Need a motivating buddy to lose 50 pounds with by April 2007

[Stelakate]

Good morning to you girls.

The weekend was nice, B was here til about 6 pm yesterday....sad when she leaves, she might come to see me tonight, the hr distance is starting to bug both of us.....eventually someone will have to relocate..I dont think a long-distance relationship is something I'd be good at. SO, Kate is still trying HARD to get me back, it's just NOT GOING TO HAPPEN, what more can I say???

SO, the weekend is over, another work week....supposed to cool down, this week...70's is more like it for October.
Things are going really well for me, weight wise. I want to get this body toned up for sure, will get to that this week for sure...no more excuses....just been riding this doing it on it's own long enough.

I love you two...how was your weekend?

[carbjunkie]

Morning..

Hi Jina nice to see you I'm glad you had a good weekend. It was 91 yesterday and really windy..I LOVE the wind. It's cooler today but enuf already..give me 70s! Yeah..you girls are gonna have to make a decision..I say the one without the child moves Hope everything continues to work out with her..if this is what you want.

Where's Ash? Didn't come by yesterday huh? she's probably celebrating her 155.....perserverance

Well I was bad for dinner last night..had 2 coors lite and some tortilla chips..just not good for me and I paid the price..had a stomach ache all night. I can't seem to mix "grease" with the beer so no more for me.

R is home today so I did the bike for 30 mins and will go for my hour walk with him in a bit.

Hope you girls have a nice monday morning...see ya soon.

T.

[cardenas5usa]

I did look in here a couple of times yesterday but didn't see anything big going on so I just figured I catch you two today.

My weekend tured out pretty low key (code for boring haha) but oh well. Today I have had a turkey and veggie omelette and a bunch of water, oh and some bites of pancake. Now we are just waiting for Maya to get homw before we go again. Think we will pass by the library, and then stop at Dollar Tree.

See you two later, Ash

[Stelakate]

Good morning girls. Low key all around I guess. I had a nice day, Dr. S was sick so I answered phones in the morning and left at noon, Brandy drove down and we snuck in a movie and some other fun stuff when NOBODY knew I was home early, yay...I love that. Yes, I am really feeling good about this girl, she makes me happy and keeps it interesting...it's refreshing. SO, let's see....Disturbia, we fell asleep about 1/2 way through...so far NOTHING to write home about but Rebecca said it didn't get good til after 1/2 way through...will watch the rest tonight. Going to DBQ tomorrow night, I love having Wed. off....picking up some extra shifts this and next month though, it's flu season.

Well, nothing major to report. I love you two.

[carbjunkie]

There is something major to report..you are here more often I love to see ya so early in the morning!

Hey Ash..off to curves? I'm gonna watch Perfect Stranger while I ride the bike for an hour.

XOXO
T.

[cardenas5usa]

Yes it is early Tues and I am here, yay! E got called early, whoever was supposed to open didn't show and the other guy called back after he was already ready so he went in anyway to get his order done, so that means I am going to take the kids on a walk, bummer, cause they slow me way down, but it's got to be done.

Well no one has called about my cooking class, so I think that means I need to lower the price, although it is a very competitive price, and post new ones at other places as well, duh. I have all my apron stuff set out for tomarrow to distract me. I need to do something cause in all honesty, I have been very unhappy the last month or more with myself, I feel like my life is passing me by and I am just wasting away at home. When I was younger I had high expectations of myself, not just to be a stay-at-home mom, please take no offence T, I am sure you have felt this way too. It is the hardest job of all jobs I think, but I want to make my mark on the world, I want to help others, not just other, I don't know. I want to feel like I am worth something. I am just rambling, but I need to get it out, again, I can't begin to tell E for him to understand how I feel, especially when I don't even really know.

T, so did you like Perfect Strangers? For me it was totally unexpected, but I did love it like I thought I would. Disturbia, I liked it, but yes it does get better later in the movie, but again, it didn't blow me away like I had wanted it too. My favorite part wal Shai,lol.

Jina, sounds like you Brandy had a bunch of fun, I love when you can steal time and feel like you are playing hookey.

Okay kids, see ya later, Ash

[Stelakate]

Hey Ash. I hear what you are saying. I often wonder, especially w/ this major turn of life events this year...I am always asking myself..."is this it?" Am I just going to work a mediocre job for the rest of my life, have a kid or two and a house...all the things I always thought would be way more than enough-or am I going to really strive for something fantastic. I have often wondered about volunteering for Special Olympics or some non-profit business that helps women in trouble...some social service type thing...I just know my calling is out there-just don't know what it is.

I hate watching those Oprah shows where some Mom sat at home, thought up a hairbrain idea and is now a multi-millionare, I am dynamic TOO!!!! What about me???!?!!? That's why "Thread" always comes back to haunt me...what if I could be so terrific at it, just to chicken to try.

Keep at your cooking and sewing, your going to find your nitch and in the meantime, your doing a bang up job being super mom and wife and daughter....kudos.

[Stelakate]

Not leaving out my sweet T. YOU go lance. I dont know that movie, how was it???

XOXOX

[carbjunkie]

Hey...back from watching Perfect Stranger (was pretty good) and riding the bike for 55 mins and 610 cals gone...I needed that.

Ash I totally understand..I felt like that when I was younger but as I matured I realized this is where I needed to be. I know its rough as hell. I wanted to be a corp exec not marry or have any kids so the wanting to be successful thing was always there in my blood. It's hard to be at home..not have any adult interaction and not make any money..but you are exactly where you're supposed to be Ash..with those kids Don't put too much pressure on yourself..as they get older then you have some more autonomy.

Well..I better get my booty in the shower.

T.

[cardenas5usa]

for such kind words, it is so what I needed to hear. I would love to chalk up all this crying and utter empty feeling to PMS and such, but I don't think it can last all month for several months,lol. Seriously considering seeing a doc about it, maybe I need to be on antidepressants (gulp.) You are both right that I shouldn't pressure myself so much and that I will find my nitch, but it just seems every time I turn around a friend or relative, someone I know, are getting all the breaks, great jobs, free child care, offers to work from home. Oh blah, enough of that!

Well it was drizzley this morning so I didn't go for my walk with the kids, but I am going to do 30 minutes of cardio right now, yipee, not, but it needs to get done. Have to make some lunch too, I am hungry but exercising on top of food doesn't sound so much fun so I may wait till after.

Thanks again my best pals, Ashley

It is very comforting to know that I can come here and tell you girls anything. You don't even know how important you are in my life!!!!

[carbjunkie]

Yeah..just sounds like you're having some down time Ash..it WILL pass. Keep focused..do everything in your power (pray) before you head to antidepressant lane...please.

You've got three great little kids and a good husband...don't forget that. Stay strong..good things can come for you.

I just finished my lunch..it was gross (tuna no mayo) I was so hungry and as I was eating it all I could think was why do I have to continually eat this sh*t that I hate? It's not fair. I am tired of not enjoying what I eat (most of the time) Ok..I'm done complaining..just had to get it out.

Here's what I've had today..

3 eggwhites /avocado slices
tuna no mayo w/pickle n crunched on some red bell pepper


T.

[cardenas5usa]

haha, T, make your food fun! Don't eat things you don't like, that is one lesson I have learned well.

I just had ground turkey all sauteed with some tri colored bell peppers and onions, threw in some cabbage for bulk and put some Italian seasonings on it, threw a few chopped up turkey pepperonis on top and ploped the whole mess on some romaine, it was a good fake out for pizza or salad, don't know which, but not too shabby.

Pick out a recipe from here, or go to Linda's LowCarb world, she has lot's of fab recipes. At least you got to have avocado, yum!

Ash

[cardenas5usa]

Kathy Smith done! So glad I did it already, maybe I'll be able to get another 30 min cardio later tonight, make up for yesterday not walking my whole amount of time. A

[carbjunkie]

Cool Ash glad you got the 30mins in. I know I have to stop being negative. It's my problem with this weight loss cross. I do do well when I get to eat what I want so you are right..need to spice up the menu.

Your lunch sounded pretty good..I think I'll do something like that tomorrow night. I dunno yet what's on the line for tonight my mood has varied by the hour so we'll see.

Hope you and Jina have a nice evening.

T.

[cardenas5usa]

So just as I was lamenting, I got a call from Linda, one of curves friends, the one that suggested that I do cooking classes. She wanted to know if my class was full yet, I almost started to cry but then laughed and said "actually no." She said great, I'll be coming with my son and daughter-in-law. WHAT WHAT!!?? Yeah, so that is three people in an instant, and she asked if there was more space if she could round up some more friends. Weird, but I am glad. Tomarrow I am going to print out all my recipe sheets to go along with it, and go get them each a light weight tortilla press, cross my fingers I can find some. I think it would be nice to be able to give them each an unexpected gift that would make repeating the meal easier.

T, I didn't read it as negitivity, just frustration, and I feel you. If you ever need ideas, just post what you have in the frige and I'll give you some ideas.

A.

[cardenas5usa]

Good morning T, I see your green light.

[cardenas5usa]

So I just got back from curves, I did and extra half lap just for good measure. I don't know what is on the menu today for me. You biking or walk today? Jina, what exercise are you doing today, I believe I remember you saying you were going to get back in it this week.

See ya in a bit, A.

[cardenas5usa]

Afternoon

Today has been a good so far. I had a few bites roast beef this morning. I took the kids to play for a while and I took my laptop to finish up my recipes. I had a nice big coffee, jitter jitter, and now we are home and the kids are going to watch Surf's Up for a bit. It is a cute movie.

I just had a little of my leftover stuffed squash, and hosing it down with a lot of water.

You two must be busy bees today, hope you are having good days, and I'll see ya mas tarde. Ash

[carbjunkie]

Hey Ash..I did peek in but had to go and now I am back. Hi

I didn't mean you were saying I was negative..I meant it's me who thinks I am negative

I haven't gotten to any exercise yet but I will walk later. Here's what I've had so far..

B - 1hb egg 1 slice ham
L - sm salmon n apple
S - dunno
D - prob el pollo loco

[carbjunkie]

Hey guys...

I just wanted to tell you real quick what I've been dealing with all day. I got a call at 2pm that my grandma (moms mom) had a stroke/brain bleed and was found on the floor of her house. We don't know how long she was there but she is now in intensive care waiting for a prognosis. Grams is 74 so I know she's had her time here but I grew up with her in my everyday life. I hope she comes out of this.

Please say a for Alice..one of the great grandmas on this planet.

Talk to you girls later.

T.

[carbjunkie]

This is my grams Alice...she saved me from so many nights of doing dishes when I had homework

[carbjunkie]

Ghost town in here...

My grandma fell into a coma this just makes me so sad.

[Stelakate]

Sweet T, how sad and SO sorry to have stayed away, last 2 days were CRAZY but enough of that.
What a sweet grandma and I will say again the women in your family age so gracefully.

What a nice, long and full life right? The only solace during tough times....come on having your terrific family to share in her life, what could be better than that?

I am here if you need to talk, for real too. Very sorry to hear that. Keep me posted.

Ash, Congrats on your cooking class...perhaps the tide has turned and this is the beginning of something beautiful, you go Rachel Rae. I would totally watch you on foodnetwork. You should submit to be the next food network star....

I miss you two, about the antidepressants....Prozac saved my life this year, I firmly believe that. Don't knock it, they are available for a reason.....

You two call if you ever need to talk, sorry I missed so much.
In my prayers - both of you

[cardenas5usa]

Wow, this is the first chance I have had to get on here all day! I didn't even come downstairs until like 1 in the afternoon. My poor kids were so hungry, but they both helped me do some more heavy duty cleaning. I took them to get a quick bite then Maya came home and it has been go go go since. Today was the Jog-a-thon, she ran 21 laps!! She must be part horse or something.

T- I am so sorry to hear about your grandma, I wish I would have checked in earlier. I will be thinking about you and your grandma and do a prayer for her. I hope everything works out, I know strokes are not good, but people can recover quite well. Crossing my fingers for you all!

Jina, busy girl. Thank you for the nudges, it may be a turn or just another distraction, but all in all I am feeling better. I have been really up and down lately, even E asks regularly what is wrong and says that I am just not the same sometimes. I dunno, we'll see. I know I will be mom checked soon if things don't get consistantly better, she is so aware of it. My family has a long history of depression and mental illness, gulp. LOL.

Ashley

[carbjunkie]

Hi girls...it's been a crazy busy day for me..on the computer booking flights..on the phone constantly from every direction

I just got back from taking my aunt to the airport and now all her daughters are going to be there by tonight. There is 8 kids...4 girls and 4 boys. Grams went into surgery an hour ago..doesn't look too good but I am going to keep the faith if she decides she wants to go then I just hope her kids can all be at her bedside. I had my bouts of tears today but I am ok I just feel sad that I didn't see her..I hate regrets. I should have called more and I didn't. I was her favorite I spent more time with her growing up than I did with my mom...she is the best. Whatever happens I'm ok guys I'm not freaking out or anything I'm just very sad.

Love U girls...thank you for the sweet thoughts and your prayers. They are needed and appreciated

Your friend,
Teresa