*~**♥ BiPolar Holiday Survival Support♥ **~*

CurveControl · 11-22-2009, 01:49 AM

It is a hard time of year for many, But seems to hit us worse, Even well controlled/Maintained~

How is everyone?

CurveControl · 11-22-2009, 01:52 AM

Allie~ I hope you are doing better, Have you gotten any news from The Pdoc?

Houston Heather · 11-22-2009, 07:10 AM

You're going to have a baby under your tree, Molly. Such a cute one at that!

I have been a little manic, so in about 3 days to a week I expect to cycle normal, and then depressed. ICK. I can always tell when the depressions are coming because I become very, very nauseous. This happened before medication, too.

Anyway, I hope the mania lasts another week or so. I chatter a lot before I get my first lithium down the hatch... then I get a little fuzzy for a bit and then normal.

I really hate Christmas depressions, one reason I did my holiday decorating while manic, and made my aunt's Christmas afghan too.

dmvgirl · 11-22-2009, 08:36 AM

Does anyone else get teary eyed at every fricken sentimental Christmas commercial?

Houston Heather · 11-22-2009, 08:43 AM

I get really pizzed at the jewelry ones. I feel they make us look like women who sell themselves.

Apparently, the only way to REALLY let me know he loves me, is by spending thousands. Otherwise I won't get all weepy and hug him.

Spending money is the only way to assure me he's committed. Even though the wealthiest couples I know are the ones who are always up in flames.

I would much rather he go to the craft store, or let me drag him around Walmart.

dmvgirl · 11-22-2009, 09:37 AM

My favorite, and one that turns the teary eyed into a faucet is the old Maxwell House coffee one where the son comes home from college but doesn't tell anyone until he is in the house and makes the coffee. I just don't get why I get so emotional over this crap. I love Christmas, my guys and I always have wonderful holidays so it's not like I am missing anything. There is a new one along the same lines but for a computer, and I find that one annoying.. so maybe this year is different... maybe something to do with all the counseling I've had this year..

Houston Heather · 11-22-2009, 11:34 AM

When I cycle depressed I'll get more weepy. Right now it's more irritation at the jewelry ads.

I cleaned out the fridge, and moved Ms Turkey to the bottom shelf in her roaster pan. The tag says it was a hen. I have about a 13 pounder. Yum.

Ron just wants stovetop stuffing and a Hungry-man turkey dinner on Thanksgiving. For some reason, the Hungry Man is more appealing to his palate than "real" turkey.

I won't get offended, I just want him to enjoy his meal.

Bubba-cat just walked in and wants attention now.

Allieglover · 11-22-2009, 01:35 PM

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Originally Posted by CurveControl

Allie~ I hope you are doing better, Have you gotten any news from The Pdoc?

I'm doing ok, they want me to start Zoloft since I'm on the Lamictal to stabalize my moods. The OCD is driving me crazy. Hubby took all of next week off so at least I don't have to worry about the stove, fireplace or whatever else could catch on fire when I leave for work. So hopefully I'll get some relief from the checking.

I may start the Zoloft next week, since I have a long weekend and don't have to worry about side effects at work.

faithgirl · 11-22-2009, 08:33 PM

Hi all, things have settled down a bit from my increase in the Lamictal. I still have to bump it up another 25 mg to be at 150 like the doc wants me to be. i am going to save that one for Thanksgiving night becuase I will have 4 days off and can sit and cry at home rather than at work. I'm with you on taking new drugs/increasing doses while at home Allie. It's hard being at work and feeling miserable.

Valeri, I cry over the Christmas commercials too. I think there's a Folgers one (I think it's folger's) from the 70's or 80's with the little sister that is like 6 and the brother comes home. That one gets me every year. It might be the same one you are thinking, of, I'm not sure.

dmvgirl · 11-22-2009, 09:43 PM

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Originally Posted by faithgirl

Hi all, things have settled down a bit from my increase in the Lamictal. I still have to bump it up another 25 mg to be at 150 like the doc wants me to be. i am going to save that one for Thanksgiving night becuase I will have 4 days off and can sit and cry at home rather than at work. I'm with you on taking new drugs/increasing doses while at home Allie. It's hard being at work and feeling miserable.

Valeri, I cry over the Christmas commercials too. I think there's a Folgers one (I think it's folger's) from the 70's or 80's with the little sister that is like 6 and the brother comes home. That one gets me every year. It might be the same one you are thinking, of, I'm not sure.

Probably the same one.

I'm going to give the melatonin a try tonight. How long does it normally take to work ( those of you that take it)?

CurveControl · 11-23-2009, 11:46 AM

I generally get irritated over the commercials. All of them, But this year the kid in the commercial for QVC or home shopping or whatever dances on my last nerve, with "opening presents is fun, Gingerbread is fun, Presents are fun, The tree is fun, Presents are fun" Buy more gifts...Buy buy buy...

Sigh. If not for the baby I wouldn't even decorate. That and my Nativity sets ( I think I have 21 now) and I really love those sets.

Houston Heather · 11-23-2009, 02:59 PM

I took Ron to Walmart today. Pretty quiet considering.

Medication is really kicking my butt today - very foggy; but I've got a depression outside the door, clawing and howling. Not cutting back on my protection! No! I have had too many CRAPPY holidays due to depression.

Ooooh. I was just told that God gave me my disabilities to "Get my attention" - basically "If you'd been a good girl, God wouldn't have had to spank you."

GRRRRR.

Oh, that makes me LIVID. God needs me exactly the way He made me!

How could an innocent fetus anger God? Huh? Kicked my mother one too many times? Oh, and as a toddler, when I first began having hallucinations and delusions - I was real baaaaad then, crying in my crib.

UGH.

Oh, and a Good Christian would go off medication, trusting in HIM to

restore her.

Yeah, the coroner would love that. Absolutely criminal advice! Criminal!

Thank you for letting me vent.

faithgirl · 11-28-2009, 12:38 PM

Did everyone survive the holiday? I waited until Thursday eveing to up my Lamictal so I would be fairly stress free during my time off from work becuase I knew how rough it could get to go up. Unfortunately it has been anything but stress free-I have a brother that brings his son over and they do NOT know when they have over stayed their welcome. EVERY.DAY. and sometimes twice a day! Then last night we lost our electricity a little after 2 a.m. and I cannot sleep without a fan. So with no fan, I woke up every twenty minutes. My other nephew also stayed the night and the nephew that lives with me-the two of them fight constantly and were loud and agressive-even though they love to play together and insist on seeing each other. So my nerves are on edge, I am so tired, they're all still here but FINALLY the electricity has come back on so I can get online and ignore them as best I can.

And I am whiney in case you couldn't tell.

DJ · 11-28-2009, 03:08 PM

I've been running a little down lately. Boo. I feel bummed that's it's STILL not consistently fall here,

and I hate spring/summer and I feel like it's already gonna be back here. I've been irritable and blah lately. I'm starting to get urges to rearrange my furniture again, this is always a sign I'm bordering unstable. lol.

faithgirl · 11-28-2009, 05:46 PM

I'm not sure i recognise yet what time of the year is the worst mood wise for me. I kind of think it's fall and early winter even though they are my favorite seasons of the year. But I have had some major depressions in spring and summer, but I have to wonder if they were just carry overs from the fall that I never got treated. KWIM? My depressions normally go on for months with me pretending nothing is wrong all the while the depression worsens.

Houston Heather · 11-28-2009, 05:55 PM

Winter. A sucidial depression at Christmas? Too many years to count.

Ron wonders at my Holiday Spirit - I enjoy every second, even when a depression mugs me like it did today.

I expected it, but when I realized it had arrived I wanted to cry in a corner.

Kath, our local sporting goods store sells a battery operated fan - about 9 inch diameter. It runs on a couple of D's. It might be worth looking into.

My noisemaker has a battery feature, but I can sleep without it - lithium gets me pretty groggy.

CurveControl · 11-29-2009, 01:08 PM

Stressed about going to Illinois this friday. I will be stressed and freaky until after the holidays.
I hate this. DH and I are planning to start our workout routine when we get back. That will help my mood. Unless I totally wig out again. These trips are really really hard on me.
I am hoping this will be the last one until spring.

CurveControl · 11-29-2009, 01:12 PM

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Originally Posted by faithgirl

I'm not sure i recognise yet what time of the year is the worst mood wise for me. I kind of think it's fall and early winter even though they are my favorite seasons of the year. But I have had some major depressions in spring and summer, but I have to wonder if they were just carry overs from the fall that I never got treated. KWIM? My depressions normally go on for months with me pretending nothing is wrong all the while the depression worsens.

I understand. I know that I am the last to recognize my actual MOODS (BiPo long term) as opposed to 'moods' which everyone has and change routinely for everyone, yanno?

I do feel a depression coming on too though. Maybe seasonal. May be just Me. I don't see the doc till Jan though.

Houston Heather · 11-29-2009, 04:33 PM

DUDE!

My bra was fitting all wrong, like a shoe on the wrong foot. I got checked out.

D cup! DUDE!

I told the fitter "It's God's reward to me for taking my pills" - I sincerely doubt I would be scrounging for D cups if I weren't taking the risperdal.

Gets rid of hallucinations and delusions, AND enlarges my breasts, AND is only $15 a month? I don't want to know what they put in the generic Risperidone but I like it!

I am absolutely sick of the sausage patty for breakfast every day - I got some flax and made a one-minute muffin. I took my lithium straight after - some gas but none of the awful stomach hassle. Awesome.

Ron ate most of another one when my back was turned. Boy, is he in for a suprise tomorrow.

I seem to have bounced a little manic, and God knows I would rather run manic.

DJ · 11-29-2009, 04:36 PM

Congrats on the D's Heather!

faithgirl · 11-29-2009, 06:05 PM

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Originally Posted by CurveControl

I understand. I know that I am the last to recognize my actual MOODS (BiPo long term) as opposed to 'moods' which everyone has and change routinely for everyone, yanno?

I do feel a depression coming on too though. Maybe seasonal. May be just Me. I don't see the doc till Jan though.

I am the same-is it some seasonal thing, is it bipo, or what? I am not feeling up to Christmas and honestly haven't for years now. I hate that I feel like this I want to enjoy the seasons, but I just end up angry and depressed and wishing they were over.

How long will you bee in Illinois? Are you going to go to see your parents? How is your mom doing? I am only on the PG hit and miss these days...

faithgirl · 11-29-2009, 06:12 PM

Heather, I have been a DD for years and these days I am busting out of my bras. I really don't want to be any bigger. Wierd thing is they seem to be more self-supportive, a little, not a lot. Risperdal definitely makes a difference.

Well after much self-examination and thought I have decided to try LC again. It's been a while, but I have this newly acquired mindset that I am just going to do it. No white knuckling it like I normally do, but rather, this is what it is and this is what I am going to do. I don't know how to explain it. No drama or excitement, i just am going to make the change. It's kind of a wierd thought/feeling for me. Maybe it will stick this time? Not that I'd be surprised if it didn't. We'll see.

CurveControl · 11-30-2009, 10:32 AM

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Originally Posted by faithgirl

I am the same-is it some seasonal thing, is it bipo, or what? I am not feeling up to Christmas and honestly haven't for years now. I hate that I feel like this I want to enjoy the seasons, but I just end up angry and depressed and wishing they were over.

How long will you bee in Illinois? Are you going to go to see your parents? How is your mom doing? I am only on the PG hit and miss these days...

We are going to see everyone, But it was mostly because DH's mom and family have not seen the baby yet. His Mom is not sure how much *time* she will have to see us this weekend.

I heard that and cut our visit by a day. Can't make time? I will just move on then.

Dad is still in the home thing, sees his doc Friday, he is hoping to go home next week, I am thinking closer to Christmas.
Mom is....mom.
She will hold till spring I think, at least.

Houston Heather · 11-30-2009, 02:37 PM

Yeah, Kath, it's weird for me. I was always pretty flat - used to want a bigger chest.

Now I do.

I had a little bounce downward, but went back up. Hoping that olds until our out of town trip next week.

Tomorrow milkman dramas. More drama than the Showtime channel.

Houston Heather · 12-01-2009, 05:25 PM

I need a third lithium. I am really wound up. AGH.

faithgirl · 12-01-2009, 07:15 PM

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Originally Posted by CurveControl

We are going to see everyone, But it was mostly because DH's mom and family have not seen the baby yet. His Mom is not sure how much *time* she will have to see us this weekend.

I heard that and cut our visit by a day. Can't make time? I will just move on then.

Dad is still in the home thing, sees his doc Friday, he is hoping to go home next week, I am thinking closer to Christmas.
Mom is....mom.
She will hold till spring I think, at least.

I don't blame you for cutting the trip short. If they won;t put the effort out, then why should you?

I'm sorry about your mom. (Dad too). Alzheimer's is one of the cruelest diseases, I think. Hate it.

DJ · 12-01-2009, 10:21 PM

all around. This is such a tough time of year.

Faithgirl how are you doing? I've been thinking ofyou lately.

I think I'm finally feeling completely stable again. I'd been having that restlessness (ARGH I hate that sooooo much) where I couldn't sit still or my body hurt but I finally caved and took a half of my Xanax tab and I've felt better since. I'd been trying to not take them because they make me hungry and make my stomach bloat but I guess a half tab every once in a while at night is ok. I'm still laying off the Benedryl because it makes me hungry too, and I'm laying off the SOminex compleeeeeetely. It makes me feel more restless the next day. Booo.

Houston Heather · 12-02-2009, 06:08 AM

That is so interesting about the benadryl.

I got a little bit of bread stuck to my "bunless" burger and nasty hives! This time, on my shoulder, and one on my waist. Just the one welt is kind of funny. Glad Ron is blind.

I took a whole T (15 grams) of vitamin C powder last night - hya! I also took some benadryl.

Still a little wound up - I want to be in the more energy, life is great phase / not too medicated (like I have been every other day off it seems). Hm. Possible? I have no idea.

faithgirl · 12-02-2009, 07:15 PM

Thanks DJ-I am angry a lot lately. It appears an increase in Lamictal gives me bad mood swings for at least a couple of weeks. I probably wouldn't be so bad if it weren't for work. I am taking the upper limit in doses of Klonopin that my doctor rx'd, but the stress there makes me want to crawl in a hole and never come out. Some days I worry that I will have some sort of breakdown. I don;t care anything about Christmas-I wish it weren;t coming and I wish I wasn't feeling that way.

Heather, I hope the hives go away. What a nasty allergy to have if only a tiny bit will set it off.

Houston Heather · 12-02-2009, 07:28 PM

Well, it does keep me honest! You could lock me in a bakery for a month and I would only eat the eggs and butter!

A little FESTIVE today, I took an extra lithium around lunch and that had me festive, but not hyper. Tricky balance.

11-22-2009, 01:49 AM	#1
CurveControl Formerlychubchick Join Date: Sep 2004 Location: Ohio Posts: 58,496 Gallery: CurveControl Stats: 200/ 182.0/135 WOE: moderate carb, 30-60 grams	*~♥ BiPolar Holiday Survival Support♥ ~* It is a hard time of year for many, But seems to hit us worse, Even well controlled/Maintained~ How is everyone?

11-22-2009, 07:10 AM	#3
Houston Heather Big Yapper!!!! Join Date: Jun 2003 Location: Houston Posts: 9,788 Gallery: Houston Heather Stats: 228/166/160 Waist: 42/31/31 WOE: Atkins 2002 Ongoing Weight Loss/pre maintenance Start Date: Feb 26, 2008 (second and last time)	You're going to have a baby under your tree, Molly. Such a cute one at that! I have been a little manic, so in about 3 days to a week I expect to cycle normal, and then depressed. ICK. I can always tell when the depressions are coming because I become very, very nauseous. This happened before medication, too. Anyway, I hope the mania lasts another week or so. I chatter a lot before I get my first lithium down the hatch... then I get a little fuzzy for a bit and then normal. I really hate Christmas depressions, one reason I did my holiday decorating while manic, and made my aunt's Christmas afghan too. __________________ I'll be praying for you! (James 5:16) "From the beginning, you have made a refreshing jug of lemonade from all the lemons that life pitched your way." Zer Remember, that fresh meat, fish, fowl, vegetables, nuts, seeds, and the occasional fruits and starches are the foods nature designed you to eat. - Dr Atkins, 1972 I have tested thee in the furnace of affliction - Isaiah 48:10

11-22-2009, 09:37 AM	#6
dmvgirl Very Gabby LCF Member!!! Join Date: Jul 2003 Location: Pennsylvania Posts: 4,470 Gallery: dmvgirl Stats: 227/211/160 WOE: Wii Fit Start Date: 8/19/08	My favorite, and one that turns the teary eyed into a faucet is the old Maxwell House coffee one where the son comes home from college but doesn't tell anyone until he is in the house and makes the coffee. I just don't get why I get so emotional over this crap. I love Christmas, my guys and I always have wonderful holidays so it's not like I am missing anything. There is a new one along the same lines but for a computer, and I find that one annoying.. so maybe this year is different... maybe something to do with all the counseling I've had this year.. __________________ Valeri dmv does not stand for Dept. of Motor Vehicles

11-22-2009, 08:33 PM	#9
faithgirl Very Gabby LCF Member!!! Join Date: Nov 2003 Location: ca Posts: 4,709 Gallery: faithgirl WOE: dunno	Hi all, things have settled down a bit from my increase in the Lamictal. I still have to bump it up another 25 mg to be at 150 like the doc wants me to be. i am going to save that one for Thanksgiving night becuase I will have 4 days off and can sit and cry at home rather than at work. I'm with you on taking new drugs/increasing doses while at home Allie. It's hard being at work and feeling miserable. Valeri, I cry over the Christmas commercials too. I think there's a Folgers one (I think it's folger's) from the 70's or 80's with the little sister that is like 6 and the brother comes home. That one gets me every year. It might be the same one you are thinking, of, I'm not sure. __________________ Kathleen

11-23-2009, 02:59 PM	#12
Houston Heather Big Yapper!!!! Join Date: Jun 2003 Location: Houston Posts: 9,788 Gallery: Houston Heather Stats: 228/166/160 Waist: 42/31/31 WOE: Atkins 2002 Ongoing Weight Loss/pre maintenance Start Date: Feb 26, 2008 (second and last time)	I took Ron to Walmart today. Pretty quiet considering. Medication is really kicking my butt today - very foggy; but I've got a depression outside the door, clawing and howling. Not cutting back on my protection! No! I have had too many CRAPPY holidays due to depression. Ooooh. I was just told that God gave me my disabilities to "Get my attention" - basically "If you'd been a good girl, God wouldn't have had to spank you." GRRRRR. Oh, that makes me LIVID. God needs me exactly the way He made me! How could an innocent fetus anger God? Huh? Kicked my mother one too many times? Oh, and as a toddler, when I first began having hallucinations and delusions - I was real baaaaad then, crying in my crib. UGH. Oh, and a Good Christian would go off medication, trusting in HIM to restore her. Yeah, the coroner would love that. Absolutely criminal advice! Criminal! Thank you for letting me vent. Last edited by Houston Heather; 11-23-2009 at 03:56 PM..

11-22-2009, 01:52 AM	#2
CurveControl Formerlychubchick Join Date: Sep 2004 Location: Ohio Posts: 58,496 Gallery: CurveControl Stats: 200/ 182.0/135 WOE: moderate carb, 30-60 grams	Allie~ I hope you are doing better, Have you gotten any news from The Pdoc?

11-22-2009, 08:36 AM	#4
dmvgirl Very Gabby LCF Member!!! Join Date: Jul 2003 Location: Pennsylvania Posts: 4,470 Gallery: dmvgirl Stats: 227/211/160 WOE: Wii Fit Start Date: 8/19/08	Does anyone else get teary eyed at every fricken sentimental Christmas commercial?

11-22-2009, 08:43 AM	#5
Houston Heather Big Yapper!!!! Join Date: Jun 2003 Location: Houston Posts: 9,788 Gallery: Houston Heather Stats: 228/166/160 Waist: 42/31/31 WOE: Atkins 2002 Ongoing Weight Loss/pre maintenance Start Date: Feb 26, 2008 (second and last time)	I get really pizzed at the jewelry ones. I feel they make us look like women who sell themselves. Apparently, the only way to REALLY let me know he loves me, is by spending thousands. Otherwise I won't get all weepy and hug him. Spending money is the only way to assure me he's committed. Even though the wealthiest couples I know are the ones who are always up in flames. I would much rather he go to the craft store, or let me drag him around Walmart.

11-22-2009, 11:34 AM	#7
Houston Heather Big Yapper!!!! Join Date: Jun 2003 Location: Houston Posts: 9,788 Gallery: Houston Heather Stats: 228/166/160 Waist: 42/31/31 WOE: Atkins 2002 Ongoing Weight Loss/pre maintenance Start Date: Feb 26, 2008 (second and last time)	When I cycle depressed I'll get more weepy. Right now it's more irritation at the jewelry ads. I cleaned out the fridge, and moved Ms Turkey to the bottom shelf in her roaster pan. The tag says it was a hen. I have about a 13 pounder. Yum. Ron just wants stovetop stuffing and a Hungry-man turkey dinner on Thanksgiving. For some reason, the Hungry Man is more appealing to his palate than "real" turkey. I won't get offended, I just want him to enjoy his meal. Bubba-cat just walked in and wants attention now.

11-23-2009, 11:46 AM	#11
CurveControl Formerlychubchick Join Date: Sep 2004 Location: Ohio Posts: 58,496 Gallery: CurveControl Stats: 200/ 182.0/135 WOE: moderate carb, 30-60 grams	I generally get irritated over the commercials. All of them, But this year the kid in the commercial for QVC or home shopping or whatever dances on my last nerve, with "opening presents is fun, Gingerbread is fun, Presents are fun, The tree is fun, Presents are fun" Buy more gifts...Buy buy buy... Sigh. If not for the baby I wouldn't even decorate. That and my Nativity sets ( I think I have 21 now) and I really love those sets.

11-28-2009, 12:38 PM	#13
faithgirl Very Gabby LCF Member!!! Join Date: Nov 2003 Location: ca Posts: 4,709 Gallery: faithgirl WOE: dunno	Did everyone survive the holiday? I waited until Thursday eveing to up my Lamictal so I would be fairly stress free during my time off from work becuase I knew how rough it could get to go up. Unfortunately it has been anything but stress free-I have a brother that brings his son over and they do NOT know when they have over stayed their welcome. EVERY.DAY. and sometimes twice a day! Then last night we lost our electricity a little after 2 a.m. and I cannot sleep without a fan. So with no fan, I woke up every twenty minutes. My other nephew also stayed the night and the nephew that lives with me-the two of them fight constantly and were loud and agressive-even though they love to play together and insist on seeing each other. So my nerves are on edge, I am so tired, they're all still here but FINALLY the electricity has come back on so I can get online and ignore them as best I can. And I am whiney in case you couldn't tell. Last edited by faithgirl; 11-28-2009 at 12:46 PM..

11-28-2009, 03:08 PM	#14
DJ Way too much time on my hands! Join Date: Aug 2004 Posts: 21,849 Gallery: DJ Stats: 132/ losing :) /110 WOE: Atkins Start Date: August 2004	I've been running a little down lately. Boo. I feel bummed that's it's STILL not consistently fall here, and I hate spring/summer and I feel like it's already gonna be back here. I've been irritable and blah lately. I'm starting to get urges to rearrange my furniture again, this is always a sign I'm bordering unstable. lol.

11-28-2009, 05:46 PM	#15
faithgirl Very Gabby LCF Member!!! Join Date: Nov 2003 Location: ca Posts: 4,709 Gallery: faithgirl WOE: dunno	I'm not sure i recognise yet what time of the year is the worst mood wise for me. I kind of think it's fall and early winter even though they are my favorite seasons of the year. But I have had some major depressions in spring and summer, but I have to wonder if they were just carry overs from the fall that I never got treated. KWIM? My depressions normally go on for months with me pretending nothing is wrong all the while the depression worsens.

11-28-2009, 05:55 PM	#16
Houston Heather Big Yapper!!!! Join Date: Jun 2003 Location: Houston Posts: 9,788 Gallery: Houston Heather Stats: 228/166/160 Waist: 42/31/31 WOE: Atkins 2002 Ongoing Weight Loss/pre maintenance Start Date: Feb 26, 2008 (second and last time)	Winter. A sucidial depression at Christmas? Too many years to count. Ron wonders at my Holiday Spirit - I enjoy every second, even when a depression mugs me like it did today. I expected it, but when I realized it had arrived I wanted to cry in a corner. Kath, our local sporting goods store sells a battery operated fan - about 9 inch diameter. It runs on a couple of D's. It might be worth looking into. My noisemaker has a battery feature, but I can sleep without it - lithium gets me pretty groggy.

11-29-2009, 01:08 PM	#17
CurveControl Formerlychubchick Join Date: Sep 2004 Location: Ohio Posts: 58,496 Gallery: CurveControl Stats: 200/ 182.0/135 WOE: moderate carb, 30-60 grams	Stressed about going to Illinois this friday. I will be stressed and freaky until after the holidays. I hate this. DH and I are planning to start our workout routine when we get back. That will help my mood. Unless I totally wig out again. These trips are really really hard on me. I am hoping this will be the last one until spring.

11-29-2009, 04:33 PM	#19
Houston Heather Big Yapper!!!! Join Date: Jun 2003 Location: Houston Posts: 9,788 Gallery: Houston Heather Stats: 228/166/160 Waist: 42/31/31 WOE: Atkins 2002 Ongoing Weight Loss/pre maintenance Start Date: Feb 26, 2008 (second and last time)	DUDE! My bra was fitting all wrong, like a shoe on the wrong foot. I got checked out. D cup! DUDE! I told the fitter "It's God's reward to me for taking my pills" - I sincerely doubt I would be scrounging for D cups if I weren't taking the risperdal. Gets rid of hallucinations and delusions, AND enlarges my breasts, AND is only $15 a month? I don't want to know what they put in the generic Risperidone but I like it! I am absolutely sick of the sausage patty for breakfast every day - I got some flax and made a one-minute muffin. I took my lithium straight after - some gas but none of the awful stomach hassle. Awesome. Ron ate most of another one when my back was turned. Boy, is he in for a suprise tomorrow. I seem to have bounced a little manic, and God knows I would rather run manic.

11-29-2009, 04:36 PM	#20
DJ Way too much time on my hands! Join Date: Aug 2004 Posts: 21,849 Gallery: DJ Stats: 132/ losing :) /110 WOE: Atkins Start Date: August 2004	Congrats on the D's Heather!

11-29-2009, 06:12 PM	#22
faithgirl Very Gabby LCF Member!!! Join Date: Nov 2003 Location: ca Posts: 4,709 Gallery: faithgirl WOE: dunno	Heather, I have been a DD for years and these days I am busting out of my bras. I really don't want to be any bigger. Wierd thing is they seem to be more self-supportive, a little, not a lot. Risperdal definitely makes a difference. Well after much self-examination and thought I have decided to try LC again. It's been a while, but I have this newly acquired mindset that I am just going to do it. No white knuckling it like I normally do, but rather, this is what it is and this is what I am going to do. I don't know how to explain it. No drama or excitement, i just am going to make the change. It's kind of a wierd thought/feeling for me. Maybe it will stick this time? Not that I'd be surprised if it didn't. We'll see.

11-30-2009, 02:37 PM	#24
Houston Heather Big Yapper!!!! Join Date: Jun 2003 Location: Houston Posts: 9,788 Gallery: Houston Heather Stats: 228/166/160 Waist: 42/31/31 WOE: Atkins 2002 Ongoing Weight Loss/pre maintenance Start Date: Feb 26, 2008 (second and last time)	Yeah, Kath, it's weird for me. I was always pretty flat - used to want a bigger chest. Now I do. I had a little bounce downward, but went back up. Hoping that olds until our out of town trip next week. Tomorrow milkman dramas. More drama than the Showtime channel.

12-01-2009, 05:25 PM	#25
Houston Heather Big Yapper!!!! Join Date: Jun 2003 Location: Houston Posts: 9,788 Gallery: Houston Heather Stats: 228/166/160 Waist: 42/31/31 WOE: Atkins 2002 Ongoing Weight Loss/pre maintenance Start Date: Feb 26, 2008 (second and last time)	I need a third lithium. I am really wound up. AGH.

12-01-2009, 10:21 PM	#27
DJ Way too much time on my hands! Join Date: Aug 2004 Posts: 21,849 Gallery: DJ Stats: 132/ losing :) /110 WOE: Atkins Start Date: August 2004	all around. This is such a tough time of year. Faithgirl how are you doing? I've been thinking ofyou lately. I think I'm finally feeling completely stable again. I'd been having that restlessness (ARGH I hate that sooooo much) where I couldn't sit still or my body hurt but I finally caved and took a half of my Xanax tab and I've felt better since. I'd been trying to not take them because they make me hungry and make my stomach bloat but I guess a half tab every once in a while at night is ok. I'm still laying off the Benedryl because it makes me hungry too, and I'm laying off the SOminex compleeeeeetely. It makes me feel more restless the next day. Booo. __________________ “The truly creative mind in any field is no more than this: A human creature born abnormally, inhumanly sensitive." — Pearl S. Buck ===== Mayor of Crankytown

12-02-2009, 06:08 AM	#28
Houston Heather Big Yapper!!!! Join Date: Jun 2003 Location: Houston Posts: 9,788 Gallery: Houston Heather Stats: 228/166/160 Waist: 42/31/31 WOE: Atkins 2002 Ongoing Weight Loss/pre maintenance Start Date: Feb 26, 2008 (second and last time)	That is so interesting about the benadryl. I got a little bit of bread stuck to my "bunless" burger and nasty hives! This time, on my shoulder, and one on my waist. Just the one welt is kind of funny. Glad Ron is blind. I took a whole T (15 grams) of vitamin C powder last night - hya! I also took some benadryl. Still a little wound up - I want to be in the more energy, life is great phase / not too medicated (like I have been every other day off it seems). Hm. Possible? I have no idea.

12-02-2009, 07:15 PM	#29
faithgirl Very Gabby LCF Member!!! Join Date: Nov 2003 Location: ca Posts: 4,709 Gallery: faithgirl WOE: dunno	Thanks DJ-I am angry a lot lately. It appears an increase in Lamictal gives me bad mood swings for at least a couple of weeks. I probably wouldn't be so bad if it weren't for work. I am taking the upper limit in doses of Klonopin that my doctor rx'd, but the stress there makes me want to crawl in a hole and never come out. Some days I worry that I will have some sort of breakdown. I don;t care anything about Christmas-I wish it weren;t coming and I wish I wasn't feeling that way. Heather, I hope the hives go away. What a nasty allergy to have if only a tiny bit will set it off.

12-02-2009, 07:28 PM	#30
Houston Heather Big Yapper!!!! Join Date: Jun 2003 Location: Houston Posts: 9,788 Gallery: Houston Heather Stats: 228/166/160 Waist: 42/31/31 WOE: Atkins 2002 Ongoing Weight Loss/pre maintenance Start Date: Feb 26, 2008 (second and last time)	Well, it does keep me honest! You could lock me in a bakery for a month and I would only eat the eggs and butter! A little FESTIVE today, I took an extra lithium around lunch and that had me festive, but not hyper. Tricky balance.

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