Susin's Story of a skinny girl trapped in a big girls body

Finally Doing It · 01-23-2008, 03:58 PM

Hi everyone! Just wanted to introduce myself. My name is Susin. I originally started on a low carb journey with Protein Power and while that worked pretty good I knew I needed more of an intense program so I switched over to Atkins. This was back in like 2000. Around that time I don't recall my exact weight but it was in the 220-230 range. I did great and lost a bunch of weight and was feeling amazing. My clothes were loose I was sleeping good, my heart burn/acid reflux was all but gone and I felt better than I had in a long time. Unfortunately I'm very easily swayed by others doubt and I gave up Atkins. Then I became pregnant in early 2002 and my starting weight then was 239. I tried to stay on a maintenance level so I wasn't losing but I wasn't gaining over what I should either. I was diagnosed with gestational diabetes and was sent to the diabetic nutrition counselor. Almost got into a shouting match with her because the diet she gave me was full of carbs and overly sugar like foods and next to no proteins or fats of any kind. I explained that I was doing Atkins and you'd swear I just ran over her puppy. So I relented and did their stupid (yes it was stupid) diet for 2 weeks and my blood sugar was out of control. So I said screw them and went back to my modified Atkins and my sugar was miraculously (insert MASSIVE sarcasm here) controlled again. No meds or needles for me! Anyway when I had my baby I fell into a very deep depression. I didn't realize I was post-partum at the time but it was bad.

1 week after leaving the hospital I was 10 pounds from my start weight and since I was nursing I didn't gain a pound which made me elated. Then the depression kicked in and I was eating everything and anything and sure enough even with nursing all my pregnancy weight plus some came back. I stopped nursing after 7 months and then the weight piled on. I weighed myself this past October and saw the scale hit 300 for the first time. I wanted to crawl in a hole and die. And yet I still couldn't find the motivation I needed. I'd talk about re-starting low carb and never follow through. Cookies would taunt me, chips and dip would beg me to eat them and I'd fold like a house of cards and then beat myself up later. It was a viscious cycle and I was spiraling downward.

I've been having horrible thoughts of dying of some fat related issue and leaving my son motherless. I also thought how I'd need an extra large coffin and ever other ridiculous thought under the sun. But more importantly I knew I had to get healthy for my little boy. We'd also like to have another baby but I need to get MUCH healthier for that to happen.

Fast forward to Christmas. I'd had enough. I got on the scale and kept telling myself I would weigh close to 400. I was at 318. Not 400 but bad enough that I wanted to crawl in a hole and never come out. But something was different, I felt drive and motivation. It took me about a week into the new year to get off my tush but I officially started Atkins again on January 6th. As of today January 23rd I'm 298, down 20 pounds. I'm BEYOND ecstatic. Things are finally clicking for me and I'm amazed at how little I now want those evil cookies, cakes and candies. I have not cheated once and even had to make chocolate chip cookes for something and didn't put once bit in my mouth and sent the extras with my husband to work the following day. Seeing I actually DO have willpower has motivated me beyond belief.

So that's me in a nutshell, I also have a blog I've started if anyone is interested, it's in my profile.

I look forward to talking with all of you!

**Lola** · 01-23-2008, 04:05 PM

Welcome Susin. You are doing great.

TXLoser · 01-23-2008, 04:10 PM

Susin...
Glad to have you here.

Kudos to not cheating on those cookies...I am not sure I would have been that strong

Also, here is a link to Linda Sue's site. LOTS of great recipes and plenty marked Induction Friendly
Linda's Low Carb Menus & Recipes - Home

ValerieisGoing4it · 01-23-2008, 04:14 PM

Hi, Susin!

I'm new here myself and your story sounds alot like mine! With the starting and restarting and such. But for some reason, this time I've got alot of willpower and motivation to keep going. I'm so excited! So just wanted to say hi and let you know your not alone in this. We're gonna do it this time for good!!!

Finally Doing It · 01-23-2008, 04:41 PM

Awww thanks everyone!!!! It's nice to know there's a place like this to come and get support. For some reason my extended family (sister/Mom) are not at all supportive on this plan. They keep thinking bacon and eggs it's not healthy blah blah blah. But I'm NOT going to let that get me again!

And on the cookies, I'm telling you that was my crowning moment. I had those break and bake cookies but wanted them to look homemade (LOL yeah I know I'm lazy) and so I was balling them up and squishing them on the pan. Normally out of that 24 pack I would have seriously eaten about 10 balls of dough but not once smidge went in my mouth. It was hard as heck but after doing it I felt even MORE empowered. Not that I want to test myself again like that, but it's good to know I can look back on that and think NO other temptation could be worse than that and I lived through it!

TaDa! · 01-23-2008, 05:37 PM

Susin!!!!!! Congratulations on your wonderful New Year start!!!! 20 lbs is amazing and how wonderful to make it back to the 200s!!!!!!

Pauline

Pcola Girl · 01-25-2008, 12:44 PM

Hi Susin.........We are all here for you.

trishthedish · 01-25-2008, 12:50 PM

01-23-2008, 03:58 PM	#1
Finally Doing It Junior LCF Member Join Date: Jan 2008 Posts: 34 Gallery: Finally Doing It Stats: 318/277/160 New Mini Goal - 31 pounds by June 30 WOE: Atkins-ish Start Date: January 6, 2008	Susin's Story of a skinny girl trapped in a big girls body Hi everyone! Just wanted to introduce myself. My name is Susin. I originally started on a low carb journey with Protein Power and while that worked pretty good I knew I needed more of an intense program so I switched over to Atkins. This was back in like 2000. Around that time I don't recall my exact weight but it was in the 220-230 range. I did great and lost a bunch of weight and was feeling amazing. My clothes were loose I was sleeping good, my heart burn/acid reflux was all but gone and I felt better than I had in a long time. Unfortunately I'm very easily swayed by others doubt and I gave up Atkins. Then I became pregnant in early 2002 and my starting weight then was 239. I tried to stay on a maintenance level so I wasn't losing but I wasn't gaining over what I should either. I was diagnosed with gestational diabetes and was sent to the diabetic nutrition counselor. Almost got into a shouting match with her because the diet she gave me was full of carbs and overly sugar like foods and next to no proteins or fats of any kind. I explained that I was doing Atkins and you'd swear I just ran over her puppy. So I relented and did their stupid (yes it was stupid) diet for 2 weeks and my blood sugar was out of control. So I said screw them and went back to my modified Atkins and my sugar was miraculously (insert MASSIVE sarcasm here) controlled again. No meds or needles for me! Anyway when I had my baby I fell into a very deep depression. I didn't realize I was post-partum at the time but it was bad. 1 week after leaving the hospital I was 10 pounds from my start weight and since I was nursing I didn't gain a pound which made me elated. Then the depression kicked in and I was eating everything and anything and sure enough even with nursing all my pregnancy weight plus some came back. I stopped nursing after 7 months and then the weight piled on. I weighed myself this past October and saw the scale hit 300 for the first time. I wanted to crawl in a hole and die. And yet I still couldn't find the motivation I needed. I'd talk about re-starting low carb and never follow through. Cookies would taunt me, chips and dip would beg me to eat them and I'd fold like a house of cards and then beat myself up later. It was a viscious cycle and I was spiraling downward. I've been having horrible thoughts of dying of some fat related issue and leaving my son motherless. I also thought how I'd need an extra large coffin and ever other ridiculous thought under the sun. But more importantly I knew I had to get healthy for my little boy. We'd also like to have another baby but I need to get MUCH healthier for that to happen. Fast forward to Christmas. I'd had enough. I got on the scale and kept telling myself I would weigh close to 400. I was at 318. Not 400 but bad enough that I wanted to crawl in a hole and never come out. But something was different, I felt drive and motivation. It took me about a week into the new year to get off my tush but I officially started Atkins again on January 6th. As of today January 23rd I'm 298, down 20 pounds. I'm BEYOND ecstatic. Things are finally clicking for me and I'm amazed at how little I now want those evil cookies, cakes and candies. I have not cheated once and even had to make chocolate chip cookes for something and didn't put once bit in my mouth and sent the extras with my husband to work the following day. Seeing I actually DO have willpower has motivated me beyond belief. So that's me in a nutshell, I also have a blog I've started if anyone is interested, it's in my profile. I look forward to talking with all of you! __________________ Susin Mini goal 280 by 4/1/08 (ACHIEVED!!!)

01-23-2008, 04:10 PM	#3
TXLoser Way too much time on my hands! Join Date: Jul 2004 Posts: 12,739 Gallery: TXLoser Stats: 354/244 WOE: LC Start Date: January 2004	Susin... Glad to have you here. Kudos to not cheating on those cookies...I am not sure I would have been that strong Also, here is a link to Linda Sue's site. LOTS of great recipes and plenty marked Induction Friendly Linda's Low Carb Menus & Recipes - Home Last edited by TXLoser; 01-23-2008 at 04:12 PM..

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01-23-2008, 04:05 PM	#2
Lola MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Nov 2007 Posts: 1,321 Gallery: Lola Stats: 380-322-160 (#58 gone) WOE: F-Factor	Welcome Susin. You are doing great.

01-23-2008, 04:14 PM	#4
ValerieisGoing4it Senior LCF Member Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: South Carolina Posts: 110 Gallery: ValerieisGoing4it Stats: 336/284/199 WOE: Lo Carb Mostly below 20 gram/day Start Date: January 1, 2008	Hi, Susin! I'm new here myself and your story sounds alot like mine! With the starting and restarting and such. But for some reason, this time I've got alot of willpower and motivation to keep going. I'm so excited! So just wanted to say hi and let you know your not alone in this. We're gonna do it this time for good!!!

01-23-2008, 04:41 PM	#5
Finally Doing It Junior LCF Member Join Date: Jan 2008 Posts: 34 Gallery: Finally Doing It Stats: 318/277/160 New Mini Goal - 31 pounds by June 30 WOE: Atkins-ish Start Date: January 6, 2008	Awww thanks everyone!!!! It's nice to know there's a place like this to come and get support. For some reason my extended family (sister/Mom) are not at all supportive on this plan. They keep thinking bacon and eggs it's not healthy blah blah blah. But I'm NOT going to let that get me again! And on the cookies, I'm telling you that was my crowning moment. I had those break and bake cookies but wanted them to look homemade (LOL yeah I know I'm lazy) and so I was balling them up and squishing them on the pan. Normally out of that 24 pack I would have seriously eaten about 10 balls of dough but not once smidge went in my mouth. It was hard as heck but after doing it I felt even MORE empowered. Not that I want to test myself again like that, but it's good to know I can look back on that and think NO other temptation could be worse than that and I lived through it!

01-23-2008, 05:37 PM	#6
TaDa! Way too much time on my hands! Join Date: Jun 2003 Posts: 10,150 Gallery: TaDa! Stats: 236.5/goal/128-133 & 5'3" tall WOE: Atkins (Vegetarian + Fish) Start Date: 6/03 & Goal! 5/06	Susin!!!!!! Congratulations on your wonderful New Year start!!!! 20 lbs is amazing and how wonderful to make it back to the 200s!!!!!! Pauline

01-25-2008, 12:44 PM	#7
Pcola Girl Very Gabby LCF Member!!! Join Date: Dec 2005 Location: P'Cola, Florida Posts: 3,958 Gallery: Pcola Girl Stats: Start-325 Today-225 Goal 160 WOE: Atkins Start Date: Sarted Nov. 2000---Restarted New January 2008	Hi Susin.........We are all here for you.

01-25-2008, 12:50 PM	#8
trishthedish Very Gabby LCF Member!!! Join Date: Oct 2002 Posts: 3,063 Gallery: trishthedish WOE: Healthy LC