Accountability Not Excuses - April 08

[*KatNip*]

Originally Posted by Teresa123

Lucy---whine all you want to! You are amongst people who really understand what you're going through--hard to find in real life and not always the easiest thing to talk about. So as far as I'm concerned, feel free to cry, vent, whatever you need to do to dump it here with us. I know I feel better and can move on easier if I can just get it out! Now---I'm glad I have someone to work on staying off the scale with, it's less lonely that way! Also, do you always do coconut oil, or is that a new thing? I know that many consider it a miracle weight loss food, but it has never done anything for me (except make my skin really soft!). I've tried it a few times and I don't know if it stalled me or it was just a coincidence but I didn't lose or lost really slow when taking it---even when I still had way over 100 lbs to lose. So, just thought I'd throw my experience out there in case it fits for you also.

Thanks for making me feel ok about whining I'm only promising to keep off the scale this week, I can't make promises next week though! If I like how I feel at the end onf this week, then maybe I can keep being ur no weigh buddy

About the Coconut oil. I have been taking it since november as a thyroid therapy. I have cut the amount I take in half though, not because I don't want to keep taking it, but its so pricey. If I'm using it for thyroid therapy then it has to be excellent quality, 65$ a gallon is what I have been paying. I know Atkins will also aid in that aspect so that is why I feel comfortable taking less, and it could in fact be that I am taking too little. IT's a freaking experiment I tell ya, I feel like my own guinea pig!

here's a good article, of course, it's not the only source I go by, but easiers to access right now. The Coconut Diet™ - Thyroid Health: A Key to Weight Loss

It's 1:00 AM here and I should have been in bed since midnight. Im just finishing up my bedtime tea and I'm heading to my pillow. I got most of my house cleaned today, i feel great about that. I started hanging my clothes on a clothes line I put up in my patio. I hope the landlord does not see it or I'll be fined BUT I'm trying to save money and I have noticed it keeps me in a good laundry routine! ever since i have been doing that I was a small load daily and Mt.Vernon has not piled up on me once! Picture100.jpg - Image - Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting

yes those are diapers I love clth diapers, they are so cute!

Okay, i dunno why I just shared all that, you wanted details right?

[munchin missy]

QOTD: I wouldn't have learned a healthier lifestyle and would prob gain it right back, but I'd love to have it happen LOL! Pretty please!

Teresa: Yes please call that dr soon, that doesn't sound normal. By the way the jello/cream cheese I'm gonna have to try too. I forgot you can make that stuff, I always buy the premade little packs. So convenient and pretty cheap/

Lisa: I'm thinking your right about upping those carbs more. Although I did yesterday they weren't the good ones it was cuz I was so darn frustrated. (ie my menu which I'll post a little later)

Lucy: Coconut oil is $65 gallon. OMG! (I was pondering trying it but not at that $$$). Thanks for the article It's printing now, haven't read it yet though. My mom has thyroid probs and I've been thinking about getting mine checked out, just don't have time yet.

Lei: HIYA

[munchin missy]

My menu yesterday

Breakfast:
Strawberries, frozen, unsweetened, 6 berry 22 6 0 0
Splenda No Calorie Sweetener, 1 tsp 0 1 0 0
Oscar Mayer Wieners (beef franks), 1 serving 147 1 14 5
Yellow Mustard, 1 tsp or 1 packet 3 0 0 0
Designer Whey, French Vanilla, 1 serving 90 2 2 18

Lunch:
Oreo Cookies, 1 cookie 65 9 3 0
Peas, canned, 0.25 cup 29 5 0 2
KRAFT Macaroni and Cheese Dinner Original Flavor, Easy Mac, 0.1 serving 22 4 0 1
blue bunny sweet freedom no sugar added black raspberry bars, 1 serving 90 9 7 1

Dinner:
McDonald's Bacon Ranch Salad with Grilled Chicken, 1 serving 260 12 9 33
McDonald's Newman's Own Creamy Caesar Dressing (2 fl oz), 1 serving 190 4 18 2

Snack:
sausage biscuits, 1 serving 300 28 17 9
blue bunny sweet freedom no sugar added black raspberry bars, 1 serving 90 9 7 1

CALORIES CARBS FAT PROTEIN
1,309 90 77 73

[lcq]

so yesterday I wore a top that actually looked like a size bigger than i should be wearing.......................So I got up this morning feeling light and smaller...eager to weigh 277.4lbs WTH...that is FIVE Freaking pounds more than siggy.....so after I calmed down and logic started to set in......I pulled out my trusty tape measure because I know it does not lie

So I am down 2" on the boobs, 1" on the waist and 1/2" on the hips...WHEW!!!........I tell you scales are evil and should be abolished .......Thank God for the measure tape ...although I want so badly to get out of the 270's I have been here waay too long.

Teresa ......since you have been my weight before and are now close to goal......tell me, did you ever bounce around like I do......if yes...how did you stay sane?.....or are you one of the lucky ones who loses steadily and consistently

Also thanks for the splenda jello tip...I will check out Linda's website now and use her recipe so that I don't need to experiment for myself

Lucy....your diapers made me crack up this morning....dunno why

Hey you did not answer Teresa's question yet AND you have to post a question today ....don't feel you are getting away so easy



yesterdays menu

B - bacon & cheese omelet
S - chocolate protein shake
L - cheesy caulitaters with mushroom meat sauce
S - nut crackers with cheese paste
D - sausages & egg salad
S - chocolate protein shake

[lcq]

we posted at the same time

Yes up your carbs...but not like how you did yesterday or else you will have lots and lots to lose AGAIN

[Teresa123]

Lucy--hey, I'm only committing to one week as well, but I have to say, I am actually in a much better mood today. It's so stupid but I realized that I have been picking what clothes to wear even based on the scale. If I'm up a couple pounds, I wear something baggier because I feel fat. Today I just wore what I wanted. It's all such a mind game! Do you have hypothyroidism? Are you on meds? Seriously--unless it is really medically warranted I would get rid of the c.o. for a week and see what that does. If it is stalling you, then it's actually giving you less of a lift for your thyroid than getting the extra weight off. I am hypo as well and although losing weight has not (and will not) cure my thyroid--my dose of meds is now 1/2 what it was before. Anyway, I'm certainly not a Dr--so don't take what I say to be medically sound by any means, but it is something to think about. How true about being a guinea pig!

Lei--I haven't been paying as close attention to BB as I should, but I thought that Ryan and Sharon had an alliance, and I thought that Ryan was going to get rid of Adam because of what he said to Natalie. Don't get me wrong, I realize that the game changes at every minute but usually I see it coming--so this just confused me! What's the behind the scenes scoop--what does Ryan have planned?

Answer to what I would have missed if magically at goal. I thought about this a lot last night and have tons of answers. I think the biggest thing is that I would not have "found" myself. Sounds cliche, but truly, I think I was hiding behind so many things and fat was just the physical manifestation of it all. I think back to my "emotional life" back then and truly, I think I was numb most of the time. Did I ever have fun or feel joy or sadness---yeah---but mostly I think I just numbed things out with food or other addictive things. I still do this, but slowly I think that the real me who has always been under all the fat and defense mechanisms, etc. is starting to emerge. Why I became that, why I hid---I'm still not totally sure. I almost wish I could blame a horrible abusive childhood or something very easy to pinpoint, but I can't. I think over time I might figure it out, but right now I'm just focused on letting go of the layers of crap (and addictive behaviors) and experiencing life instead of shutting it out. Wow, that was long and pretty deep for this time in the morning. Now I need to get to work!

Happy Hump Day!

[Teresa123]

Holy cow, we were all posting at once!

Morning Missy! Well, even with eating bad, your stats don't look to bad for the day. As long as you are right back on track today, it will probably over the next few days help to shake things up for you. So, are you going to stay off the scale for a week with Lucy and I?

[Teresa123]

Lisa--I was one of the lucky ones--at first. I did bounce around but usually only ounces or maybe up to a lb until I got down to about 210--then the bouncing really began for me! I didn't stay sane--I can remember crying a couple of times--seriously. For me I would always feel guilty like I had done something wrong and then I would start thinking that "this is as good as it gets" and this weight will never come off! After many rounds of that kind of thinking--I finally realized that as long as I stuck with it, it always ended up working out--so why should this time be any different. It still pissed me off, but I stopped crying! You know, I am back in that thinking that I'm doing something wrong (thus I keep trying to tweak what I'm doing) and I'll never get to goal---this was probably a good thing for me to remember today... And although I'm not crying--I think flipping off the scale is about the same thing. I am such a mess. OK, now I should try to get back to work!

BBL

[lcq]

Originally Posted by Teresa123

Lisa--I was one of the lucky ones--at first. I did bounce around but usually only ounces or maybe up to a lb until I got down to about 210--then the bouncing really began for me! I didn't stay sane--I can remember crying a couple of times--seriously. For me I would always feel guilty like I had done something wrong and then I would start thinking that "this is as good as it gets" and this weight will never come off! After many rounds of that kind of thinking--I finally realized that as long as I stuck with it, it always ended up working out--so why should this time be any different. It still pissed me off, but I stopped crying! You know, I am back in that thinking that I'm doing something wrong (thus I keep trying to tweak what I'm doing) and I'll never get to goal---this was probably a good thing for me to remember today... And although I'm not crying--I think flipping off the scale is about the same thing. I am such a mess. OK, now I should try to get back to work!

BBL

Thanks Teresa......I guess we can just console each other

This is the longest I have endured in years without cracking and giving up and I feel so impatient and under pressure even though I know better


I think what is irking me most is that I lost 100lbs in 6 mths some years ago without ever reading the Atkins book or with any real LC knowledge......for the life of me I am trying to remember how I did it.....One thing I do remember is that I had this little dial scale and I could stand on it and manipulate the readings depending on where I stood......and i would feel so great because I could make it show me weighing less daily

Ignorance is really bliss

So I guess to answer your question yesterday: I would not know how to eat LC for life, I would only know how to diet and I most probably would gain back all the weight I lost ......just like I did before

[munchin missy]

Originally Posted by Teresa123

Holy cow, we were all posting at once!

Morning Missy! Well, even with eating bad, your stats don't look to bad for the day. As long as you are right back on track today, it will probably over the next few days help to shake things up for you. So, are you going to stay off the scale for a week with Lucy and I?

I noticed that when I posted too. I just put the foods in sparkpeople this morn and figured it would be REALLY bad but it wasn't too awful amazingly I actually ate less calories than normal

The peas weren't even as high carb as I though. Let me tell ya I was feeling pretty rebellious when I ate those and it was only 5 carbs

I know I couldn't stand to stay off scale just yet I weigh morning and night. I actually weighed 3 x yesterday

It's nice to see everybody on here today

[cdn_gal]

Originally Posted by Teresa123

Lei--I haven't been paying as close attention to BB as I should, but I thought that Ryan and Sharon had an alliance, and I thought that Ryan was going to get rid of Adam because of what he said to Natalie. Don't get me wrong, I realize that the game changes at every minute but usually I see it coming--so this just confused me! What's the behind the scenes scoop--what does Ryan have planned?

Okay, here's the scoop.... Ryan made a deal to Adam, that if he wanted Sheila to stay instead of Sharon, that Adam had to throw the 1st part of the HOH to him (ryan) which he did... That's why Sharon went home, Ryan was guaranteeing a spot in the finals for himself, so he tossed Sharon under the bus (nice guy huh) Last night, he had the balls to ask Adam to throw the 3rd part of the HOH to him as well.... That guy is something else I tell ya! I'm hoping Adam wins tonight, and takes Sheila, and evicts Ryan's fat racist azz!!

Waves to everyone, I shall return (have to get to work right now)

[munchin missy]

It's not my day but I have a question? LOL

About how many carbs/calories do you eat every day!

I've been under 35 carbs/except yesterday but am going to try upping them!
Calories I just let fall where they may which is usually 1500

[*KatNip*]

Okay to answer the question from the day before yesterday I am logged online ALL.DAY.LONG. My messenger is always on, Im usually logged onto LCF and 4 other forums at once, so I come and check if anything's new periodically. My friends send me messages during the day. I do thi cuz IM alone most of the time and it helps me feel like I have a life

for yesterday's question- No, I would not want to wake up thinner. Had I not taken the time to do research and study for months, I would have not leaned what I know now. My family would still eat crappy frozen foods, and easy to prepare packaged foods. I did all this studying for my own health and my family is greatly benefiting form it, even my cat So, Nope, i would lnot like to wake up thin one day.

okay missy, u stole my question day! I will ask something tomorrow. For your answer- I'm eating 20-25 carbs a day. Im trying to eat 25 but it's getting hard to eat even that much, believe THAT! Calories I'm eating 2000-2300 a day. 2000 if I dont workout and 2300 if I do. Between what I eat and what I burn I have a 1000 deficit every day. However, if I go over, I don't really care, im not strict with calories

[cdn_gal]

Originally Posted by munchin missy

It's not my day but I have a question? LOL

About how many carbs/calories do you eat every day!

you can ask a question anytime you want!

Let's see...Which week?

Atkins~ 15-20 carbs

WW~ 80-110 carbs

Atkins I really dont watch calories all that much.. I try to eat 5% carbs, 65% fat, and 35% protein... I find I loose the best when I keep it like that...
WW I don't watch calories there either.. I eat what I'm allowed on the list for the day, and that's it..

[Teresa123]

Morning!

Cals and carbs---well, I'm not 100% sure since I only recently started paying attention, but I would say since about the 3rd month of lc, so for about the last 15 months or so, I have been averaging 2000 cals and 50-60 net carbs---when I'm being good....

Now, yesterday would be a big exception to that.....me+sugar=bad; me+sugar=bad; me +sugar=bad; me+sugar=bad; me+sugar=bad; me+sugar=bad.....you get the point....sigh.....


bbl for punishment

[cdn_gal]

Originally Posted by Teresa123

Now, yesterday would be a big exception to that.....me+sugar=bad; me+sugar=bad; me +sugar=bad; me+sugar=bad; me+sugar=bad; me+sugar=bad.....you get the point....sigh.....
bbl for punishment

So, I guess my question would be, "What part of you+sugar=bad don't you get"?

Let me see if I can break it down a bit..

You= someone who has had such a incredible journey so far, and is so close to goal..Someone who has so many good idea's, recipes to share...Someone I look forward to reading about everyday.. Someone for whom I am greatful, joined our little group..

+= Plus... A size that you will never see again, that you have worked so hard to achieve...

Sugar= Evil nastinest...Causes unlimited horrific cravings..Makes one feel sluggish and takes away one's self worth.. Induces insulin spikes, and makes one feel like crap...Makes one's scale not be very nice to them!

bad= A personal decision.. An action one chooses, no matter what the consequences... Result of not making better choices.. Word caused by usually not being prepared, tempted, or emotions controlling one's self... A lack of better judgment..

So, which one was it you didn't understand again?? Come on chica, get with the program... Were on the home stretch, lets do this together okay?

How was that for tough love??

(guess I could also threaten to send you to the "cheat if you wanna" thread!!) You won't enjoy it over there though, I'm tellin ya now!!

[Teresa123]

Thanks Lei, that is seriously what I needed--a few tears and a few laughs. I don't know what is wrong with me. Today I just need to get through the day...I'm not going to eat sugar, I'm not going to eat sugar, I'm not going to eat sugar.....

[cdn_gal]

Originally Posted by Teresa123

Thanks Lei, that is seriously what I needed--a few tears and a few laughs. I don't know what is wrong with me. Today I just need to get through the day...I'm not going to eat sugar, I'm not going to eat sugar, I'm not going to eat sugar.....

Your not in this by yourself... No one ever said it was easy, and boy, do I ever know this one! No one is perfect, and were all gonna screw up one time or another, but hopefully we learn from our mistakes, and each other...Life does go on, and hopefully with a little bit more information about ourselves to chalk up to our memory banks..
Don't be so hard on yourself, we are always here for you...

[lcq]

Missy...to answer your question................I don't check my carbs or calories anymore.....I know in the past when i use to plug everything into fitday I never crossed 30carbs....but my calories would be over 2500.

I am trying really hard to focus on what i am eating this week but if I don't see anything positive on the scale next Tuesday i will start plugging in my food again on fitday........I hate to weigh/measure so I hope I won't have to

Ya know I made up my mind to be super strict ......so of course yesterday and today i was faced with temptation......yesterday i was cleaning my DS lunchkit and there he has in a container a chocolate Oreo.....I kept remembering Missy and how she had "Just One"....but I eventually talked myself out of it by telling myself......the cleaner I eat the faster I will reach my goal.....and I so want to get to goal cause I am fed up of this snails pace

Todays temptation was easier.....I was on the road starving did not have lunch and my head hurt...and then my DD reminded me that i promised her ice cream tooday...and she is talking about all the caramel sauce she wants to put on it........I was so hungry it fleetinging passed my mind to buy a sugerfree ice cream ....but then i said ..nah!!......what I really wanted was food ....so I held out until I got home and reheated my leftovers........I am so proud of me


yesterday

- pizza quiche
S- peanut butter protein shake
L - peanut butter protein shake
S - egg salad and peanut crackers
D - meat sauce with mushrooms & cheese
S - cashews (that I found in the deep freeze)

drank lots of water today...I am very dehydrated for some reason

Teresa.......Ditto Lei....you can do it


Lei..... on the "cheat if you wanna" thread.......you are terrible....however you made my day with that Sis...

[cdn_gal]

Originally Posted by lcq

Lei..... on the "cheat if you wanna" thread.......you are terrible....however you made my day with that Sis...

What??

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