Are you over 250lbs? Frustrated but determined Jan 2012

[Passion68]

momof3, my BFF eats one meal a day-usually not until 9 PM or so.

Cindy, have you started the Percogesic yet? If so, is it helping?

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I ate carbs last night and am doing so as I type this. Gained over a pound. I really do think I subconsciously sabatoge myself. Once I reach a certain weight it's as though I block myself from further success. I wonder what I am afraid of....

Today's menu:
Apple fritter w/ coffee
IDK about the rest of the day because we have a BD party right in the middle of it, and I haven't thawed anything for supper later on....

[Crazy Mimi]

The Percogesic is working - BUT - I forgot it at work and only found doans at the store i went to.

My Dad fell last night in the hospital. After a CT scan this afternoon, found out he had a T.I.A (mini stroke).



So - I barely ate today. this is new ground for me, so I better watch this closely and make sure that I do eat.

Baby steps - one moment at a time. I am cherishing every minute that he is still with us.

[Passion68]

Cindy, I am so, so sorry.

[Crazy Mimi]

I am focusing on the positive right now. He still can get better. I have to be strong for my DDs, they need me to be strong so they can be strong. They need to see me break down, but they need to see that I keep going.

I know that my Dad will be here as long as God wants him here...

He is still here for a reason. I just think my Dad might be getting depressed.

[Passion68]

Soooo... Day 2 with no scale. I just LM for DH reminding him to buy a new one if he has time today.

Walked around yesterday for several hours, and was able to stand for about 3 hours total. My upper legs sometimes start to go a bit numb, but I did okay yesterday. I credit the fact I've been walking on the treadmill again.

Eating: I really cannot do without cocktails. I know the Atkins book says NO alcohol on induction. I went 1 1/2 weeks without adult beverages in January when I first started for a loss of 11.4 lbs.

The big question is: Is my health and weight loss worth giving up cocktail hour?

[Passion68]

Checking in. DH bought a new scale last night. It's weighing me 4 pounds heavier than the old one, so IDK which weight to use.

Keeping up with the cardio and low carb eating. I've got a new, short term goal: To fit into one size smaller jeans before a concert next month. 6.5 weeks away. I know I can do it!!!

Hope everyone is doing well.

[Crazy Mimi]

I'm here.
lurking

My Dad is eating


I was reprimanded for missing too much work and at the same time given more work?

It's actually a good thing. I was at times getting bored.

Will e-mail family and let them know I can't miss anymore work for quite some time.

[Passion68]

Cindylou, excellent news about him eating!!!

[momof3heathens]

That is fantastic news Cindylou.

I have been busy on facebook this past several days reconnecting with family in Germany. My mom hasn't spoken with her family in more than 40 years and finally I was able to get some information off of her as to names, etc so I just looked up a few of the younger family to see if they are on facebook and yes. I gave her youngest sister who is 61 her phone # and mailing address and she called my mom and they spent quite a bit of time chatting so that was nice. The two youngest siblings added me on facebook so we can keep in touch. My mother is not computer literate so those contacts will be via snail mail and phone calls. Sadly all the other siblings have now passed away. Mind you some would have been in their 90's so that is more than understandable.

[Passion68]

What wonderful news, momof3!!! How nice to be able to connect with family. And, we have something in common. I am of German descent as well.

[Crazy Mimi]

Originally Posted by Passion68

Cindylou, excellent news about him eating!!!

Originally Posted by momof3heathens

That is fantastic news Cindylou.

I have been busy on facebook this past several days reconnecting with family in Germany. My mom hasn't spoken with her family in more than 40 years and finally I was able to get some information off of her as to names, etc so I just looked up a few of the younger family to see if they are on facebook and yes. I gave her youngest sister who is 61 her phone # and mailing address and she called my mom and they spent quite a bit of time chatting so that was nice. The two youngest siblings added me on facebook so we can keep in touch. My mother is not computer literate so those contacts will be via snail mail and phone calls. Sadly all the other siblings have now passed away. Mind you some would have been in their 90's so that is more than understandable.

Originally Posted by Passion68

What wonderful news, momof3!!! How nice to be able to connect with family. And, we have something in common. I am of German descent as well.

WOW - what a coinkydink.... I have German ancestors on both sides. Then mediteranean (bohemian) and English (a direct descendant of Miles Standish).

[Passion68]

Checking in... Binged last night on Triscuits and the scale reflected it this morning.

Didn't walk last night because I tweaked my left knee Monday evening. It's better today. Guess I could have done an upper body workout, but the knee was a good excuse to do nothing.

Regarding my meltdown a few weeks ago: I've begun to let things go volunteer wise by delegating to others in both clubs. What a great feeling. They can work it out among themselves. Things are relatively slow here at the office so that stress is mellow for now.

I've tried reaching out to my BFF several times the past few days. She finally responded this AM. I didn't respond back yet. I am so tired of always being there for family and friends and it not being reciprocated.

[Crazy Mimi]

Well - You know how to reach out to others...
I am here. At some point, noon or after 5 central Std Time I check this site.

I am enjoying my job right now, but there is an issue. I am working on a report and I was put in the middle by the boss that hired me. Told who i answer to etc. So when I found problems, told the one I was supposed to and was told to politely "BACK OFF". So I let it go. Now the boss that hired me knows I was told to back off. I told him - my supervisor was in with him discussing the complications surrounding what I was told to "forget" and didn't mention it to him. He asked me if i had any concerns revolving around this subject. I told him when i discovered it, how far I delved in to it, and then that I was told to back off.
Lets just say he was LIVID. I think I actually saw steam come out of someone's ears like the cartoons..... And the look on my supervisor's face was priceless.

I am just going to tell the boss that hired me - that when I am told to back off by another boss, I do back off but when asked I can tell him exactly what is going on as that is part of my job....

[lindaland]

Is it to late to join the the challenge? I am new to the boards and not sure what I should post as far as challenges go.

I have used a "low carb" diet a few years ago, actually I just didn't eat carbs except for dairy and I also went very low fat. I only took in about 800 - 1000 calories a day and would often just skip a meal and have a EAS carb smart protein drink instead. Also I was working out 1 - 1.5 hrs a day and I did loose 103 lbs by the end of 2008 but I was also a basket case and constantly obsessed with not eating carbs of any kind. I was constantly hungry and tried to convince myself that that is what skinny people felt all the time so I just had to get used to it. Needless to say, when everyone was telling me that I needed to eat fruit & whole grains I couldn't get it. I had no idea of what kinds of foods to eat so all fruits and whole grains were off limits because of high carbs. When I did try to add them into my diet, I quickly started gaining my weight back.

Now I am just 15lbs to being back to my heaviest, and I don't want to do the statistical "lose weight and gain it back plus some". I am trying the induction phase now and this time I am sort of following the meal plan. I am the worst at following a "diet" of any structure so I am hoping that the Atkins "guidelines" will be easier for me to live with rather than having to eat certain foods at certain times or days.

Well now I am just rambling......

[Passion68]

Cindylou, thank you!!! I appreciate you being there.

How is everyone doing? Things are going okay here. I've only walked once so far this week. That means I must walk 3 out of the next 4 days to stick to my April goal of walking at least 4x weekly. I am getting used to the new scale. I've still been going off plan via popcorn the past several nights, and several pieces sushi for lunch today. I'll give the rest to DH.

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Welcome, Linda! Congratulations on your prior success. I admire your focus. And I know how easy it is to put them back on.

I understand the frustration of others telling you what to eat, not eat, do or don't do. I just dealt with this 2 hours ago, in fact. I went to lunch w/ a gal pal, and she said she just ordered some book about not eating wheat. I told her of my horrible wheat allergy. She said, "Yeah, but rice isn't bad for you." Yes, it is, dang it!!! At my BD party a few weekends ago, a different friend told me she thinks I shouldn't be low carbing. Well, I shouldn't eat things that make me bloat and feel exhausted either, which is exactly what carbs do.

[lindaland]

I know what you mean, when I was low carb I felt great! Cravings for carbs dropped way off and I didn't feel bloated & tired. But I do also believe that a healthy WOE includes fruits & whole grains, I just have to learn how to include them effectively.

[Crazy Mimi]

Linda

more to come. Heading to work now.

[Crazy Mimi]

Originally Posted by lindaland

I know what you mean, when I was low carb I felt great! Cravings for carbs dropped way off and I didn't feel bloated & tired. But I do also believe that a healthy WOE includes fruits & whole grains, I just have to learn how to include them effectively.

Yes to a point I agree. The thing I really believe is that when grocery shopping, you need to stay out of the middle of the store - that is where all the processed foods are. And I don't think they are healthy. When I read the ingredients, I want to know what it is. Read the back of Newman's Own dressing. That's what I am talking about...

I am realizing that when I binge - I have to go back to the basics. I have to "restart" my Atkins diet and follow the induction to the letter (of what not to eat) for at least 3 days in order to "flush out" my cravings. It allows me to lose the water weight that was gained from the "bad carbs" I ate. Right now, I am losing. I am very close to being where I was when I stopped WW. The only difference is how fast this has gone. I struggled here in the beginning and wasn't following the diet right. I had no idea how bad my carb addiction was. The "wrong" food will set me off in a tailspin that will last a whole week... I am learning how to stop a binge and how to be happy. I have not added in a lot of exercise yet, for what my book says is to get a handle on losing the weight and elarning the diet before you go adding in exercise b/c you need to know what to eat, and what not to eat etc and after exercising you will be hungry. Also, whenever you add in exercise, in order to keep losing you will need to add to what you do. Idk about all of that - but I will start out slow. Will be considering a treadmill or elliptical. Or even one of those gazelles.....

[Passion68]

Cindylou, both my mom and sister have gazelles and love them.

Okay. Today I had my first "real life" experience since starting the program. DH had a scheduled surgery procedure today that took us out of town and away from home for 10 hours. I did okay before we left. I went to the hospital coffee place during his surgery, where my options were a small container of berries or 2 boiled eggs for $4, or chips, granola type bars, or interesting looking meat/veggie something or other in the deli case. Perhaps I could have brought some carb safe food.

We stopped at Arby's when we left the hospital, and I ate off plan.

DH is in his recliner with his laptop and TV remote

[sooznd]

As someone who has not been below 250 since I was 25 years old, the name of your thread caught my eye. That was 30 years ago.

250 lbs is my first goal. I started LC this time to rid myself of a number of health issues, and lose weight. So far, I lost 10 pounds the first week and some of the health issues have calmed down, but the weight is stalled at 275 for 2 weeks now. I feel better and my clothes fit better, but the scales....

I think I'm moving to phase 2, at least for the yogurt.

[sooznd]

Lol I mean I passed 250 lbs. 30 years ago.

[Passion68]

Sooznd, glad to see you here.

The fact certain health issues leave so quickly with low carb eating is a huge plus. Keep it up! I know the stalls can be frusterating. If you go to the daily weigher thread, check out the stalls and breakthroughs there. Inspiring!

I can tell I've been eating carbs because they all went directly to my belly, which then effects my asthma.

Tomorrow is another day.

[got2getmoving]

to the newbies!

Cindy: Glad to hear your father is doing better.

I apologize for being MIA for the past few weeks. I have been extremely busy at home and at work, and I have been contemplating on what I need to do to stay on plan. I have researched several different plans and they all come back to lean protein and low-carb/sugar fruits and vegetables . I ordered 6 week diet makeover (approximately 2 years ago!) and my body type shows low carb; the blood type diet 0- shoss low carb, and I feel better on low - moderate carbs, so I just don't understand why I can't stick to it?! .

I have stayed the same weight these past few weeks, even while eating off plan and no exercising (which is good that I did not gain), but my body aches all over and I know it is from eating all the wrong stuff and not exercising.


Just wanted to stop in and say HI! and that I am still working on getting my act together. Summer is right around the corner and I do not want to be the weight that I am!

[Crazy Mimi]

Sooznd

My Dad was doing better. Now his breathing is labored, he can't eat for the muscles in his throat are too weak, he refused a feeding tube until this past Saturday, but it has yet to go in, he is so weak. If they don't do something soon..... It is so hard to watch...

I have been off plan this weekend. First weekend with DD and GDDs staying with us. They need different foods in the house... I can't have different foods in the house... So, not so sure how this will work in the long run.

As far as the DD that I am having troubles with - I have yet to hear from her and I refuse to contact her.

Hope everyone else is on plan....

[got2getmoving]

Originally Posted by Crazy Mimi

Sooznd

My Dad was doing better. Now his breathing is labored, he can't eat for the muscles in his throat are too weak, he refused a feeding tube until this past Saturday, but it has yet to go in, he is so weak. If they don't do something soon..... It is so hard to watch...

I have been off plan this weekend. First weekend with DD and GDDs staying with us. They need different foods in the house... I can't have different foods in the house... So, not so sure how this will work in the long run.

As far as the DD that I am having troubles with - I have yet to hear from her and I refuse to contact her.

Hope everyone else is on plan....

you are going through a lot right now. Just eat as best as you can and concentrate on your dad.

[Passion68]

Cindylou, I am so sorry to hear about your dad's turn of events.

[Crazy Mimi]

right back to you.

Hope you get to feeling better soon. Also, chin up - we will get through our mental issues and be better happier people in the long run. On the brighter side of things, you were eating off plan and still ended up showing a loss....
So maybe you didn't over-eat, it was just yucky choices.
On my brighter side - I am not over 270... I don't want to see that decade again. So I am eating low calorie as well. Very low cal and very little food actually today. I am not hungry and am starting to feel ill - but can't miss work. Oh well....

[sooznd]

You guys are going through soooo much right now. It's great that you can focus on yourselves at all right now. I'm so sorry your dad is struggling so right now Cindylou. You are one strong woman!

Everyone's journey is so different, but it's good to come here and share.

My life is in a calm place at the moment, but I never trust the calm times. I keep looking over my shoulder instead of enjoying the moment. Getting well is really the only thing I can halfway control right now anyway.

[Passion68]

Cindy, good point. I feels like all I've been doing is eating, but reflecting on the intake, it really wasn't that much.

sooz, I do the same thing at the office. It's difficult to relax.

[Crazy Mimi]

soozndYou guys are going through soooo much right now. It's great that you can focus on yourselves at all right now. I'm so sorry your dad is struggling so right now Cindylou. You are one strong woman!

thank you. I didn't think of myself as strong, but I guess so.... Again thank you.

Everyone's journey is so different, but it's good to come here and share. AMEN

My life is in a calm place at the moment, but I never trust the calm times. I keep looking over my shoulder instead of enjoying the moment. Getting well is really the only thing I can halfway control right now anyway.

Good, glad your life is in a calm place. You really need to learn how to enjoy the calm times. If you don't, you will soon forget what a calm time is...