Need a motivating buddy to lose 50 pounds with by April 2007

[cardenas5usa]

Good evening Ladies!

We just came back from seeing Game Plan. It was pretty funny, and cute for the kids. To eat today, I haven't been that hungry, I had a salad for lunch and then some cold cuts for dinner. That's it. Might go dancing tonight....I wish...but I won't get my hopes up.

Jina, what a cute bee! Too bad Kate still had to start some drama but at least she let it wait till after trick or treating. Hugs to you, I am here anytime.

Ash xoxoxo

[cardenas5usa]

Oh man, still pretty quiet in here. Sunday morning, being lazy. Have to go out and get a bday gift for a little kid party tonight. We didn't go dancing, what a BIG surprise. E constantly asking last night "So do you want to go?" Well duh, I wouldn't have said lets call jessy and fofo and anyone else if I didn't want to go. It's just his way of saying he doesn't want to go without actually saying it. so for like the somethingith week in a row we have backed out. I didn't have anything to wear anyway, I have thrown out almost all my friggin cloths and never have time or anyone to go shopping for new ones with so whatever. Just being pissy. The damn scale isn't moving either. Yesterday after not being hungry hardly at all then I was at bed time so I had a small LC quesadilla, hello this morning I am the same. I guess it is a cross roads, be setermined and keep going, and hope I am not just beating myself up for nothin. Or call it good and stay here at 155-160. E is just getting fatter as the days go by, all the hard work he did to lose weight, he has gone back to all his sh**ty eating and regularly eats 1500 cals in a sitting and then has the nerve to flop in front of the tv and say he is snacky. Excuse me, but what do you think is in those nuts that he thinks are a good snack after a calorie kill meal???????????? I am just livid! Last night, like all of a sudden he has discovered subway, their 6 fats or less commercial probably. We walk in and he orders a foot long hot Italian Meats or whatever, (what the FU**???????????????) and then while I take Lex to the bathroom, he has them put everything on it, after last time I told about the mayo....nope, I come back and that shi ttin' thing has a coiled snake of mayo down the middle like it was going out of style. Hello??? what do you think makes him so tired lately, it is all the freaking crap sitting on his stomach.

Jina, that is so funny that you posted about thinking about going back to school. I have been thinking the same for the same amount of time I have been down on myself about my life passing me by. Anyway, last week I email my college to get my transcripts and find out what I have to do to get them to mail all my final paperwork out. I emailed a bunch of online colleges to see about totally switching gears and studying something totaly new, and I have been thinking about going to one of the local quick college schools to get my med assistant thing so I can work foot clinic with my mom and the Legacy system. Somethings gotta give!!!!!!! I feel you Jina.

Alright, I just had to get all that out of my head, I feel better now. Talk later, A

[cardenas5usa]

Come out come out where ever you are. Jina, I just posted to your journal, you have to update that thing girl. Did you get that precor up???

T, how has it been being back at home? I bet the kids missed you and wanted to hear all about it.

Hugs, A

[cardenas5usa]

1000!!

[carbjunkie]

Good morning girls,

I was such a vegetable this weekend. I just lounged on the couch and slept pretty much all weekend. I was just mentally exhausted. I finally feel a little rested but am in a funk. I weighed myself sat morning and I was up 2 lbs..what the heck? I worked out every single day for 45 mins and I only had one meal a day. I did have 2-3 miller lites everyday at lunchtime though..and had my usual sandwich along with it. We found this really nice restaurant and we hung out there almost everyday at lunch. M would stop by the junk area in the hotel and grab a snickers and I would pass up the sweets everynight..for what huh?

Now that's a rant Ash

I read yours Ash..and no one feels your frustration more than I. Especially with all your hard work so I just wanted you to know I feel ya

Jina dearest I love your pics and I hope you'll be strong through the holidays. Look how far you've come in a short amount of time..I have no worries bout you <hugz>

It took such hard work to get myself moving again and now I feel in a funk again...bugg! I will try to workout today but I have to admit to you girls I just don't want to.

I'll be around to read your posts.

T.

[cardenas5usa]

Glad to see your post T! I am sure you'll get back in the groove, it may just take time to let things smooth out. You needed to relax after the high stress week. I am surethose 2 pounds are just phantom pounds, they'll be gone before you know it...stress makes us gain weight.

Yeah, my rant, I was just feeling really pissy, better now. LOL Thanx. The great thing is I know I always have you two to come and talk to.

Okay, I am off to my walk/run. Be back later, Ash

[cardenas5usa]

I'm back, 32 miinutes walk/run! Up to the shower.

[carbjunkie]

Good job Ash

I'm forcing myself to get my butt on the bike/treadmill...we'll see for how long.

T.

[Stelakate]

Not really. crappy day and it's not looking much better. Bleeding like a stuck pig, totally irritated w/ everything and everyone. Drove home from DBQ at 5 am this morn. it was dark, that does get a bit old but it's so worth spending time w/ her. I am officially in love w/ that girl. She is the sweetest thing. SO, I guess it's hard times all over, eh? Major poster-you crossed the 1000-good job. I bet if I kept up like I used to my a-word would be at 2000 by now. Just glad to be back in the daily's of your girl's lives. T, glad you got some much needed rest. Sorry about that devil scale. For both of you. The hard work, a partner that doesn't try....one that doesn't think twice about it...it is SO hard. Ash, you look fantastic. maybe you are just meant to maintain. Girl, get out there and get yourself some fabulous clothes, you so deserve it. Med assisting? That's my specialty, you let me know how it goes and i am here anytime. I have learned so very much through this office, I will be glad to take this exp. w/ me when i go. I just feel a change of scenery is in order. I do love Brandy's town, it's so cute and refreshing - keeping that in the back of my mind. SO, tomorrow is trick-or-treat. Have to work til 5 and then jet home to get stela ready. Guess out from 6-7 is good for that little Bee. That will be cardio for sure. NO the precor is NOT upstairs....I have the worst hip pain lately, not making an excuse, just noting it doesn't seem right. Feels like my legs could break right off. Not sure why.
Eats have been ok, less alcohol is a good thing for me. Those 14 AE jeans are getting a little baggy, already...that makes me happy, the lose belly skin does not. Tan is a good thing though, makes everything look so much better. LOL.
Well, my sweetie is driving down tonight, I do look forward to seeing her. Miss my little stely too, without her the last two nights.

Ash, I would NEVER skip over your posts. You're silly.

Love you girls.

[carbjunkie]

Hey Jina...nice to see you and bee baby

Sorry you aren't feeling so great so that makes 3 huh? you better get that hip pain checked out to make sure it's not bone loss. Great to hear the 14's already getting loose..you go skinny G

I still haven't got the exercise in but I did do 3 loads of laundry and paid some bills.

Have I told you lately I love you girls?

T.

[cardenas5usa]

Glad to see you girls here! Yeah that makes 3 of us beeing in a little funk. T, you can do it, remember those endorphans that release in exercise. Today has been good, grey grey, but E and I and L & A all went to lunch. Lex and I shared an order of light almond chicken. Then we went to the store and and bought all the stuff for making non-gross menudo, with bible tripe instead of that yucky honeycomb stuff. But there is a piggy foot in it, for flavor

We made tuna stuffed pickled japalenos for snack, yum. Think I am going to try to get some more exercise in before the night is over.

Check back later, A

[carbjunkie]

Hi girls

Well I didn't get any exercise in yesterday..shocked are you? I ate pretty good though..eggwhites for bfast turkey for lunch and wheat pasta for dinner. I really wanted cheese pizza

I got in 30mins on the bike..will do more mill later and some weights. I hope to get more motivated as I get back to my routine.

Ash I like menudo but won't eat the tripe (eek) I prefer to eat the cleaner soups like caldo de res/pollo..yum

Ok girls I look forward to reading your posts this a.m.

Love,
T.

[carbjunkie]

Wow..no one even came in yesterday huh?

Ok..well I hope you girls had a good one.

It'll be a nice day today and the kids will have some fun later tonight.

I'll check by to see if you guys came by.

[cardenas5usa]

Happy Halloweener! LOL

No kidding, only you made it in here T! Yesterday was a non-stop day for me. Took my mom to get her pre-lasik appt done and then E dropped the kids to us and we were off to take them to lunch and my mom had to run to three other stores and then I had to pick up Maya from drawing...and the list goes on.

Glad to see T that you got 30 in on the bike!! I didn't do any exercise except all the run around, booo. Today though will be cardio at night and all the trick-or-treat walking. So what are your kids doing today T? Partying it up?

The menudo, it was so weird, I dislike menudo, but I love the bright white skinny bible tripe, so I woke up that morning with a light bulb idea to use that clean kind to make it, so E was all excited cause I astually wanted to make it. It turned out nice but even with the nice tripe it was still pretty stinky, don't know how that asian restaurant makes their so non-stinky. Anyhow, it made rave reviews with my bil and his friends, and E. I even got my mom to eat some. Sufice it to say, I think I filled my menudo quota for the year. LOLOLOLOLOLOL.

Alright, I still have to mend Lex's Belle costume. Big Loser was an inspiration to E last night and he said he would start exercising today again, cross fingers.

I love you girls!!! T, big hugs, glad yo are trying to get that exercising going! Mwah, Ashley

[carbjunkie]

Hey Ash...well..I didn't get on the bike today and I don't think I have anytime left. I cleaned all morning and did up the halloween decs for the kids. I love to have the table all done when they come home from school. Black tableware with eyeball paper goods..too cute.

Jina..I saw the news this morning..they were showing the pumpkin drop in davenport..I said hey..that's G's place..they said, "only in Iowa."

Ok girls..talk to you later.

T.

[cardenas5usa]

Only in Iowa....LOL...wish I would have seen it!

phewww...glad we are done with Halloween....it was a ton of fun yesterday! T, your table sounds so cool!! I would have loved that as a kid, fo sho! Did your kids dress up at all? I was surprised how many older teens I saw this year dressed up....I think in part due to the easy access to "sexy" costumes this year. We even saw quite a few twentysomethings!!!! We went to the little downtown trick-o-treat and then some friends suggested we all go to a big uppity neighborhood were they go all out with the decos. We did, it was great exercise since it wall all up hill walking at a fast pace. About half the houses gave out big huge candy bars, we won't have to by candy treats for the movies for the next year...or two.

I took pics so I will try to upload them later today. My mom is to work today and then I take her in tomarrow for her Lasik surgery. She is so excited about not having to wear and change glasses all the time.

Okay, I am going for a walk. See ya later today! XOXO Ash
Oh, and for the record, I did eat a few candies.

[carbjunkie]

Hi Ash..

Thanks..the kids liked it and so did R. He came home early yesterday with a pizza and beer...I obliged of course. I didn't eat all day but what I did eat was bad. Only the little one dressed up as a box..he and his best friend made boxes they were cute. The older ones didn't dress but they went trick or treating for a little bit last night. I stayed home and gave out candy..I did noticed alot more teenagers..than ever..AND alot more treaters. I actually ran out of candy..that never happens.

We had a couple come and have a few drinks with us while the kids played guitar hero and ate candy..it was a very nice evening.

I am getting depressed about my weight..here we are a year later and I'm pretty much the same..what a battle!

Well I hope you girls have a good day.

Talk soon.
T.

[Stelakate]

hi girls. Sorry, had a pretty shi**y last few days. I am feeling down and out again....another anxiety attack followed by me leaving work and going to hang out w/ Kate. Nothing like that, it's nice to be an adult w/ her, she does understand me without me having to say the words. SO, that was that. Last night was spent in DBQ, B had darts...it was ok, I drank WAYYY too much though...wow. SO, I am really tired, headache too. That hip pain did subside...I am happy to report my hair loss was a minimum as well at the 3 month mark. Cant believe it's Nov. 1. almost our anniversary. Had a delicious steak taco today at a mexi restaurant...it had cilantro and lime, YUMMMMMM. I like menudo, not the tripe though, I like the beef kind w/ tons of lime, I love the juice w/ a soft tortilla. The kids had a ball trick or treating, Stela did 3 times in 3 different get ups. Dont have the penguin pics from Kate yet, but will upload a few that I do have...I think you saw the pics on the previous page from last Fri. sometimes that last post gets overlooked on the bottom.

Well, off I go, need to get this room organized and get unpacked. My head is screaming for excedrin as well....love you girls. I have been getting lots of walks in this week...still no precor.
I couldnt upload the ones of the kids in their costumes because they are the wrong way. DANG!
The pics (if I can recall) are, me and Tammy and Joy last night, those drinks are DELICIOUS. its malibu and bacardi gold w/ lime juice, grenadine and pineapple juice. YUM! The pic of me and the blond is Brandy's sister Crystal, she bartends on Wed. nights at the bar they play darts at...then, I think it's Estela in her stroller, trying to eat a candybar through the wrapper..that's my girl. It was SO warm that night, 70's. 2nd yr in a row. Then the ring is my dream ring for my next marriage..lol. Well, you gotta have dreams right?

[cardenas5usa]

Can't sleep, so I have been up since 4....surfing the web. Today I am taking my mom in for Lasik. So I am just counting the hours before that. It is cold again here, everything is all frosted over, and I can barely stay warm enough it seems,lol. A

[cardenas5usa]

Oooo, I like that ring! Little Stel is getting so big, I can't believe it, I remember she was just a sprout last year!! Time flies! She is truely a beauty! Those drinks sound yummy! I have been so craving a good mixed drink, but can't get the courage up to drink one, cause I know I'll want another, and I can't afford the cals. I am for sure not going to make my goal now with my mom here, her and her pie,lol. (smack, me smacking myself) :P But, never fear, I am never going to give up, it is too easy!

Glad you have got a lot of walking in this week! A

[carbjunkie]

No real exercise this week so of course no loss. No excuses.

Sorry you were restless Ash..that sucks. I actually..finally got a good nights rest last night even though I had a dream about Jina

Jina love the pics..they are very nice..you look great girl!

Still stressing about grams..there is no change and I just want to know why she has to suffer?

Well girls I hope to have a better attitude by the end of this day.

The weather is beautiful here..it's warm (mid 80's) and the wind is coming..love the wind!

XOXO
T.

[Stelakate]

Good morning. I am in a foul mood yet again today ladies, trying to turn this frown upside down-but we'll see. Everything is just on my nerves.....tired and stressed all the time. UGH.

weighed in at 192. I am tired of this life - sometimes I get so stressed and worried I wonder, what the heck is this for?!?!?!

anyway, yesterday I got a nice pair of pinstriped pants...they are a tan w/ a chocolate and wide leg w/ a cuff, very low rise...totally cute and a size 12!! I figure by Tgiving I can pimp them looking good.

WELL, they fit now. There is a god. I remember when if I could wear a 12-it would be more than enough for me. What happened to those days?

[cardenas5usa]

Originally Posted by Stelakate

Good morning. I am in a foul mood yet again today ladies, trying to turn this frown upside down-but we'll see. Everything is just on my nerves.....tired and stressed all the time. UGH.

weighed in at 192. I am tired of this life - sometimes I get so stressed and worried I wonder, what the heck is this for?!?!?!

anyway, yesterday I got a nice pair of pinstriped pants...they are a tan w/ a chocolate and wide leg w/ a cuff, very low rise...totally cute and a size 12!! I figure by Tgiving I can pimp them looking good.

WELL, they fit now. There is a god. I remember when if I could wear a 12-it would be more than enough for me. What happened to those days?

Seems like the foul mood fairy has been around a lot....I was feeling much better, but last few days I have felt a little less so. Wish I could blame it on the full moon. Stressed and worried, and wondering what the heck I am doing, sure wish I could be there with you Jina, and T. We could all have a big cryfest. Those pants sound awesome, but the this-size-isn't-good-enough syndrome, I would have to say it is very common. It's my problem too, when did I ever think I would be a size 10/medium, I was going to just be happy to be under the 2s and in a 14. Losing weight messes with your head. I think in part due to the fact of all this hanging skin. I look in the mirror and see what my body could be, or could have been if I would have be food responsible before and it just depresses me. I want to do my surgery but then again, that 10 grand could be used for going back to school, something more productive. All I have to say, is that I really really feel ya.

192, you broke your plateau!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yeah!!!!! Size 12s, YAHOOOO!!!! I am so happy, I bet if you keep your walks up next week you could be in the 180s.

T, you didn't go up, this is good, your body is adjusting and you are finding it easier to maintain. Next week!

Me, I didn't even bother, with my few candy and pie indiscretions, why beat myself up. I won't be 145 by the 15th, but......well I don't know. I wish I could be as much inspirations as I was before, sorry bout that.

Ash