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Ilpirata · 11-13-2008, 03:33 PM

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Do you eat In'n'Out two doubles at one sitting? Is that a full pound or what? I'm not sure.

I'm afraid I don't know how big the patties are. They are smaller than Carl's. Smaller than the palm of my hand for sure. There were two patties per burger and yep I ate two of em. Here's the nutritional info I found for ONE double double "protein style":

protein-33 carb-11 fat-39 cals-520

I think the carbs are mostly from ketchup which I didn't have. So yeah, two of those was a plenty big old meal!

duece49424 · 11-13-2008, 04:09 PM

Kisha - I don't even know what a I'n'Out is???? But if I would get a double burger at BK or McD's for something quick when I'm on the run, do you think your "protein style" would be good for that too?

Zer · 11-13-2008, 04:28 PM

I'm guessing that you got close to a half# of meat, with 4 smaller patties from In'n'Out as compared with two qtr# patties from Carl's. Quite a meal for me!

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Originally Posted by Ilpirata

I'm afraid I don't know how big the patties are. They are smaller than Carl's. Smaller than the palm of my hand for sure. There were two patties per burger and yep I ate two of em. Here's the nutritional info I found for ONE double double "protein style":

protein-33 carb-11 fat-39 cals-520

I think the carbs are mostly from ketchup which I didn't have. So yeah, two of those was a plenty big old meal!

Yep, I skip all the sauces too. Just the beef and onions, tomato - and sweet pickle chips (not LC, no way!) for me!

Wish I had the energy to haul the car out of the lot and make a burger run! But I've been waiting all day for a visit from NatDoc and chiro son - and it has been deferred (again) to Monday 11/17. I've got to get some protein into me. Tuna in olive oil sounds like a sure thing. Wish I had sardines. Funny how waiting wears me out. Just sitting here, answering phone, making calls, and I'm as worn out as if I'd actually DONE something. Haven't. Waiting....

duece49424 · 11-13-2008, 04:34 PM

Zer - sorry you had a day like that...just think of it as waiting...frustrating...burning calories....

Ilpirata · 11-13-2008, 04:42 PM

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But if I would get a double burger at BK or McD's for something quick when I'm on the run, do you think your "protein style" would be good for that too?

BK you can order a "LOW CARB" whopper with cheese - you have to also specify no ketchup. They put it on a bed of lettuce and give you a fork and knife for it. I don't eat McD's but you should be able to order just "NO BUN" which is how I have to order at Wendy's. I think the "protein style" name is specific to In N Out - they also have "animal style" which means smothered in thousand island. French Fries "animal style" Burger "animal style"

Zer · 11-13-2008, 04:45 PM

Thanks for the comfort. I feel so childish whingeing about being tired from just waiting. These people are TRYING to help me. All the phone calls and callback msgs wear me out. That's partly my Aspie nature. Too many contacts and too many things to track and I am not keeping a notebook, just scraps of paper, so finding my way back to an exchange is not always easy. Solution? Copy all the calls and msgs onto a tablet and simplify what is turning into a long affair.

Home health nurse says all of this will lead to a SINGLE VISIT by a PTherapist with a plan for me to follow - or not. So I have a better chance of PT with the chiro son of NatDoc, who will work on finding a PTherapist who can come to me and work with me on understanding how much pain I should work through and how much pain I should respect as a warning to rest up, let the body heal.

Which reminds me, time to call the physiatrist (MD specialty based on a belief that the human body heals itself through physical therapy - as I understand the bit that I read in AARP's magazine this month). We've played phone tag and it's his turn to call, but... I think I'll call him again, just in case he can advise me on finding a PTherapist.

I've seen HMO's PTs and they are not much better than the MDs as far as patient care, far as I can tell. Visited HMO's PT center three times and found it a total waste of $5 and my time each visit, with different PTs and no real dx of the groin pain to work as a guide. So I got no real help from PT, when I was hoping to find a PT whose analysis would help the MD dx my groin pain - sort of a backward process, but I was hopeful that a good PT would help me communicate better with the HMO MDs than I've been able to do on my own.

All avenues are worth exploring! I'm off to buzz the physiatrist once more!

Ilpirata · 11-13-2008, 05:51 PM

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Thanks for the comfort. I feel so childish whingeing about being tired from just waiting. These people are TRYING to help me. All the phone calls and callback msgs wear me out. That's partly my Aspie nature.

Its not just you! That type of thing would be wearing on me too!
Hang in there girl. You are making so many postive changes lately - I'm so impressed by all that you have accomplished and how WILLING you have been to take such extra effort to improve your life. You go.

duece49424 · 11-13-2008, 06:34 PM

Zer - that would be my nature too...I can't think of too many people that would want to sit and wait for someone like that....glad you are here with us.

retroworx · 11-13-2008, 10:16 PM

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Originally Posted by Zer

All avenues are worth exploring!

Keep up the good fight, Zer!

Zer · 11-17-2008, 10:27 AM

373.0 today (11/17/08)
...give or take, as I wobbled on my scale...
...that's 6.4# GONE so far in Nov., from 379.4 (11/1)
...and 3.2# GONE since I last weighed - 376.2 (11/13)

Looks to me as if I might get a double-digit loss for November if I stick to my program, working meat and eggs mostly, with a little liverwurst to spice up things!

Pray for me to see 369# - or less - on my scale by Nov.30!

Hope you are having a productive LC day today!

Buffy45 · 11-17-2008, 11:08 AM

Zer, I have to confess that I follow this thread just to keep up with your amazing and wonderful progress. I don't know you but want you to know that I am pulling for you every lb of the way! Awesome loss this month!

duece49424 · 11-17-2008, 04:48 PM

Zer - you're going to get there by November 30 - I know it!! Hang in there and keep up the great work!

Zer · 11-17-2008, 10:14 PM

Don't want to overshoot, but I am (secretly) hopeful that I'll show 15# GONE in November. Just have to stick to my plan and work toward just managing a double-digit loss, which is a decent loss for a month. When will it all start showing up as easier movement, I wonder. Still an awful struggle to get on my feet, to shuffle around, even in this small room. I hope it will get easier as the pounds are less ponderous. It just HAS to make some difference, doesn't it?

Thank you all for your kind support and encouragement. Means a LOT to me!

retroworx · 11-17-2008, 10:57 PM

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Originally Posted by Zer

Pray for me to see 369# - or less - on my scale by Nov.30!

Your wish is my command:

Ilpirata · 11-18-2008, 09:13 AM

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I hope it will get easier as the pounds are less ponderous. It just HAS to make some difference, doesn't it?

I believe in my heart one hundred percent that you will get better and better!

Zer · 11-18-2008, 04:30 PM

Lordy, I'm riding on a high from eating chocolate pudding - AvoChoco legal LC pudding - that has shot me full of serotonin (I'm guessing) and I am beyond mellow after being a raging idjit all day long. My Inner Child was in charge and all she wanted to see was someone delivering CHOCOLATE! Nothing else. She's an impudent brat and I never know what she will blurt out when she's at the controls, as she was for the early part of the day today. Why? Probably because I need to be an adult and speak frankly to the woman I paid on Saturday to give me an hour a day of help - and she has not yet showed up or called to tell me when or if she plans on appearing today to start working off the 7hrs that she has been paid for. She told me that she was not available on Sunday - as if that absolves her of doing what I paid her to do, which is to offer an hour a day of "can I help you?" to me. Then she did not come by Monday, knowing that Dora would be here for 4hrs that day. But she told me Saturday that she would do 2hrs Tuesday - and I must address that as not being what I need from her, for her to tell me what she thinks she can do in this room as she works off the cash advanced to her as a favor. She had to cover a bill, so I wrote a check - and she gave me euros as security that she will reclaim after she works off the 8hrs that I paid her for. So...I'm going to try to deal with this, as an adult, when she appears.

I think this is what brought out my Inner Brat to plague me today. She is a bully, my Inner Brat, and tends to want to thrash me when I am being weak and failing to take care of myself. She rides me like a demon, spurring me as if I was a rodeo bronc. Today she was demanding CHOCOLATE...NOW!

I've been raving like a lunatic, trying to talk it out instead of eat eat EAT to get beyond the frantic feeling that CHOCOLATE would solve all my issues, including a "helper" who has not shown up since Saturday night when she brought me a hunk of mature broccoli instead of the broccoli sprouts that I asked for. She's not yet contacted me today, a day that she said she'd come to give me 2hrs of help - as if that makes up for leaving me on my own Sunday. Sigh. Raving at everyone and explaining that my Inner Child was in charge today, as if that is an explanation for a 64yr old to behave like an idjit. I'm about ready to make a case for sorting out this failure to communicate (such a great line from some Paul Newman movie - about a failure to communicate!). I can do this, right? I am competent to be an advocate for myself, especially with someone I'm paying to help me, to be a friend - even a paid friend. I can do this. I can. I know I can.

Today I had a visit from my NatDoc and her chiro son assessing me for his course of treatment to get me back on my feet. He will come to me twice a week to do PT on me, helping me to get a grip on what movement builds up strength in my useless-for-lifting/lowering thigh muscles. Shall I do it? The cost is $75 for a home visit, twice a week, for 4wks. I think it might help.

I'd call it my Christmas gift from me to me. What do you think? Shall I?

Oh, the chocolate pudding idea came after the two kind folks had left me and my eye fell on some avocados sitting nearby. I recalled that LC recipe for chocolate pudding made with avocado, cacao powder, flavored sweetener. Whipped up my first batch and OMG is it satisfying! I still have some left, as it hit all of my serotonin receptors at once and I realized that I was calmer, felt less homicidal and more like whistling a tune. So I packed up the pudd'n for later and pried open a tin of sardines, as I know I need more protein than I am getting lately. I've got a plentiful stock of sardines now, having ordered online from BuyTheCase dot net - and got the same fishies that Trader Joe's used to stock. I'm set. Big box of sardines under my bed, easy to reach.

Now about this serotonin that has me calmer. WoW! I'm flying on it!

I used some Torani orange to flavor/sweeten the AvoChoco Pud'n, then added a sprinkle of salt to balance things out. What a great pudding it is. Got a bit left for a treat later on. Just a tiny taste at a time really puts me over the top as far as feeling as if I've had a true chocolate treat. What an amazing thing this is - and it's legal. I recommend this highly for anyone who is freaking out for chocolate. It's been hours now and I am still riding high on serotonin. I'm sure that's what is causing this mellow high that I'm on now.

I'm totally mellow. Flying low on my serotonin high. I'm so drugged out!

Ilpirata · 11-18-2008, 04:35 PM

for the last three days I've been seriously undereating - some sick attempt to make the Armour Thyroid work faster. Guess what... I'M UP THREE POUNDS!! Woo Hoo. yay. WHEN WILL I LEARN THIS LESSON? I guess with the thyroid meds I thought maybe I did not have to obey BMR anymore. Even though I KNOW that when I hit a new low low and undereat to get below it my weight ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS goes back up. I'm frustrated with myself.

I did an LCF search for hypothyroid diet and guess what... it can be even MORE important for me to make sure I eat enough calories... and also important to try eating more frequent smaller meals like I was when I first started this challenge.

GAH!

Zer · 11-18-2008, 04:46 PM

So I'm not the only one fighting the BMR imperative to EAT MORE OFTEN as well as EATING MORE CALORIES to meet my BMR? Glad I'm not the only idjit here!

NatDoc says her readings indicate I'm losing muscle. I must eat more. I must!

Ilpirata · 11-18-2008, 05:19 PM

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So I'm not the only one fighting the BMR imperative to EAT MORE OFTEN as well as EATING MORE CALORIES to meet my BMR? Glad I'm not the only idjit here!

NatDoc says her readings indicate I'm losing muscle. I must eat more. I must!

nono! No More Idjits. Its just fighting a lifetime of conditioning!
Its so hard. But at least we know what to do...

Zer · 11-18-2008, 05:19 PM

Honestly, I've got a pot of this serotonin pudding right here, about half of what I made from one avocado.

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...researchers believe chocolate cravings have something to do with serotonin, a brain chemical that makes us feel relaxed. (CNN)

I ate tiny bites and got such a rush that I'm almost afraid to think what will happen if I eat the rest. Maybe 1/4 cup left. So rich! Wish I had some cayenne to add, just to see what effect mixing up what is said to be reminiscent of that brew the ancients drank to build their sexual potency and give them visions. Okay, so they did not use avocado. But the movie "Chocolat" adds a pinch of some hot spice to a cup of hot chocolat. I bet I'd be happy with some cayenne added to this glop that I've got left. OMG, it's good!

Zer · 11-18-2008, 05:21 PM

Funny how KNOWING has so little effect on what we end up DOING, isn't it?

Not funny-haha but funny-weird/annoying.

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Originally Posted by Ilpirata

nono! No More Idjits. It's just fighting a lifetime of conditioning!
It's so hard. But at least we know what to do...

Ilpirata · 11-18-2008, 05:22 PM

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Funny how KNOWING has so little effect on what we end up DOING, isn't it? Not funny-haha but funny-weird/annoying.

Yeah, like funny LAME lol

Ilpirata · 11-19-2008, 10:01 AM

Well at least I tracked.

Calories 1,993
Fat 163.3 1,450 70 %
Carbohydrate 31.8 120 6 %
Dietary Fiber 9.5
Protein 120.2 492 24 %
Alcohol 0.0 0 0 %

REALLY Happy with the carb number.

NOT happy with total calories. I have some new eating goals based in my hypOthyroidism. I'd like to eat to the lower end of my HB equiation... so 1800 calories, NOT 2000. I want to eat between 30-40 grams of carbs per day...

lisabinil · 11-19-2008, 10:16 AM

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Originally Posted by Ilpirata

Well at least I tracked.

Calories 1,993
Fat 163.3 1,450 70 %
Carbohydrate 31.8 120 6 %
Dietary Fiber 9.5
Protein 120.2 492 24 %
Alcohol 0.0 0 0 %

REALLY Happy with the carb number.

NOT happy with total calories. I have some new eating goals based in my hypOthyroidism. I'd like to eat to the lower end of my HB equiation... so 1800 calories, NOT 2000. I want to eat between 30-40 grams of carbs per day...

Healthy veggies & fruits.

Ilpirata · 11-19-2008, 10:33 AM

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Healthy veggies & fruits.

Thank you! I've got the veggies... not *quite* ready for the fruit yet. Just some blueberries is all I do. For me getting above 20g a day has been a big thing!

IdahoAngel · 11-19-2008, 11:46 AM

I'm going to give this a try! My goal for this week is 2100 cal/day. That seems like so much, but I'm going to give this my best shot! So far I've had 631 cal....56 g fat, 11 carbs, and 19 g protein. I can see this is going to be hard to keep my carbs low and calories up at first until I get things figured out. So glad I found this thread to help me out!

Ilpirata · 11-19-2008, 03:02 PM

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I'm going to give this a try!

Awesome! Welcome.
You're right it does take awhile to iron out the kinks. Tracking is your new BFF!

MaryKayMayBe4u2 · 11-19-2008, 10:36 PM

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Originally Posted by JerseyGirl1969

I expect to be 2169 for the day:
54%fat
23g/6% carb
38% protein

Give or take, I may up it higher today. Menu is
Egg cream (2 egg, 1/4c h.c., 12oz water, van. extract, 2 sweetener)
protein powder (4 servings)
white castle hamburger pie
celery with c/c
almonds

I've been in such a rush lately that I've been relyign on protein powder for filler.

Tomorrow, I have a day off. Spa, then house clean and get life in order and enjoy a long weekend.

Not expecting a loss this week as it's TOM next week and I historically hold this week and next and whoosh 4lbs the week after.

Sorry, but what is whitecastle hamburger pie? How do you make it?

IdahoAngel · 11-20-2008, 05:32 AM

WhiteCastle Pie is from Linda's Site
(Linda's Low Carb Menus & Recipes)

I haven't made it in ages, but am thinking about it for tonight!

Zer · 11-20-2008, 05:39 AM

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Originally Posted by MaryKayMayBe4u2

...what is white castle hamburger pie? How do you make it?

Beef, cheese, eggs, mayo, cream, topped off with dill pickle and mustard. Sure sounds tasty to me. More cheese than I usually eat, as I see a real slowing in weight loss when I indulge in cheese.

11-18-2008, 04:35 PM	#1907
Ilpirata Big Yapper!!!! Join Date: Nov 2007 Location: Beautiful San Jose, CA Posts: 7,626 Gallery: Ilpirata Stats: 263/193/170 for now... WOE: Low Carb JUDD (Alternate Day Diet) Start Date: September 2007	for the last three days I've been seriously undereating - some sick attempt to make the Armour Thyroid work faster. Guess what... I'M UP THREE POUNDS!! Woo Hoo. yay. WHEN WILL I LEARN THIS LESSON? I guess with the thyroid meds I thought maybe I did not have to obey BMR anymore. Even though I KNOW that when I hit a new low low and undereat to get below it my weight ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS goes back up. I'm frustrated with myself. I did an LCF search for hypothyroid diet and guess what... it can be even MORE important for me to make sure I eat enough calories... and also important to try eating more frequent smaller meals like I was when I first started this challenge. GAH! __________________ ~Kisha hypothyroid * five seven I am the Winston Churchill of weightloss. I will NEVER give up. I can do Hard things. VFT 187

11-19-2008, 10:01 AM	#1913
Ilpirata Big Yapper!!!! Join Date: Nov 2007 Location: Beautiful San Jose, CA Posts: 7,626 Gallery: Ilpirata Stats: 263/193/170 for now... WOE: Low Carb JUDD (Alternate Day Diet) Start Date: September 2007	Yesterdays Totals Well at least I tracked. Calories 1,993 Fat 163.3 1,450 70 % Carbohydrate 31.8 120 6 % Dietary Fiber 9.5 Protein 120.2 492 24 % Alcohol 0.0 0 0 % REALLY Happy with the carb number. NOT happy with total calories. I have some new eating goals based in my hypOthyroidism. I'd like to eat to the lower end of my HB equiation... so 1800 calories, NOT 2000. I want to eat between 30-40 grams of carbs per day...

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11-13-2008, 04:09 PM	#1892
duece49424 Senior LCF Member Join Date: May 2007 Location: Holland, MI Posts: 674 Gallery: duece49424 Stats: 223 start...150 lifetime goal WOE: low carb/healthylifestyle - struggling with binges	Kisha - I don't even know what a I'n'Out is???? But if I would get a double burger at BK or McD's for something quick when I'm on the run, do you think your "protein style" would be good for that too?

11-13-2008, 04:34 PM	#1894
duece49424 Senior LCF Member Join Date: May 2007 Location: Holland, MI Posts: 674 Gallery: duece49424 Stats: 223 start...150 lifetime goal WOE: low carb/healthylifestyle - struggling with binges	Zer - sorry you had a day like that...just think of it as waiting...frustrating...burning calories....

11-13-2008, 04:45 PM	#1896
Zer Guest Join Date: Dec 2007 Location: SoCal (N.San Diego) Posts: 9,146 Blog Entries: 43 Gallery: Zer Stats: 5'10"; 65; 508.7/_320.0_/199 WOE: Atkins: <5%Carb; J-UD/DD(<2798/560cals); 128ozH2O Start Date: Got scale at 432.4(2/8/08); 376.8(2/8/09)	Thanks for the comfort. I feel so childish whingeing about being tired from just waiting. These people are TRYING to help me. All the phone calls and callback msgs wear me out. That's partly my Aspie nature. Too many contacts and too many things to track and I am not keeping a notebook, just scraps of paper, so finding my way back to an exchange is not always easy. Solution? Copy all the calls and msgs onto a tablet and simplify what is turning into a long affair. Home health nurse says all of this will lead to a SINGLE VISIT by a PTherapist with a plan for me to follow - or not. So I have a better chance of PT with the chiro son of NatDoc, who will work on finding a PTherapist who can come to me and work with me on understanding how much pain I should work through and how much pain I should respect as a warning to rest up, let the body heal. Which reminds me, time to call the physiatrist (MD specialty based on a belief that the human body heals itself through physical therapy - as I understand the bit that I read in AARP's magazine this month). We've played phone tag and it's his turn to call, but... I think I'll call him again, just in case he can advise me on finding a PTherapist. I've seen HMO's PTs and they are not much better than the MDs as far as patient care, far as I can tell. Visited HMO's PT center three times and found it a total waste of $5 and my time each visit, with different PTs and no real dx of the groin pain to work as a guide. So I got no real help from PT, when I was hoping to find a PT whose analysis would help the MD dx my groin pain - sort of a backward process, but I was hopeful that a good PT would help me communicate better with the HMO MDs than I've been able to do on my own. All avenues are worth exploring! I'm off to buzz the physiatrist once more!

11-13-2008, 06:34 PM	#1898
duece49424 Senior LCF Member Join Date: May 2007 Location: Holland, MI Posts: 674 Gallery: duece49424 Stats: 223 start...150 lifetime goal WOE: low carb/healthylifestyle - struggling with binges	Zer - that would be my nature too...I can't think of too many people that would want to sit and wait for someone like that....glad you are here with us.

11-17-2008, 10:27 AM	#1900
Zer Guest Join Date: Dec 2007 Location: SoCal (N.San Diego) Posts: 9,146 Blog Entries: 43 Gallery: Zer Stats: 5'10"; 65; 508.7/_320.0_/199 WOE: Atkins: <5%Carb; J-UD/DD(<2798/560cals); 128ozH2O Start Date: Got scale at 432.4(2/8/08); 376.8(2/8/09)	373.0 today (11/17/08) ...give or take, as I wobbled on my scale... ...that's 6.4# GONE so far in Nov., from 379.4 (11/1) ...and 3.2# GONE since I last weighed - 376.2 (11/13) Looks to me as if I might get a double-digit loss for November if I stick to my program, working meat and eggs mostly, with a little liverwurst to spice up things! Pray for me to see 369# - or less - on my scale by Nov.30! Hope you are having a productive LC day today!

11-17-2008, 11:08 AM	#1901
Buffy45 Very Gabby LCF Member!!! Join Date: Mar 2001 Location: Lewisville, TX USA Posts: 4,227 Gallery: Buffy45 Stats: Type 2 Diabetic as of 6/1/08 WOE: Path to better health Start Date: Restart 6/1/08	Zer, I have to confess that I follow this thread just to keep up with your amazing and wonderful progress. I don't know you but want you to know that I am pulling for you every lb of the way! Awesome loss this month!

11-17-2008, 04:48 PM	#1902
duece49424 Senior LCF Member Join Date: May 2007 Location: Holland, MI Posts: 674 Gallery: duece49424 Stats: 223 start...150 lifetime goal WOE: low carb/healthylifestyle - struggling with binges	Zer - you're going to get there by November 30 - I know it!! Hang in there and keep up the great work!

11-17-2008, 10:14 PM	#1903
Zer Guest Join Date: Dec 2007 Location: SoCal (N.San Diego) Posts: 9,146 Blog Entries: 43 Gallery: Zer Stats: 5'10"; 65; 508.7/_320.0_/199 WOE: Atkins: <5%Carb; J-UD/DD(<2798/560cals); 128ozH2O Start Date: Got scale at 432.4(2/8/08); 376.8(2/8/09)	Don't want to overshoot, but I am (secretly) hopeful that I'll show 15# GONE in November. Just have to stick to my plan and work toward just managing a double-digit loss, which is a decent loss for a month. When will it all start showing up as easier movement, I wonder. Still an awful struggle to get on my feet, to shuffle around, even in this small room. I hope it will get easier as the pounds are less ponderous. It just HAS to make some difference, doesn't it? Thank you all for your kind support and encouragement. Means a LOT to me!

11-18-2008, 04:30 PM	#1906
Zer Guest Join Date: Dec 2007 Location: SoCal (N.San Diego) Posts: 9,146 Blog Entries: 43 Gallery: Zer Stats: 5'10"; 65; 508.7/_320.0_/199 WOE: Atkins: <5%Carb; J-UD/DD(<2798/560cals); 128ozH2O Start Date: Got scale at 432.4(2/8/08); 376.8(2/8/09)	Lordy, I'm riding on a high from eating chocolate pudding - AvoChoco legal LC pudding - that has shot me full of serotonin (I'm guessing) and I am beyond mellow after being a raging idjit all day long. My Inner Child was in charge and all she wanted to see was someone delivering CHOCOLATE! Nothing else. She's an impudent brat and I never know what she will blurt out when she's at the controls, as she was for the early part of the day today. Why? Probably because I need to be an adult and speak frankly to the woman I paid on Saturday to give me an hour a day of help - and she has not yet showed up or called to tell me when or if she plans on appearing today to start working off the 7hrs that she has been paid for. She told me that she was not available on Sunday - as if that absolves her of doing what I paid her to do, which is to offer an hour a day of "can I help you?" to me. Then she did not come by Monday, knowing that Dora would be here for 4hrs that day. But she told me Saturday that she would do 2hrs Tuesday - and I must address that as not being what I need from her, for her to tell me what she thinks she can do in this room as she works off the cash advanced to her as a favor. She had to cover a bill, so I wrote a check - and she gave me euros as security that she will reclaim after she works off the 8hrs that I paid her for. So...I'm going to try to deal with this, as an adult, when she appears. I think this is what brought out my Inner Brat to plague me today. She is a bully, my Inner Brat, and tends to want to thrash me when I am being weak and failing to take care of myself. She rides me like a demon, spurring me as if I was a rodeo bronc. Today she was demanding CHOCOLATE...NOW! I've been raving like a lunatic, trying to talk it out instead of eat eat EAT to get beyond the frantic feeling that CHOCOLATE would solve all my issues, including a "helper" who has not shown up since Saturday night when she brought me a hunk of mature broccoli instead of the broccoli sprouts that I asked for. She's not yet contacted me today, a day that she said she'd come to give me 2hrs of help - as if that makes up for leaving me on my own Sunday. Sigh. Raving at everyone and explaining that my Inner Child was in charge today, as if that is an explanation for a 64yr old to behave like an idjit. I'm about ready to make a case for sorting out this failure to communicate (such a great line from some Paul Newman movie - about a failure to communicate!). I can do this, right? I am competent to be an advocate for myself, especially with someone I'm paying to help me, to be a friend - even a paid friend. I can do this. I can. I know I can. Today I had a visit from my NatDoc and her chiro son assessing me for his course of treatment to get me back on my feet. He will come to me twice a week to do PT on me, helping me to get a grip on what movement builds up strength in my useless-for-lifting/lowering thigh muscles. Shall I do it? The cost is $75 for a home visit, twice a week, for 4wks. I think it might help. I'd call it my Christmas gift from me to me. What do you think? Shall I? Oh, the chocolate pudding idea came after the two kind folks had left me and my eye fell on some avocados sitting nearby. I recalled that LC recipe for chocolate pudding made with avocado, cacao powder, flavored sweetener. Whipped up my first batch and OMG is it satisfying! I still have some left, as it hit all of my serotonin receptors at once and I realized that I was calmer, felt less homicidal and more like whistling a tune. So I packed up the pudd'n for later and pried open a tin of sardines, as I know I need more protein than I am getting lately. I've got a plentiful stock of sardines now, having ordered online from BuyTheCase dot net - and got the same fishies that Trader Joe's used to stock. I'm set. Big box of sardines under my bed, easy to reach. Now about this serotonin that has me calmer. WoW! I'm flying on it! I used some Torani orange to flavor/sweeten the AvoChoco Pud'n, then added a sprinkle of salt to balance things out. What a great pudding it is. Got a bit left for a treat later on. Just a tiny taste at a time really puts me over the top as far as feeling as if I've had a true chocolate treat. What an amazing thing this is - and it's legal. I recommend this highly for anyone who is freaking out for chocolate. It's been hours now and I am still riding high on serotonin. I'm sure that's what is causing this mellow high that I'm on now. I'm totally mellow. Flying low on my serotonin high. I'm so drugged out!

11-18-2008, 04:46 PM	#1908
Zer Guest Join Date: Dec 2007 Location: SoCal (N.San Diego) Posts: 9,146 Blog Entries: 43 Gallery: Zer Stats: 5'10"; 65; 508.7/_320.0_/199 WOE: Atkins: <5%Carb; J-UD/DD(<2798/560cals); 128ozH2O Start Date: Got scale at 432.4(2/8/08); 376.8(2/8/09)	So I'm not the only one fighting the BMR imperative to EAT MORE OFTEN as well as EATING MORE CALORIES to meet my BMR? Glad I'm not the only idjit here! NatDoc says her readings indicate I'm losing muscle. I must eat more. I must!

11-19-2008, 11:46 AM	#1916
IdahoAngel Senior LCF Member Join Date: Feb 2003 Location: Alabama Posts: 238 Gallery: IdahoAngel Start Date: March 2003	I'm going to give this a try! My goal for this week is 2100 cal/day. That seems like so much, but I'm going to give this my best shot! So far I've had 631 cal....56 g fat, 11 carbs, and 19 g protein. I can see this is going to be hard to keep my carbs low and calories up at first until I get things figured out. So glad I found this thread to help me out!

11-20-2008, 05:32 AM	#1919
IdahoAngel Senior LCF Member Join Date: Feb 2003 Location: Alabama Posts: 238 Gallery: IdahoAngel Start Date: March 2003	WhiteCastle Pie is from Linda's Site (Linda's Low Carb Menus & Recipes) I haven't made it in ages, but am thinking about it for tonight!