Man oh man ....

JeniferCA · 05-24-2011, 08:13 PM

It looks like I'm throwing in the towel. Well, until Sunday that is. Today was only vlcd5 for me so I don't feel too awful about things.

This is my 4th round and the last few days have been the hardest of all the rounds. I couldn't put my finger on it so I started to think and think and think about it. I asked myself the question: "What is different this round than in previous rounds?"

At first I couldn't think of anything and then it dawned on me. I'm having a planned cheat meal this coming Saturday for my son's birthday and I think that knowing I'm going to be doing that has made me TOTALLY and ABSOLUTELY obsessed with food. Don't get me wrong, I'm always slightly obsessive about it (

), but never to this extent. I have had to talk myself off the cheating ledge countless times over the last few days and I'm not usually that way. It was almost like I knew I was going to cheat so it made me want to do it even more.

All that said, I crumbled and gave in today. BIG. HUGE. So I decided that I needed to start over once this birthday meal was out of the way. I'm not saying it's going to make things a piece of cake, but I think it will help. I won't have anything else in my way and can focus on three solid weeks of a good P2.

I'm going to wean off the drops starting tonight and will start them again on Sunday morning. I'm also going to stay away from the scale for a bit -- until at least mid next week. I will still do my normal wean process tomorrow and Thursday and then focus on protein for Friday.

Thanks for listening to my vent/confession. I do feel better and I truly hope my second go'round on Sunday will be better.

C'Marie · 05-24-2011, 11:58 PM

I hope it works for you, Jen. Sounds like a good plan to me. Planning a cheat doesn't work for everyone

(kinda like at the end of P4 where you say, "WTH, why do a steak day, I'm loading next week?")

catjrow3 · 05-25-2011, 12:22 PM

I think I am the same way Jen. I have a vacation coming up next week and I know I am going off, so I jumped ship over last weekend... why??? I have no idea, other than I knew I was probably going to gain when I went to Jamaica.... I was so mad at myself! I went up 10+ pounds and I am still 7 up!!! I went off the drops for a few days and have been back on them 2 days, and I only have a couple more days to get where I was. Our minds are powerful things!! Good luck with going off and starting again. Hopefully your mind will be back in the game when you do!! Good luck!!

Bierarsch · 05-25-2011, 01:43 PM

Hang in there! Enjoy your son's birthday dinner!

dawnyama · 05-25-2011, 01:44 PM

I got off too. I will join you back on Tues of next week!!!

BigBravesGirl · 05-25-2011, 01:46 PM

When the time is right, you will do it!!

JeniferCA · 06-02-2011, 02:50 PM

I'm back. Today is Day 1 and I'm not a happy camper. LOL I need to go find the current P2 thread!

Bierarsch · 06-02-2011, 09:41 PM

Hey there! I won't say "welcome back", since you don't really want to be here.

05-24-2011, 08:13 PM	#1
JeniferCA Senior LCF Member Join Date: Nov 2010 Location: Bay Area, CA Posts: 526 Gallery: JeniferCA Stats: 219/206/155 WOE: HHCG Start Date: November 2011	Man oh man .... It looks like I'm throwing in the towel. Well, until Sunday that is. Today was only vlcd5 for me so I don't feel too awful about things. This is my 4th round and the last few days have been the hardest of all the rounds. I couldn't put my finger on it so I started to think and think and think about it. I asked myself the question: "What is different this round than in previous rounds?" At first I couldn't think of anything and then it dawned on me. I'm having a planned cheat meal this coming Saturday for my son's birthday and I think that knowing I'm going to be doing that has made me TOTALLY and ABSOLUTELY obsessed with food. Don't get me wrong, I'm always slightly obsessive about it (), but never to this extent. I have had to talk myself off the cheating ledge countless times over the last few days and I'm not usually that way. It was almost like I knew I was going to cheat so it made me want to do it even more. All that said, I crumbled and gave in today. BIG. HUGE. So I decided that I needed to start over once this birthday meal was out of the way. I'm not saying it's going to make things a piece of cake, but I think it will help. I won't have anything else in my way and can focus on three solid weeks of a good P2. I'm going to wean off the drops starting tonight and will start them again on Sunday morning. I'm also going to stay away from the scale for a bit -- until at least mid next week. I will still do my normal wean process tomorrow and Thursday and then focus on protein for Friday. Thanks for listening to my vent/confession. I do feel better and I truly hope my second go'round on Sunday will be better.

05-25-2011, 12:22 PM	#3
catjrow3 Major LCF Poster! Join Date: Feb 2011 Location: Colorado Posts: 2,524 Gallery: catjrow3 Stats: 240/184/140 WOE: HCG Rx again... UGH Start Date: 05/18/2013 Round ???	I think I am the same way Jen. I have a vacation coming up next week and I know I am going off, so I jumped ship over last weekend... why??? I have no idea, other than I knew I was probably going to gain when I went to Jamaica.... I was so mad at myself! I went up 10+ pounds and I am still 7 up!!! I went off the drops for a few days and have been back on them 2 days, and I only have a couple more days to get where I was. Our minds are powerful things!! Good luck with going off and starting again. Hopefully your mind will be back in the game when you do!! Good luck!! __________________ Cathy - 5'6" Week 1: -6.0 lbs (191.4-184.1) 184.9,

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05-24-2011, 11:58 PM	#2
C'Marie Very Gabby LCF Member!!! Join Date: Jan 2011 Posts: 4,047 Gallery: C'Marie Stats: 270/down 110-ish/ goal 147 WOE: hCG Rx shots/JUDDD maintain Start Date: 1/4/2010 Now R9 P2	I hope it works for you, Jen. Sounds like a good plan to me. Planning a cheat doesn't work for everyone (kinda like at the end of P4 where you say, "WTH, why do a steak day, I'm loading next week?")

05-25-2011, 01:43 PM	#4
Bierarsch Senior LCF Member Join Date: May 2011 Location: Texas Posts: 381 Gallery: Bierarsch Stats: 200/134.7/129.3/125 WOE: RX HCG Start Date: R4P4	Hang in there! Enjoy your son's birthday dinner!

05-25-2011, 01:44 PM	#5
dawnyama Way too much time on my hands! Join Date: Oct 2006 Location: Irmo, SC Posts: 21,317 Gallery: dawnyama Stats: 154/???/115 5'4" WOE: Hhcg/Rwhatever P2 Start Date: 6/1/09	I got off too. I will join you back on Tues of next week!!!

05-25-2011, 01:46 PM	#6
BigBravesGirl Plastic Wrap Ninja Join Date: Jul 2002 Location: moving to TWOterville Posts: 43,126 Gallery: BigBravesGirl Stats: 397 / hanging on / 2?? WOE: My way! Start Date: today	When the time is right, you will do it!!

06-02-2011, 02:50 PM	#7
JeniferCA Senior LCF Member Join Date: Nov 2010 Location: Bay Area, CA Posts: 526 Gallery: JeniferCA Stats: 219/206/155 WOE: HHCG Start Date: November 2011	I'm back. Today is Day 1 and I'm not a happy camper. LOL I need to go find the current P2 thread!

06-02-2011, 09:41 PM	#8
Bierarsch Senior LCF Member Join Date: May 2011 Location: Texas Posts: 381 Gallery: Bierarsch Stats: 200/134.7/129.3/125 WOE: RX HCG Start Date: R4P4	Hey there! I won't say "welcome back", since you don't really want to be here.