My Weightloss Story: June 2003-April 2006 - Page 2

jskn · 04-20-2006, 06:07 AM

Your story truly touched my heart. I am so happy that you are in a good place now. I have dealt with both binge eating and anorexia. I hope One day I can feel as in control as you. Thanks for sharing!

duffsterj · 04-20-2006, 06:14 AM

Wow, great, great story...thanks for sharing, and thanks for all you support over at boot camp charlie. Your weight loss story is truly an inspiration for those all of us.

Duffster

Texas Lady · 04-20-2006, 06:30 AM

Your story has brought to the surface so many pressed down feelings
that Ive just not dealt with for the pain and shame just thinking about them.
But these are the feelings I have of myself that make me do the things
I do. I know now that I can no longer just stuff them away and hide from them. I have to deal with them. Most of the beliefs we have about our
self worth is based on thoughts that are not even truths anyway.

Thank you so much for sharing your journey with us! You just don't
know how much this has helped me this morning. Onward I go begining
my first step to emotional healing.

Thanks again!

Linda

godsbeloved79 · 04-20-2006, 06:30 AM

Great story, very INSPIRING!

JONAH'S GRANNY · 04-20-2006, 06:33 AM

What a wonderful inspiration. I have enjoyed following your story.

mom2zeke · 04-20-2006, 06:34 AM

Pauline - You are truly an inspiration and a strong and beautiful woman!!! Congratulations on your many successes!

averyjenn · 04-20-2006, 06:40 AM

What a wonderful honest post. Congratulations on hitting your goal and beyond. KUTGW!

2bdancing · 04-20-2006, 06:41 AM

Good read. Thanks for sharing.

tm2chng · 04-20-2006, 06:47 AM

Pauline,

(((Thank you for sharing your journey.)))
I know it will help and inspire many.
Although I am not a binge eater, I do have issues with food that I have been working on as well on my new wol. It is so important to realize why we eat. People that are critical of the overweight, and fat can be accepting of other "vices" such as alcohol, drugs or cigarettes but dont realize that food is a vice and can be an addiction as well. I used to call it being in a fat coma when I would eat a high carb, high cal,high fat meal and then just want to sleep it off, feeling as if I had been drugged. Food really became an addiction to me and I have to approach it as one.
Most, if not all people have atleast one battle in life to face, and we all have the power to overcome. Congratulations on winning your battle !
I am glad you have a husband that could see how beautiful you always were, and I am glad that you can see it now aswell.

~Lisa~

yarncat · 04-20-2006, 09:29 AM

Wonderful post,Pauline!What a journey you have made!!

walkthebeach · 04-20-2006, 10:27 AM

I really, really admire you for taking the time to think, analyze and learn about yourself and how to cope with food, your emotions, and your behavior towards food. You never gave up in the face of some pretty stiff obstacles and that is just awe inspiring. I have found after reading these boards for almost four years now that most, if not all, of us have two strikes against us: an unhealthy relationship with food and it seems, a messed up female hormonal system that makes it beastly hard to lose weight and/or keep it off. That's why I think it's so admirable that you just kept attempting and trying and striving until you unlocked the answer for yourself. Thanks for the posts.

roeluvsparis · 04-20-2006, 10:29 AM

My hero!

Peace

roe

mork · 04-20-2006, 10:47 AM

WOW!!!

ironicwoman · 04-20-2006, 10:58 AM

Just Beautiful.
I'm also sitting here tearing up. I think you put into writing what a lot of us on this board have also gone thru our entire lives. Thanks for touching my heart today.
Bless You.

Ironic

2000harley · 04-20-2006, 11:09 AM

Pauline,
Thanks for your post...It is truely a wonderful and well thought out post. I always find it interesting that even though all of our stories are a bit different and our struggles are different, several aspects of our lives overlap and we are the same in many ways.

Thank you also for the support you offer us at Boot Camp Charlie....we love your posts. I felt like I "knew" you before, but now I really feel like I do.

Congratulations on everything you have achieved!
Harley

beachguy · 04-20-2006, 01:03 PM

Pauline,

I've lost my way recently and you have shown me the path. I WILL make goal.

Thanks for inspiring!

TaDa! · 04-20-2006, 01:39 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by beachguy

I've lost my way recently and you have shown me the path. I WILL make goal.

You will make goal!!!!!! It is just one of those things, like much in life, where we do not get to choose our own timetable ... Only patience and the right choices every day that move us forward in the right direction.

I know you can do it Rich. You have it in you.

Pauline

TaDa! · 04-20-2006, 01:43 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Texas Lady

Your story has brought to the surface so many pressed down feelings
that Ive just not dealt with for the pain and shame just thinking about them.
But these are the feelings I have of myself that make me do the things
I do. I know now that I can no longer just stuff them away and hide from them. I have to deal with them. Most of the beliefs we have about our
self worth is based on thoughts that are not even truths anyway.

Thank you so much for sharing your journey with us! You just don't
know how much this has helped me this morning. Onward I go begining
my first step to emotional healing.

Thanks again!

Linda

You know I think the idea of poking at those emotions that I knew were in there was one of the scariest things of all to do .. and it was the only thing that was going to make this weightloss thing stick where none had ever done before.

You are right, if we try to hide from our true reality - what goes on in our heads - the emotions will always win out in the end. Congratulations on your resolve to get to the bottom of it too.

Pauline

thediva · 04-20-2006, 01:44 PM

Thank you so much for sharing with us.

What an inspiring journey! You're beautiful, strong and in control!! I hope you continue your writing - you're gifted!

speedymagee · 04-20-2006, 02:17 PM

Well I read every single word and wow!
First, I'd like to say you have the gift of storytelling. I couldn't stop reading!

So much of what you talked about really touched me. Thank-you for your honesty, especially about some of the more painful things, like binge eating and feelings of shame.

Thank-you for sharing, I hope you will consider putting your story in the success thread. Keep on keeping on!

And I just wanted to say I used to have a green sweater I thought was slimming(like your brown jacket), and I wonder now how I ever fooled myself!
cheers!

LESSOFME · 04-20-2006, 02:45 PM

Boy, did I ever need to read your post tonight! I haven't been on here for a couple of weeks because I don't come here when I'm bingeing. I've been struggling with bingeing lately just like you wrote in your post. Good for 3 days, bad for 3 days, etc.... And the scale rules my world. I can relate to so much you said.

Your post has been an inspiration to me. I'm gonna change some things myself.

Thanks!

Colo Alex · 04-20-2006, 02:55 PM

Pauline....I've said it before and I'll say it again. You are a wonderful person. You continue to inspire and warm us. Knowing that a person who has so much in common with me can beat obesity gives me even more fortitude to see it through. I can honestly say that you are helping me find 'me'. I know how hard it has been and relate to so much you have been through. You are truly an inspiration to us all. The new craze just might be "paulikins".

Thanks so much Pauline. Keep sharing your discoveries and victories.

Alex

JKat · 04-20-2006, 04:19 PM

Pauline I am sitting here with tears in my eyes!!!! You are an amazing person and I thank you for share your journey with us!!!

Joycelyn · 04-20-2006, 04:33 PM

Ta Da, you are an incredible inspiration. Your posts brought tears to my eyes. Thank you for sharing!

maya-twinkles · 04-20-2006, 04:54 PM

Thank you for sharing your story. Congratulations!!!!!

lexus4me · 04-20-2006, 08:44 PM

to a amazing lady, Thank you so much for you story.

TaDa! · 04-21-2006, 04:20 AM

oops! I remembered something else I have done in my September 2005 "re-start" and that was to break down my larger amount of food into 5 or 6 mini meals. In that way, I always have another meal to look forward to and am not thinking about what I can snack on in the evening.

This was a big help in the fight against binge-eating and from my reading, is also helpful in revving up the metabolism and supporting the exercise I do.

debbiedo · 04-21-2006, 05:04 AM

Pauline, your story is amazing,. You could write a book and it would sell. You write very well and all your posts are inspiring.

I didn't have the amount of weight to lose as you did but I too started overeating "legal Foods" and gained back some of the weight I had lost over the last three years. I started Atkins April 28th( I think may be off a day) 2003. I have never gone back. I came back to this site when I reinducted and found your carb ladder challenge and everything changed for me. I never really went up the carb ladder correctly before. In the past I never measured foods or used fitday much.Bumping up my carbs was always scarry for me and I would stay at induction for months and lose nothing much after the big induction losses.

Thanks for your wonderful post. Thanks for starting the Carb Ladder Challenge.

You are the most amazing weigthloss story. Your journals really could become a book!!!

Not only that you give wonderful advice and I support.

Thanks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

TaDa! · 04-21-2006, 05:21 AM

Awww

Thanks Deb!!!! I have to say it was actually Kris (mom2zeke) who had the idea and started the Carb Ladder challenge! I am much too lazy to follow through with challenges usually, lol!!!!!! (well, and I cannot read endlessly about people restricting their food intake, or specifics about "cheats" - it can set me off on binge-eating). When we started in that challenge, though, I think I may have been the only one who was already going up the Carb Ladder methodically - having started officially in November - so I was probably the biggest blabbermouth about it, lol!

It has been a wonderful wonderful help especially on these tougher higher rungs of the ladder!!! Thank goodness for all of you!!!!

Pauline

04-20-2006, 06:30 AM	#33
Texas Lady Senior LCF Member Join Date: Jan 2006 Location: In the woods by the lake Posts: 760 Gallery: Texas Lady WOE: Atkins Start Date: 1/2/06	Your story has brought to the surface so many pressed down feelings that Ive just not dealt with for the pain and shame just thinking about them. But these are the feelings I have of myself that make me do the things I do. I know now that I can no longer just stuff them away and hide from them. I have to deal with them. Most of the beliefs we have about our self worth is based on thoughts that are not even truths anyway. Thank you so much for sharing your journey with us! You just don't know how much this has helped me this morning. Onward I go begining my first step to emotional healing. Thanks again! Linda __________________ It's not just about losing weight anymore. It's about keeping blood sugar normal and staying healthy and sane.

04-20-2006, 02:17 PM	#50
speedymagee MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Feb 2006 Location: Calgary, Canada Posts: 1,521 Gallery: speedymagee Stats: 176/148/original goal 150(5'6') WOE: Body for Life Week 7	Well I read every single word and wow! First, I'd like to say you have the gift of storytelling. I couldn't stop reading! So much of what you talked about really touched me. Thank-you for your honesty, especially about some of the more painful things, like binge eating and feelings of shame. Thank-you for sharing, I hope you will consider putting your story in the success thread. Keep on keeping on! And I just wanted to say I used to have a green sweater I thought was slimming(like your brown jacket), and I wonder now how I ever fooled myself! cheers! __________________ Proud member of Allies Exercising Around the World/October Challenge

04-20-2006, 02:55 PM	#52
Colo Alex MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Mar 2006 Location: Western Colorado Posts: 1,143 Gallery: Colo Alex Stats: 297/217/185 WOE: Eat Right and Exercise!! Start Date: August 2003 - Several Re-starts since!	Pauline....I've said it before and I'll say it again. You are a wonderful person. You continue to inspire and warm us. Knowing that a person who has so much in common with me can beat obesity gives me even more fortitude to see it through. I can honestly say that you are helping me find 'me'. I know how hard it has been and relate to so much you have been through. You are truly an inspiration to us all. The new craze just might be "paulikins". Thanks so much Pauline. Keep sharing your discoveries and victories. Alex __________________ Alex - Height 6' 0" Age 43 "Never give up, never surrender!" - Galaxy Quest "To lengthen thy Life, lessen thy meals." - Benjamin Franklin My Journey Member of Boot Camp Charlie

04-21-2006, 05:21 AM	#59
TaDa! Big Yapper!!!! Join Date: Jun 2003 Posts: 9,992 Gallery: TaDa! Stats: 236.5/128/130-135 & 5'3" tall WOE: Atkins (Vegetarian + Fish) Start Date: 6/03 & Goal! 5/06	Awww Thanks Deb!!!! I have to say it was actually Kris (mom2zeke) who had the idea and started the Carb Ladder challenge! I am much too lazy to follow through with challenges usually, lol!!!!!! (well, and I cannot read endlessly about people restricting their food intake, or specifics about "cheats" - it can set me off on binge-eating). When we started in that challenge, though, I think I may have been the only one who was already going up the Carb Ladder methodically - having started officially in November - so I was probably the biggest blabbermouth about it, lol! It has been a wonderful wonderful help especially on these tougher higher rungs of the ladder!!! Thank goodness for all of you!!!! Pauline Last edited by TaDa! : 04-21-2006 at 05:22 AM.

04-20-2006, 06:07 AM	#31
jskn Senior LCF Member Join Date: Jan 2006 Posts: 879 Gallery: jskn Stats: 115.5/105/100 WOE: atkins Start Date: october 2005	Your story truly touched my heart. I am so happy that you are in a good place now. I have dealt with both binge eating and anorexia. I hope One day I can feel as in control as you. Thanks for sharing!

04-20-2006, 06:14 AM	#32
duffsterj Junior LCF Member Join Date: Feb 2006 Location: Columbus, Oh Posts: 34 Gallery: duffsterj Stats: 370/314/240 WOE: Low Carb Start Date: Jan 23, 2006	Wow, great, great story...thanks for sharing, and thanks for all you support over at boot camp charlie. Your weight loss story is truly an inspiration for those all of us. Duffster

04-20-2006, 06:30 AM	#34
godsbeloved79 Atkineer For Life Join Date: Sep 2004 Location: Pompano Bch, FL Posts: 13,614 Gallery: godsbeloved79 Stats: 207/197.5/162 WOE: Atkins Start Date: 9/30/08	Great story, very INSPIRING!

04-20-2006, 06:33 AM	#35
JONAH'S GRANNY Big Yapper!!!! Join Date: Jan 2003 Location: Greenville, SC Posts: 7,627 Gallery: JONAH'S GRANNY Stats: Not telling WOE: Lower Carb Start Date: 01/03/2008/Originally 2003	What a wonderful inspiration. I have enjoyed following your story.

04-20-2006, 06:34 AM	#36
mom2zeke MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Jun 2002 Location: Seattle Posts: 1,070 Gallery: mom2zeke Stats: 257/160-170 since December 2002 WOE: Atkins - Whole food low carb Start Date: August 6, 2001	Pauline - You are truly an inspiration and a strong and beautiful woman!!! Congratulations on your many successes!

04-20-2006, 06:40 AM	#37
averyjenn Blabbermouth!!! Join Date: Mar 2005 Location: North Carolina Posts: 5,719 Gallery: averyjenn Stats: 240/156 now 180/170/148 5'6" WOE: Kickin' it old school Start Date: 2/21/05	What a wonderful honest post. Congratulations on hitting your goal and beyond. KUTGW!

04-20-2006, 06:41 AM	#38
2bdancing Senior LCF Member Join Date: Feb 2006 Posts: 991 Gallery: 2bdancing Stats: 150/124/120 5'4.5" medium frame WOE: Modified Atkins/Mainly SB Start Date: February 2001 restart February 2006	Good read. Thanks for sharing.

04-20-2006, 06:47 AM	#39
tm2chng Senior LCF Member Join Date: Feb 2006 Posts: 621 Gallery: tm2chng Stats: 177/151/130 WOE: Atkins OWL	Pauline, (((Thank you for sharing your journey.))) I know it will help and inspire many. Although I am not a binge eater, I do have issues with food that I have been working on as well on my new wol. It is so important to realize why we eat. People that are critical of the overweight, and fat can be accepting of other "vices" such as alcohol, drugs or cigarettes but dont realize that food is a vice and can be an addiction as well. I used to call it being in a fat coma when I would eat a high carb, high cal,high fat meal and then just want to sleep it off, feeling as if I had been drugged. Food really became an addiction to me and I have to approach it as one. Most, if not all people have atleast one battle in life to face, and we all have the power to overcome. Congratulations on winning your battle ! I am glad you have a husband that could see how beautiful you always were, and I am glad that you can see it now aswell. ~Lisa~

04-20-2006, 09:29 AM	#40
yarncat Way too much time on my hands! Join Date: Jul 2003 Location: On The Road-Perryville,KY & Albuquerque,NM Posts: 10,902 Gallery: yarncat WOE: Maintaining on Low Carb	Wonderful post,Pauline!What a journey you have made!!

04-20-2006, 10:27 AM	#41
walkthebeach MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: May 2005 Location: St. Louis, MO Posts: 1,983 Gallery: walkthebeach Stats: 155/145.5/135 WOE: Low-carb, lower fat Start Date: Oct. 2002	I really, really admire you for taking the time to think, analyze and learn about yourself and how to cope with food, your emotions, and your behavior towards food. You never gave up in the face of some pretty stiff obstacles and that is just awe inspiring. I have found after reading these boards for almost four years now that most, if not all, of us have two strikes against us: an unhealthy relationship with food and it seems, a messed up female hormonal system that makes it beastly hard to lose weight and/or keep it off. That's why I think it's so admirable that you just kept attempting and trying and striving until you unlocked the answer for yourself. Thanks for the posts.

04-20-2006, 10:29 AM	#42
roeluvsparis Very Gabby LCF Member!!! Join Date: Dec 2001 Location: Uhhhh, Paris (I wish) Posts: 3,063 Gallery: roeluvsparis WOE: love myself	My hero! Peace roe

04-20-2006, 10:47 AM	#43
mork MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Dec 2005 Posts: 1,040 Gallery: mork	WOW!!!

04-20-2006, 10:58 AM	#44
ironicwoman Senior LCF Member Join Date: Jan 2003 Location: oklahoma Posts: 92 Gallery: ironicwoman Stats: 195/186/160 Start Date: Re-Start: 2/08/08	Just Beautiful. I'm also sitting here tearing up. I think you put into writing what a lot of us on this board have also gone thru our entire lives. Thanks for touching my heart today. Bless You. Ironic

04-20-2006, 11:09 AM	#45
2000harley Senior LCF Member Join Date: Dec 2004 Posts: 318 Gallery: 2000harley Stats: 302/239/210 WOE: Atkins	Pauline, Thanks for your post...It is truely a wonderful and well thought out post. I always find it interesting that even though all of our stories are a bit different and our struggles are different, several aspects of our lives overlap and we are the same in many ways. Thank you also for the support you offer us at Boot Camp Charlie....we love your posts. I felt like I "knew" you before, but now I really feel like I do. Congratulations on everything you have achieved! Harley

04-20-2006, 01:03 PM	#46
beachguy Senior LCF Member Join Date: Jan 2004 Location: Southern VA Posts: 502 Gallery: beachguy Stats: 320/258/220 WOE: Low carb Start Date: July 4, 2002	Pauline, I've lost my way recently and you have shown me the path. I WILL make goal. Thanks for inspiring!

04-20-2006, 01:44 PM	#49
thediva Senior LCF Member Join Date: Feb 2006 Location: CA Paradise Posts: 511 Gallery: thediva Stats: 165/141/127, size14/8/4,6 WOE: Lowcarb Start Date: Feb 2006	Thank you so much for sharing with us. What an inspiring journey! You're beautiful, strong and in control!! I hope you continue your writing - you're gifted!

04-20-2006, 02:45 PM	#51
LESSOFME Senior LCF Member Join Date: Mar 2005 Location: Virginia Posts: 968 Gallery: LESSOFME Stats: 20/16/12 5'10" (-37 lbs) WOE: Atkins Start Date: restart 1/30/08	Boy, did I ever need to read your post tonight! I haven't been on here for a couple of weeks because I don't come here when I'm bingeing. I've been struggling with bingeing lately just like you wrote in your post. Good for 3 days, bad for 3 days, etc.... And the scale rules my world. I can relate to so much you said. Your post has been an inspiration to me. I'm gonna change some things myself. Thanks!

04-20-2006, 04:19 PM	#53
JKat MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Dec 2005 Location: CT Posts: 1,483 Gallery: JKat Stats: 180/126/125 WOE: Weight WatchersFlex Points/BFL Start Date: August 2003	Pauline I am sitting here with tears in my eyes!!!! You are an amazing person and I thank you for share your journey with us!!!

04-20-2006, 04:33 PM	#54
Joycelyn Senior LCF Member Join Date: Feb 2004 Location: CA Lady Posts: 829 Gallery: Joycelyn Stats: 202/198.5/140 WOE: The Insulin Resistance Diet Start Date: September 2008	Ta Da, you are an incredible inspiration. Your posts brought tears to my eyes. Thank you for sharing!

04-20-2006, 04:54 PM	#55
maya-twinkles Senior LCF Member Join Date: Jul 2004 Location: northern Wisconsin Posts: 225 Gallery: maya-twinkles Stats: old stats -220/167...new stats 205/195/170 WOE: lo carb Start Date: sept 1 2003/dec. 27, 2006	Thank you for sharing your story. Congratulations!!!!!

04-20-2006, 08:44 PM	#56
lexus4me Senior LCF Member Join Date: Apr 2005 Posts: 453 Gallery: lexus4me	to a amazing lady, Thank you so much for you story.

04-21-2006, 04:20 AM	#57
TaDa! Big Yapper!!!! Join Date: Jun 2003 Posts: 9,992 Gallery: TaDa! Stats: 236.5/128/130-135 & 5'3" tall WOE: Atkins (Vegetarian + Fish) Start Date: 6/03 & Goal! 5/06	oops! I remembered something else I have done in my September 2005 "re-start" and that was to break down my larger amount of food into 5 or 6 mini meals. In that way, I always have another meal to look forward to and am not thinking about what I can snack on in the evening. This was a big help in the fight against binge-eating and from my reading, is also helpful in revving up the metabolism and supporting the exercise I do.

04-21-2006, 05:04 AM	#58
debbiedo Big Yapper!!!! Join Date: Jun 2003 Location: Maryland Posts: 8,334 Gallery: debbiedo Stats: 118 on a good day/115 WOE: mindful eating/running off the pounds Start Date: over and over again	Pauline, your story is amazing,. You could write a book and it would sell. You write very well and all your posts are inspiring. I didn't have the amount of weight to lose as you did but I too started overeating "legal Foods" and gained back some of the weight I had lost over the last three years. I started Atkins April 28th( I think may be off a day) 2003. I have never gone back. I came back to this site when I reinducted and found your carb ladder challenge and everything changed for me. I never really went up the carb ladder correctly before. In the past I never measured foods or used fitday much.Bumping up my carbs was always scarry for me and I would stay at induction for months and lose nothing much after the big induction losses. Thanks for your wonderful post. Thanks for starting the Carb Ladder Challenge. You are the most amazing weigthloss story. Your journals really could become a book!!! Not only that you give wonderful advice and I support. Thanks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!