S.C.A.M. Here

[catjrow3]

Originally Posted by verbqueen

I had one of those gurgling/gassy days on Tuesday, and I couldn't figure out what caused it. I'm on P2, so it's not like my diet is varied or anything!

Anyway, hope you are MUCH better tomorrow!

Sometimes I get that way just before my TOM .... weird huh...

Just popping my head in to wave hi!! Nothing exciting to report here!!

[shelbyla]

Hey Cathy! Cool new avi. New hair color? I like it darker--it's really pretty on you.

Good date with new guy last night. The only unfortunate thing is that he has the same name as my last ex-boyfriend. I can just Imagine it now--Joe #1 and Joe #2 or "Old Joe"/"New Joe". We'll see if it goes anywhere first...

Weight is doing funky things again. I was at 154 on Wednesday, 152 yesterday and 155 ( ) today. Obviously water weight or something. I had a couple of drinks last night then got into the nut butters. I REALLY need to bag those into portions and put them in the freezer! Nut butter + martinis = 3 pound gain!

TGIF!

[catjrow3]

Michelle, no... its my senior pictures from high school. One of the other forums I read said we should post an old photo of ourselves... That was me at 18!!!! Glad you had a good date night!!

[shelbyla]

Oh ugh! My pics from highschool are NOT great! I think I have one somewhere with a funky hat... Glad you've got a good one.

[1BellaDonna]

Oh boy. Great weekend bc my DH just got participate in his commencement ceremony for his BS and we spent it with our very close friends. It was NOT good for me bc my bulimia reared its ugly head worse than it's been in a looping time. I am not sure why this round is so difficult. :-( Still blessed though. Could be worse, I guess.

How are you ladies? Anything fun and diabolical going on? ;-)

[verbqueen]

Hey, Letitia and all the rest of you SCAM girlies.

I'm kinda grouchy and frustrated this weekend, so I'll try to be brief and not spread my "bad mood virus" to the whole gang...

I thought I'd easily hit goal in this last 3 week round, but I got to 165.4 and just kind of slammed to halt. I feel like I need to go a little below 165 in order to be able to maintain it (I tended to hover a pound or two aboe LDW in Round 1; never, ever below it), and I thought for sure I'd be to 164 or even 163 by now. But I'm not. Still 165.4. So I guess I have to dose again tomorrow, and for the foreseeable future until I can get this weight to budge. Not a great tragedy in the grand scheme and all, but I was just somehow totally mentally set on today being my last hcg day. And now it's not.

I'm sick of P2. Can you tell?

[1BellaDonna]

Sending you a big hug,Jess. I completely understand your frustration with being sloop close and being forced o extend. Anger? Annoyance? D. All of the above. :-)

I'm struggling so much right now. Sigh. Anyway, tomorrow will be better for you. Try on something that was snug a few pounds ago to remind you that You've Got This. you're almost there.

[shelbyla]

Jess - Sorry to hear you're stalling. Frustrating, very frustrating, but if you keep at it, you'll get there. And keep in mind that you always have an apple day if the stall is truly epic!

Letitia - oh hon! Just lots of hugs for you! I wish I knew how to help with the ed thing. I really do! I hate to think about you suffering from this--you're so cool! p.s. Did you see the thread about the SoCal meetup in the works? Any way we could twist your arm to come up to Long Beach in a couple of weeks?

Well, weirdly, I think I met someone. It's early days yet but everything looks very promising. Don't want to jinx myself so I will "introduce" him to you all later! I WILL say he's cute, nice, and age-appropriate (only a few years younger...)!

[shelbyla]

Does anyone think that THIS emoticon for "lol" is weird?--> Just sayin'...

[catjrow3]

Morning girls,
Jessica, I hear your frustration! I will keep my fingers and toes crossed for you...

Michelle, well, we will be waiting with bated breath to hear the news. How exciting!! Love the new avi too!!

Letitia, I am with you girl! I am just plain frustrated too. Not really "binging" here, but not on the right track. I have decided this morning I think to just cruise on auto and eat healthy for a while and stop thinking about losing weight. All I can do is bounce up and down and not getting anywhere except frustrated, and so maybe if I stop thinking about it and just eat normally and exercise to be healthy I will figure it out someday! Not sure if it wont backfire on me, but thought it might be worth a try!!

Hope you feel better soon hun and we are here for you! Just come share!!

[1BellaDonna]

Hi chickadees! Well, after yet another day of binging and purging food definitely not on the protocol or just not eating, I've decided to put this round on hold. My b and P has been the worst its been in years and I am so tired f feeling the guilt from the eating of the forbidden food, sneaking around and hiding food and purging, worrying about getting caught, and the worry that I could die from it and leave my kids and husband. I'm not sure why its been so rough this time. Maybe bc TOM is almost here? I don't know. :-( My plan of action will be to eat the P2 lunches and then eat very small portions ( like off a saucer) for dinner. You think the dinners this way or low carb dinners would be a better idea? This morning I was at 151.6 and my LDW for the last round was 147.something. My ultimate goal is now an LDW of 140 or 141, since me at 147 now is still a bit bigger than five years ago. What do you guys advise?

Michelle- I can't wait for all the sordid details! ;-) As for the get-together, I actually did see it. I was hoping it ws going to be here in SD ! Lol I wish I could come fo' sho', but it's too hard for me right now. Perhaps another time?

Cathy- sending hugs to you my sister in guilt and teeth issues!
Jessica- hope things are better for you today.

[catjrow3]

Letitia, I think you should just eat healthy and not focus on food so you can control the B and P first. I think thats a good idea of smaller meals, but healthy and see where it puts you. I think the "over controlling of food" makes us binge more... dont you?

I hope it improves hun.... take a break and remember life is about more then our "weight" My new motto!!

[1BellaDonna]

What about the whole 2 days of 500 cals without the drops? Should I even bother considering all I've been doing is binging and purging for the last 4-5 days?

[catjrow3]

If eating the HCG will just cause you to B and P, I would not do it right now. Not sure what you mean by the 500 calorie days.. You had them, maybe they helped, but I would get control and see how you feel then. Just eating healthy and not having the ED is alot more healthy for you at this point..... feel better hun!!

[1BellaDonna]

i'm sorry. i should have clarified. i was referring to the last 2 days of p2 when you do the 500 calories but don't take the hhcg anymore. should i continue trying to end things "properly" although i've not done anything "properly" for a good 4-5 days? can i just stop cold-turkey or will it hurt me by just changing my diet like that? i'm thnking i can just stop all together?

[verbqueen]

I think the theory is that if you eat normal/high calories while the hcg is still in your body, you will gain. Don't know if that's really true or not, though, especially with the homeopathic stuff.

[catjrow3]

Ahh, gotcha.... I did not realize you were on a true round yet, thought you were trying to start... I would just eat lower and stop the drops (but not necessarily 500 at all) just try not to binge... if it were me... but I ate up to 1200 on the drops, so I was always rogue!! LOL

How are you feeling today??

[shelbyla]

Letitia - If I were you, I would just stop. The whole diet thing is obviously messing with your head right now. I would go back to eating whatever works for you--low carb, or whatever, and just keep yourself sane. I MAY do another round in January so there's an opportunity there to buddy-up.

In other news, Mr. New Guy is being quite attentive which is kinda nice from someone from whom I appreciate the attention, kwim? I feel like I'm 16 or something--texting all the time, talking on the phone (which I NEVER do!), emailing--jeez! Anyway, it's kind of nice to meet someone where the top of your head comes off with a kiss... It's been a while! I'll keep y'all posted but I don't think I'll be seeing him 'til Friday anyway. I am going to a concert tomorrow by myself (Seether--new album ROCKS!) then I'll be in our Irvine office on Thursday so at least I've got stuff to occupy my mind until then. This whole new guy thing is very...distracting...in a nice way...

[1BellaDonna]

hi there my lovelies. thanks for the advice and support. i don't know what the heck is going on with me! i've not purged today at all, which is weird since i couldn't allow myself to keep anything down for the past few days. anyway, i'm preparing myself mentally for the physical reaction (bloating, inevitable weight gain). i'm thinking i'll do some low carb eating for a while, along with watching portion sizes. still waiting for bernice, she's barely visited for a week now...just a driveby every 3 or so days (if i'm lucky!). :-(

michelle- i can't wait to hear more about this wonderful new guy. i love how you're all giddy over him and that he's showing you the attention that you deserve! hey, have fun at the seether concer. i think i'll check out their new album on my spotify account.

ok, i'm gone. hugs to you all!!

[catjrow3]

Sounds like a good plan Letitia...we are here for you!! You go girl!!

[1BellaDonna]

ha! up exactly 1 lb today. knew it. trying not to let it affect me. TOM was "supposed" to start yesterday and Bernice seems to dislike me and not want to visit. i will not panic. :-)

how are you today my lovelies?

cathy- love how your start date says "who remembers"! LMAO!

michelle- i meant to tell you that i love your new avi. i didn't recognize you at first. your hair is lighter. you can rock light and darker hair. nice.

jess- how are you holding up? how's the scale treating you today? do i need to give it a talking to? teach it a lesson? i'll do it! i've got nothing to lose! (okay, like 12 lbs but you know what i mean)

drew- eat a crepe with nutella and banana for me...or if your'e watching your diet, a TON of yummy escargot. nummy nummy!!

[catjrow3]

Originally Posted by 1BellaDonna

ha! up exactly 1 lb today. knew it. trying not to let it affect me. TOM was "supposed" to start yesterday and Bernice seems to dislike me and not want to visit. i will not panic. :-)

how are you today my lovelies?

cathy- love how your start date says "who remembers"! LMAO!

Letitia, seriously who can remember anymore!! Breathe deep, it will be fine. TOM will breeze through and the weight will drop again. Did you eat your gummies??? LOL

[1BellaDonna]

lol i've eaten like half a huge bottle with no luck! :-( i just have gas that makes my husband suggest that i sleep in the guest room! lol (yes, he ousted me from our marital bed last week!) it's pretty unbecoming. as well, it's a challenge for me, as i told my 4 y/o a long time ago that mommy doesnt' toot. poor kid will be scarred for life the first time his future gf toots near him! ;-)

[catjrow3]

Originally Posted by 1BellaDonna

lol i've eaten like half a huge bottle with no luck! :-( i just have gas that makes my husband suggest that i sleep in the guest room! lol (yes, he ousted me from our marital bed last week!) it's pretty unbecoming. as well, it's a challenge for me, as i told my 4 y/o a long time ago that mommy doesnt' toot. poor kid will be scarred for life the first time his future gf toots near him! ;-)

OMG!!! Maybe if its been a while, try some smooth move tea or exlax....

[1BellaDonna]

woo hoo!!!!!!! Bernice and TOM visited. hope just one of them stays around. wait. am i using the term bernice correctly? lol is she the problem child or the one i've been anxiously awaiting?? lol anyway, yippeee!!!!!!!!! re: the teas and laxatives, i can't take them. my ED started off with laxatives and those teas. now my tummy can't take them at all (even if taken properly). it feels like someone's trying to carve out my stomach. :-( I'm taking l. acidophilus now. hope that it helps.

[shelbyla]

All right - I am popping in here to give you guys the boy update...and see if anyone can remember a quote that I can't seem to find.

Apparently, I have a new boyfriend. Nice, normal, drives me crazy (in a good way), totally digs me. I think I posted that I wouldn't be seeing him until today? Um, well right after that (Tuesday), we ended up getting together and had a really GOOOOOD time. Then we spent all day Wednesday and yesterday texting each other. Then got together last night. And tonight we are keeping our originally scheduled "third date" which will be our 5th in 9 days. Crazy stuff. Scary. And kind of nice. Oh, and last night? "Good" became "mind-blowingly excellent".

So Jess - I think you posted something a while back? I think it was a quote from a book...something along the lines of "our job as women are to be beautiful, mysterious, and unattainable..." Was that you? Do you know the one I mean? I need a reality check here. I don't want to scare this guy off or make him lose interest... HELP!

[catjrow3]

Originally Posted by shelbyla

All right - I am popping in here to give you guys the boy update...and see if anyone can remember a quote that I can't seem to find.

Apparently, I have a new boyfriend. Nice, normal, drives me crazy (in a good way), totally digs me. I think I posted that I wouldn't be seeing him until today? Um, well right after that (Tuesday), we ended up getting together and had a really GOOOOOD time. Then we spent all day Wednesday and yesterday texting each other. Then got together last night. And tonight we are keeping our originally scheduled "third date" which will be our 5th in 9 days. Crazy stuff. Scary. And kind of nice. Oh, and last night? "Good" became "mind-blowingly excellent".

So Jess - I think you posted something a while back? I think it was a quote from a book...something along the lines of "our job as women are to be beautiful, mysterious, and unattainable..." Was that you? Do you know the one I mean? I need a reality check here. I don't want to scare this guy off or make him lose interest... HELP!

Does this mean you are "officially" canceling dating with other guys? whoo hooo.. you get to join our little "attached" group then!! How fun!! The excitement of a new "guy" that part I could do again, just not the dating to find them!! Congrats!

[shelbyla]

Thanks Cathy. It's really early days yet but yes, I cancelled anyone else at this point. I can't seem to think of anything but him. Frankly I can't really seem to think at all!

Btw, love the new avi!

[catjrow3]

Originally Posted by shelbyla

Thanks Cathy. It's really early days yet but yes, I cancelled anyone else at this point. I can't seem to think of anything but him. Frankly I can't really seem to think at all!

Btw, love the new avi!

Have fun with it then and enjoy it!!! The beginning is the best!! congrats!

[verbqueen]

Hey, girls. I've been SO crazy busy this week, but I'm grabbing a few minutes of computer time here after midnight while everything is calm and quiet.

Shelby, I'm really excited for you about the new man! But much as I'd like to claim the quote, it's not mine, alas. And I'm pretty sure that you do NOT any help with this--you've totally got it, girl!

You may have seen the thread I created to toot my own horn! I hit goal this week! I'm kind of stunned. My goal isn't super low, and I feel like it's something I can comfortably live with, but it's the lowest weight I've been in decades!

I'll be a better adopted member of S.C.A.M. next week, I promise! Night, ladies.