Spring BiPo Thread~

[CurveControl]

Originally Posted by faithgirl

Molly-doesn't DH understand that you are always right?

DJ-good to hear you are feeling better. I hate any kind of med change-I never do well with it.

My doctor gave me a card to get my Lexapro for free, so I called it in and activated it before going to th pharmacy. I get down there and the card is rejected-girl behind the counter calls on it and it EXPIRED yesterday!! The stupid activation sticker was over the expiration date. Then, my insurance will not cover it and it's $106! I cannot pay that. I'm going to have to call the doc, but damn, I've tried nearly everything else and i don't know what to do. I do have an RX refill for Cymbalta on file so maybe I should just get that filled. I am going to be a nut case tomorrow at work with another med change. Dammit!

how could he? he doesn't even hear me when my lips move.

on the med change. I wouldn't go back on cymbalta or anything till you talk to the doc. Call him first thing!

[djalomo]

I cancelled with the designer boy. He was cool about it. I just really don't feel like seeing someone new right now. I feel really good not having committments to anything but my car right now and am loving having even more alone space than I did before. Might have a late dinner with a friend later, but not having this date committment is a nice relief.

NOW...I just have to make sure to not make another one ANY TIME SOON. LOL.

[CurveControl]

go with your gut DJ.

[faithgirl]

Doctor's assistant did not call me back. I love this doctor, but can't stand his staff. I got the Cymbalta and took one. I was feeling kind of dizzy for a while, but now I just feel good. Not hypo or anything, but more positive about tomorrow. Before taking it I was really starting to stress out. I feel okay now and I hope I still feel this way in the morning. I am so glad Friday is a holiday for us so if I don't feel well I can curl up in a ball and feel sorry for myself.

[CurveControl]

I am glad it helped.

Some Office Nurses (MA's) are better than others. Tell him if you feel like she isn't doing her job well. He wants to know. The "Face" The patients deal with 90% of the time is the one who can make or break a practice, Be it MA or receptionist.

[djalomo]

I.AM.MORTIFIED.

I actually had a decent evening out catching up with some old friends and came home and felt so crazy depressed i started drinking...then took Lunesta because I couldn't sleep, sthen ent a cryptic text to someone back home, and when he called to ask what was up with it i told him i was about to pass out. 20 mins. later the fire dept. showed up because they thought i was about to kill myself. Then the police came. Then this morning my mom and brother showed up. I'm sure they'd called but my phone was out of power in the car.

I feel so horrible about it. And the kicker is that this morning, like that time a few weeks ago, I woke up feeling normal and sane. I had that epic low point the night before it got better.

If I weren't embarrassed and afraid turn on my phone now I'd feel great. I'm so ashamed.

[faithgirl]

Originally Posted by djalomo

I.AM.MORTIFIED.

I actually had a decent evening out catching up with some old friends and came home and felt so crazy depressed i started drinking...then took Lunesta because I couldn't sleep, sthen ent a cryptic text to someone back home, and when he called to ask what was up with it i told him i was about to pass out. 20 mins. later the fire dept. showed up because they thought i was about to kill myself. Then the police came. Then this morning my mom and brother showed up. I'm sure they'd called but my phone was out of power in the car.

I feel so horrible about it. And the kicker is that this morning, like that time a few weeks ago, I woke up feeling normal and sane. I had that epic low point the night before it got better.

If I weren't embarrassed and afraid turn on my phone now I'd feel great. I'm so ashamed.

Oh DJ!! I am so sorry! It was the Lunesta, wasn't it? Doesn't it do all sorts of crazy things to people?

[CurveControl]

Originally Posted by djalomo

I.AM.MORTIFIED.

I actually had a decent evening out catching up with some old friends and came home and felt so crazy depressed i started drinking...then took Lunesta because I couldn't sleep, sthen ent a cryptic text to someone back home, and when he called to ask what was up with it i told him i was about to pass out. 20 mins. later the fire dept. showed up because they thought i was about to kill myself. Then the police came. Then this morning my mom and brother showed up. I'm sure they'd called but my phone was out of power in the car.

I feel so horrible about it. And the kicker is that this morning, like that time a few weeks ago, I woke up feeling normal and sane. I had that epic low point the night before it got better.

If I weren't embarrassed and afraid turn on my phone now I'd feel great. I'm so ashamed.

Is lunesta a hypnotic like Ambien? Or did it just intensify from the alcohol?

I would be embarrassed too, But it will be OK. Use it as a learning thing.
No Booze w/ lunesta. Maybe try benadryl if you must take something to sleep (Not in any way encouraging you to drink with any medication)

[djalomo]

i'm so mortified. i can't believe the destruction i'm capable of. my mom was determined i was coming home with her. it was seriously like Intervention. i said i had to go to work and don't have PTO accrued and my brother said not to worry about it...my sister offered to pay my bills for a little while and they're all destrought. I cannot believe how quickly this all went down with the cops. Within 20 mins. 7 firefighters were there and then a few mins later like 5 cops were at my door. My fam got here at 9 so i guess it was a few hours before the cops got to their house back home. I'm kind of amazed that they tracked down my family, especially after the cops here established i was ok. i kinda wish my family hadn't been involved but from outside it looked like a crisis.

i wnt this to just be over and have it all return to normal. despite the stress i feel baseline today and just wanna forget the whole thing happened.

[CurveControl]

were the cops and firefighters at least cute??

I think that once things calm down w/ your family and they simmer down some you can maybe explain again what happened and show them that you really are stable.
From what you have said being Mnaic is what they see as "normal" for you, so It is probably something that they have to adjust to, you being on a more baseline level. Might look like you are down, when you are really where you should be, KWIM?

[djalomo]

Gawd they were ALL cute. LOL. And I'd just come home for an evening with friends and still dressed and in full makeup. Would have been awesome if not for all the crazy in the room.

[CurveControl]

hey, You made an impression. Plus they were there to see it shake out and know that you are not really (as) crazy!!

[djalomo]

i like to pretend they'll occasionally have moments of non-professionalism in which they'll call me that stupid hot psycho chick. they were ALL my age and hot...this was more embarrassing even than was when I went to hospital for brutal constipation and they gave me every young, cute nurse in Texas.

[djalomo]

Oh and I barely ate anything yesterday so this morning my pee was blue. Apparently the blue dye in Lunesta can cause it. I think I'm going to be reminded of this incident physically for at least 4 more hours. *sigh*

[faithgirl]

Originally Posted by djalomo

i like to pretend they'll occasionally have moments of non-professionalism in which they'll call me that stupid hot psycho chick. they were ALL my age and hot...this was more embarrassing even than was when I went to hospital for brutal constipation and they gave me every young, cute nurse in Texas.

Aw...you never know, they might like slightly psycho and give you a call. I hope things settle down with your family. At least they all wanted to come to your rescue and are concerned about you.

[djalomo]

I am SO happy today is over. This has easily been the most traumatic event I've brought upon myself in several years.

[Houston Heather]

Oh, poor DJ!

So much for the burn ban, neighbors are setting off fireworks...that means I can, too! I love fireworks!

[djalomo]

GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I decided to have a lovely afternoon by myself and someone had to go and text me about this whole thing and put a damper in my afternoon excursion. It was a guilt-inducing "you know, so and so was really THAT worried about you" blah blah blah from someone who, for twisted and embarrassing reasons, thinks I tried to hurt myself because we went out a few times and stopped going out. Arghghghghghghgh!!! I'm so embarrassed and upset. I was having such a nice afternoon too.

I called up a friend of mine to distract me so I wouldn't do/say anything mean to anyone. We had lunch and went out for cupcakes and hung out. I can't wait to wake up a week from now and have all this blow over.

[djalomo]

Originally Posted by Houston Heather

Oh, poor DJ!

So much for the burn ban, neighbors are setting off fireworks...that means I can, too! I love fireworks!

Heather you look GREAT in your new avi!!

[faithgirl]

Originally Posted by djalomo

GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I decided to have a lovely afternoon by myself and someone had to go and text me about this whole thing and put a damper in my afternoon excursion. It was a guilt-inducing "you know, so and so was really THAT worried about you" blah blah blah from someone who, for twisted and embarrassing reasons, thinks I tried to hurt myself because we went out a few times and stopped going out. Arghghghghghghgh!!! I'm so embarrassed and upset. I was having such a nice afternoon too.

I called up a friend of mine to distract me so I wouldn't do/say anything mean to anyone. We had lunch and went out for cupcakes and hung out. I can't wait to wake up a week from now and have all this blow over.

Shoot! Don't let them get to you. You know you were not going to do anything drastic. Can you tell this person that you had no intentions of hurting yourself and that you just want to put this behind you? How is the new med dose coming? Feeling better?

[faithgirl]

Originally Posted by Houston Heather

Oh, poor DJ!

So much for the burn ban, neighbors are setting off fireworks...that means I can, too! I love fireworks!

I noticed the new avi, and i agree with DJ-you look great! We are going to do fireworks, too. I have a 7 and 8 year old nephews so they are still at the age where they love them. We are one of the few counties left in California where it's still legal.

[djalomo]

Originally Posted by faithgirl

Shoot! Don't let them get to you. You know you were not going to do anything drastic. Can you tell this person that you had no intentions of hurting yourself and that you just want to put this behind you? How is the new med dose coming? Feeling better?

Yeah, I explained to him but he just kept wanting me to know how worried the guy who called the cops and hunted down my mom was. The guy who actually did it has been great...I thanked him and he just said 'that's what friends are for' and that was that.

It's a weird long background story, but the guy who bugged me about it today I finally just had to tell AGAIN to please not contact me - no texts, no calls, no email. I tried ignoring them before but he'd flip out thinking I'd hurt myself or something and I'd eventually have 5 texts piled up in 10 minutes saying 'r u ok? plz just tell me ur ok' and on and on and on.

it's sweet in theory but really, he's convinced that the prospect of us not getting involved has broken me somehow and doesn't possibly believe that i could have an illness that makes me THAT depressed. he doesn't get that this song ain't about him -- i'm mortified that he thinks it is.

he sent me a text that said 'if u don't want to keep in contact anymore, i completely understand.'

i replied with "i don't. take care" and didn't bother reiterating that i didn't want to stay in contact in the FIRST PLACE.

i hope tomorrow is better.

[faithgirl]

Originally Posted by djalomo

Yeah, I explained to him but he just kept wanting me to know how worried the guy who called the cops and hunted down my mom was. The guy who actually did it has been great...I thanked him and he just said 'that's what friends are for' and that was that.

It's a weird long background story, but the guy who bugged me about it today I finally just had to tell AGAIN to please not contact me - no texts, no calls, no email. I tried ignoring them before but he'd flip out thinking I'd hurt myself or something and I'd eventually have 5 texts piled up in 10 minutes saying 'r u ok? plz just tell me ur ok' and on and on and on.

it's sweet in theory but really, he's convinced that the prospect of us not getting involved has broken me somehow and doesn't possibly believe that i could have an illness that makes me THAT depressed. he doesn't get that this song ain't about him -- i'm mortified that he thinks it is.

he sent me a text that said 'if u don't want to keep in contact anymore, i completely understand.'

i replied with "i don't. take care" and didn't bother reiterating that i didn't want to stay in contact in the FIRST PLACE.

i hope tomorrow is better.

Ay yi yi! What a dork! It's all got to be about him, right? Well hopefully he will take this last text seriously and leave you the heck alone!

Hope everyone has a good 4th!

[CurveControl]

DJ, Probably by the end of the weekend, all will beforgotten. What a vain weenie to use your unfortunate evening to boost his own ego! Bah. Some guys are so needy. Not that they need the women, just the ego strokes.

I feel so much better today. I went back to 150 of the lamictal, and I have taken just a bit of seroquel at night because I have been such a mess, Bu gosh it makes me SO hungry!!!
Fat or sane? A decision to make.

[CurveControl]

Since spring has sprung and is long gone I started a new thread OK?


~*~BiPolar Folks~*~

[Ilpirata]

My mom has been under psychiatric care for several weeks. Originally diagnosed as "severe depression" the Lexapro made her high for a few weeks (she thought she was cured) then she crashed out worse than ever. They put her on Celexa and she was INSTANTLY totally cracked out super high high high and didn't sleep for almost three nights. Now the psychiatrist thinks she is Bipolar based on her reaction to the Celexa... my mom is 58 and has never had ANY mental health issue before in her life. i want to trust the doctor but this diagnosis... I'm just not sure does it make any sense? is it possible to suddenly develop Bipolar at my mom's age? and would the doctor know based on her reaction to the Celexa alone?

Sorry to crash your thread but I'm in the habit of getting my help here on LCF.

I appreciate any input and know it does not sub for a doctor.

THANK YOU!

[Houston Heather]

Celexa and Lexapro are the same thing - just very slightly modified to retain a patent!

It is very common for someone to be diagnosed as bipolar by having a "high" after taking an antidepressant. In fact, it is often used as a test.

She may have had a mild version of it - type 2 or Cyclothemia, for decades and it got worse. Check out the bipolar link in my sig - and I think we have a newer thread around here somewhere.

[faithgirl]

I don;t know about the age thing. I am 43 and I hid it all my life. Just diagnosed. Antidepressants can do to me what happened to your mom. I was/am very good at hiding what is going on. I'll smile on cue when I need to and act as normal as I can muster. The few people that know I have it, are shocked.

[Ilpirata]

Thanks for the responses you guys! We are going to get a second opinion hopefully through the same hospital where she is currently being treated. Just want an actually offical psychiatric diagnosis of BiPo before she starts with the mood stabilizers. Thanks for your help!

[CurveControl]

Originally Posted by Ilpirata

Thanks for the responses you guys! We are going to get a second opinion hopefully through the same hospital where she is currently being treated. Just want an actually offical psychiatric diagnosis of BiPo before she starts with the mood stabilizers. Thanks for your help!

Always the safest course to get several opinions. It is not an easy diagnosis to make. Not like a blood test or Xray. And the drugs are Gnarly.
Good luck with it, and I truly hope she is not BiPo.