Taking Charge & Stickin With It

[TXLoser]

June - I think you have a good attitude about this. I rarely step on the scale anymore and go by my clothes. Honestly, I am having such a hard time right now it isn't even funny, and I feel like I am lost.

For the first time since I start this woe in Jan 04, I have the "why bother" attitude. I don't know where it is coming from, but I never felt like this before. During the day I am usually on plan, at night when I get home is my problem... While I don't blame DH, but he did bring some foods in the house I have gotten in to, he is usually good about it and since I have beeen lax in my eating he probably figured why not... He rarely grocery shops alone, but I am going to have to say something again.

At work everybody is doing a Biggest Loser challenge. I didn't join, mostly because it is so hard for me to lose, but I may try it secretly on my own, as if I was part of the group.

2 months till end of year, I would really like to be a loser. I am not looking at lbs lost, but my clothes feeling better on me...

[Dedivah]

[COLOR="DarkOrange"]TGIF to All!!

Believe it or not I am at work today.

MIL's surgery was Wednesday. MIL needed 24 hour supervision after the surgery so I was at home with her on Wednesday and DH stayed home on Thursday. He was no help to her! He satyed up all night the night before playing PS3 games online and slept all day. I did not get home until a couple minutes to 4pm. I open the door and there she is in the living room fumbling over a glass of water she spilled! He's in the bed sleeping!

The funeral was yesterday. We had a little rain but the day went by smoothly. Lots of family members we had not seen in awhile and some we did not know we had (dra-ma).

All the food was vegetarian. That was kind of tough for the stone cold carnivore that I am. But I made it through it. (veggies fish and veggie chicken )

Diane ~ Thank you for thinking of me. I was doing pretty good until I saw my mother crying. I hate to see her cry for any reason.

I know that those cookies are no good. I got rid of them. I sent them to school with DD. I just need to get my life back on track. It has been 2 1/2 weeks since I've been back from vacation, there is too much going on. I am totally disctracted.

You know I am a closet exerciser so it is hard for me to exercise with MIL in the house. I hate exercising with my own family in the house.

[COLOR="Red"]Can I please get my life back??? [/COLOR]

On the up side, DH has agreed to the Disney trip next year. We will be going August in the value season, just before school starts. So I have my something to look forward too.


Well it is the holiday season, AGAIN!! My goals is to loose 16 - 20 pounds by the end of the year. [/COLOR]

[JUNEBUG2]

Diane, your stats r very impressive. You have lost alot of weight and you should concentrate on that. Take a break and maintain. This is just one of the hardest things to do without getting discouraged. There is no way to keep on top when one is a slow loser. Maybe you could try the egg/protein woe for a few days. I started it Monday and as of this morning I lost 5 lbs. Not bad for 4 days. I will go bk to induction for a few days and when I feel like it I will do the egg/protein again. The second day I was not hungry and by the 3 day I really didn't even think about food. This is major for me because I am constantly thinking about food. Its a jump start and it did give me a start. Problem is, we r going to Halloween party/hayride tonite and I am going to have to rein in my eyes and desires because the food will be very tempting. What I made myself is bad........Just hang in there and know I am thinking about u......

[TXLoser]

Thanks June..I really appreciate it.
I am really feeling myself getting motivated again..and plan on putting 100% effort back into this.

Congrats on your loss so far on the egg/protein deal.. Try the best you can to stay away from the foods...divert your attention to the other activities. Sounds like a fun evening...I haven't done a hayride in years

Are you dressing up?

Oh yeah..on the egg/protein, did you add fats or eat fatty meats?

[Jazlyn]

Well my son hit the mother load on candy this year. I ate 4 pieces last night.

I made cookies for my daughter's friend who was having a birthday and didn't have one and then I blew it. Hoping to stay on track until Thanksgiving. I don't really like pumpkin pie and I can usually get by on turkey and veggies so I'm not too worried about it.

Congrats to the losers.

[JUNEBUG2]

Diane, mayo and cream was about the only fat I ate. Only meat I ate was chicken. Next time I do it I will up the fat. I am going to the doc Monday,to hve cholestrol checked, cardiogram, and ekg. I hope my cholestrol is down some.....I know the egg fast was really not the way to go this past week. I did eat alot of chicken, mayo doesn't have cholestrol I was not good with the food last nite , but I was not really bad either. I ate chilli but no crackers or corn bread. There was so much that I could have eaten that would have been worse but I chose the chilli. Monday I will begin the egg/protein again. We r going on vacation the 19th and I do not want to gain , actually hoping for a lb or 2 loss before we go Went as Dracula.....we had a great time...going to make it a yearly thing. Bonfire afterwards was the best. Lots of memory making. One thing I know for sure, weighing 273 is alot more fun than 338. I climbed on and off that wagon several time. Couple years ago, I wouldn't hve attempted it. At least I have long legs that helps too The wagon was beautiful, orange lights, hay bales, and corn stalks. Keep thinking positive thoughts Diane......you know how to do this. Its just one step at a time.

Jaz, ur ok today, no more candy. Last nite was special and your back on track today......right??????

We r having a poker (nickel anny) here tonite. Pizza party too. I feel ok with the food, because I have lots of chicken salad for me. I can hve the toppings on a salad if I choose. Water will be my choice of drink. Trying to flush the sodium loaded chilli I had last nite.

[TXLoser]

Jazlyn - You did better than me yesterday. This was the first Halloween since I started this woe that I caved... but it is over and done with and today I have a new plan

June - sounds like a FUN time and just think of all the running around you will be doing next year!!!!

I am 100% today back on track. I talked with DH last night about me getting back on track and asked for this help in the foods we bring in the house and taking "bites" of the bread when we go out to eat. So, one day at a time, but I feel like I am getting back into this.

[JUNEBUG2]

Ladies!!! I was so bad last nite but I am bk on track today. Thats all I am going to say!!!

Diane, lets not be guilty of what we ate. Just enjoy the memory of what we ate and get back on track today.

Hve a great day

[TXLoser]

I am so back on track....
I worked way too hard at this woe to gain it back..it WILL NOT happen.

I am getting a handle on it and going to make it work.

At one time I couldn't wait for Fall so I can hide under my sweats and overwise sweaters..now I vow to come out of the fall/winter smaller than what I am today.....

No if ands or butts..this is the way it MUST be.

Will I be perfect 100%...probably not because I am not perfect, but damn it I will try....

[Silver Spice]

Good steps in the right direction Diane. Congratulations

[Silver Spice]

I have not weighed in days. So I just got on the scale and it's only up 2 pounds, after two meals and fully clothed.. maybe I'm safe.

I am still trying to follow basic guidelines for my food plan, but have not been super careful other than staying away from the candy and cupcakes at work and school. I did have two of those tiny dumbdumb lollipops and that seemed to make my brain satisfied that I had a treat. For me alot of my weight issues is portion control, so I suppose that was a good choice. I have turned down several offers for snickers bars, pumpkin cupcakes and other things that I love, and so far feel good about my willpower.

It also was an extremely stressful week at school. We are mixed adult and highschool because our school is part of the public county school system. Well there is way too much drama and gossip there which always leads to trouble. Two girls who have been having issues with each other since August got into a fight. One young teenage (18?)girl was pregnant, the other an older student (32 or 33 years old). The older one has a record of trouble already and is a rough looking type. Well it started out with the older student hitting the younger one in the head. The younger fought back in defense and tried to pin the older one to the wall. Several other students tried to break it up, but the older one was on a rage and out of control. So everyone started yelling "Stop, stop, don't hit her... she's pregnant"....... after about 3 times of them yelling the pregnant girl also said, "Leave me alone, I"m pregnant!"...... and with that the older girl kicked the younger girl right in the tummy and took off running away.

The police and ambulance were called and we don't know what has happened since then. I"m sure it will be all the topic on Monday. Several younger students started some crap with me, too ... and reporting it does no good. Basically the administration just 'cleans house' of the whole thing even if you are innocent in a situation. So, I'm just trying not to eat from stress and trying to stay to myself as much as possible. Funny how THAT also causes people to start junk about you, ya know? Geesh... wish they would just grow up!

Then at work some gossip started and I was accused of stealing from the owner by faking sales % (I'm on commission).

I'm so ready for some comfort food. But I keep thinking how comforting it would be to be back in a size that doesn't start with a 2 or have an X in it!

[TXLoser]

Torri - Sounds like a lot of distractions at school...and seems like some of the older students aren't being very good role models...so sad because it sure takes away from why you are there Hope things get better

Got my foods ready for another week......

[Dedivah]

[COLOR="Red"]HAPPY[/COLOR] [COLOR="Navy"]ELECTION[/COLOR] [COLOR="Red"]DAY!!! [/COLOR]

[COLOR="Navy"]Good Morning, Ladies!!

I pray that everyone has gotten our or is going out to vote today!!

Even though we can not vote for the presidency we do have senatorial elections here in the Virgin Islands today. I got up early and my sister and I went out to vote. Every two years my sister and I make a date of it. We meet and go out to vote together.

A very good friend of mine is trying to get a seat in the senate this year. I am very nervous for him.

BL is in the office with week so that means I will be busy busy.


I've read the post and I must say I did not have any problems with Halloween candy. DD brought some home from school but it didn't bother me one bit. Candy isnot my problem it is cakes and cookies, chips, macaroni and cheese, hot dogs and hamburgers with the buns. THAT is my problem.

MIL is still here recovering, so my house is still the house that CARBS built but I am doing my best to not let it get to me.

Have a great day, Ladies!![/COLOR]

[Jazlyn]

Hi everyone,

I'm still hanging in there. No exercize and not enough water though. I figure once I get my food under control for a few days I can work on the other two. It seems so impossible to do all at once right away. excuses excuses

I hope everyone is doing well.

[TXLoser]

Jazlyn - I don't think those are excuses...because it is hard to do everything perfect at one time. I believe that once we tackle one area, then we start on another. just my opinion though. So I guess the question is what steps are you tacking to get your food in control so you can add another step to a healthier you?

Coleen - Kudos on staying away from the sweats..just do the best you can while MIL is there. How is your sister feeling?

I too haven't been exercising as much...I gotta work on that as well.

I have been having eggs for breakfast with coconut oil, but now I am tired of them...maybe because I haven't been adding cheese to them..never was a big egg fan anyway... I think next week I will have the ricotta pie for breakfast, not only do I love that but it fills me up. I am kind of scared to enter all that into fitday, but I think because I break it up in 4 meals it won't be so bad...maybe I will do it this weekend...but then.....

[Jazlyn]

This is going to sound like BS but I take pills at night that knock me out and sometimes I pig out without really being aware of it. My daughter made cookies last night and I vaguely remember eating some. (a lot probably) Then I had terrible stomach cramps.

This isn't the first time. I'm going to tell my husband he has to watch me.

I'm up a pound today.

[Jazlyn]

I am so sick of myself. We went to Idaho for a football game and spent the night. My eating was terrible. Ate too much, drank too much blah.

This is a new week.

[TXLoser]

Did you have fun?

Okay so you ate badly...what matters is what are you going to do about it today...will you continue on the same path or try to do better?

Make a committment to yourself Jazlyn...you KNOW you CAN do this...

[Jazlyn]

I had a lot of fun. Our team won the big sky championship.

I know I can do this but it's like I don't want it like I used to. I mean I want it, I just don't want to work for it. I need you to smack me, Diane.

[JUNEBUG2]

Jaz, we all hve to live. There are some that have hit this woe and never looked back. They have my utmost respect. Then there r some like us that roller coaster all thru the process. I think as long as we keep getting back on track and trying again and again we will eventually be successful. My goal now is to maintain during my special times that I break and eat things I should not eat. Guess I have just decided to give myself permission to eat carbs when I want to and to maintain as much as possible. I will not beat myself up again. I have an eating problem and its not going to go away. I am going to lose weight but I am not going to punish myself any longer. The trick now is to not gain when i eat. Quit beating yourself up........just stay on plan as much as u can.

[TXLoser]

June

Jazlyn - I can smack ya upside the head and kick your rear in gear, but at the end of the day we each make our decisions on what we put in our mouth. You know what it takes to lose, because you have done it and you will do it again. I know ya want it, if you didn't you wouldn't be around.

What I am learning is that I rely too much on other people..I guess accountability to another helps me, but I don't have that anymore and in real life I have enablers and I am no longer strong enough to say no..oh sometimes I am, other times not so much. But it is my decision on what I eat so I have only myself to blame.

My thinking is along with June's..I have been bouncing for so long it is the same old story...even why I try, I don't make progress and maybe this is as good as it gets. Of course I would still like to lose, and I am not happy or content with where I am now, but I no longer beat myself up.

I had Red Lobster biscuits the other day...prior times I was able to tell the server right away NO BISCUITS, and I debated with myself this time for a while whether to do it this time or not, the evil won and I ate them....but that was Sunday and today is a new day...I know it will take me longer to get to "goal" whatever that is.

For me, I am now getting back on the scale weekly to track my progress, or lack thereof..only to keep myself in check. I have gained too much and my clothes are uncomfortable and that does not make me happy...so finally getting on the scale I can start keeping accountable to that. I have really gotten lazy these past 6 months but I am finally to the point enough is enough.

So as my rambling continues, all I can suggest is you ask yourself what are you going to do today to keep on track? Are you planning foods? Are you being prepared? Are you making mini goals with non-food rewards? Are you evaluating your plan..is lc right for you or is a plan with more choices, ilke SB better? Heck some lose by cutting portions, although I suspect you still don't eat enough foods... Go back and find your posts on when you were losing and how good you were feeling. Are you ready to start taking care of YOU and putting yourself first for a change? I know I am....

[TXLoser]

Originally Posted by TXLoser

Did you have fun?

Originally Posted by Jazlyn

I had a lot of fun. Our team won the big sky championship.

Congrats..
I asked you if you had fun, because I wanted to know, but I also think it is more important that (a) you went and (b) you had FUN!!!

[serty12]

I'm not all that sure

[JUNEBUG2]

Chicken for breakfast with coffee and cream. Bacon for lunch with coffee and cream. 2.5 hr in pool exercising.......I hve been really bad about not exercising and today I began again.....I will try to low carb tonite.

[TXLoser]

GOOD JOB JUNE!!
Just bacon for lunch?

I made a lc broccoli cheese soup yesterday...YUMMY and filling!!

[Jazlyn]

I'm making a chicken casserole for my family so I held some chicken out so I could put it on a salad. I'm trying.

[JUNEBUG2]

Diane, I made a egg/coffee creme about hour after the bacon. Had pork loin for dinner and walnuts for evening snack. Was pleased with my self because I limited the nuts to 1 oz. Really good for me. The broccoli and cheese soup sounds wonderful. I may give that a try.

Jaz, your trying and that is the beginning of success

[TXLoser]

Originally Posted by Jazlyn

I'm trying.

Originally Posted by JUNEBUG2

Jaz, your trying and that is the beginning of success

DITTO...
Good job Jazlyn...as long as you keep trying that is what matters

June - Good job measuring out the nuts...

I got tired of eggs for breakfast..at least nuking them..maybe it was because I wasn't adding extras like chicken and cheese so this week I am having that ricotta pie for breakfast with Italian sausage.

[Jazlyn]

Today is my husband's birthday and we are going to my inlaws for dinner. Hopefully she will cook something I can have.

Hang in there everyone.

[JUNEBUG2]

Diane, the pie sounds wonderful