Emancipation of Me

dimepiece1 · 05-05-2005, 11:56 AM

For the last few months I have felt like I was living in fast forward. With all of the things going own in my life, it has been hard to maintain....well me. I have allowed myself to fall off the wagon as far as eating. I have not lost nor have I gained. I have quit going to the gym. I have allowed my personal life to become a mess and have just been dealing with things on a need to basis. I am sick of feeling weak and going to sleep at 8pm. My marriage is fine but I feel like my husband is being cheated by me not being my best. I have had enough!!!!!! I am not looking for anyone to coddle me and say it is okay. I put this here to make myself accountable.

May in emancipation time for me. I am getting my sh*t together. I am going to begin eating right and exercising again. I am going get my finances back in order and organize myself. I am going to begin to enjoy my life again. No stress, no fights, leaving all the drama behind. No tears, No fears, no time to fight, just making the most of life.

Last and not least..... I am going back to chruch again. I have not been to church in 6 years and the last time I was in one was for a funeral. I can not do this alone. Look what that has gotten me. I am going to succesful and I am excited abut this.

Lakeisha

canadiandina · 05-05-2005, 01:25 PM

Good for you! Wishing you all the best...I'm sure you'll figure this all out.

dimepiece1 · 05-07-2005, 06:24 AM

Thanks for the well wishes. Today is Saturday and I have to get dd ready for prom tonight.I have a gaggle of errands to run and then stuff to do back home. Yesterday was day one of induction and I did okay. I really struggled with dinner and no dessert, but I did okay. I had no dessert. Insted I watch Law and Order reruns until I fell asleep.

I have gotten my checkbook balanced and have signed up with online banking to keeps tabs on my money. I have not been to the gym yet but I am planning on going tomorrow morning after I go to church. I hope everyone has a good weekend.

lakeisha

Skinnymocah · 05-07-2005, 06:57 AM

Dimepiece your personal challenge sounds so much like what I've been doing the last 5 weeks. I haven't been to church in a while

and I am pushing myself to go tomorrow and get involved and make some friends.

Earlier this year I did the online bill pay thing and got stuff set up so I wasn't making late payments and I could keep track... best thing I ever did, as I am so scatterbrained at times.

Hoping you feel thigns falling into place!

werkn'it · 05-07-2005, 10:19 PM

Lakeisha ~

You sound just like I think! I make all of these "resolutions" to make myself perfect and then fall short and then give up. However, I find many times when I look back over a long period of time, I HAVE actually met some goals and created nice, new habits. I guess "perfection" just takes a little time.

I say all of this to make two points:

1) don't get discouraged if everything doesn't come in to place all at once.

and

2) You sound determined to make some positive changes and I hope everything DOES fall in to place all at once for you!

Come back tomorrow afternoon and let us know how church went.

Snapdragon · 05-07-2005, 11:56 PM

Good for you!

Sometimes its the little details that make a bigger change in your life than the huge ones. Best of luck!

dimepiece1 · 05-08-2005, 06:29 PM

Happy Sunday Evening Guys! I hope all the mommies had a gret day. I did. I went to chruch by myself this morning and man was I scared. The message was about appreiciating your mom. It highlighted the little behind the scences things that moms do. The preacher talked about Mary and Jesus's relationship with one another. I felt like I should not have been there in a way. I am not really sure why, maybe it is just the amount of time it has been. But i really have enjoyed my Mother's Day and I am going to enjoy the rest of my evening and I hope you guys do as well.

dimepiece1 · 05-11-2005, 03:58 PM

Happy Humpday. I have been so busy up tp my head in pre-end of school activites. I had a PTO meetin yesterday, A cheerleading parent meeting today, dance recital tomorrow and chaprone for the 8th grade dance on friday. Whew.

Things are still going well for me. I am eating on plan and getting in 30-45 min of exercise every morning. I am still very tired and going to be as soon as I can every night. I am hoping that will stop soon. I think I will try a different chruch this Sunday to see if there is a better one out there for me. I went to the chruch that I went to as a child and somehow I think my needs have outgrown that chruch

But I am still here and hanging on.

werkn'it · 05-11-2005, 10:37 PM

Way to go on eating and exercising well - even with your hectic schedule! And I'm glad too that you aren't giving up on church after just visiting one.

Sounds like you have more busy days ahead - keep up the good work girl!!!

dimepiece1 · 05-15-2005, 01:41 PM

Happy Sunday Everyone!

Today is a really somber day. The sun is shining. I went swimming with my kids and dh is doing yard work. Today is a really nice day, but I can not shake my thoughts from Dan(LcThinCyclist)

I want to understand and keep telling myself that he is better off now. That he is not feeling any pain. But I keep also thinking how much pain he was in before and a lot os did not know. I hope he is at peace and can see how much we on this board really loved him and will miss him. I have never known anyone who has taken their life. I know people who know people that did and it is different actually knowing the person. Again i wish him much peace and I wish his family peace.

Take the time to tell someone that you love them. It might make all the difference.

lakeisha

dimepiece1 · 05-16-2005, 07:24 PM

Monday... eek!

Today was just like any other monday... busy. One dd is trying out for cheerleader and the other got out of school early today. I had stuff to do and got that all taken care of and I still got to the gym for the 5:30 class

http://www.lowcarbfriends.com/bbs/sh...pagenumber=1We go back to court on thursday and the judge now wants to speak with me.

http://www.lowcarbfriends.com/bbs/sh...d.php?t=331411

These are the prior posts for anyone who wants to read them. But she wants to talk with me about the phone call that the sheriff placed to us. The sheriff turned out to be her lawyer!! Well now our lawyer is trying to get him kicked off the case and now the judge wants to talk with us. I am so not up to this right now. Just the thought makes my chest hurt and I get short of breath. I guess it is anxity(sp) about the whole thing. I have three days until i have to go so I will be ready. Things have got to look up and stay up.... even if it is only for a little while.

L.

Windchimes · 05-16-2005, 09:38 PM

Hi Lakeisha

It's so awesome that you're exercising again. I haven't exercised in months....need my butt kicked!

I've been keeping up with all the stuff going on in your life. I don't have any words of wisdom but I want to give you some

.

dimepiece1 · 05-17-2005, 04:37 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Windchimes

Hi Lakeisha

It's so awesome that you're exercising again. I haven't exercised in months....need my butt kicked!

I've been keeping up with all the stuff going on in your life. I don't have any words of wisdom but I want to give you some

.

Thanks so much! I am freaking out about nothing i'm sure. Today was another good day. I ran all my errands and got done early. I went to the gym at noon and got my nails and toes done. That was a much needed indulgence

dimepiece1 · 05-20-2005, 04:55 PM

It's the weekend baby!!!! Dh went to float down the river and it is just me and the kids. I have cleaned my house spotless from top to bottom and it is awesome

I skipped the gym since I cleaned so much.

Court went well yesterday. The judge kicked her lawyer off and re-set the case for July 21st. We hope to have a agreement worked out by then and hopefully we will not need to go to court anymore after that.

Today is a good day and I am so glad. You gotta get some good one in with the others. I hope everyone has a awesome and blessed weekend. Tell somone you love them!

L.

werkn'it · 05-20-2005, 09:20 PM

I'm glad things are going well for you.

dimepiece1 · 06-03-2005, 01:00 PM

Well the kids got down here last Saturday night at midnight and it has been a blur since then. The little girls went to a slumber oarty last sunday . We have been running around making sure that the kids have everything that they need. They have been swimming every day since Tuesday and we all have a nice tan.

So we have no more court until July 21st. In the meanwhile we have meetings with our lawyer and the one for the girls . I am hanging on pretty good and I am trying not to stray off course. There mom is being a little too nice to me. I am not sure why. I make sure that she has all the info that she needs when she asks and I am going to try to stay in the background. But we will all be fine. Today the girls are having a pool/slumber party of their own so it should be a nice weekend.

05-05-2005, 11:56 AM	#1
dimepiece1 MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Apr 2004 Location: houston, texas Posts: 2,561 Gallery: dimepiece1 Stats: 270/263/170 WOE: atkins Start Date: Sigh.. I begin again	Emancipation of Me For the last few months I have felt like I was living in fast forward. With all of the things going own in my life, it has been hard to maintain....well me. I have allowed myself to fall off the wagon as far as eating. I have not lost nor have I gained. I have quit going to the gym. I have allowed my personal life to become a mess and have just been dealing with things on a need to basis. I am sick of feeling weak and going to sleep at 8pm. My marriage is fine but I feel like my husband is being cheated by me not being my best. I have had enough!!!!!! I am not looking for anyone to coddle me and say it is okay. I put this here to make myself accountable. May in emancipation time for me. I am getting my sht together. I am going to begin eating right and exercising again. I am going get my finances back in order and organize myself. I am going to begin to enjoy my life again. No stress, no fights, leaving all the drama behind. No tears, No fears, no time to fight, just making the most of life. Last and not least..... I am going back to chruch again. I have not been to church in 6 years and the last time I was in one was for a funeral. I can not do this alone. Look what that has gotten me. I am going to succesful and I am excited abut this. Lakeisha __________________ "All I want is to be normally insane" Marlon Brando Start 302/239/170 A "dime" in progress! Last edited by dimepiece1 : 05-05-2005 at 12:08 PM.*

05-07-2005, 10:19 PM	#5
werkn'it MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Apr 2004 Location: Florida Posts: 1,262 Gallery: werkn'it Stats: 169/154/119 5'2" WOE: Atkins Start Date: 1/4/04	Lakeisha ~ You sound just like I think! I make all of these "resolutions" to make myself perfect and then fall short and then give up. However, I find many times when I look back over a long period of time, I HAVE actually met some goals and created nice, new habits. I guess "perfection" just takes a little time. I say all of this to make two points: 1) don't get discouraged if everything doesn't come in to place all at once. and 2) You sound determined to make some positive changes and I hope everything DOES fall in to place all at once for you! Come back tomorrow afternoon and let us know how church went. __________________ ~~DON'T PANIC!!~~ **Renewed Momentum*** Holiday Plans - maintain the best that I can - no gaining.

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05-05-2005, 01:25 PM	#2
canadiandina Senior LCF Member Join Date: Aug 2003 Posts: 965 Gallery: canadiandina Stats: 132/116/105	Good for you! Wishing you all the best...I'm sure you'll figure this all out.

05-07-2005, 06:24 AM	#3
dimepiece1 MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Apr 2004 Location: houston, texas Posts: 2,561 Gallery: dimepiece1 Stats: 270/263/170 WOE: atkins Start Date: Sigh.. I begin again	Thanks for the well wishes. Today is Saturday and I have to get dd ready for prom tonight.I have a gaggle of errands to run and then stuff to do back home. Yesterday was day one of induction and I did okay. I really struggled with dinner and no dessert, but I did okay. I had no dessert. Insted I watch Law and Order reruns until I fell asleep. I have gotten my checkbook balanced and have signed up with online banking to keeps tabs on my money. I have not been to the gym yet but I am planning on going tomorrow morning after I go to church. I hope everyone has a good weekend. lakeisha

05-07-2005, 06:57 AM	#4
Skinnymocah aka Miss Latte Join Date: Aug 2002 Location: Gone. Posts: 41,456 Gallery: Skinnymocah Stats: WOE: Start Date:	Dimepiece your personal challenge sounds so much like what I've been doing the last 5 weeks. I haven't been to church in a while and I am pushing myself to go tomorrow and get involved and make some friends. Earlier this year I did the online bill pay thing and got stuff set up so I wasn't making late payments and I could keep track... best thing I ever did, as I am so scatterbrained at times. Hoping you feel thigns falling into place!

05-07-2005, 11:56 PM	#6
Snapdragon Senior LCF Member Join Date: Oct 2003 Location: OVER THE RAINBOW Posts: 799 Gallery: Snapdragon Stats: 225/180/140 WOE: ATKINS '72 - Couch to 5k	Good for you! Sometimes its the little details that make a bigger change in your life than the huge ones. Best of luck!

05-08-2005, 06:29 PM	#7
dimepiece1 MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Apr 2004 Location: houston, texas Posts: 2,561 Gallery: dimepiece1 Stats: 270/263/170 WOE: atkins Start Date: Sigh.. I begin again	Happy Sunday Evening Guys! I hope all the mommies had a gret day. I did. I went to chruch by myself this morning and man was I scared. The message was about appreiciating your mom. It highlighted the little behind the scences things that moms do. The preacher talked about Mary and Jesus's relationship with one another. I felt like I should not have been there in a way. I am not really sure why, maybe it is just the amount of time it has been. But i really have enjoyed my Mother's Day and I am going to enjoy the rest of my evening and I hope you guys do as well.

05-11-2005, 03:58 PM	#8
dimepiece1 MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Apr 2004 Location: houston, texas Posts: 2,561 Gallery: dimepiece1 Stats: 270/263/170 WOE: atkins Start Date: Sigh.. I begin again	Happy Humpday. I have been so busy up tp my head in pre-end of school activites. I had a PTO meetin yesterday, A cheerleading parent meeting today, dance recital tomorrow and chaprone for the 8th grade dance on friday. Whew. Things are still going well for me. I am eating on plan and getting in 30-45 min of exercise every morning. I am still very tired and going to be as soon as I can every night. I am hoping that will stop soon. I think I will try a different chruch this Sunday to see if there is a better one out there for me. I went to the chruch that I went to as a child and somehow I think my needs have outgrown that chruch But I am still here and hanging on.

05-11-2005, 10:37 PM	#9
werkn'it MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Apr 2004 Location: Florida Posts: 1,262 Gallery: werkn'it Stats: 169/154/119 5'2" WOE: Atkins Start Date: 1/4/04	Way to go on eating and exercising well - even with your hectic schedule! And I'm glad too that you aren't giving up on church after just visiting one. Sounds like you have more busy days ahead - keep up the good work girl!!!

05-15-2005, 01:41 PM	#10
dimepiece1 MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Apr 2004 Location: houston, texas Posts: 2,561 Gallery: dimepiece1 Stats: 270/263/170 WOE: atkins Start Date: Sigh.. I begin again	Happy Sunday Everyone! Today is a really somber day. The sun is shining. I went swimming with my kids and dh is doing yard work. Today is a really nice day, but I can not shake my thoughts from Dan(LcThinCyclist) I want to understand and keep telling myself that he is better off now. That he is not feeling any pain. But I keep also thinking how much pain he was in before and a lot os did not know. I hope he is at peace and can see how much we on this board really loved him and will miss him. I have never known anyone who has taken their life. I know people who know people that did and it is different actually knowing the person. Again i wish him much peace and I wish his family peace. Take the time to tell someone that you love them. It might make all the difference. lakeisha

05-16-2005, 07:24 PM	#11
dimepiece1 MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Apr 2004 Location: houston, texas Posts: 2,561 Gallery: dimepiece1 Stats: 270/263/170 WOE: atkins Start Date: Sigh.. I begin again	Monday... eek! Today was just like any other monday... busy. One dd is trying out for cheerleader and the other got out of school early today. I had stuff to do and got that all taken care of and I still got to the gym for the 5:30 class http://www.lowcarbfriends.com/bbs/sh...pagenumber=1We go back to court on thursday and the judge now wants to speak with me. http://www.lowcarbfriends.com/bbs/sh...d.php?t=331411 These are the prior posts for anyone who wants to read them. But she wants to talk with me about the phone call that the sheriff placed to us. The sheriff turned out to be her lawyer!! Well now our lawyer is trying to get him kicked off the case and now the judge wants to talk with us. I am so not up to this right now. Just the thought makes my chest hurt and I get short of breath. I guess it is anxity(sp) about the whole thing. I have three days until i have to go so I will be ready. Things have got to look up and stay up.... even if it is only for a little while. L.

05-16-2005, 09:38 PM	#12
Windchimes Senior LCF Member Join Date: Dec 2004 Location: Fresno, CA Posts: 435 Gallery: Windchimes Stats: 64 pounds lost forever! WOE: Was SB, now Atkins Start Date: August 2004	Hi Lakeisha It's so awesome that you're exercising again. I haven't exercised in months....need my butt kicked! I've been keeping up with all the stuff going on in your life. I don't have any words of wisdom but I want to give you some .

05-20-2005, 04:55 PM	#14
dimepiece1 MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Apr 2004 Location: houston, texas Posts: 2,561 Gallery: dimepiece1 Stats: 270/263/170 WOE: atkins Start Date: Sigh.. I begin again	It's the weekend baby!!!! Dh went to float down the river and it is just me and the kids. I have cleaned my house spotless from top to bottom and it is awesome I skipped the gym since I cleaned so much. Court went well yesterday. The judge kicked her lawyer off and re-set the case for July 21st. We hope to have a agreement worked out by then and hopefully we will not need to go to court anymore after that. Today is a good day and I am so glad. You gotta get some good one in with the others. I hope everyone has a awesome and blessed weekend. Tell somone you love them! L.

05-20-2005, 09:20 PM	#15
werkn'it MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Apr 2004 Location: Florida Posts: 1,262 Gallery: werkn'it Stats: 169/154/119 5'2" WOE: Atkins Start Date: 1/4/04	I'm glad things are going well for you.

06-03-2005, 01:00 PM	#16
dimepiece1 MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Apr 2004 Location: houston, texas Posts: 2,561 Gallery: dimepiece1 Stats: 270/263/170 WOE: atkins Start Date: Sigh.. I begin again	Well the kids got down here last Saturday night at midnight and it has been a blur since then. The little girls went to a slumber oarty last sunday . We have been running around making sure that the kids have everything that they need. They have been swimming every day since Tuesday and we all have a nice tan. So we have no more court until July 21st. In the meanwhile we have meetings with our lawyer and the one for the girls . I am hanging on pretty good and I am trying not to stray off course. There mom is being a little too nice to me. I am not sure why. I make sure that she has all the info that she needs when she asks and I am going to try to stay in the background. But we will all be fine. Today the girls are having a pool/slumber party of their own so it should be a nice weekend.