date: 5/26/06	I think this has a lot to do with my feeling like I look fat. I am so used to being so strict and having so much control that adding things to my diet makes me feel like a failure. Oh and I am always sure that the scale is going to show a 5 pound gain. Then I step on and it reads exactly the same (not complaining). The tricks our mind plays on us are crazy!

12-17-2007, 06:10 AM	#6
Purple Sage Blabbermouth!!! Join Date: Jan 2005 Location: Colorado Springs, CO Posts: 6,418 Gallery: Purple Sage Stats: 256/148/150 exercising now: 6-08, 159 WOE: Random, watcing calories and exercise Start Date: January 1, 2005	Thanks everyone. With my eating disorder history I know that I have disordered thinking but just when I think I am getting on top of it to some degree then I get hit with one of these days! It is just really frustrating.....when I am just living with 20-30 grams of carbs I am totally happy, but I am kind of addicted to the number going down and that is a bad thing with my history and also bad for my metabolism because it seems to get more and more efficient! I just want to have "healthy" attitude towards food instead of feeling like either I control it or it controls me, like food is something I battle....KWIM?

12-17-2007, 09:17 AM	#7
BellaHMB Very Gabby LCF Member!!! Join Date: Jan 2007 Location: Northern California Coast Posts: 3,199 Gallery: BellaHMB Stats: 210/143/140 original goal met 5.27.07 WOE: Maintenance Atkins Start Date: 1-16-07	I think many of us have distorted views of our bodies. I know sometimes I feel fat and then think geeeez Victoria, you weigh 135! I have to say to myself "knock it off!" when I get self critical. Bella

12-19-2007, 12:08 PM	#8
Kissa Very Gabby LCF Member!!! Join Date: Sep 2006 Location: London UK Posts: 3,290 Gallery: Kissa Stats: 184/132/125 - 130 5' 4" WOE: Atkins Maintainance/Intuitive Eating Start Date: January 2001 restarted 1 September 2006 at 139 lbs	Hey! We are on a website designed to help people just like us! We are all in the same boat. The struggle goes on, thank the Lord for all the wonderful people herewho help and support each other. Christa we all know what you are feeling. We all get scared. You sound as if you are doing just fine. Be proud!