Egypt or the Sea?

abbynormal · 08-26-2007, 06:38 AM

I love Saturday night church! So the theme last night was how Moses led the people out of Pharoh's slavery until they were surrounded by mountains and the army and the Red Sea. The idea was to embrace the lessons God is giving us follow him because what' on the other side is so much better than we could ever imagine.

How do you get to that spot? DH was diagnosed two years ago with an agressive form of lymphoma. Right now he's in remission but they continue to treat him with a maintenance dose of chemotherapy. It is kicking his butt. It makes him really dizzy. Yesterday, if he stood up, he fell. By the end of church last night one of the guys had to help us out to the car. It breaks my heart to see him in so much pain. I can't even begin to say how gratefully I'd take all that on myself if it would only spare him the suffering. I don't know which is worse - being so sick or having to watch someone you love be that sick and being powerless to do anything about it.

I'm so angry. I hate cancer intensely. I know it's the disease I hate but sometimes I'm so angry about it that I get mad at God. Why does DH have this? Why are our lives being torn apart by this?

I know it's irrational, but part of me feels that if I accept the disease and he dies then I'm going to feel like I caused that to happen. I want him free of the disease and free of pain. I'm afraid to pray for that because I'm more afraid of what the answer will be.

yougottaeat · 08-26-2007, 07:05 AM

:a prayer:

senorina · 08-26-2007, 08:42 AM

Laura, I'm so sorry.

I lost my dad to bone cancer.

I don't believe there is a reason, I just believe that things happen with no reason...but that's just me.

I strongly believe that you accepting it or not accepting it will certainly not change the outcome.

I hate cancer too.

Pcola Girl · 08-27-2007, 02:07 PM

We lost our son to Leukemia. But remember God has a reason for allowing it to happen in the first place. we might not understand it now but we will one day.

Edin · 09-03-2007, 08:52 PM

laura, you and DH have been so on my heart. just wanted to send you hugs and prayers. God bless you, sweetie.
-stephanie

08-26-2007, 06:38 AM	#1
abbynormal Big Yapper!!!! Join Date: Nov 2005 Location: Welcome to the Bluff Posts: 8,169 Gallery: abbynormal WOE: yikes!	Egypt or the Sea? I love Saturday night church! So the theme last night was how Moses led the people out of Pharoh's slavery until they were surrounded by mountains and the army and the Red Sea. The idea was to embrace the lessons God is giving us follow him because what' on the other side is so much better than we could ever imagine. How do you get to that spot? DH was diagnosed two years ago with an agressive form of lymphoma. Right now he's in remission but they continue to treat him with a maintenance dose of chemotherapy. It is kicking his butt. It makes him really dizzy. Yesterday, if he stood up, he fell. By the end of church last night one of the guys had to help us out to the car. It breaks my heart to see him in so much pain. I can't even begin to say how gratefully I'd take all that on myself if it would only spare him the suffering. I don't know which is worse - being so sick or having to watch someone you love be that sick and being powerless to do anything about it. I'm so angry. I hate cancer intensely. I know it's the disease I hate but sometimes I'm so angry about it that I get mad at God. Why does DH have this? Why are our lives being torn apart by this? I know it's irrational, but part of me feels that if I accept the disease and he dies then I'm going to feel like I caused that to happen. I want him free of the disease and free of pain. I'm afraid to pray for that because I'm more afraid of what the answer will be. __________________ Laura Coffee - not just for social deviants - Woot 1...2...3...4...5...6...7...8...9...10 - Team RED

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08-26-2007, 07:05 AM	#2
yougottaeat Junior LCF Member Join Date: May 2005 Location: Louisiana Posts: 12 Gallery: yougottaeat Stats: 173/134/130 Start Date: July 1 2003	:a prayer:

08-26-2007, 08:42 AM	#3
senorina Valuable LCF Member!! Join Date: Aug 2003 Location: massachusetts Posts: 14,632 Gallery: senorina Stats: ? over 175 - met atkins at 160 now 150 goal 140 WOE: low carb Start Date: jan 2001	Laura, I'm so sorry. I lost my dad to bone cancer. I don't believe there is a reason, I just believe that things happen with no reason...but that's just me. I strongly believe that you accepting it or not accepting it will certainly not change the outcome. I hate cancer too.

08-27-2007, 02:07 PM	#4
Pcola Girl Very Gabby LCF Member!!! Join Date: Dec 2005 Location: Pensacola, Florida Posts: 3,295 Gallery: Pcola Girl Stats: Start-325 Today-225 Goal 160 WOE: Atkins Start Date: Sarted Nov. 2000---Restarted New January 2008	We lost our son to Leukemia. But remember God has a reason for allowing it to happen in the first place. we might not understand it now but we will one day.

09-03-2007, 08:52 PM	#5
Edin Big Yapper!!!! Join Date: Nov 2006 Location: So. Calif Posts: 7,655 Gallery: Edin WOE: South Beach Start Date: November 2006	laura, you and DH have been so on my heart. just wanted to send you hugs and prayers. God bless you, sweetie. -stephanie