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Old 05-22-2013, 10:00 AM   #1
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46 Weeks on JUDDD -- Grim Victories

This week I weighed in at 247 lbs for a loss of 3 lb this week, a total of 43 lbs lost, 36 of them on JUDDD.

Yeah, that's right. I lost three fricken pounds this week. I should be all aglow. But I'm merely steely-eyed about it. And now I'll explain why...

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Seething Rage. So not only did I see a net gain last week after finally wrestling my calories under control and doing a great week of rotations. But then I had a dinner party--one that I starved all day for, so that I could enjoy--only to see my weight go up another three pounds over night. And even though I knew most of that had to be water, I thought, ok, so now it's actually happening. Just like Soren warned me, I'm no longer losing slowly or maintaining, now I'm actually reversing trends. Re-gaining weight that I already lost. And wow, I stood on that scale staring with seething rage. Which, as it happens, is a lot better than the alternative of despair. You all know what I'm talking about--that pit of despair in a diet where you start to fail and you think, that's it then, this isn't going to work, I've failed again, time to just accept being fat and stop tormenting myself.

Tormenting Myself. But while I stood there in my seething rage, I thought about the week to follow. Another convention filled with food. Days I won't have control of anything. And if I was already up to 253 then I might well be up to 260 by next week, a prospect so damaging to my psyche that I dared not risk it. So I considered the things that I have been able to control and the things that I have been less successful at controlling. When I started this journey, I would never have thought myself capable of fasting but relatively incapable of controlling my up days. I can't think of a single down day that I've screwed up in almost a year whereas I can't even count the number of Up Days that became binges. Perhaps I've been tackling this from the wrong side. If I can do one down day can I do two or more? This is my third down day in a row and while it is not pleasant, it's not noticeably more unpleasant than any other down day. I do not recommend this experiment for anyone else--this is my own regulating measure--but it saw me to a loss of three pounds. And these three pounds were particularly important to me.

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In Your Face. So yeah, the ability to do three down days in a row has given me a certain grim pride. Sure, I may not be able to stop eating once I start like any normal person ought to be able to. But I can go without food longer than any other person I know personally. Perhaps that sense of confidence, that strength, will carry through to my normal up days.

Coping. In each of the next five days I will be in a circumstance where it's a food-topia. Normally, I tell myself that I will just try to eat moderately, but, this time, I've decided not to lie to myself. I'm not going to eat moderately. I don't know how. But what I am going to do is fast until dinner each night. And JUDDD has given me the tools to do that. So next week's number won't be good, but if it's 250 or less, I will consider it a huge victory.

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Old 05-22-2013, 10:08 AM   #2
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I know I'm in a completely different place - but I have suffered from gaining and losing the same 30 (or 5 or 10 or 20) lbs for my entire life.

I did IF a few years ago - only ever ate at dinner (and until about 10pm) each day - and I enjoyed being the thinnest I'd ever been. There is only so much damage you can do in a short amount of time, right?

I wish you luck.
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Old 05-22-2013, 10:46 AM   #3
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Well, I'm a firm believer that it's the randomness of our ancestors' diets that is the actual example for working with our bodies toward weight loss. So I may not be as shocked over 3 DDs in a row as others. Still, very hard to tell our bodies what to "think", and the starvation-mode idea might get through instead.

With food-topia on the horizon, hopefully any starving ideas will be quelled fast.

Best wishes on knowing when the difficult mealtimes will be and trying to work with the schedule. Hoping that next week will be a calm weigh-in.
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Old 05-22-2013, 05:55 PM   #4
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Steph, I totally hear how your rage was motivating and I think you proved to yourself that you got the DD thing down pat! Now put that motivating anger into sheer determination to control your UDs. You. Can. Do. It! I think fasting till dinner is great. I do it all the time and that way get to enjoy me DD energy well into my UD. I also get to eat a nice dinner and snack before bed, which with 1500 calorie UDs I won't get to do much if I eat through out the day. I'm not particularly worried about the occasional double or triple DD this far into the game. I believe you know your body well and what it can handle. Maybe it was the shake up you needed, but the UD make this WOE sustainable and healthy so do have an UD soon. and
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Old 05-22-2013, 06:54 PM   #5
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Great, honest post as always steph. It sounds like a rough patch but you have been at this for 46 weeks now and you're still making it work for you. I hope fasting until dinner allows you to enjoy the food you do eat without stress or worry, and that the scale rewards you for this next week!
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Old 05-23-2013, 01:23 AM   #6
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Grim Victories as a title put me in mind of both Crawford and Davis - an impression that was only heightened by reading about the seething rage.

Good luck with the convention week.
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Old 05-23-2013, 03:28 AM   #7
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Steph, thanks for the update. I'm sorry to hear that you are struggling. I know well of what thou dost speak. I can't imagine doing 3 DDs in a row, but if you can and it works, more power to you!!! I hope you can find a happy medium where you can eat sensibly (ha! It's worth hoping for, at least) and not have to starve (for prolonged periods) to lose weight between UDs.
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Old 05-23-2013, 06:43 AM   #8
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Love the honesty here. Personally, I feel seething rage if I weigh daily. Don't know how y'all do it...ANY gain at all after "all my hard work" makes me see red.

Anyhow, I totally get what you are saying about knowing you have the tools and the resolve.

I hate the stereotype that fat people are lazy. I don't look like someone who ever misses a meal, but I have more resolve and sticktoitiveness than many thin people I know. I hear people complain about having had "nothing to eat since breakfast" and inwardly say "if you only knew".

Looks like my post, which was meant to be encouragement, is turning into "all about me", so I will leave you for now, hoping some of this was helpful.
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Steph, I too love your honesty. It's why we love your daily updates so much! You tell it how it is for you, which is so helpful when others are going through the same thing. So glad you were able to get off those rage pounds with your superwoman 3 DDs!

We all need to figure out what works for us, but I actually figured out I was stalling my losses with very low DDs and when I took a break to avoid getting discouraged by sticking to UD cals and increasing DDs to 650-750, the scale not only started moving dramatically but both UDs and DDs have been easier. Just wanted to share that, but it might not be right for where you are right now.
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Old 05-23-2013, 09:58 AM   #10
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I hate the stereotype that fat people are lazy. I don't look like someone who ever misses a meal, but I have more resolve and sticktoitiveness than many thin people I know. I hear people complain about having had "nothing to eat since breakfast" and inwardly say "if you only knew


People are so incredibly judgmental of the overweight and obese and assume we're both lazy and glutenous. I'm sure it would shock most thin people (who are more often than not thin by accident and not effort) to know how many of use overweight and obese people go every other day without any food.
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Old 05-23-2013, 11:30 AM   #11
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Thanks for another great update, Steph. You are really hanging in there with your tough work schedule, and I am impressed by that. I'm glad you had a loss this week - we really do need that to keep us motivated.
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Old 05-30-2013, 06:11 PM   #12
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Steph, I too love your honesty. It's why we love your daily updates so much! You tell it how it is for you, which is so helpful when others are going through the same thing.
I hope so!!!
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Old 05-30-2013, 06:12 PM   #13
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I hate the stereotype that fat people are lazy. I don't look like someone who ever misses a meal, but I have more resolve and sticktoitiveness than many thin people I know. I hear people complain about having had "nothing to eat since breakfast" and inwardly say "if you only knew".

Looks like my post, which was meant to be encouragement, is turning into "all about me", so I will leave you for now, hoping some of this was helpful.
Never apologize for that. You wrote some fantastic stuff above that I wish people realized.
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Old 05-30-2013, 06:13 PM   #14
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Steph, thanks for the update. I'm sorry to hear that you are struggling. I know well of what thou dost speak. I can't imagine doing 3 DDs in a row, but if you can and it works, more power to you!!! I hope you can find a happy medium where you can eat sensibly (ha! It's worth hoping for, at least) and not have to starve (for prolonged periods) to lose weight between UDs.
I'm tempted to throw in an extra DD a week, but mostly I'm content to do it only when there's a special occasion.
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Old 05-30-2013, 06:15 PM   #15
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I know I'm in a completely different place - but I have suffered from gaining and losing the same 30 (or 5 or 10 or 20) lbs for my entire life.

I did IF a few years ago - only ever ate at dinner (and until about 10pm) each day - and I enjoyed being the thinnest I'd ever been. There is only so much damage you can do in a short amount of time, right?

I wish you luck.
Dunno how you did it! I found it harder than just a normal down day in some respects.
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Old 05-30-2013, 09:06 PM   #16
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I've been mia for a bit... Just getting back to the boards.

I said something? Am i like a prophet?

Im back in the 240's also, and not giving up, and not giving up JUDDD either. Ditto on tools, and in my case, traveling is the factor to overcome.

Ok, on to week 47.
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I wanted to know what Soren said too. I love all the words of wisdom here and I feel like I might have missed out on one!
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Old 06-03-2013, 01:06 PM   #18
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A few weeks back, Soren warned me against complacency, saying that it could get to the point where you're not actually maintaining, but regaining weight you lost. I had that in the back of my head as the BRIDGE I WILL NOT CROSS.
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Oooooh.

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