Need a motivating buddy to lose 50 pounds with by April 2007

[carbjunkie]

I want to see sicko too..I love how m. moore calls our superiors on their bullsh*t. I think people hate the truth and that's why he doesn't get much support. I don't understand the ignorance of the world out there. I guess that's why we are kept down and struggling. When you make $250,000 a year and can't live in luxury...OR get proper health care..something is wrong! The ignorance is abound

We are going to see 1408 tomorrow.

I sometimes use food when I am bored/stressed or worried but never when I am sad..weird. I don't do it much anymore but I still find myself going to the fridge and asking myself..why am I here?

Live and Learn

[Stelakate]

We didn't see the movie yet, Ashley. Going this weekend....me rolling eyes. She mentioned it last night, how sorry she is that she hasn't taken me quite yet and it's been out 3 weeks. Whatev. If she doesn't want to go, I can go w/ someone else. Too spooky to watch it alone, the story itself freaked me out.

Alright, gotta go. These feelings come in waves, now I am totally sad again...after feeling so good reading earlier. I wonder if my hormones are different with the little bit of weight loss, if the surgery plays a roll in these periods....just fatigued more than normal. Guess I should be taking my vitamins, right?

What I wouldn't give to be in a different place right now....

[carbjunkie]

Hang in there man..you can do this. It will come in waves..and yes hormones/weight loss/immunity are all playing a factor on mood.

I hope you have a relaxing evening..you need it.

T

[cardenas5usa]

Hey yeah, and don't tons of toxins and homones store themselves in fat, so when you lose weight they all abound into your system and make you go a bit cooky. My mom mentioned it the other day as an explaination why my acne had gotten so weird in the recent months, but now that I am losing at a slower pace it won't be such a BaBoom factor. Hmmm....have a good rest of the day girls, I'll check in later tonight.

Ash

T- I love the new avi, where did Mr. Smiley come from? He made me laugh as soon as I saw him.

oh and duh, SICKO, of course I have seen the ads, just not on TV, I scaned passed it in the paper the other day. Yes, I want to see it too, but I'll prob wait till on DVD, so not E's thing or my mom's. I remember in HS I took a history class called Alternatives to Violence, the teacher was an amazing teacher, how he could get us think in ways we had never thought before. Anyway, he showed us the Mike Moore film Roger & Me, and ever since then I have followed Mike Moore's films. I am glad he gets more press than he used to, but I agree T, people in high places are afraid the truth will bring em back down to earth, so they just try as much to squash it. Poo poo on them.

[Stelakate]

I am off to dream land. I had a rough day, but it helped to have you here, a good talk with Kate and a visit from Bre.

Have I told you lately, I love you both to freakin pieces??

Hey Ash, have you tried Proactiv? I have it, my skin was problematic for a bit, mostly t-zone area, it really worked. Damn, I haven't had a problem since Stela was born, my skin was WHACKED then....sucked. Tanning does help A LOT. T...SHHHH!

Here are some pics. Love you. Night.
Stephie's pool party, Bre and Stela at the street fest on the 3rd, Us at the park waiting on fireworks, The kids and us, Stela and Fischer today.

[Stelakate]

TGIFFFFFF!!!!!
I overslept, there isn't much I hate more than that. I was so frazzled getting here, but it's calming down now. Looks like a gorgeous day outside! I still have a burn or my a ss would be at the pool right after work for sure.

Weight:
231

Have a good morning.

[carbjunkie]

Morning! I thought for sure I'd at least gained 1 lb but am ok..no change so I am happy with that..ya know after the pressure of this wedding is off of me I think I'll be ok. I hate time restraints it makes me self sabotage.

Anyway...Ashley..Mr. Smiley was made by T. I told the kids they could only have pancakes if they had some blueberries with them..so..the face I thought it was cute so I took a pic.

Jina..I can't believe the number I am seeing You are shrinking before our eyes..pics are cute..looks like you guys had some fun..look at all those babies

Ok..I have the busiest weekend ever so I'm gonna start early and head out for errand running. R will be home early today so we can get some stuff done.

Yes..you have told us you us and we you too!

T.

[Stelakate]

Sounds good T. You are getting ready for the wedding, what day do you leave again?
I suck at that remembering thing. Thanks, I am feeling so good today, in every way. I posted at TT about the relationship and the changes people go through, lots of positive responses it helped a lot! One lady said, "the pendulum will swing wide during this time but you'll settle at a happy medium". Isn't that a good statement?
So that's that.

So much to do this weekend myself. Going to do some private care (bath, med set up) for a patient of mine for the next two weeks. Should be an hour and the cash is PHAT so it will help w/ Stela's bday.

Have fun today.

[Stelakate]

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This was a post from TT. I can't even say how perfectly she said everything. I just loved it. Especially the last paragraph. I am printing this off.

Jina,
I am happy to tell you that my partner and I (4 years together) have never had any of the issues with regard to our relationship that have hurt some of the others on this board. She is overweight, but not as bad as I was. I am 12 years her senior, so she has had to assume lots of the physical stuff that I am no longer capable of doing due to back problems and complications from the surgery. Other than that, our love is stronger, deeper, more meaningful from the fact that I nearly died, and she calls me her "Trophy Wife" and is my biggest fan. She loves me in all the ways that our sisters on this board have wished for themselves, and I wish I could give them the magic formula to enable them to have it in their lives. I was with a husband for 17 years and another woman for 14, and while we always remained friends, Michelle is the woman I want to grow old with. Her love is so deep and complete that she helps me be a better person every single day as I strive to be worthy of such love. It doesn't always have to be hard to love someone. I know how many folks have lost their spouses due to one or the other not being able to deal with the changes, but a lot of people on this board have also found new love, love on their terms, with no "settling" because they feel unworthy in some way.

Gina in NY put it so well, that despite our best intentions and actions, things change, we change. Some will be hurt in those changes, some will emerge stronger and wiser. We all have change to assimilate, but it's not always a bad thing. Just like your baby--they change every single day as they learn and grow, and it isn't always something to be feared.

Those of us who have a strong copilot on this magic carpet ride are blessed, others find strength in other ways and are likewise blessed. Life is full of changes whether we weigh 150 or 300--without change there is no growth. Without growth there is no ability to sway with the winds and flex when it's needed. I do believe we all learn about ourselves on a primal level, things that we formerly needed our size in order to protect us or nurture us. Sometimes those around us aren't up for the work--they are the ones who get left behind. Change is not a choice we get to make. This life stuff is multi layered and never takes a vacation! All we can do is hang on and make the best decisions we can each day.

I feel like I'm just rambling, but I hope I have been able to communicate a little.

[cardenas5usa]

Okay, I haven't even finished reading the posts this mornign but I can't contain my excitement! 231 Jina!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I knew it, I was betting with myself on the number you'd throw up and I guessed 231. I am in awwwwwwwwwwwwwww!!!! GOOOOOOOOOOOOODDDDDDDDD JJJJJJJOOOOOOOBBBBBBBBB!!!

T, that is good that you didn't gain any and that it is okay with you! I am happy happy for you!

Jina, those pictures are really cute and fun! And I am so glad you had another good talk with Kate.

T- tell baby T that I loved her Mr. Smiley! And what a good mom making sure they get in some fruits, wink wink!

I am bouncing around here but oh well. I weighed in at 161, I am very satisfied with that. It is almost impossible to make it up past 164-5 anymore no matter what I eat. So this week i'lkl be back down to where I was before and then on from there. Yeah!

Okay, I am out the door quick to the local tofu maker to get some before they are sold out! See ya soon!! Ashley

I love you both too! hugs and kisses!

[cardenas5usa]

That post from TT is hair raising, she hit the nail on the head and makes me think about a lot of stuff. Thanx for posting it!

We just got back from going downtown and buy some fresh made tofu, on the way home we treated ourselves to some fabulous green jalapeno curry with chicken and then a tour through a kitchy gourmet grocer.

The Proactive stuff was my next step and my mom has been buggin me to do it for the past year, but it was just one of those things I never got around to. Anyhow, this is a new L'Oreal line that I read about in one of my new mags and thought about and then went to Grocery Outlet and it was there for 2.99 and was like 'hello, I have to give this a shot, what is 3 bucks.' It is almost identical to Proactive, 3 steps, and my face is clear enough now that I don't even have to put on make up if I don't want to, which, for as long as I can remember, has never happened. Anyhow, I just stopped back into G.O. and bought 3 more packs, they are suppose to be a 7 day supply, but so far I am half way through each of the 3 steps and it has been almost 2 weeks, so I figure each one will last me a month.

Okay, I am going to refresh this puppy and see all the new posts. BBL, Ash

[cardenas5usa]

wow, there aren't any new posts between this am and now. You girls must be out enjoying the weekend already! See ya soon!

BTW, while at G.O. Haagen Daaz has started making it's own version of my all time fave Ben&Jerry's Wavy Gravy ice cream. I bought a pint (1.49 how could I resist) to share with my mom tonight. I can't wait to have a taste!.....just a taste

les amo con todo mi corazon!! Ash (brain teaser of the day) lol

[carbjunkie]

Enlightening that TT post..thanks G.

I'm so tired..shopping is serious exercise of the brain and the body. I just got home and am having a lite beer. I have T's shoes and my jewelry to go and we are all set. I keep watching the garden city weather hope it doesn't get over 84

Well girls here's what I ate today (does it even matter?)

B - 1 hb egg 1 espresso
L - small salad w/chicken no dress
S - miller lite
D - pork chop n zucchini n onions

Oh Ash..about Ben n Jerry's ice cream. Have you read about the high amounts of Dioxin that is used in their product? I don't let my kids eat it. Read about it on the net..just google - B&J Dioxin and read.

Ciao for now sweet thangs!

[Stelakate]

You crack me up. I bet there are few things actually GOOD for your body these days.
Thanks Ash, I was happy (reallllly happy) with the scale. At 229 that's the smallest in 12 years, my entire adult life. Can you believe it?
The one's will be a dream, just a dream for me.

These 18 capri's are getting sloppy bad now, it's hard to wear them. I am not buying new clothes at every pit stop, I will just deal. I am just glad to wear the more fitted t's and not feel too crazy uncomfortable in them.

Tofu, never liked it, I bet you'd know just how to make it great, right? I am a big person on texture...if it's weird, I don't like it.

Have been eating low-fat, skim milk swiss cheese slices. The ultra thin ones you can see through, YUMMMMMM-O! I have a sinus infection so I am trying not to drink as much milk, or have yogurt - that kind of thing for a bit.
Glad that Loreal stuff is working, Proactiv has come down SOOO much since I had it. I am just happy you found something for cheap and don't HAVE To wear make-up, that would drive me nutty.

I just got back from the private care. That patient, Imagene is the sweetest lady, I feel like I am robbing them blind, but you have to pay for good help these days. Still, guilt is strong right now.

My g-pa is in town from Arkansas so we'll go by Mom's and visit. He won the Oregon state lottery, bet I never told ya that, did I?
Yah, it's not something I go bragging on and besides it ain't my millions...lol. Cheap old people.

OK, T-good luck wrapping up the last of the goodies for M's wedding.
Enjoy the day love of my life's.

[carbjunkie]

Morning ladies.

R gets up early and tells me he's going to stand in line to get my iPhone..he's too cute..got his research where to find them in stock..the mall close to our house was going to have them so he and T went to wait in line...only for an hour but he was number 22 out of 70.

Anyway the phone is much cooler than I thought. I already loaded my contacts in and am ready to go.

Jina you seem in better spirits..hope you have a super saturday So cool that your Gpa won the lottery!

Ash..did you get that Timbaland song I was asking u about?

[cardenas5usa]

T I keep forgetting about the song, yes I like it, the girl in it, Keri H, has she got booty!! Just like me haha

Jina, you do seem happier today, I mean hey, that lightest you have ever been in adult life thing can't hurt right!! I am so happy for you! I know about the sloppy clothes thing, but soon you'll be buying cool small sizes! Yeah! Yeah, I am happy about my face/make up situation! Another first, we're all about firsts lately!

T, that is so sweet that R and T would go wait in line for your phone. I bet is is sooooo cool!

Well I hope you feel relief from that sinus infection soon! Your gpa just one the lottery here? The one from a week or so ago? That is so great for him, my mom and I had tickets, we always day dream what we would do. What would be the first thing you would do if you won more than a couple million dollars? Me, I would first off put away a huge chunk of it so I could live off the interest for the rest of my life and not have to work (haha) or E have to work. Then I would buy the house of my dreams which probably wouldn't even cost more than 700K and pay someone to decorate it so I could take my family on an extended vacation to all the great places in the world.

Okay, just chillin' with the kids outside, envisioning our next project, patio and backyard pull together.

Ash

[carbjunkie]

Hey Ash..yeah..I just thought you might be a fan of the song. Oh my gosh I wish I could buy my dream house for $700k in all reality that's all the million dollar houses are worth. California dirt is damn expensive! I just got back from shopping..I am home and going to relax now.

Having a nice afternoon dear Jina?

B - 2 eggwhites
L - grilled chicken black beans n salsa
S - espresso w/cream
D - dunno yet

T.

[Stelakate]

No my gpa won the lottery in the 80's. Old money, haha. Don't worry, there won't be any trust funds to wish on anytime soon....he's pretty much spent all his loot, and good for him.

Sat w/ my gma (Mimi) and went through some stuff from the garage, she moved from a 3000 sq foot victorian PACKED TO THE MAX in Berkeley Ca in the 90's. Along the way, she stopped to live w/ her daughter Brenda (Mom's sister-, she is evil) ripped her off royally so a lot of the coolest stuff ever has disappeared but she still has some really awesome things in storage. With every move it would be come less and less, the amnt of things I am talking about cant be described. She was a very eclectic (too many c's?) hippie with fabulous taste and hobby's. She would do stained glass, had hundreds of antique mirrors (told you about them) and crystals from around the world she used to make chandilears (REALLY F'D THAT UP!) and I mean mack daddy ones. SO, these boxes were old jewelry. Sadly, she had gotten so depressed over the years she never want to sort through it. This is the cool gma that had every video game known to man, every cool lotion/prefume fun bath thing from every spa around Ca....a platinum Macy's card since the damn store opened (ok not that long) and this kick ass van that had a stove in it and we'd drive to to the bay and roast hot dogs and listen to Van Morrison. OH those were the days girls. Never met anyone cooler than my Mimi. She was a rock for us growing up.
Looking through her old things, she has some vintage bags that are from the early 1900's, inside the bag would be an equally cool change purse from India and inside that, a really expensive pair of vintage earrings.
Ei-yi-yi....this stuff has sat for years. I was happy to see her go through it.
She found so many 24K gold rings of hers, puzzle rings, old hippie rings with an equally cool story to go along with them....these handmade doile's that are the most intricate I have ever seen. Honestly, in the purses I could still smell the smell of her old perfume, you know the smell of something wonderful that no matter what you'd be doing at the time would send you back in time to the minute you first smelled it.
A really cool day. I am glad we had that time today.
Alright,
off for now. Bre and Pete are over for a new DVD Kate bought me, Dane Cook (LOVE'SSSSSSSS HIMMMMMMMMMMM!), it's not an Iphone, but still a sweet sentiment. Wink wink.

[cardenas5usa]

lol, yeah, a new movie would be more the thing that E would bring home for me. He bought me happy forth flowers the other day, you know the ones that are red, white, and dyed blue. I love those kind of flowers, the for-no-reason-at-all ones.

E came home yesterday with the box set of Star Wars, old ones, and we watched (or rather he did, and I cooked and did all the other stuff I had to do while watching) them. The first time I think we have ever played three consecutive movies.

Lunch, I had marinated tofu and a little lentil salad I made with feta and tomatoes and smoked paprika.

Ash

[carbjunkie]

Sweet dreamz

[cardenas5usa]

Good morning girls! It's Sunday already and I feel the weekend wrapping up. Today we are going to walk the neighborhood and do some garage saleing. It isn't blistering hot today so the kids won't mind walking. I just had a small salad with chicken and salsa and am good to go. Ash

[Stelakate]

Just got home from Stephie's we had another swim party. Blistering it is in Iowa Ash, so be glad you had milder temps.

I never touched on what i'd do w/ lotto winnings. We would build a great house, or rather houses..travel a lot, then open a non-profit business to help gay/bi/trans youth. My dream. Gay people need to know someone cares when a lot of families, etc. dont.

I would love to have Nate Berkus from the Oprah show come and design, besides that I just love looking at him, he is a beautiful, beautiful man.

Well, I am all burned up again and tired....off to read the paper, plan more of Stela's party and drink some coffee.

I hope you two are having fun today.
PS-Star Wars??? Oh hell no, that's an instant nap for me.

[Stelakate]

Last night Kate and I went to the movie 1408. We had a really nice time. It was so weird sharing a small popcorn and actually having over 1/2 of it left. Bringing reeses pieces and gummy worms, I had a couple of each, a couple meaning one or two mini pieces of candy, what a concept, right? I had a few sips of her pop, wish I woulda had water....

anyway, the focus was the movie for once and not the snacks. The movie was good, Kate said one of the scariest of all but I kept comparing it to the book, I HATE THAT!

I give it 3 out of 5 stars.