Why the fascination with Kimmer? #5

[Tooter]

Kiwi8, One day at a time. Honey, there is hope, but it's one day at a time. I was anorexic/bulimic years ago. I no longer am and I have learned how to eat (and for my health) all over again.

I'm glad you are here and brave enough to share this with others.

[Chasintrail]

Kiwi

[Rose1271]

kiwi8

I am so sorry for what you are going through. I understand what it's like to have an ed. I struggle with it everyday. I love food so much and then feel guilty when I overeat that the only thing I focus on is ridding my body of the excess food. I am bulimic. I am hurting my body by doing this, but tunnel vision sets in and I only focus on NOT putting on extra weight.

Please know, that the members on this site are very supportive and you are welcome to come here and post and read and learn and be a part of this very loving community.

[GinaC]

Originally Posted by Piekinns

I was wondering:


What about tippykins and singingass....should they be forgiven?


I say NO!


Just about anyone else I would welcome with open arms.


What say you?

They are now as guilty as she is. They have peaked behind the curtain and are still actively supporting this scam and they are actively participating in a coverup. They are criminals and involved in criminal activity.

Watergate did not bring down Nixon, the attempted coverup did!

[Locarb4me]

Originally Posted by 2big4mysize

did everybody cklick on the contact us button and thank the station and reporter for breaking the story?

Yes indeed.

[LovelyLady]

That was painful for me to read. I can't imagine how hard it was for you to write. I just want you to know that you are most defnitely in my thoughts and prayers, sweetie.

Originally Posted by kiwi8

I started KK about Aug of last year, I never really followed the diet 100%, and I know I was in here saying you should listen to your body blar blar...I have a confession to make now, and as I write this tears well in my eyes because for the first time I realize that I may have some kind of an eating disorder now, and to even admit something like this is so so very hard for me. When I joined KK, I was thrilled to see that all these people were eating so little, it was the conformation I was looking for that eating next to nothing was OK. I had gone to many diet sites and the mods there would always say " you need to eat at least 1200 cals a day" and what not...I always struggled to lose weight, my thyroid and metabolism was so screwed up, and still is. When I got the conformation I needed ( eating 300-400 cals a day was ok ) I literally went whole hog. I water fasted for 10-12 days at a time, I would simply put it back on after a month or 2.....but I learnt something that was really cool ( I thought) and that was how to vomited my food back up ( please nobody attack me here, this is hard for me to admit as it is) I always used to joke about how neat it would be if I could like go on a binge and then puke it all back up, but I never could do it, and I did try it, but I hate puking. Anyway's what I discovered is that when you lower you cals so so low as I did on the KK diet, that SNATT feeling you get, well it helps ever so much to bring on the vomit, your body starts to reject food. For the first time in my life I was able to go without food for up to 12 days and just water fast, allowing myself a cup of back coffee in the morning. I think what happens is that your digestive system shuts down, then when you try and eat, it all gets stuck in your throat and you don't even have to put your fingers down your throat to purge, it just comes out all by itself.I have also been using laxative teas, I even went a step further though, and when lax teas weren't working, well I went and purchased an enema kit, it helped to see a the numbers change on the scale, now how obsessed is that. Now for all you KK people listen up....I was here but mere hours ago defending this women to the end.....WHY.....because in all fairness I was protecting myself, protecting this form of eating that I have adapted and didn't want to admit I was wrong....this is one hard pill for me to swallow, because now I AM SCARED....I am scared of food, food has become an enemy to me......The reason that I have not lost a lot of weight on KK is because I simply put it all back on.....I have had a cycling type of diet going on, where I eat like crazy for a month to 6 weeks, then I starve myself for a month or so, and it all starts again......I started a personal journal which you can all read at KK, its called " come high or low waters" in there you can see how I am fasting, and how others were cheering me on, you can see how some were also telling me to be careful and I was like" heck no I can do this, I am focused" They took the fasting thread down, but there I had pictures posted of myself having lost 12 pounds in 8 days, I was so so proud......I hope that someone reads this and listen's to that little quiet voice in there head telling them THIS IS THE TRUTH, THE LIGHT......I am faced with learning how to eat again, eat without vomiting, eat without feeling guilty......I am not laying blame totally on KK, but for people like me that have been desperate to lose weight, this is the conformation they have been looking for to starve themselves. I too have been suffering with side effects.....losing handfuls of hair, having heart palpitations,I strange tingling down my left arm, a total loss of energy, I went and got blood test because I had lost my short term memory, I could not remember my sons birthday even and it was scary, I was suffering from insomnia and all kinds of different things. When I got my blood test back, everything was screwed up, all my female hormones, it put me into early menopause, I am 37 years old, my human growth hormone was at the age of a 97 yr old women, I kept getting rashed all over my body and I would go on antibiotics which didn't help, then I started getting all kinds of yeast infections, which I have never ever had, just a long list of things. I have many different excuses I have mustered up for these things. To come clean about the KK diet, is to come clean with yourself, and admitting I have a huge problem with food is extremely hard to do because what it means for people like me is WHAT NOW......for those who feel they haven't adapted this bad identity with food yet, just know if you continue to eat even 800 cals a day, you soon will. I want to publicly reach out to all of you who are still stuck in this place, I know how lonely and scary it is, come make that first step with me, I am scared too.......I knew full well that everyone here was trying to get the message threw, but I could not except it. This has been the hardest thing for me to admit....I am sorry

[boobookity]

Kiwi

[Bobbin]

Kiwi I know exactly where you are coming from I have been there too.

[Piekinns]

Kiwi

[Keepugesin]

Can anyone link me to Ducky or The Truth...I'm at work and can't find the links! This is amazing, and fun!

[jwc]

Originally Posted by jeanessa

For conjecture's sake...let's say Heidi was telling the truth in this statement:

"We are surprised that the extent of their investigation was to post information from the anti-Kimmer websites. We cannot make this any more plain that I am not Heidi. She and I have been friends since high school and when I began posting on the internet nearly 10 years ago I used Heidi. As I've mentioned, I also use other names when writing, particularly for men's magazines. Heidi is an owner of Kimkins.com and nothing more. "

I just hope they don't try to put Kimmer and Heidi in separate jail cells. Could get messy.

[pbptm]

Kiwi8 Take care and if you haven't already go talk to your Doctor.

[kiwi8]

I really just cant stop crying, I feel so stupid, and I realllllllllly want to reach out to everyone who is still stuck here in this horrible confused place.....please please take that first step with me, there must be others who this has happened to who are to scared to come forward with me.....please leave that site, I allowed myself to get brain washed, and I know you dont want to hear this, but I also know you can feel it in your stomach, you know I am sincere, LISTEN to that quiet voice please ....hugs to all you KK people who I know are reading this, dont be scared....

[airse]

Has anyone sent this video to Greta? I don`t know if she does investigations or not. But maybe someone from Fox News would look into it.......

Kiwi~~ I am sorry you have been thru all of this. Keep the Faith girl there is light at the end of the tunnel.......Mel

I also emailed the station thanking them and telling them to stay on top of this before someone ends up starving themselves to death........

[DivaTai]

Kiwi, I know how much courage it took for you to write that and it will be that courage, strength, and determination that will see you through this.

[mrsmenopausal]

Originally Posted by Diana

Man when she lies she goes all out huh?? THe graphic guys get bored? and they are being paid to do this by who? Yeah... thought so

Who is going to fall for this? Like someone working for the site is just going to change it without the owners say so? mkay. I believe it.
LOL. I love how you sum it all up.

Originally Posted by kiwi8

WAVING BIG WHITE FLAG.......ladies please except my up most apologies, I truly was wrong and I am sincerely sorry for my bad comments and behavior.. I logged on this morning and seen the news clip and was REALLY SHOCKED....to be completely honest with you all, I never really believed those pictures were Heidi, I honestly thought it was just a vicious attack or something...I was wrong. I feel really sick to my stomach now. Yes I wrote some nasty attacks on here, but honestly I thought this was all just some made up drama...If you check on KK site you can see I have only been back on site for the past week, prior to that is was like a month ago and I was only there for a day or two, prior to that is was months ago, and I didn't really know what was going on, I was just hearing it from over at KK, and then when I came here I thought people were just being mean...I joined the banned wagon and got all emotional and said things I now regret.....I am truly sorry and hope you all have big enough hearts to see I was just emotional and protecting something that I thought was true......SORRY i will make a public apology to you all on the Ducky site.

kiwi.

Originally Posted by Buff-N-Tuff

Sipping on bacon drippings here, LMAO, wondering who the majority of the JURY will be.

mm, yummy.

Originally Posted by HBGal

I'm still trying to catch up from last night but I just wanted to say thank you for all the nice comments. I am seriously blushing right now.

That was really hard for me to do. I was pacing around the house all morning with anxiety trying to calm myself down before the interview, LOL (I am VERY shy in real life and have major public speaking issues). But this was SO worth it! In the words of my friend (the PI's wife), "she's going dowwwwwn!".

I would never have guessed it was hard for you. You appeared very relaxed. You did GREAT!

Originally Posted by ChefDeb

It only took 10 minutes to get banned.....
here's what I posted!
Alliance Blogs: Private Investigator's Notes: The Surveillance of Southern California Diet Scammer Heidi Diaz of Kimkins

KTLA, The CW | Video

If you want the truth.

Awesome!

Originally Posted by HBGal

Was this "gal" supposed to be me? I never said that.

Dayum! Does that mean that untrue, exaggerated, and made up stuff is being poster over there?

From KK's forum - [i]Listen to me People..THIS DIET WORKS 1 Day, 15 Hours ago
I started it about three or four months back at about 327 and I will make it to 200 at about Xmas time which is exactly on schedule for me. I don't post much anymore I just do the program and believe in the process.

I LIVE ON THE BOOT CAMP MENU..HELLO! VERY HAPPY

I really don't have anything to add but if you wanna ask a few questions I will try to answer.

No girlie questions and I don't want to know what you feel.

Most of my answers will be, if you are a man don't go below 800 cals if you are a woman don't go below 600. Take in a bit more fat if you START SEEING PROBLEMS before trashing the program Take the SUPPS that are recommended.
Set a goal weight of three to four pounds when you reach it have a meal of 500 cals over that to keep the body confused. The cells are smart but not that damn smart. The weight loss gurus make millions telling you that you will go into starvation mode if you drop a single cal below what they tell you. That's bullshit.

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OMG! Is this some kind of insanity or what?

It's ... UNREAL!

Originally Posted by ChefDeb

What gets me is the replys - "Oh, thanks for summing it up, I really needed a kick in the pants!" or "Wow, I really feel like more of an adult making my own choices after reading your post".

Step away from the koolaid people!!!

Originally Posted by M.Dove

I joined this morning just to thank you and everyone else who has worked so diligently to bring the truth to light.

Well done!

Originally Posted by Cryssi

She had to have paid cash for that car (which of course would be easy with the site earnings). No one would finance her with an outstanding judgment from the school loans.

What a slap in the face to those she has defrauded

I'm just glad she can drive around in something a little more dignified than the van so when she's on tv again they can see what she's been doing with some of the $

Originally Posted by Cryssi

This is over at theTRUTH.

yeah, mkay. And Heidi is your before picture for your business because ....?

[Peskypict]

Kiwi8

S'ok, time to move forward now, it'll be hard, but it will be ok.

Coming out and speaking with people here is the first step. You have people here that know and understand what you're going through. This will make it easier from this point out.

Be kind to yourself.

[momofallboys]

I was debating whether or not to e-mail the station but after reading Kiwi's story I couldn't help myself. I e-mailed them too. The woman (Kimmer/Heidi) must be stopped and that website shut down.

[xf89]

to the newbies and to Kiwi!

[susique333]

Originally Posted by jwc

I just hope they don't try to put Kimmer and Heidi in separate jail cells. Could get messy.

Oh my Gawd! LOL!!!

[Piekinns]

Originally Posted by GinaC

They are now as guilty as she is. They have peaked behind the curtain and are still actively supporting this scam and they are actively participating in a coverup. They are criminals and involved in criminal activity.

Watergate did not bring down Nixon, the attempted coverup did!

This is exactly why I said no.

[jenna...]

just saw the video... oh my oh my Kimmer is TOAST.

[HBGal]

Originally Posted by kiwi8

I started KK about Aug of last year, I never really followed the diet 100%, and I know I was in here saying you should listen to your body blar blar...I have a confession to make now, and as I write this tears well in my eyes because for the first time I realize that I may have some kind of an eating disorder now, and to even admit something like this is so so very hard for me. When I joined KK, I was thrilled to see that all these people were eating so little, it was the conformation I was looking for that eating next to nothing was OK. I had gone to many diet sites and the mods there would always say " you need to eat at least 1200 cals a day" and what not...I always struggled to lose weight, my thyroid and metabolism was so screwed up, and still is. When I got the conformation I needed ( eating 300-400 cals a day was ok ) I literally went whole hog. I water fasted for 10-12 days at a time, I would simply put it back on after a month or 2.....but I learnt something that was really cool ( I thought) and that was how to vomited my food back up ( please nobody attack me here, this is hard for me to admit as it is) I always used to joke about how neat it would be if I could like go on a binge and then puke it all back up, but I never could do it, and I did try it, but I hate puking. Anyway's what I discovered is that when you lower you cals so so low as I did on the KK diet, that SNATT feeling you get, well it helps ever so much to bring on the vomit, your body starts to reject food. For the first time in my life I was able to go without food for up to 12 days and just water fast, allowing myself a cup of back coffee in the morning. I think what happens is that your digestive system shuts down, then when you try and eat, it all gets stuck in your throat and you don't even have to put your fingers down your throat to purge, it just comes out all by itself.I have also been using laxative teas, I even went a step further though, and when lax teas weren't working, well I went and purchased an enema kit, it helped to see a the numbers change on the scale, now how obsessed is that. Now for all you KK people listen up....I was here but mere hours ago defending this women to the end.....WHY.....because in all fairness I