TravelingMama - Another day in paradise!

[GGWilson]

Hey Kat!

I'm back, I was just exhausted again yesterday and feeling frustrated with work, my mood has improved greatly today.

I have to go to my pre-admission testing this morning, which I'm not looking forward to because of the drive. Overall, doing good, still a little tired. I plan to find a doc and try to get a script for ambien, you used to take that didn't you? Or do you still? I just need help staying asleep, I only get 6-7 hours as it is and I wake up after the first 2-3 and then toss and turn all night. I've been doing this since my hyst. I need sleep!

Okay, here's today's plan:

E: 40 min cardio/intervals
B; 2 eggs, coffee with heavy cream
L: chicken breast
D: 7 oz burger, 1 slice provolone and 1 T mayo

That's about it, have to run. Have a great day!

[travelingmama]

Happy Sunday. Sorry I didn't post, but got very busy by the end of the week.

I know what you are going through with the lack of sleep. When I had my hysterectomy in '98 my insomnia started and I've struggled ever since. Ambien CR is the only thing that helps. If you get regular Ambien you can get generic and it might work for you. Ambien CR is a slow release so it puts you to sleep and keeps you to sleep. So, it depends on your sleep issue on what you need. Unfortunately Ambien CR is NOT generic. I know you will love taking them, though. Sleeping is so easy!

Please keep me posted on your pending surgery. When is it? My thoughts are definitely with you!

Thursday I got sick with a cold, Friday was my grand-daughter's birthday party and the kids had over 40 people here. I spent all day Friday cooking! Yesterday I spent the day vegging out and today, not much better. Not making the best food choices this weekend, but I am not going to sweat it. Life goes on and tomorrow will be a better choice.

Hope you had a good weekend and I'll touch base tomorrow.

Katrina

[GGWilson]

Hey Kat!

I'm absolutely exhausted and feeling like crap today, some of it was my bad food choices over the last few days but I also feel like I've got something going on - I'm hot, then I'm freezing, my tummy hurts, I just feel like crap. Unfortunately I have to be at work this morning but I'm hoping to get out early.

My surgery is on the 24th, I just had all of my pre-admission testing done so I'm ready to go. Now I wish I would have done it sooner, just to get it over with, but I guess I really didn't have a good time until the 24th.

I need to find a new family doc since I have new insurance and maybe I can get something to keep me sleeping, I'm good for a bout 2-4 hours and then its tossing and turning.

Well, I'm forcing myself to get out the door so I'll end it here. My plan for today is basic, but no breakfast, I just can't seem to stomach anything right now. I did force myself to exercise though.

E: 40 min cardio/interval
B: coffee shake
L: not sure
D: burgers

That's it, have a great day and I'll be back tomorrow.

[travelingmama]

Happy Tuesday, Meg. So far, a gorgeous Colorado spring day...but this means nothing as we could have snow or tornadoes at any time and it would by a typical spring day!

Wow, I feel like crapola today! I hope to get through the system very soon so I can get to a doctor and get something for my shoulder. The pain is so bad I can't sleep and I'm hurting all the time. A cortizone shot would do wonders!

Cleansing the body today after my weekend of bad choices. This means by noon I'll have a good headache, but it is the price for bad food, right?l And exercise will be a long walk with my GD in the sunshine.

Hope you are feeling a little better. Go slow and take care of yourself!

E - 1 mile walk
B - scrambled eggs and diced ham, coffee
L - none
D - pork chops and salad

Have a great day!
Kat

[GGWilson]

Good Thursday Morning!

I hope you are feeling better! I'm exhausted but doing well. Work is still stressful but I'm doing my best to leave it there when I go home, no more checking emails from home and no more bringing work home. Its just not worth it.

Here's my plan for today:
E: 45 min strength/cardio
B: 2 eggs, coffee shake
L: chicken breast
D: 7 oz burger, cheddar cheese

Have a great day!

[travelingmama]

Good morning, Meg! I was starting to get worried about you. Glad you are back.

You are doing the right thing. Work has no place at home!

Having a very rough week. Unemployment...big mess thanks to the State of Colorado. They admit they messed up, but that doesn't pay the bills. A total of 6 weeks without payment and it is killing me. No car payment made, no money. UGH. I am hoping by the end of the month I get my payments. This sucks. Then Safeway found my wallet and shredded it. Yes, shredded it. So now I have to replace everything! And to top it off, my grandbaby was sicker than a dog yesterday and I felt totally helpless. What a crappy week.

So, jammie day today (well earned) and I will just destress.

Sorry for dumping...just needed to get it out of my system!

Have a great Thursday. We are preparing for either a lot of rain or a lot of snow and they aren't sure which we will get yet! I'm ready for summer!

E - 45 minutes CR workout
B - coffee
L - salad w/ranch
D - not sure

Kat

[GGWilson]

Hey Kat!

Dump away seriously, I don't mind one bit.

I'm so sorry about everything that has been happening -why the heck would they shred your wallet, what a pain in the butt! I hope your grandbaby is feeling better. You definitely earned a jammie day. I hope you are feeling at least a little better.

Our weather has been a bit crazy, 40's one day 70's the next - its strange. We've had a lot of rain and my flowers are doing great so I can't complain, especially after 2 years of summer droughts.

We are having our first hospital survey today and I'm not looking forward to it, if anything it should make the day go faster. We have our first surgery scheduled at 9am on May 11th so we have to be ready to open then!

I have a busy weekend, tomorrow I'm going to a Clean House yard sale and I'm pretty excited about that. I love that show. Then we have a girl scout Mom/Daughter event. Hopefully I can just rest on Sunday. Have a great weekend, I'll be back Monday.

E: 45 min. cardio/strength
B: 2 eggs, cheese, coffee shake
L: chicken breast
D: burgers?

[travelingmama]

Good morning, Meg!

Sounds like the opening of the hospital is going well, but keeping you hopping! At least time goes by quickly and the days don't drag.

Ali is feeling much better now and kept me on the run yesterday. Refused to nap. I put her in her crib and she would play for an hour (so I could get in a break), then she was back up and running.

Woke up to snow this morning with our severe snow warning through Saturday night. We are expecting about 2 feet of snow at this point. Ugh. I'm ready for spring and summer, but we do need the water, so won't complain. My dog is convinced the gods made it snow just for him. He keeps going out and running around like a puppy. He is 12 years old...

Anyway, will focus on today and quit worrying about everything else; it just makes me eat. Good choices today and exercise...that should do the trick.

Have a great weekend and I'll catch up with you on Monday.

E - 45 min CR workout
B - coffee
L - salad w/ranch
D - meat of some sort

Kat

[GGWilson]

Good monday morning!

I hope you had a good weekend, I heard you might have been hit with some crazy snow! We had a beautiful Saturday, sunny and 75 then its been raining ever since and doesn't plan to stop for a few days.

I'm feeling a bit bloated and tired today. I think its just stress. I wasn't really worried about the surgery this Friday but people's concerns are making me worry. I hate that! I'm just going to focus on work and do my best to make it through.

Have a great day - here's my plan
E: 45 min cardio/intervals
B: 2 eggs, coffee shake
L: protein shake
D: pork loin

Have a good one - this thing is typing funny again. I'll be back tomorrow.

[travelingmama]

Good morning!

We got hit with a lot of snow this weekend. It started Friday morning and ended Saturday late afternoon. We got almost 2 feet of wet stuff. Really wet, heavy snow that was horrible to shovel. It was a good workout though!

You need to focus some positive energy on this coming Friday's surgery, Meg. Most people tend to focus on drama, hence negative. That kind of thought process can make things worse and you don't need that. Tell them to shut the he11 up if they can't be positive. This lumpectomy is standard procedure to make sure you are doing okay, which you are. Focus on that. Just on Friday and the outcome. Stressing over things out of your control is a waste of your energy, which you really need right now. One day at a time!

If you are feeling bloated and tired, up your water intake. It will help flush the toxins in your tissue and perk you up a bit. Keep your water bottle with you all day and keep draining it!

I will be doing a lot of cleaning today for part of my workout, then back to my Core Rhythms workout. I have to drop the weight...period. I'm still really struggling with being out of work for so long and being in the position I'm in, which drives me to want to binge, but I just cant' do it. I still fall off the wagon from time to time, but I will keep driving forward!

Keeping you in my thoughts this week, Meg, and sending you lots of good, healthy energy!

Enjoy your day!

E - CR workout
B - water and 1 egg
L - pork loin and veggies
D - marinated pork loin (grilled), salad

Kat

[GGWilson]

Hey Kat!

Thanks for the positive words. You are right, I need to focus on me and my family and making myself healthier. The way I see it, whatever the outcome is, I'll just do what needs to be done, period.

I have to say for the position you are in you are doing pretty darn good! I know I would be way worse at this point. You still come here with positive thoughts and you continue to try to make changes, and that's all that matters. Everyone makes bad decisions now and again but what makes the difference is that you recognize it and you try to change it rather than wallowing in it.

I drink plenty of water throughout the day, I think its just the weather, I get yucky feeling whenever it rains and its been doing tons of that lately. Plus the job, that's just stressful in itself, but I am thankful to have one right now. I'm just going to keep plugging away and get really strict after the weekend. I've been keeping it mainly low carb but a few bad choices thrown in make a huge difference and I haven't been watching my calories as closely as I need to in order to drop more weight.

Here's today's plan:
B: 2 eggs, coffee shake
L: 2 burgers
D: pork chops

Have a great day, I'll be back tomorrow!

[GGWilson]

Good Morning!

How are things going for you Kat? Has the weather gotten any better?

I'm tired, no make that exhausted, I just want to sleep and its because I'm not sleeping all night, I will make an appointment with a doc soon. I signed up for the open studio pottery and last night was the first night. I need that, I need my creative outlet and its been too long. So now I can go almost any evening and on Saturday mornings and that will be a great stress reliever.

Tomorrow's my surgery so I won't be around again until Monday at the earliest. My mother is coming to town and that's just frustrating in itself for me, but my daughter is happy to see her grandma again so soon.

Here's my plan for today, I'm sure I won't stick to it

E: none
B: 2 eggs, coffee shake
L: grilled chicken
D: burgers

I'll eat that stuff but then I've been finding myself starving in the evenings so I'll just keep trying.

Take care, have a good weekend and I'll talk to you soon!

[travelingmama]

Good morning, Meg.

Finally gorgeous here in Colorado again. Sunny and hi 70s all week, even in the 80s at some point. GARDEN TIME!

I'm happy to hear you started the pottery classes. Having that time to decompress will definitely help your sleep! I understand the not sleeping and it gets to you (it's been months since I actually slept normal) and if you can find a destressing tool, like pottery, it should help. I think that is why my sleeping is worse now; I have no outlet of any kind. I am in the house, taking care of things, that's it. I very seldom leave. Not even to the store. It is making me crazy.

I know you surgery is tomorrow and I will keep you in my meditations tonight and definitely tomorrow. I know you won't be on the board for a few days, but as soon as you are able, please let me know how it goes. I know this is going to be simple and no problems, but want to hear from you nonetheless!

As for your hunger in the evening I strongly suggest throwing in a salad or raw veggie with your dinner to keep you full.

Okay, I'm outta' here! Get some rest tonight and by tomorrow night this will all be behind you!

E - none
B - none
L - not sure
D - meat of some sort and salad

Kat

[travelingmama]

Good Friday morning to you, Meg. I know you won't be online for several days, but thought this would give you some reading material while you are laid up.

First of all, my thoughts are with you today and I know good news will follow. While recovering, don't fret over food choices. Eat what you body demands to help you heal quickly.

I got on a scale yesterday and I'm ashamed and disgusted with myself. I'm almost back to my start weight. Between severe depression and bad choices I'm ballooning back and I hate myself for it. In order to keep myself honest I told my SIL this morning and told him what I need to do. Since he and my DD are both battling weight gain and are both dieting and exercising now to prepare for a pregnancy in the near future, we will work as a family unit to get our lives under control. Since I'm the one doing the cooking, I'm responsible for what I make and put in my mouth. Grocery shopping this weekend will include only healthy food and he and DD have agreed no junk food, which is their cryptonite. Maybe with everyone on the wagon I can do this. I am going to 24 hour fitness on Tuesday when I finally get my unemployment and buying a membership (month-to-month) and when SIL gets up every day (he works nights), he will take over baby time and I will go work out. While my grandbaby is sleeping during the day I will work out and/or take long walks with my dog.

I didn't plan on telling you but we have been LC buddies for well over a year now and I have to be honest with you more than anyone else. Those "little" bad choices are the nails in my coffin and I know it. A taste is failure, as Dr. Atkins noted in his book. Yes, a taste will kill me and I know that now. Depression will not win this battle; I have too much to look forward to. Also, they don't let fatties like me in the Peace Corp and I refuse to lose out because I'm fat!

So, there was your reading material for today. ******, here I come! Safeway...move out of the way you people in the meat isle....I'm on my way!

Meg, please take care, take it slow and keep it positive. You can always send me a private message if you want and we can chat or I can always call you. My thoughts are there with you and know you will be fine.

E - de-poop the yard (huge yard and 2 big dogs...that's a workout!), 45 minutes Core Rhythms
B - chorizo (1 oz) w/ 2 eggs and 1/2 cup tomato (diced into the mess)
L - burger patty
D - steak and salad
S - NONE!
W - As much as I can take in during the day...shooting for at least 1 gallon

Kat
Goal achieved this week: caffeine is gone. I haven't had caffeine in 2 weeks!

[travelingmama]

Happy Saturday, Meg. I'm sure you're feeling a bit crappy today, but I am posting to keep myself honest and stay on track.

Update on yesterday's plan:
E - still depooped the yard, but ran around all day shopping stead of working out.
B - chorizo, eggs and tomato
L - grilled chicken breast with bacon and swiss, salad w/ranch, ice tea
D - rib eye steak and grilled veggies (yummy)
S - SF jello

So, today is starting out well. Already have some exercise in and lots to do today, so hopefully will burn some ugly calories! We are going to powerwash the fence then seal it in prep for me building retaining walls next week for the 2 gardens I'm putting in, as well as prepping to plant 3 large trees. I am hoping to get at least 15 minutes of yoga in when I have time today, so we'll see. I'll update tomorrow if things change.

Thinking of you today, Meg, and hoping all is well. Rest and take care and we'll chat soon.

E - 3 mile walk at dog park, yard work and 15 min yoga
B - chorizo and 2 eggs, decaf
S - sliced ham (2 oz) and 1.5 oz swiss cheese
L - taco salad
D - bratwurst and sauerkraut, green beans, water
W - 1 gal min

Later!
Kat

[GGWilson]

Good Monday morning!

Surgery went well, doc says she believes the 2 inch, yes I said inch, solid mass she removed is benign but will know for sure by the end of today. Overall, doing good, I didn't realize how often my girls get in the way of things but when you have stitches and bruising its a quick reminder! Simple things like refrigerator doors tend to grace my chest! So I'm doing my best to be more careful. No real pain though, only when I touch the area so no meds have been necessary.

I have to make it quick this morning, but I plan to respond to the reading you left for me! I have made terrible food choices and I'm paying for it. Today, back on track, very strict, period. Its been 85 degrees here and I feel like crap, especially in my clothes and I hate that. So here's my plan:

E: 30 min cardio/intervals
B: 2 eggs, sprinkle of cheese, coffee shake
L: protein shake
D: 2 burgers

That's it, need to run, I'll try to stop back later today. Have a good one.

[travelingmama]

Glood morning! The first thing on my list this morning was to check in with you and I'm so glad I did! 2 inches....sounds like a cyst to me! I am really happy things went so well for you and now it is time to just heal. If interested, arnika montana is an herb that reduces swelling and bruising! Not just a little, but a lot! If you are able, get to a Whole Foods and buy some. You won't regret it. Both my knee surgeon and my ob surgeon told me to take it before and after surgery and it made such a difference.

I fell off the wagon (yes, again) last night. After 3 days of <20g carbs and lots of water and hitting ketosis I ate a bowl of ice cream, a cupcake and a sugar free pudding. I woke up around 1 in the morning feeling drunk and hung over, both at the same time. I knew what I was doing, but did it anyway. Why do I do that? Again, stupid choice, life goes on. It was DD and SIL's day to eat whatever they wanted to (that's how they diet) and I was fine until I got tired and just caved. NO MORE! Ugh. I feel hung over this morning from my bad choices, so must live with it.

It was in the 80s last week, got up this morning to 4 inches of heavy snow. There is a reason you never plant before mother's day in Colorado and this is it. Out of 7 years in Colorado, 5 years we had snow on Mother's Day. However, I did map the yard plan (we are landscaping) and my garden plan. Next weekend we build the retaining walls for the raised gardens and then I am free to plant! I can't wait to get my hands and feet in the dirt and start making life grow! I love gardening.

Okay, must get in gear and go read to my grand-daughter and have our singing time.

Have a wonderful day and again, I'm happy to hear things went so well.

E - 45 min CR
B - 2 eggs fried in EVOO, water
L - taco salad
D - brats and sauerkraut
S - SF Jello

Kat

[travelingmama]

Good morning, Meg! How are you feeling today? I hope the girls are too painful.

First, did you hear from you doctor yesterday? I know everything is alright, but it's nice to hear the final word!

Did really good yesterday sticking to my guns. Amazing what no snacks or cheats can do. I'm already seeing a diff in my belly!

I got word from PC this morning that the program I will be nominated for leaves for Africa in June of 2010, so I have time to lose the weight! Woo Hoo! Still lots of paperwork and appointments ahead but I've made it this far, so know I will get in!

I hope you are taking it easy and healing. Let me know how things are.

E - not sure yet
B - chorizo w/tomato and egg
L - salad w/ranch
D - pork chops and veggies
W - 1 gallon min

Kat

[GGWilson]

Hey Kat!

Just remember, when you slip up, enjoy it, then regret it (when you are bloated) but only for a second, and move on. I don't know why but I do it too, eat really clean, lost weight and then give in. I think its hormone related for me.

One thing I figured out is that I switched coffee a couple of weeks ago to one of my favorites, its expensive so I only get it once in a blue moon, however, it seems to cause major cravings for me so it must be in the oils, it leaves a lot of residue when I grind it. I stopped drinking that this weekend and I'm making it through the day without cravings. I'm amazed at how quickly my body can get back into ketosis, I'm already feeling it from eating super clean again the last couple of days.

My doc did call, absolutely benign, no atypical cells or anything!! Its a fibroadenoma (sp?). I've been very lucky with no swelling or pain, only when I brush up against it with something. I slept without a bra last night and it didn't bother me at all! Plus, I can exercise w/o problems.

I made an appointment with a family doc next week to get me some sleeping help, I know that my lack of it is causing problems in general, I cannot wait!

June 2010 - that gives you plenty of time to whip yourself back into shape again, one day at a time! I would suggest that since you are getting back to things full force and starting to work out at the gym to only weigh once and then wait another 30 days. I know when I work hard and don't see the scale moving it gets frustrating.

Here's today's plan:
E: 30 min cardio/interval this morning, tonight 30 min strength
B: 3 eggs, coffee shake
L: 1 burger
D: pork chops

I'm on my lunch break so I have to run...I'll check back in tomorrow.

[GGWilson]

Good Wednesday Morning!

I'm feeling so much better in general, although still tired. We are getting so close to opening, May 11th, and things will die down at work plus my office is finally getting furniture tomorrow so I'll be in my permanent space soon. Living out of boxes really sucks and makes me feel so disorganized.

For today:
E: a walk when I get home
B: 3 eggs, coffee shake
L: turkey rolled up in provolone
D: burgers

I need to run, have to meet a vendor early this morning. I hope things are going good for you, I'm glad to hear you are getting your mojo back! Take care, talk to you soon.

[GGWilson]

Happy Thursday!

I'm out of time again - trying to re-adjust my schedule after doing this for many years - I'd like to start going in a little bit later but can't seem to do it!

Feeling good, have had the dreaded headache since yesterday, comes and goes but we are having stormy weather too so I'm not sure who's at fault!

How are things going for you Kat? I hope you are doing well and didn't get too much snow.

Today:
B: 3 eggs, coffee shake
L: turkey rolled up in provolone
D: chicken breast

Have a great day!

[travelingmama]

Good morning, Meg. Sorry for not posting yesterday...I got very busy.

My exercise yesterday was staining the fence and I got it all done. Really good workout, plus a great way to work on a tan early!

I finally got my unemployment restarted so my stress level dropped 100% this morning when I found out. Now I can make my car payments and buy groceries to help out around here. Tomorrow SIL and I will get the materials for the retaining walls and I will begin building my gardens. I am so excited. If they are done this weekend I can get the dirt in next week sometime and plant immediately after Mother's Day. IT BETTER NOT SNOW! We had our surprise storm the other night and when it was done we had over 6 inches at the house. Heavy wet stuff, which we need, but seriously...I'm done with snow!

Only 12 more days until your official opening, then you can kick back a bit and relax, right? Who are we kidding? Something else will come up; it always does! But at least work will be a bit less busy.

Okay, I need to get moving. Lots to do today. Have a great Thursday and don't overdo it. You are still healing, right? (that was my subtle hint)

E - Not sure
B - coffee
L - salad
D - steak

Kat

[travelingmama]

Happy Friday, Meg! What a week, huh?

I know you are swamped, so am not surprised you couldn't post recently. No worries! I have no problem talking to myself.

I did it. I went to 24 Hour Fitness yesterday and signed up. I now have no excuse, other than time, for not working out. Doing it at home is just not possible. If I do it when the baby is sleeping, the dogs insist on trying to play with me. If I do it when she is awake....well, you know how that would go. So starting tonight, I'm off to the gym! I'm really excited. Once I get over my self-image issues and relax I will love being there. I used to faithfully go to the gym and I need to do that again.

Other good news (what a week of good news finally!). I heard from my Peace Corp counselor. I am nominated for a program in Africa for next year (June 2010)! The bad news is I'm fat. I have to drop the weight before I get a physical. I will do it. I know I will.

Today my workout, other than the gym tonight, will be building my retaining walls for the gardens! Once the baby wakes up we'll head to buy the materials, then off we go!

In case you can't tell, I'm having a heck of a good week.

I hope all is well and you are resting when possible and healing.

Take care and post when you can.

E - gym
B - coffee w/cream
L - salmon and salad
D - steak and salad

Kat

[GGWilson]

Hey Kat!

That's awesome that you are going to get back to the gym, I recall that you used to go alot last year when you started lc. It sounds like its been a great week for you! I understand about the money situation, just knowing when it will come in makes a huge difference. You've got plenty of time to whip yourself back into shape, I know you can do it.

I've wanted to join a gym but I think I'm going to get closer to goal before I do that, mainly for the strength, I have the cardio down. I just need to lose more fat before I really start building more muscles because I build muscle easily but my body doesn't shed fat as fast so I end up getting bigger and frustrated.

I couldn't wake up this morning, I was sooo tired! I woke up in the middle of the night with a cramp in my calf behind the knee! I felt it coming on so I tried to avoid it but ended up with a cramp in the top of my foot because of the way I was holding my leg, then after I got back to sleep again I heard a loud noise like someone knocking on my door, turned out my cat got stuck in the utility room and wasn't happy!

I'm going to my doctor's for my check up today. I cannot recall what type of stitches are in me - if they dissolve or have to be removed! I know I'm pathetic. I want to them to go away so I can start massaging in vitamin E oil so I don't have this horrific scar! Then Monday I go to a new doc to hopefully get some ambien, ahhh, sleep, it will be so nice. I haven't slept through the night since I was robbed, which was in 2004, but its been worse since my hyst.

Okay - time to get back to work. This weekend I'll be going to the open pottery studio, cleaning the house and trying to just relax. I booked a cabin for Memorial Day weekend about an hour from our house so that should be nice too, something to look forward to.

Have a great weekend, utilize that membership, no one cares what you look like - everyone's there for the same reason and even the skinniest most healthiest person there likely has body issues. Talk to you soon!

[travelingmama]

Good Monday morning, Meg. I hope you had a great weekend! How was the pottery studio?

I have finally reached the point I've needed to. I have accepted what is going on in my life and realize it is a time for me to take care of me, for the first time in my adult life, and prepare mentally and physically for the upcoming roughest 3-4 years of my life. Not only am I going to relax and enjoy my family more, but I will work out and get my body under control and...I will be taking guitar lessons at the local folk music institute. I haven't played guitar since I was a little kid, so I have to start all over, but I grew up playing music and singing and need to get back to that. Not only does music make me happy, but since I most likely won't have electricity for several years, I am going to need something to keep me occupied other than working the land. If I have a guitar I can entertain myself!

My kids are happy with me here helping them and want me to continue, so I will. I'm not going to fight it any more. Guilt...GONE!

So, how are you and the girls feeling? I hope the swelling is down now and you can move without hitting them too often.

Have a great Monday and I'll check in tomorrow!

E - 2 hours at the gym (cardio and weights)
B - coffee, SF jello
L - fajitas minus the tortillas
D - grilled chicken breast and green beans
S - SF jello, flavored sparkling water

Kat

[GGWilson]

Good Morning Kat!

The pottery studio is always nice, I love playing with clay - it does wonders for the hands too!

I'm so glad you are feeling motivated and over any guilt you've had - its time to take care of yourself and it sounds like you are on the right path. Guitar should be interesting, I could never do it, no matter how hard I tried!

Everything else is good, I got my stichtes out on Friday, I'm ready to start my vitamin E oil and massaging because I can really feel the scar tissue forming. I go to my new family doc tonight to get some ambien and hopefully sleep for the first time in years! I know that alone will make a huge improvement.

B: 3 eggs, coffee shake
L: roasted chicken
D: burgers

I'm going to the pottery studio on Mon, Wed and Saturdays for the month of May!! Have a great day!

[GGWilson]

Good Tuesday Morning!

Well, I somehow picked a nutball doctor! He spent 20 min telling me how he trained himself to fall asleep in 20 seconds and kept going on and on about habits and how I need to retrain myself to sleep. After all that listening he then gave me Ambien, not the CR, which is what I still need. Either way, I took one last night and slept pretty good, still waking up in the middle of the night but not as much I don't think. I'll work with these for a week or two and if I don't see any improvement I'll find me another quack, I mean doc.

Overall doing pretty good, keeping my eating clean, planning to buy new shoes at lunch time. Getting ready to open the hospital! And hopefully moving to my permanent office soon so I can get organized.

How are things going with you - sounds like you had a pretty good workout at the gym.

E: 1 mile walk this morning and 1-2 tonight
B: 3 eggs, 1/2 coffee shake (trying to cut down on the coffee)
L: 7 oz burger with sprinkle of cheddar
D: grilled chicken breast

The weather here is beautiful, low 70's and sunny. Some more rain expected but not as much as we've had - although I cannot complain as my flowers and plants are in heaven.

Take care, have a great day and I'll be back!

[travelingmama]

Good morning, Meg.

It felt so good to get back to the gym last night. It has been forever since I went and I forgot how it feels!

I'm sorry you ended up with a quack. I hate drs like that; they think they have the answer for everything, but they haven't a clue what you are going through. Ambien works fine to put you to sleep, but if you are waking in the middle of the night you need the CR. You should ask your dr if he has ever gone months without reaching REM. Once you start sleeping all night you will feel so good! I miss my ambien CR.

Today will be lots of house cleaning and cooking (same stuff, different day) and the gym tonight! I can't wait!

Have a great Tuesday!

E - 2 hours at the gym
B - coffee w/heavy cream
L - salad w/ranch
D - not sure...some meat of some sort.

[GGWilson]

Hey Kat!

I'm giving it one week with the pills - tossed and turned all night last week. Then I will call and see if he'll switch it to CR. I just don't think he gets it. He even said himself that he thinks its 50% hormonal and 50% habit, and I'll buy that but with the understanding I cannot change the hormonal at this point as I still have one ovary and I just need to solid sleep.

Okay - on with my day, people are getting really snippy at work and so I plan to shut and lock my door today to get my stuff done!

E: 1 mile walk
B: 3 eggs, 1/2 coffee shake
L: burgers
D: more burgers (won't have time for much-pottery studio tonight)

How are the guitar lessons going? Have you started them yet? Have a great day!

[travelingmama]

Good Wednesday morning, Meg.

Why is everyone at work being snippy? Just the stress of opening the doors? I think locking yourself in your office is a good idea until the tension blows away.

Guitar lessons are on hold for now. I can't afford a guitar, so will just bide my time until something comes through. However, the gym is keeping me busy and happy, so it is a good substitute. I spent 2 hours there last night. 20 minutes of cardio, 45 minutes of weights, 30 minutes swimming laps and 20 minutes in the hot tub. It felt so good!

I feel really good, though my knee is talking to me right now. I wear my brace, but the additional work and pressure on my knee is still there. It will get stronger every day, I just need to baby it after every workout!

I am finding my appetite is a problem now that I'm going to the gym. I am so hungry all the time and crave the bad stuff. So I bought some Atkin's Shakes last night and will use those as food supplements for breakfast and lunch and then have a good size dinner. I know the appetite will calm down, but until it does I will have to be really careful of what I expose myself to.

Today is a perfect spring day in Colorado with temps in the 80s and sunshine, so I'll be hauling heavy stones today to finish my retaining wall, then get the dirt and haul that to the garden. I want to plant some plants by this weekend.

Enjoy your day and keep up the hard work!

E - 2 hours at the gym, building a retaining wall
B - coffee, atkin's shake
L - atkin's shake
D - grilled chicken and a salad w/ranch

Kat