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[Crazy Mimi]

Way to go kajunmommiee..... Keep it up!!!

Work was not busy, so was bored, BUT i stayed on plan and did not eat anything that I didn't plan to eat. YAY

Now the next test will be tomorrow morning.

I have to keep from standing on that scale............



I am going to try to stay off the computer tonight.... So should get my fix in the AM....
Cindy

[Maryo]

Just a quick stop to say hi . . .

Kajun - good job on the elliptical. The elliptical is my favorite cardio machine - so much smoother than a treadmill or stepper, and I prefer it to a bike, also. I've been doing an hour a day on mine for the past few days, but I had to really work my way up to that.

[TaDa!]

Hey Girls! Doing well here! kind of crazy running around after kids and making dinners all night again ... I decided to have a gluco pudding to stop all the food cues from getting through! it was easy to decide to do that knowing I won't be on the scale for a few days for any "retention" issues to affect my head, lol!

keep up the great work Mimi and Kajun! Sounds like you are both on a roll!



Pauline

[kajunmommiee]

I had my appendix rupture on my back in OCtober did not get it out till After Christmas due to infection. SO needless to say I am having to work my way back up on the exercising again. I was just happy not to gain weight while sick.

[Phranquie]

Hello all. I had a really good food day. I had a planned lunch out with friends and I stuck to my plan and even decided to not have one of the carbier selections I had planned on eating. I spend the afternoon with a friend at the doctor’s office and she wanted to go out for dinner. Normally I would have declined but she needed to talk about some personal things so we went to a BBQ place we like. I ate very well and only had two of the 6 ribs and some fried okra which because of my lunch selection I had the carb allowance and stayed on plan with both carbs and calories. I feel really good about both meals and about my outlook. I’ve been working on being more accepting and I felt a lot better about myself this morning and even better this evening for having stuck to plan as much as possible. I finally feel good and in control of eating, very focused.

Cindy-Yea on not buying things off plan at the grocery store. It is hard walking the gauntlet of carby foods down certain aisle. I tend to stay on the perimeter of stores and put blinders on to the rest. I hope your stress levels caused by family issues go down soon.

Chamie- There was a girl on the boards years ago (Pauline, remember Jan?) and she could drop 30 lbs in a week because she had lymphedema. If this really is the case for you you might want to give your doc a call just to check things out.

Fleur-Great job on already feeling a change in the way clothing fits. This is always a high point for me.

Patty- Always come back for support. I wish I had come back while I was having problems staying on plan. It might have helped me stop it sooner.

Mary (kajun)- Your are definitely in the LC groove. KUTGW!

Pauline- Sounds like the pudding is a lifesaver. I am trying to find a store with the Diet Swiss Miss. My BF accidentally purchased “No Sugar Added” instead of “diet”. I think I’d like to have a filling, sweeter option like your pudding for those times I feel the need to eat more than my planned menu.

[fleur]

You elliptical people have me curious. What is the elliptical machine?

I was probably in the same building with several of them today, lol, as I got to the gym for the first time in a month. Half an hour of swimming, alternating with walking laps and kicking with the kickboard. I've realized that my upper arms are looking pretty bad. Anyone have a suggestion on a good exercise to reduce them? They are not so much flabby as just bigger than they have been previously. I'd meausre them, but that is one measurement that it's pretty mpossible to do for yourself. Pauline, you've inspired me to think of something else that I can measure- my calves. the day I can fit those into a pair of tall boots will be one worth celebrating. Of course, that may never happen. I don't think I fit well into those even when I was slim. My sister claims that we get our legs from the German side of the family. My mother has quite slim legs. She's the side with the Irish/English.

So glad that you are feeling back on track, Frankie .

After realizing that my UD calories should be lower, I went to a wine tasting dinner tonight and think I went a bit over (don't mind my shpellling..hic CUP). Oh well. I haven't been at this long enough to know one way or the other if/how that will affect things. I'm also trying to guess at how many ounces of wine I drank and how accurate fit day is. I'm back down in the dungeon of 500 calories tomorrow, but I only have 2 more of those really low DD's after that and I'll be through with induction. Whoot Whoot. I was feeling pretty fried at the end of the DD yesterday, after working for 4 hours, then clothes shopping for hours.

Pauline, so sweet of you to think of me and costuming. I am feeling utterly confused about my life direction at the moment. I don't know if I mentioned that just when the meeting about the show that I may costume seemed like it was not ever going to happen, it got rescheduled for the end of Februaryish (they want me!!). I look forward to seeing the photo of your dd in that costume!

I feel quite cheered up from being here, nothing whatsoever to do with the wine.

[Crazy Mimi]

I followed my eating plan all day yesteray. I now am going to start limiting my evening time on the computer due to being on it all day.

Fleur - an elliptical machine is one that you put your feet in one place and move. It's like walking, but you are not actually stepping. It is easier on the knees since your feet are not impacting the ground. Don't think it is easy though - it is a major workout - but easy on the knees and ankles.
EVERYONE - if I didn't explain that very well please add to what I said.

I did not get on the scale this morning. - but it's killing me, I want to know if I lost.....

I will be waiting until Monday morning.

I had to get my teenager things she could eat that I won't eat that will help her to feel like I am not starving her. I have been walking the outer edges of the grocery part of the store, list in hand repeating my mantra and not allowing add ons to the list unless it is meat that's at a bargain price. - I am getting stronger and enjoying the energy, the way I feel and my mental clarity. So why screw that up. I know I will have bad moments - emotional eating is my biggest binge trigger. I am just going to have to figure out how to deal with those before they happen. Write down steps to take and write a list of acceptable things to binge on and hide it somewhere I first go when bingeing (THE PANTRY).

Phranquie - way to go! I am so glad you feel in control, good and focused!! That is a good feeling that keeps you motivated. Hope it continues....

Thank you Pauline


Have a great day and "just keep swimming, just keep swimming, swimming, swimming, swimmmmming"

[TaDa!]

Hi everyone! I have had a crazy morning with both kids having a half day - and one out by 9:30, lol!!! So I have been running around! Tonight also will be crazy .. again!!! Last night I was giving meals for hours, got hungry just from all the food contact, but I downed a gluco pudding (25 cal, 2 carbs) .. I wish I could use it without worrying too much but it does affect my scale weight for two days. Luckily I do not weigh until next Monday .. so I guess I am safe having it up until Friday so I do not have it affecting my weigh-in .. lol! I sound like a crazy person, lol!

Kajun ohmigosh ruptured appendix and infection is so serious!! You poor thing!!!!! You know getting your exercise back up to your old level *will* happen. I have been there before after surgery (hysterectomy) .. it is annoying to lose your fitness level .. but it will absolutely come back. You are doing G-R-E-A-T!!!!

Phranquie Way to go sticking to your food plan at lunch ***and*** at dinner!! I am so glad to hear you are feeling better about things .. for me, it is all about my "outlook". It makes a big difference in my ability to stick with all this and cope with life crap.

Fleur Your pool workout sounds pretty good! As far as what to do for arm exercise .. you can tone and make muscle but there is really no way to spot reduce anything. Basically, losing weight (fat) is the only way to lose fat .. but, as far as what part of the body it comes off, you are stuck with however nature takes fat off your body ..

lol I hope I can get pictures of dd's costume .. my goodness, all the costumes are apparently top secret and the cast members haven't even seen one another's, lol! I do know they have dd in yellow converse and red tights

WTG on staying to plan Mimi! We will be keeping off the scale til Monday together!!!! If you don't cave, neither will I .. Deal?

Have you considered starting a new area for your teen for that food ... a different cupboard or something, so it is in a place you don't generally even open? Just a thought!

Hey Everyone else!!! Shout-out to MissBeth .. missing you girl!!! I hope everything is ok!!!

[Leo41]

Everyone is doing so well!

Let's all just keep on 'truckin' because in my experience consistency is the key.

[kajunmommiee]

hey everyone. Had a great day today. Walked my mile on the treadmill today. stayed on plan. Breakfast 1/2 oatmeal 2 egg whites
Mid morn~ cup of cabbage with chicken
Lunch LC chicken chili tossed greens
Snack LC chicken chili tossed greens
Supper LC chicken chili Tossed greens
Snack LC Chicken Chili tossed greens
All food is salt free, I eat 2 ounces of meat at a time with 1 to 2 cups greens.
Lots of unsweet tea and water

[fleur]

Thanks for the explanation on the elliptical, Mimi. I think you did well. You definitely described the machine that I've seen at the gym and thought it might be. Good luck finding foods to keep your teenager happy and keeping them out of sight for yourself. My mother restricted me at just that age and it was highly instrumental in setting me up for a lifetime of difficulty with food. You are doing the right thing.

Pauline, nothing crazy about doing what works for you. Anyway if you ARE a crazy person, you're the kind of crazy person I really like. We're in this together, right? Yellow converse and red tights? I really do have to see a photo of this costume!

I'm wondering how Kimmarie is doing. Hope she is well.

We haven't heard from Tigs in ages. I hope all is well with her in Bali.

Leo, I saw your brownie recipe immortalized on the JUDDD Down day recipes thread. I haven't gotten around to trying it yet, but will soon. For anyone looking for ultra low cal recipes, that's the place. I got quite a few good ideas.

I'm nearly forgetting to tell my news, which is that my waist measured 1/2" less this morning than it did when I measured the day before- I think it was the day before, got to sift through these threads. Anyway, WhoooHooooo!!! And this is after my Up day, with the wine tasting and yummy italian dinner. I love my new WOE

[chamie]

Hi everyone! I see all is well. Congrats to all of you for staying on plan. I am pretty proud of myself, too. I have not even remotley strayed from this WOE. I am so proud of myself. I am still experiencing scale mysteries so we will not know what my true weight is until Saturday morning. I am nervous. This is traditionally when I get a bit off track. If I dont get a # I want on the scale I get the wind blown out of my sails and tend to get discouraged and fail. But, If I can get past these next 2 weeks I know I can do this.

I still havent set up a real exercise regime. Just a hit or miss exercise a few times a week with no real committment deal. So, I think I will exercise before I go home this morning and get my hour in!! I love the elliptical so I hope it is warmed up!!

[TaDa!]

We *are* missing quite a few ladies. I hope that anyone who might be struggling will come in and chat! You are not alone!!!!

I had a small "impulse eating" as Leo calls it yesterday - and it was totally due to stress and my schedule, and maybe some real hunger as I was able to stop it and then compensate for it later in the day so that my total for the day was 100% "on". The good news for me is that the insane Wednesday and Thursday nights are likely finished for now - with just normal level of activity that is more predictable (not activity to the nth degree), lol!

Hiya Kajun! Well done keeping with your plan! On the Thurmond program, do you do just chicken and veg for a very long time - or is it the 6 weeks only? It seems very "diet-like" that's why I'm wondering.

fleur That is great news on your waist loss!!!!! Enjoy your up day! A bit of wine is also in my plans for tonight, lol!

Chamie I'm glad you are doing well!!!! Have a good workout today! I am also scared of the scale this week. We'll get through it!!!!

[Leo41]

TaDa- Great job in being about to stop that episode and come out even for the day! Having a similar 'weakness,' I know how tough it is to contain the damage--but you incurred no damage at all.

I am hoping that every time we manage to 'control' our impulsive eating, we're building the 'brain version' of muscle memory that will enable us to stop ourselves more easily each time until it becomes a automatic response.

An analogy: When I was teaching writing, I learned that the experienced and successful writer is making hundred of decisions during the process of writing (word choice, examples to use, paragraph length, etc., etc.), and those decisions are happening so quickly at an almost subconscious level that the writer has no awareness of the complexity of the act he/she is engaged in.

That's how I'm hoping to 'train myself' to deal with my food issues. I'm hoping that the 'experienced' maintainer will be like the writer and be able to 'automatically' make the right decisions when faced with a challenge.

You certainly seem to be going in that direction, and you're my model because you've been engaged in maintenance much longer than I have.

Chamie- If and when you get discouraged, try to remind yourself that the alternative to staying on plan and fighting the fight is to remain as you are. And then ask yourself, "Is this the future I want for myself?"

In my experience, anyone who thinks weight management is 'easy' is delusional, but the longer you work your plan, the more it becomes your 'normal' WOE, and the easier it is to stay the course.

[kajunmommiee]

Tada It is for 6 weeks only .. Its sort of to boost my metabolism bck into the diet mode. It also gives you the option to take breaks on weekends howver I am opting not to do this. Except for tomorrow for my sons bday. then the rest of the diet will be on plan. I will go back to low carbing only in about 4 more weeks for about 6 weeks then do the thurmond plan in the summer again.

[Maryo]

Hi ladies! I'm still on plan eating wise, and have done 60 minutes on the elliptical machine for the last couple days. Alas, my weight is up a little bit (@a pound), and I'm hoping it's related to starting strength training and not to some unidentified glitch in my eating.

Fleur, that's great news on your 1/2".

Jennifer, I'm proud of you too! If the scale affects you like that, you might want to just ignore it. Maybe just measure until you know you're well on your way and totally committed no matter what the scale says.

Pauline, way to go in correcting your "impulse eating" quickly and turning it around with no harm. I suspect we're all going to have impulse eating moments, and it's how we deal with them that will determine whether we win this war or not.

Well, I have TONS of cleaning to do, so I'm off. I'll get my strength training and my cardio in, but other than that I think it's just clean, clean, clean for the rest of the day. And I HATE to clean!!

[Crazy Mimi]

Yesterday evening was my teenagers basketball game. I knew it and I had a larger than normal planned snack at 4:30. Usually my daughter plays first and the gym is not that full yet. Well - they had all mixed up for the evening. Boys were already playing and then girls - the stands were full. I finally found a place to sit surrounded by other parents (the boys parents). So once the girls started playing, their boys came up there with nachos. I searched everywhere and no seats - people were standing in the only place to stand already . I started my mantra. I got through it, only I was starving and ready to head home and grab a salad before I had time to even think about anything else. My husband called and said to go pick something up for supper at the burger joint - he didn't have time to fix dinner and proceeded to rattle off what he wanted. My daughter started talking out loud about the menu and what she wanted. I said ok - grilled chicken salad. by the time I ordered for myself, it was a jr burger, small fries and a malt....
I am so upset with myself for not following program, but more upset that I didn't plan for this. I could have had on plan snacks in the car, and could have had something in the crockpot at home.
Tada! - from this moment on I will be scale free til Monday - but i felt so awful this morning (sluggish, my back hurts, puffy, achy and headache) that i wanted to see what the effect would be on the scale. Still managed to pull of 1/2 pound down. but I am NOT writing those losses down til Monday. That's the official I lost ____.

EVERYONE is doing so well.




"The difference between try and triumph is just a little umph!" Marvin Phillips

So i am giving my WOE a little umph!!!

[Annabelle2u]

Crazy Mimi _ big hugs, I am sure we have all been there before, pick yourself up, dust your self off and continue on.


Everyone, saw a new low today of 281.6. sure it will hop up and down some more but 270s by Valentine's day is looking possible

[fleur]

Anne Marie, you are doing so well, that's great!

Either I'm crazy, or my waist is another 1/2" smaller this morning. I guess it is possible- the first day I meausured I'd just come off TOM. Anyway, sure that JUDDD is working well for me and delighted.

Pauline, you did well on catching yourself after the small slip. I count that as a great triumph. Yeahh!!!!

Mimi, what you ate was minimal compared to the damage you could have done. Hope you will follow Pauline's example and get back on the horse, so to speak. Beating yourself up about one slip won't help you in any way.

Leo, I am taking an online writing course with UCLA, and it is so fantastic. Now I just need to slow the rest of my schedule down enough so that I have more time for writing, as well as just general realaxing and "being".

I'm afraid I am not willing to cut anything I have planned for this weekend. This is my week to be a mad, mad social butterfly, after being cooped up in an awful job through the whole holiday season. Of course that means that I'll have to cope with another induction DD on a social outing again. I did great with it the first time.

Maryo, good going on the elliptical!! You might tempt me to try it, though I haven't even been on the floor of the gym that houses it, along with the yoga studio and walking track in ages. I have to count just getting into the pool for the first time in a month as a success. I'm planning on doing that again today. I need it for the stress relief from all this socializing and creative brainstorming, if nothing else, lol.

Chamie, good for you on sticking to your guns this time. Who says we have to make the same mistakes over and over?

Yes, a number of ladies haven't been around for a while. What about Micksgonpb, Sk8termom, Meg, Wild Irish Beth and Leslie (ok, Leslie hasn't been scarce for that long). Hope they are all doing well and will put in an appearance.

[Leo41]

Mimi- It's all part of the learning experience involved in any significant attempt at weight management. Please don't beat yourself up over a small slip. Just consider what you can do in the future to prevent a similar incident.

Studies show that 'experts' at anything actually just have had a lot of experiences that they've learned from, so that when they encounter a particular situation, they respond in terms of what they've learned from the past. Think of this as one of the 'learning experiences' that will help you become an 'expert' in weight management.

Fleur- Be sure to take time for that general relaxing and "being".

And I think this is good advice for everyone here with their busy lives and family responsibilities. We often 'screw up' because we're not giving ourselves enough attention.

[Maryo]

Congratulations Ann Marie! Gotta love virgin weight loss.

Mimi, don't beat yourself up. Just learn from the experience and move on. I actually think it's not a bad thing to have a small slip and hop right back on the wagon - it helps you get rid of that all or nothing mentality that has torpedoed many a weight loss effort.

Fleur, the elliptical is the easiest cardio machine I've ever used - I highly recommend it.

Well, I'm back to more cleaning. My daughter just told me that my room looks like an OCD person lives there. I must be on the right track.

[TaDa!]

I've had a good day although there is some teen drama going on, lol! and it will be a weekend of it as I deferred some of it til tomorrow ...

Leo .. Well, since I was obese for close on 38 years, and only normal bmi now for 7 years, I guess it could happen that what you call impulsive eating would go away over more time .. although if it has not happened yet as a matter of course, I'd be surprised if it happens anytime soon, lol! There were a few years there where I'd only binge-eat once a month during tom. I think when the life stress level kicks up a few notches as it has this fall/winter is when I am most at danger ... Maybe if I was closer to the beginning of maintenance I would be optimistic like you are, lol! The only thing I know is that I will never give in entirely to the binge mentality and be that person wallowing in it like I once was .. My impression is that - neither will you!!

Kajun That sounds very sensible! and I know most actual plans do a kickstart of sorts to get a person going .. and you'll have a found a way to do that yourself .. kinda cool! Keep up the good work Girl!

Oh Mimi I can so relate to your evening last night, in fact my "blip" the other night was a similar kinda thing with the schedule and night activities all wonky and I think I just went on "excess food" autopilot .. and then suddenly woke up .. like it sounds as if you did too! Back to business Girl! You should know that the scale will likely be up a few pounds tomorrow morning, not the morning following the eating. My advice is to just accept that half pound and stay off the scale, as you planned. It'll all be ok - Any weight gain from a single meal is absolutely caused by water and/or any bathroom issues you might get.

Congratulations Annabelle!!!!! You are doing so great!!!!!!! 270s here we come!!!!

Fleur Congratulations on losing some bloat from the waist!!! That is fabulous! Have a great weekend .. I am sure you will "ace" your social down day, seeing as you've been doing your homework on all this!

Maryo I hope your day went well!!! Cleaning .. ugh I gotta do that too, lol!!!

[Phranquie]

Hello all. I felt a bit "off" physically yesterday but did well with staying on plan and the same for today. Looking forward to a planned meal out this weekend, maybe Mediterranean. I have been busy packing up my office to move it my home. The hardest part is getting my BF to pack up some of his stuff for storage.

Cindy- Don't let the off plan eating derail you. It will happen. The biggest thing is to shake it off and learn from it and get back on plan. If you were going to cave at a burger place get a bunless burger, diet soft drink and maybe a small fries (I know I will hear shrieks from hardcore low carbers, but I'd rather have the carbs from fries than a bad fast food hamburger bun). Then the next day just work your plan to the letter. You'll have a jump in the scale but it won't last.

Fleur-Wow, the JUDD is really working for you with those inches flying off! Good luck on your DD out with friends, just be prepared and you'll be fine.

Chamie- Good luck on the scale in the morning. You'll probably have a good few pounds drop. It'll be next week where if you don't see the numbers you want don't freak out. There is always a slight pause in weight loss around the third week or so when you start LC.

Leo- I think you are right about remapping our brains a bit. I am hopeful that eventually with practice I'll be able to eat sensibly and to control my portion sizes and my impulses to overeat but I think I'll always have to have a planned and somewhat regimented diet.

AnneMarie- WTG on your new low.

Pauline- I do not envy you having to deal with teen drama!

[Crazy Mimi]

My 19 year old (as I'm told ADULT) decided to get a bus ticket from Dallas to here, without telling my sister or brother or sister in law who live up there. She told my sister she was going for a walk and did not come back. She is running away to the boyfriend that she believes is God's gift to girls. To me he is a loser who has no respect for the girld he loves parents....
So, once her bus arrives down here, I will let her know that we will always love her, we do not agree with her decisions. She can call us anytime, we will always be here for her. She is not to contact her ailing grandparents and cause them any stress or pain. She wants to be on her own and an adult, that's ok with us, but she has made her bed and now she has to lay on it. She knows our numbers, and we need hers to be able to reach her. Tell the idiot she wants to live with that this is my daughter and if he hurts her he will get to deal with the wrath of a mother scorned. And then walk away...

Needless to say - when I got home, I fell off the wagon. I binge ate. I finally woke out of it and handed my other daughter the binge food and told her to throw it out the window...

I know I am going to pay for it tomorrow. I need to find something to do to take my mind off of my daughter. I need something to do. I had a gals day movie planned and I am still going to go. I am also going to deep clean my bedroom.... Then when needed, I have a desk in the garage to refinish. I have a latch-hook to finish, books to read etc.

I will get back on course. I have to.

[Leo41]

TaDa-
If you're dealing with teens, I can fully understand the binge eating erupting more often. I didn't mean to imply that I expect my urges to eat impulsively to disappear (they seem to be part of my DNA:-) I'm just hoping that over time, I'll be able to stop them almost 'automatically.' We all have to dream

Frankie-You wrote:
to control my portion sizes and my impulses to overeat. . . I think I'll always have to have a planned and somewhat regimented diet.

This is exactly how I feel, and I think it's being realistic. Planning is key for me. Just as I'll plan what I'm going to wear the next day, I plan what I'll eat for the day. This way, I give 'food' as little attention as what I'm wearing--it's just a fact of my life that day, not something to dwell on or fantasize about.

Mimi- Considering the situation, you did great! You stopped the eating and threw out the binge foods. That's tremendous progress.

One of my younger sisters similarly got involved with a total 'loser' when she was 19. Fortunately, he dumped her before there was any real damage (e.g., pregnancy or marriage--or both). She was devastated, but the rest of us were relieved that she was out of a potentially awful relationship.

What I learned at that time is that it's impossible to tell anyone who thinks he/she is 'in love' that the object of affection is a loser. I'm sure you know this, and it's so very painful to see your child involved like this.

But you'll survive. Keep in mind that overeating won't solve anything--and will ultimately make you feel worse about everything. Staying on plan is your gift to yourself!

[TaDa!]

Hmf! Overate some last night - all lowcarb though - and had an overwhelming urge to start weighing myself this morning, lol!! I did not! Back to business and back to normal this morning

Phranquie Best of luck with the move and motivating the BF ... I hear you on that end! lol! I have to constantly trick my dh into doing things, lolol and it is a source of stress at times. Sometimes I realize that I focus too much on what he isn't doing and not enough on what I am not doing .. and when I get my act in gear and do my bit, his part seems that much smaller and he often gets self-motivated ...

Cindy I am so sorry you have to go through all this but at least dd will be closer to home (?) You are so right to keep the lines of communication open with her so that she knows she always has a place to go and mom and dad to come to if and when she decides that is what she needs to do. I think the hardest thing in life is seeing others make their own mistakes - but they have to, don't they?

Don't let the binge eating distress you on top of that. Back to business is all. When I am in major upset mode I do like you mention and come up with a big list of things to do and just go after them one by one to keep me busy. And of course you can come here and vent away too - we'll listen. Big big

Leo and Phranquie I agree with the need for regimented food for some of us (me !) - and giving food "as little thought as possible". It is a small price to pay to be at goal or near goal, or just smaller than we were - and I think that is where a lot of people fail at maintaining their weightloss .. it is a little "unfair" but we are special and that may be what we need to do to be there ..

After years of this, I do have a better sense of portion sizing I will say! I have gone on long-ish vacations maybe 8-10 times where I had to eat high carb food and did not have the luxury of a kitchen, etc and I have been able to eyeball and figure (and drink alcohol and not feel any sense of deprivation or dieting) and maintain despite the makeup of the actual food. In the past a portion would have been perhaps three times the size of what I actually ate .. a lot of times, my meal is an appetizer and side salad (because a lot of times the only vegetarian food is in the appetizer list, lol) and that would never have been adequate in the past .. for all my complaints of the changes that have *not* occurred in me during maintenance, I neglect the fact that there have been a lot of big big positive changes!!!

[Annabelle2u]

Originally Posted by Crazy Mimi

My 19 year old (as I'm told ADULT) decided to get a bus ticket from Dallas to here, without telling my sister or brother or sister in law who live up there. She told my sister she was going for a walk and did not come back. She is running away to the boyfriend that she believes is God's gift to girls. To me he is a loser who has no respect for the girld he loves parents....
So, once her bus arrives down here, I will let her know that we will always love her, we do not agree with her decisions. She can call us anytime, we will always be here for her. She is not to contact her ailing grandparents and cause them any stress or pain. She wants to be on her own and an adult, that's ok with us, but she has made her bed and now she has to lay on it. She knows our numbers, and we need hers to be able to reach her. Tell the idiot she wants to live with that this is my daughter and if he hurts her he will get to deal with the wrath of a mother scorned. And then walk away...

Needless to say - when I got home, I fell off the wagon. I binge ate. I finally woke out of it and handed my other daughter the binge food and told her to throw it out the window...

I know I am going to pay for it tomorrow. I need to find something to do to take my mind off of my daughter. I need something to do. I had a gals day movie planned and I am still going to go. I am also going to deep clean my bedroom.... Then when needed, I have a desk in the garage to refinish. I have a latch-hook to finish, books to read etc.

I will get back on course. I have to.

Huge hugs to you!

[Jennifer]

Going through a rough patch right now and have binged on about 10 lbs. Have to work on keeping food and emotions separate. I have come to one surprising realization, and that is that I like to binge. I'm happy when I binge I don't like how it makes me feel afterwards, but during is basically the only time I'm ever happy. Previously I would have sworn up and down that I hated to binge but I think I was trying to convince myself of that so maybe I would stop I don't even have any idea anymore, but now I know why any negative emotion = binge for me. And considering that my self-esteem is non-existent and I'm very depressed right now, basically everything is negative to me these days. So now that I've realized and admitted that I enjoy stuffing crazy amounts of junk into my mouth I'm going to work on breaking up with my friend binging, and allow myself to mourn the loss. I think the thought of not missing it was so wth to me, that it was actually a deterrent to stopping it.

[MaryMary]

Hi everyone, Although I haven't written in a few days, I read all your posts. I think of you all often and pray for us all as we struggle with our food addiction. It was a difficult week at work and am very happy that it is Saturday. I usually sleep late on Saturday to relieve some of the stress. For the first time since being in my job, I am thinking of changing assignments. It is hard to describe. How does one know when it is time to move on? I like the company I work for and the type of job. I like the clients I serve. I like my co-workers. I don't know who I can trust. I could easily pick up food to numb the feelings of fear and hopelessness. But so far I have stayed with the plan I write down in the morning. That is the one thing I can pat myself on the back for. I am at a loss for what to do. Am I being selfish? Just thinking of myself? It is hard for me to put myself in someone else's shoes - the whole empathy thing. That is, unless it has to do with the struggles we have here on this challenge. I feel as if I have had most of them - worrying about my children, especially. Now they are grown and my daughter is a blessing although when she was a teen, she was a challenge. I have ADD and tend to slip into other topics quite easily. Someone says starts a conversation at work, and something they say makes me think of something in my life that I relate to. I start changing the subject instead of focusing on the matter at hand. With my clients, I am focused. With personal things, it is much harder. Please say a prayer that it will all work out. Thank you.

[TaDa!]

I am so sorry Jennifer. You are soooooo not alone !!!!!!!

I am really glad though, to hear that you have come to some realizations that might help going forward .. I have found I have to just keep thinking all the time and working this crazy stuff out and it is not pleasant but it does help. You can do this!!!!