39 and Disfunctional,Lonely,Fat,Hurt,Angry - need penpal

love2live · 12-14-2002, 07:41 PM

I am fat and miserable.
I have been in a horrible relationship for 10 years with a man who is a socialpath.
I binged on foods and then made myself throw up. I ruined my teeth because of the stomach acid.
I just dyed my long brown hair blond. Why? I only can guess it's because he hates blonds.
I have no sex drive, none whatsoever. I don't want to be touched, I notice lately that I don't make eye contact with anyone anymore.
I have no friends. I do not have family, not a mother or father, no grandparents no-one.
I want desperately to loose this weight.
I missed my 20 year reunion because of the way I looked. I was always fit and athletic. I waited for years to see old friends.
I am white, 5'10 and my job is stressful and I am the only female at the upper level company wide. All at work "think" I have it all together. Ha! All the guys constantly talk about the women in our company. This makes me sick. I find myself loathing those women because of the way they walk and make their voice so baby like. I hate their size -0, my 10 year old is bigger than most of them. And I am huge!! The men at work never flirt with me, look my way.
I'm a mess, huh? Probably need more than locarbfriends.com?
I read so many posting but is everyone so darn cheerful?
I am lonely. Penpal wanted.

Razor · 12-15-2002, 05:12 PM

I am also looking for a pen pal and would love to correspond with you. That is if you don't mind me being a fat 37 year old male from the midwest?

You can email me at razor0322@yahoo.com

kizzasmumdenise · 12-18-2002, 03:50 AM

Hello, I have just decided to start out on the Atkins plan and you sound so much like me. I too missed a reunion (that I was organising) because of my weight.
I am 42, widowed (at 31) with 2 boys of 13 & 22. Everyone thinks I'm a really "together" person too and it's not the case at all
When people say "you're still the same person, fat or thin" it's simply not true. I am certainly not the person I used to be.
I don't want to get into a "poor me" type affair, I want to encourage and be encouraged, support and be supported and have a laugh generally.
I've started out on "a diet" so many times but I really need someone to be acountable to, who I can help as well.
If you would like a pen pal in England please mail me at det@cpio.co.uk
That goes for the chap in the mid-west too, perhaps we could be a mini support group.
If I don't sound like the person you are looking for as a diet buddy, I wish you all the best in your endeavours.
Denise.
XX

mylovly · 12-27-2002, 12:30 PM

Dearest love2live,

You're on the right path! Everyone is so cheerful because the Atkins diet actually rids you of depression, which from your posting, you're having a problem with. I was diagnosed with chronic depression and was taking medication for it, after starting the Atkins diet, I don't need anti depressants anymore!

Once you get past the first two weeks and your body rids itself of all the sugar, I promise you'll feel better!

I found when I went through my divorce, that just knowing that other people have been where I was, it made it better! I'm the only female in the position that I'm in at work, had little or no respect from the guys, and hated the way they cat-called and oooed and aaaahhhed over the thin women at work. I hated it, because I wished it was me!

I've only lost 27 pounds so far, but two pant sizes, and the people at work have taken notice! Not to mention the men around me treat me with respect. The only reason I can think of is because I now respect myself!

You will find as you lose this weight that you will regain your self respect, your self esteem, and your will to be a better person. But you'll be doing it for YOURSELF!

I'm just like you, people are amazed at how "strong" I am and how "together" I am, but they didn't see the inside of me. Now my insides are strong too, and you will be too!

Hang in there girlie! Write to me if you need to! mylovly@yahoo.com and I have messenger too, the nick there is mylovly also.

Hugs! and Good Luck!
d'cai

angiemae · 01-01-2003, 04:43 AM

Hello Love2Live
I know how you are feeling. I have been married for almost 11 years. I love him to death, but he control me in everyway, and I turned to food.I dont like to go anywhere because the way I look. I have 3 wonderful boys.

I just want to lose the weight and live again. Im just starting and needing to lose 100 pounds.
your friend
angiemae

glamrgrl2b · 01-01-2003, 07:52 PM

love2live,
I'm a good listener and a great encourager. I'm 38, been married 11yrs-we've had our ups and downs. I started this woe in Oct because I was fat, disgusted, depressed, and desperate so I think I know where you are coming from. email me if you want to talk
godschild11@earhtlink.net

kat

Kecia · 01-17-2003, 12:09 PM

Hi!

My name is Kecia and I am 39 years old and a single parent to a 13 year old girl. I am just starting to low carb and I understand how you feel. I have been in horrible relationships all my life until last year when I met a man. Unfortunately, I ran him away with all my baggage. Now I am trying to heal and losing weight is part of that for me as I consider my extra weight emotional baggage. I have been low carbing for about two weeks and have cheated a couple of times but didn't weigh myself until today. The numbers made me sick, so now it is on! I can use all the support I can get and it sounds like you can too. I look foward to talking with you. You can email me at frisky63115@yahoo.com

12-14-2002, 07:41 PM	#1
love2live MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Sep 2002 Location: Minden, Nevada Posts: 1,468 Gallery: love2live Stats: 244.4/221.0/170/150 WOE: Atkins - induction ultimate goal 150 Start Date: 9/19/08	39 and Disfunctional,Lonely,Fat,Hurt,Angry - need penpal I am fat and miserable. I have been in a horrible relationship for 10 years with a man who is a socialpath. I binged on foods and then made myself throw up. I ruined my teeth because of the stomach acid. I just dyed my long brown hair blond. Why? I only can guess it's because he hates blonds. I have no sex drive, none whatsoever. I don't want to be touched, I notice lately that I don't make eye contact with anyone anymore. I have no friends. I do not have family, not a mother or father, no grandparents no-one. I want desperately to loose this weight. I missed my 20 year reunion because of the way I looked. I was always fit and athletic. I waited for years to see old friends. I am white, 5'10 and my job is stressful and I am the only female at the upper level company wide. All at work "think" I have it all together. Ha! All the guys constantly talk about the women in our company. This makes me sick. I find myself loathing those women because of the way they walk and make their voice so baby like. I hate their size -0, my 10 year old is bigger than most of them. And I am huge!! The men at work never flirt with me, look my way. I'm a mess, huh? Probably need more than locarbfriends.com? I read so many posting but is everyone so darn cheerful? I am lonely. Penpal wanted.

01-17-2003, 12:09 PM	#7
Kecia Senior LCF Member Join Date: Jan 2003 Location: St. Louis, MO Posts: 62 Gallery: Kecia Stats: 195/180/150 WOE: Moderate Carbs	I would love to be your pen pal Hi! My name is Kecia and I am 39 years old and a single parent to a 13 year old girl. I am just starting to low carb and I understand how you feel. I have been in horrible relationships all my life until last year when I met a man. Unfortunately, I ran him away with all my baggage. Now I am trying to heal and losing weight is part of that for me as I consider my extra weight emotional baggage. I have been low carbing for about two weeks and have cheated a couple of times but didn't weigh myself until today. The numbers made me sick, so now it is on! I can use all the support I can get and it sounds like you can too. I look foward to talking with you. You can email me at frisky63115@yahoo.com

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12-15-2002, 05:12 PM	#2
Razor Senior LCF Member Join Date: Nov 2002 Location: Mokena, Illinois Posts: 952 Gallery: Razor Stats: 315/270/185 WOE: Atkins Start Date: September, 2002 starting over 1/3/5	I am also looking for a pen pal and would love to correspond with you. That is if you don't mind me being a fat 37 year old male from the midwest? You can email me at razor0322@yahoo.com

12-18-2002, 03:50 AM	#3
kizzasmumdenise MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Dec 2002 Location: Staffordshire, England Posts: 1,219 Gallery: kizzasmumdenise Stats: Started (again) 24th Jan 05. 254/230/140 WOE: Atkins Start Date: January 24th 2005	Hello, I have just decided to start out on the Atkins plan and you sound so much like me. I too missed a reunion (that I was organising) because of my weight. I am 42, widowed (at 31) with 2 boys of 13 & 22. Everyone thinks I'm a really "together" person too and it's not the case at all When people say "you're still the same person, fat or thin" it's simply not true. I am certainly not the person I used to be. I don't want to get into a "poor me" type affair, I want to encourage and be encouraged, support and be supported and have a laugh generally. I've started out on "a diet" so many times but I really need someone to be acountable to, who I can help as well. If you would like a pen pal in England please mail me at det@cpio.co.uk That goes for the chap in the mid-west too, perhaps we could be a mini support group. If I don't sound like the person you are looking for as a diet buddy, I wish you all the best in your endeavours. Denise. XX

12-27-2002, 12:30 PM	#4
mylovly Junior LCF Member Join Date: Dec 2002 Location: Sweeny Texas Posts: 25 Gallery: mylovly	Dearest love2live, You're on the right path! Everyone is so cheerful because the Atkins diet actually rids you of depression, which from your posting, you're having a problem with. I was diagnosed with chronic depression and was taking medication for it, after starting the Atkins diet, I don't need anti depressants anymore! Once you get past the first two weeks and your body rids itself of all the sugar, I promise you'll feel better! I found when I went through my divorce, that just knowing that other people have been where I was, it made it better! I'm the only female in the position that I'm in at work, had little or no respect from the guys, and hated the way they cat-called and oooed and aaaahhhed over the thin women at work. I hated it, because I wished it was me! I've only lost 27 pounds so far, but two pant sizes, and the people at work have taken notice! Not to mention the men around me treat me with respect. The only reason I can think of is because I now respect myself! You will find as you lose this weight that you will regain your self respect, your self esteem, and your will to be a better person. But you'll be doing it for YOURSELF! I'm just like you, people are amazed at how "strong" I am and how "together" I am, but they didn't see the inside of me. Now my insides are strong too, and you will be too! Hang in there girlie! Write to me if you need to! mylovly@yahoo.com and I have messenger too, the nick there is mylovly also. Hugs! and Good Luck! d'cai

01-01-2003, 04:43 AM	#5
angiemae Junior LCF Member Join Date: Jan 2003 Location: mayville, mi Posts: 4 Gallery: angiemae	Hello Love2Live I know how you are feeling. I have been married for almost 11 years. I love him to death, but he control me in everyway, and I turned to food.I dont like to go anywhere because the way I look. I have 3 wonderful boys. I just want to lose the weight and live again. Im just starting and needing to lose 100 pounds. your friend angiemae

01-01-2003, 07:52 PM	#6
glamrgrl2b Senior LCF Member Join Date: Oct 2002 Location: Southeastern PA Posts: 114 Gallery: glamrgrl2b Stats: 204/184/165 WOE: Atkins my way	love2live, I'm a good listener and a great encourager. I'm 38, been married 11yrs-we've had our ups and downs. I started this woe in Oct because I was fat, disgusted, depressed, and desperate so I think I know where you are coming from. email me if you want to talk godschild11@earhtlink.net kat