||02-08-2013 02:11 PM
Onderland and one hundred pounds lost!
So where's my party?
First of all "Hi Guys!!" :hiya: I haven't posted in quite a while. I'm one of those types of forum posters that comes and goes through the years and never really gets too active so some of you may know me and some may not. I've been at my *latest* weight loss journey for around 3 years pretty consistently now so that's a lot of coming and going. This morning, I finally reached 199.8 on my bathroom scale and I promised myself that the day it happened, I would make it a priority to sit down and post. Why? Because when I was 297lbs., 285lbs., 248lbs., and so on, it felt like I would NEVER get here and when I started to give up or feel weak, I read success stories and it kept me on track. As I sat at my computer screen in tears, I was able to pull it together for just one more day/meal/minute and that was long enough to push through the weakness and continue on my journey. It was and still is very important to me that I share my story with you in the hopes that it may provide someone out there reading it with a little bit of hope.
So, my story is a long one but I don't want to bore you guys to death so I will just give it the super quick run down. In my early 20's I hit 203lbs., felt enormous and lost down to the mid 180's before I met my husband, fell in love and had a son. By the time I was 9 months pregnant, I weighed in at 297lbs. Through breastfeeding and a low-ish calorie diet, I was able to lose down to around 260. Some big moves and major life changes hit me hard and I found myself depressed and approaching 285lbs. in mid-2009. This is when my latest journey began. I started with low calorie, even though I know low carb is the life for me, because it was easier at the time to pop a lean cuisine in the microwave and by doing so, lost 40 lbs. rather quickly. Being as far from perfect as I am, I then did a little backsliding, some stalling and then, after several attempts at losing the same 10 lbs. 50 or so times, I managed to get myself down to a new low of 203.x late last year on a LC lifestyle. I was SO pumped to get to Onederland by Christmas and I just knew I could do it. Of course life happened and I did a little more backsliding and so on but I'm back at it and have a great momentum going right now.
It's been a struggle. I mention this because some times people find weight loss easy. A lot of times, people find weight loss too hard and therefore never finish, leaving stories like mine (and like yours?) all the more rare. If you're like me and it's taken 3 years to loose 100lbs. and in that time you've lost at least 500lbs. if you count all those darn ones that you have to do over and over again, I want you to know that you're not alone. It's not a question of will-power usually, because when I'm on plan I'm a machine, I think it's more a matter of life interfering and getting comfortable. But anyway. So the holidays were rough for me this past year and I ended up gaining around 10 lbs. back from what I had lost previously. I was back up to 215. About 3 weeks ago I started back up full force again and now here I sit: 199.8 thankyouverymuch
It was more anti-climatic than I thought although if I'm being honest I did get a little choked up followed by a fit of giggles. :D It's been a long time coming, and I still have a ways to go, but I'm here. It's possible, guys. I'm sitting, living, breathing proof that it's possible and that you can do it too. Because honestly, there were so many times that I wanted to give up, and so many times that I *DID* give up, but I always stood up, dusted myself off and got right back on track. That's all we can do. Because no one is perfect but if we're honest with ourselves, and gentle with ourselves when we make a mistake, it doesn't have to be the end of the world or the end of our diet. It can just be a little blip on the radar and you can get back up and keep on keeping on, don't let anyone (including yourself!) tell you otherwise!
So. Thanks for reading and woo for 199!! :jumpjoy:
p.s. yes, it's only really 98 lbs., but come on, it's so close and the title works!! ;)