Why the fascination with Kimmer? #14 - Page 61

rebel · 02-29-2008, 11:11 AM

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Originally Posted by Amyb1569

I would appericate it is youu can take a real quick look at my blog. I have changed a few things and posted some thoughts I have. I do not wnat them to get lost to some of you when I post the chicken info.
It is important that I clear afew things up ..before I move forward.
Today seems to be a rough day. My feelings seem hurt, I feel judged and I miss Kimkins. I know it seems crazy. I miss it. But I am not there and for anyone who wants to know.
NO NO NO NO
I will never go back.

Once again..if some of you would pray for Philip. Things are tough right now.

Amyb - Prayers for Philip, you, and the rest of your family and friends.

I hope you don't feel pressured about the Chicken stuff because of us. Take all the time you want. It's your blog -- it's your life. We have just been having fun with the chicken thing, maybe guess because it's Friday, the stage of the moon, spring is getting close, who knows?

Going to look at your blog right now.

LChottie07 · 02-29-2008, 11:12 AM

Amy - I just wanted to say that I am here for you and I completely understand what you are going through. You and Phillip are in my fervrent thoughts and prayers. You are a very special person and deserve to be happy. That is one thing that I feel we were deceived about with KK. It was a false sense of happiness. The true joy has been in knowing that I am finally doing what is right for myself. Even though the sting and pain coming out of KK was intense. I have MORE satisfaction now then I ever thought was possible by knowing that I am standing for Truth. I will pray for you that you will very soon receive that peace and comfort as well. But till that time, you have us. We are here for you and we understand. We are a shoulder to cry on, we are a support to lean on and hold you up. Please email me any time. I'd love to talk to you.

Christin

Katinsac · 02-29-2008, 11:14 AM

AmyB...what LChottie07 said!!

jo2621 · 02-29-2008, 11:19 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Amyb1569

I would appericate it is youu can take a real quick look at my blog. I have changed a few things and posted some thoughts I have. I do not wnat them to get lost to some of you when I post the chicken info.
It is important that I clear afew things up ..before I move forward.
Today seems to be a rough day. My feelings seem hurt, I feel judged and I miss Kimkins. I know it seems crazy. I miss it. But I am not there and for anyone who wants to know.
NO NO NO NO
I will never go back.

Once again..if some of you would pray for Philip. Things are tough right now.

Amy~
Do what you have to do and DON'T think about going back. It was hard for me. I was away from my computer for about a week and had time to think. My mom passed away about 10 days before Christmas. When I went back I was so disgusted at the lies and the way that innocent people were conned that I could not stomach it anymore.

I know you have your group from there but the ones that I was "friends" with haven't even bothered to find out where I am. Honestly, they are all so self absorbed, they didn't even notice. I started coming over here as a big time lurker and I found and emailed Mayberry. She helped me lose the idea that I would be judged if I "came out" here. And she was right.

Please let me know if you want to "talk".

Amyb1569 · 02-29-2008, 11:30 AM

Funny you should say that. Maybe that is part of the problem. My group has been not so understanding about this. There were comments made such as...they are not at goal and they can not leave until then . Or everyone needs to do what they need to do. Or that I brought it on myself. Hard and hurtful.
Then there was the ONE friend that stood up for me and wow...she is banned and hurt to.
So just to come out and say it...I do not have my group anymore. Ouch ..hard to say. And get this. That group was what I swallowed my pride for to get back in.

Jo..wanna tell me in private who you are at KK? I am dying to know...pretty please?

Awakened · 02-29-2008, 11:32 AM

Amyb- did you get my email yesterday?

jo2621 · 02-29-2008, 11:33 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Amyb1569

Funny you should say that. Maybe that is part of the problem. My group has been not so understanding about this. There were comments made such as...they are not at goal and they can not leave until then . Or everyone needs to do what they need to do. Or that I brought it on myself. Hard and hurtful.
Then there was the ONE friend that stood up for me and wow...she is banned and hurt to.
So just to come out and say it...I do not have my group anymore. Ouch ..hard to say. And get this. That group was what I swallowed my pride for to get back in.

Jo..wanna tell me in private who you are at KK? I am dying to know...pretty please?

sent ya a PM

Amyb1569 · 02-29-2008, 11:34 AM

sweet Deni..
I did and I look forward to replying today. I so respect you and Christian. I want to be strong like both of you.

WildAngel6 · 02-29-2008, 11:37 AM

Thank you for sharing, Regandy!

REGANDY.... the weigh down!: Something good came out of KK

Glad you all had a great time!

Awakened · 02-29-2008, 11:44 AM

I'm just worrying about ya... you are a great person inside and out and you don't deserve to be feeling the way you do now.
But... belieive me... I went through the same exact stages you're going through. I left people behind too.. and I was accussed of 'abandoning" them and I also had people questioning my motives and thinking I was just like Heidi.....

Please.. just be who you are.. it's okay if your emotions change many times throughout the day... that's just part of the process. I am not ever going to judge your ups and downs emotionally or physcially Amy. I hope you would feel the same way towards me.

I'm so glad you are committed to helping those that are still there. My only advice is to be gentle for the simple reasoning that as you know.. it's not easy coming out, and it's painful to admit that something you once defended vehemently (sp?) didn't deserve an ounce of defense. I've found that sometimes the harder you push.. the longer it takes people to realize the truth.

I'm really proud of you for having the courage and the strength to see that Heidi was abusing you. The way you've stood up to her these past few days on your blog shows me that you are starting to recognize that YOU ARE OF VALUE and you deserve to be treated so much better than the way you've been treated.

Remember... when you are "still"... that you are a daughter of the King.. and you deserve the best.

LosingToLive · 02-29-2008, 11:48 AM

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Originally Posted by HoneyBee2

Rebel- keep some Kaopectate close by...just in case there is a true "fawn" sighting.

Isn't kaopectate for potty problems?
back atcha QueenBee

Umm, where are you suppose to be right now?

jo2621 · 02-29-2008, 11:50 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Amyb1569

Funny you should say that. Maybe that is part of the problem. My group has been not so understanding about this. There were comments made such as...they are not at goal and they can not leave until then . Or everyone needs to do what they need to do. Or that I brought it on myself. Hard and hurtful.
Then there was the ONE friend that stood up for me and wow...she is banned and hurt to.
So just to come out and say it...I do not have my group anymore. Ouch ..hard to say. And get this. That group was what I swallowed my pride for to get back in.

Amy~

I think the pressure has been turned up so much that it is causing problems too. There have been some major squabbles in some the groups with the "old timers" over there lately. Lots of fighting, bickering and backbiting. Of course, like with your situation, if you don't see it right after it happens or somebody doesn't refer to it it gets scrubbed away quickly like it never happened.

It isn't safe. It isn't cozy. And it sure isn't friendly or supportive. Pretty sad actually.

KIKI67 · 02-29-2008, 11:50 AM

Amyb ~ did you by chance get my pm?

jo2621 · 02-29-2008, 11:56 AM

"it's not easy coming out, and it's painful to admit that something you once defended vehemently (sp?) didn't deserve an ounce of defense"

Thanks Deni I needed that too.

Jo

Mayberryfan · 02-29-2008, 12:14 PM

Amyb, Jo, any KK lurkers,

I SO understand what you are saying. I love being here, but I miss the folks from the thread I spent most of my time in at KK's. Yeah, they're over at Eating Low and I check in from time to time. But, unfortunately, it's not the same. But, it wasn't BETTER there, just different.

I've said this so many times but I think it bears repeating: If you're blaming yourself for believeing in Kimmer, ask yourself - would you rather be the kind of person who believes in something until you learn otherwise, or would you rather be cold, calculating and not have the ability to believe in anything? It does me NO good to sit around and blame myself because I fell for Kimmer's lies. Lots of good, smart people did. She's a professional CON ARTIST.

We all grieve when we've lost something that was precious to us. I suspect some of what you're feeling is that old self-doubt that creeps in from time to time in all of us. It's very painful when someone makes us question ourselves. Do what you need to do to deal with it, but don't blame yourself. If you do, Kimmer wins.

And, that dear friends, is unacceptable!

jo2621 · 02-29-2008, 12:22 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Mayberryfan

We all grieve when we've lost something that was precious to us. I suspect some of what you're feeling is that old self-doubt that creeps in from time to time in all of us. It's very painful when someone makes us question ourselves. Do what you need to do to deal with it, but don't blame yourself. If you do, Kimmer wins.

And, that dear friends, is unacceptable!

Losing my mom right before Christmas was what gave my the strength to just walk away. I knew for my own sanity that I had to get out of that toxic mindset.

My weight loss stopped dead cold in it's tracks. But at least I am healthy. I figured I'd have get the mental health right then work on the physical.

KIKI67 · 02-29-2008, 12:24 PM

I have to say for me, fortunately I didn't get too attached. I still lurk and once in a great while post, but I never felt like I fit in over there, but I feel like that eveywhere

Barbara B · 02-29-2008, 12:28 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by KIKI67

I have to say for me, fortunately I didn't get too attached. I still lurk and once in a great while post, but I never felt like I fit in over there, but I feel like that eveywhere

Please don't feel that way here. You are welcome here! Keep posting.. Deal?

KIKI67 · 02-29-2008, 12:30 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Barbara B

Please don't feel that way here. You are welcome here! Keep posting.. Deal?

Thank you for that. It's a deal.

Larcana · 02-29-2008, 12:32 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Amyb1569

sweet Deni..
I did and I look forward to replying today. I so respect you and Christian. I want to be strong like both of you.

Amyb,
I remember reading your posts on Curlygirl's thread at KK, I don't believe we've met, but you must know deep inside how strong you are. it takes great strength to cope with all that you already have. Let yourslef feel whatever comes up. let it go through you and release it out.
I, too miss my friends from the Hotties group..but I realize that things cannot remain as they were. Those that rallied together at eatinglow, still post.
Most of the group has fallen apart. I miss their fire and fun of the challenges but I found new friends and love keeping up with these scamps in the duck pond.

Your blog has enlightened me about a few things. Thanks, prayers for Phillip.
Lauren

daisyrat · 02-29-2008, 12:38 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by KIKI67

I have to say for me, fortunately I didn't get too attached. I still lurk and once in a great while post, but I never felt like I fit in over there, but I feel like that eveywhere

Then you'll fit in here just fine

We welcome everyone!

jo2621 · 02-29-2008, 12:38 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by KIKI67

I have to say for me, fortunately I didn't get too attached. I still lurk and once in a great while post, but I never felt like I fit in over there, but I feel like that eveywhere

Kiki (that's my kitty cat's name

)

Try it out here. KK was my first online experience and if not for this, it would have been my last. You think at 45 I'd be a bit more jaded and seasoned but as Mayberry has said you want to trust people.

There are some really wonderful people here. Sure I had "friends" over there but there was no warmth, concern or genuine friendship like there is here.

To all the rest of you....Thanks for taking me in!

KIKI67 · 02-29-2008, 12:40 PM

Thank you all for taking me in. I so need all the support I can get!!!

OhYeahBabe · 02-29-2008, 12:58 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by WildAngel6

Thank you for sharing, Regandy!

REGANDY.... the weigh down!: Something good came out of KK

Glad you all had a great time!

Were any of the people who went still at/on Kimkins?

Sweeteater · 02-29-2008, 01:19 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by KIKI67

I have to say for me, fortunately I didn't get too attached. I still lurk and once in a great while post, but I never felt like I fit in over there, but I feel like that eveywhere

stick around and post a while. It'll make those feelings go away.

KIKI67 · 02-29-2008, 01:35 PM

You all are so nice

02-29-2008, 11:12 AM	#1802
LChottie07 Senior LCF Member Join Date: Mar 2007 Location: Austin, TX Posts: 295 Gallery: LChottie07 Stats: Maintaining and adjusting WOE: God's Way Start Date: October 2, 2006	Amy - I just wanted to say that I am here for you and I completely understand what you are going through. You and Phillip are in my fervrent thoughts and prayers. You are a very special person and deserve to be happy. That is one thing that I feel we were deceived about with KK. It was a false sense of happiness. The true joy has been in knowing that I am finally doing what is right for myself. Even though the sting and pain coming out of KK was intense. I have MORE satisfaction now then I ever thought was possible by knowing that I am standing for Truth. I will pray for you that you will very soon receive that peace and comfort as well. But till that time, you have us. We are here for you and we understand. We are a shoulder to cry on, we are a support to lean on and hold you up. Please email me any time. I'd love to talk to you. Christin __________________ *The Road Less Traveled is its own Journey that we take, one step at a time, and it doesn't end on a number.* LC Hottie - Christin D.I.E.T Discover your triggers; Invent new ways of thinking; Extinguish your old perceptions; Transform your life The Journey

02-29-2008, 11:30 AM	#1805
Amyb1569 Senior LCF Member Join Date: Jan 2007 Posts: 625 Gallery: Amyb1569	Jo Funny you should say that. Maybe that is part of the problem. My group has been not so understanding about this. There were comments made such as...they are not at goal and they can not leave until then . Or everyone needs to do what they need to do. Or that I brought it on myself. Hard and hurtful. Then there was the ONE friend that stood up for me and wow...she is banned and hurt to. So just to come out and say it...I do not have my group anymore. Ouch ..hard to say. And get this. That group was what I swallowed my pride for to get back in. Jo..wanna tell me in private who you are at KK? I am dying to know...pretty please? __________________ http://amyb1569.wordpress.com/ http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/philipbriggs

02-29-2008, 11:56 AM	#1814
jo2621 Senior LCF Member Join Date: Dec 2007 Location: AL Posts: 700 Gallery: jo2621 Stats: 225/143/140 (5'5") WOE: LC Start Date: June 2007	Thanks Deni "it's not easy coming out, and it's painful to admit that something you once defended vehemently (sp?) didn't deserve an ounce of defense" Thanks Deni I needed that too. Jo

02-29-2008, 12:14 PM	#1815
Mayberryfan MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Sep 2007 Location: Alabama Posts: 1,384 Gallery: Mayberryfan Stats: 255/204/150 WOE: PPLP Start Date: June 6, 2007	Amyb, Jo, any KK lurkers, I SO understand what you are saying. I love being here, but I miss the folks from the thread I spent most of my time in at KK's. Yeah, they're over at Eating Low and I check in from time to time. But, unfortunately, it's not the same. But, it wasn't BETTER there, just different. I've said this so many times but I think it bears repeating: If you're blaming yourself for believeing in Kimmer, ask yourself - would you rather be the kind of person who believes in something until you learn otherwise, or would you rather be cold, calculating and not have the ability to believe in anything? It does me NO good to sit around and blame myself because I fell for Kimmer's lies. Lots of good, smart people did. She's a professional CON ARTIST. We all grieve when we've lost something that was precious to us. I suspect some of what you're feeling is that old self-doubt that creeps in from time to time in all of us. It's very painful when someone makes us question ourselves. Do what you need to do to deal with it, but don't blame yourself. If you do, Kimmer wins. And, that dear friends, is unacceptable! __________________ _________________ "A government big enough to give you everything you want, is big enough to take away everything you have." - Thomas Jefferson .......... http://mayberryfan.blogspot.com/

02-29-2008, 11:14 AM	#1803
Katinsac MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Jun 2007 Location: Sacramento, CA Posts: 2,610 Gallery: Katinsac Stats: 211.8/192.2/145 WOE: Atkins 72 Start Date: June 4, 2007	AmyB...what LChottie07 said!!

02-29-2008, 11:32 AM	#1806
Awakened Senior LCF Member Join Date: Oct 2007 Posts: 112 Gallery: Awakened	Amyb- did you get my email yesterday?

02-29-2008, 11:34 AM	#1808
Amyb1569 Senior LCF Member Join Date: Jan 2007 Posts: 625 Gallery: Amyb1569	sweet Deni.. I did and I look forward to replying today. I so respect you and Christian. I want to be strong like both of you.

02-29-2008, 11:37 AM	#1809
WildAngel6 MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Sep 2007 Location: Cali Posts: 1,134 Gallery: WildAngel6 WOE: Atkins	Thank you for sharing, Regandy! REGANDY.... the weigh down!: Something good came out of KK Glad you all had a great time!

02-29-2008, 11:44 AM	#1810
Awakened Senior LCF Member Join Date: Oct 2007 Posts: 112 Gallery: Awakened	I'm just worrying about ya... you are a great person inside and out and you don't deserve to be feeling the way you do now. But... belieive me... I went through the same exact stages you're going through. I left people behind too.. and I was accussed of 'abandoning" them and I also had people questioning my motives and thinking I was just like Heidi..... Please.. just be who you are.. it's okay if your emotions change many times throughout the day... that's just part of the process. I am not ever going to judge your ups and downs emotionally or physcially Amy. I hope you would feel the same way towards me. I'm so glad you are committed to helping those that are still there. My only advice is to be gentle for the simple reasoning that as you know.. it's not easy coming out, and it's painful to admit that something you once defended vehemently (sp?) didn't deserve an ounce of defense. I've found that sometimes the harder you push.. the longer it takes people to realize the truth. I'm really proud of you for having the courage and the strength to see that Heidi was abusing you. The way you've stood up to her these past few days on your blog shows me that you are starting to recognize that YOU ARE OF VALUE and you deserve to be treated so much better than the way you've been treated. Remember... when you are "still"... that you are a daughter of the King.. and you deserve the best.

02-29-2008, 11:50 AM	#1813
KIKI67 Senior LCF Member Join Date: Apr 2007 Location: Nebraska Posts: 66 Gallery: KIKI67 Stats: 160/152.6/130 WOE: LC/LCal/LF Start Date: 03/01/2008	Amyb ~ did you by chance get my pm?

02-29-2008, 12:24 PM	#1817
KIKI67 Senior LCF Member Join Date: Apr 2007 Location: Nebraska Posts: 66 Gallery: KIKI67 Stats: 160/152.6/130 WOE: LC/LCal/LF Start Date: 03/01/2008	I have to say for me, fortunately I didn't get too attached. I still lurk and once in a great while post, but I never felt like I fit in over there, but I feel like that eveywhere

02-29-2008, 12:40 PM	#1823
KIKI67 Senior LCF Member Join Date: Apr 2007 Location: Nebraska Posts: 66 Gallery: KIKI67 Stats: 160/152.6/130 WOE: LC/LCal/LF Start Date: 03/01/2008	Thank you all for taking me in. I so need all the support I can get!!!

02-29-2008, 01:35 PM	#1826
KIKI67 Senior LCF Member Join Date: Apr 2007 Location: Nebraska Posts: 66 Gallery: KIKI67 Stats: 160/152.6/130 WOE: LC/LCal/LF Start Date: 03/01/2008	You all are so nice