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[spydersong]

Starting a new thread since we'd hit 5 pages on the other

and also cause Maw reminded me LOL

Great job on getting to the gym today Maw

[spydersong]

Deb - Walk away the Pounds - pretty decent walking program that's done in your house. I have the 1, 2 & 3 mile tapes. Too bad I don't have 2 vcr's or I'd dupe them

[dvanbeus]

Hi everyone...

I'm wondering how all of you would feel about unofficially merging with another team? We would all still report our stats seperately as our original teams, but might benefit from some added support. Don't get me wrong, our team is great as is, but I've always found the more people you have in your support cicle, the greater your chance of success.

We will only do this if EVERYONE on both teams agrees. I'm just hoping to tone down the feeling of teams being 'against' each other, and promote the idea that we are all 'supporting and helping' each other towards our goal with the competition aspect being a fun little side factor.

Let me know your thoughts!
Debbie

[dvanbeus]

My DH checked online and found out that our library has the 1, 2, 3, and 4 mile WATP tapes! We've got them on hold, so within a couple of weeks I should get the first ones and be able to check them out. They also have 5 or 6 other WATP tapes but I figured I would focus on the basics first. The funny thing is that it looks like I will be getting the 4 mile tape first, followed by the 3 mile, 2mile, and 1 mile! I dunno, this all just sounds a bit backwards to me! Well, I just wanted to share that little bit of excitement with you! Isn't it funny how I can get excited over the smallest little things??? Oh, my mom also found some of my aerobics tapes from when I was in highschool... I think I got more excercise from laughing at the outfits and hairdo's (think 80's) than from the tapes themselves! You know, it really is EXTREAMLY HARD to move and laugh at the same time!

[simplemaw]

Deb, I'd like to let the fur settle before we make any changes, and also to be sure that the support isn't anti anyone else.

Dawn, I wish you'd stick it out for at least a little bit longer. Maybe the fuss is over and we can all get back to working on our own programs and supporting each other's programs. Let's hope that this has just been growing pains and that things will move forward more smoothly.

Deb, why don't you come and visit me, whip and all? I've got the windows and door open to let in the nice fresh air! Actually, it's only about 60, a bit chilly to have the doors and windows open, but I do like the fresh air.

No wonder I can't find my post! I tried to post it just as Cheri locked the thread to clean it up. Let's see if I can remember what wonderful words of wisdom and cheer I came up with....

Katie, why don't you come out with Deb and you can teach me to do makeup? Shucks, let's have a party and everyone can come! I've never worn much makeup, and now I don't remember how to do it. My cousin sells Mary Kay and she did everyone's makeup at the family reunion in Tulsa last fall. She was a bit heavyhanded with the stuff, and only had a limited number of choices. About the emotions...these past couple of days have been tough on us all. Give yourself time to get back in balance again. Has the hunk been back to Kung Fu? Getting you through the times when you aren't motivated yourself is what we're here for! So hang in there with us, my friend!

Oh, Dawn, don't I understand the right clothes/wrong season, wrong clothes/right season problem! So, about the exercising. Tuesday is a weights day for me. So how about if we get together tomorrow (Tuesday) evening and compare notes on how we did with weights? Note that I did not say if we did weights, but how we did. Get the difference? So, I'm expecting to hear from you Tuesday night, or Wednesday morning at the latest. (harrass, harrass, harrass!)

Thanks for letting us know that you probably won't be posting on the weekends, Crystal. I worry when I don't hear from people, because I know that for me it usually means that I'm not doing well. How about everyone drop in at least once every day, even if it's just to say hi? Or, if you can't get in because you'll be out of town or dh is home or whatever, let us know ahead of time so we don't worry about you. Of course, this won't help those situations when the computer breaks...

Deb, I started with the WATP tapes when I got back to exercising. As I recall, I couldn't finish the 1 mile tape, even without doing the arm exercises. And now look at me!

So, who's going to be responsible for getting me to the gym tomorrow? I guess that's you, Crystal, so we can compare notes on the weights!

Have a great day everyone!

maw

[dvanbeus]

Hey Maw! I'll push your butt out the door and to the gym on Wednesday... okay? You know... I bet somone someplace has an emoticon smily with a whip...

Debbie

[simplemaw]

Your on, Deb! Thanks!

maw

[lowcarb0rbustmypants]

Sorry I had to do it.

snuck in......and sneakin out!

[dvanbeus]

Thanks Shawna! I knew there had to be one somewhere!

Debbie

[dvanbeus]

Hi All! Just thought I would share with you some of the 'fun' I've been dealing with here weather wise over the past 24 hours!







And yes, that last picture does show a person trying to dig out their car!

[spydersong]

Holy Cow Batman!

Thats just crazy.... wow

[AsmallerME]

Just popping my head in here b/c I'm bored at my thread - no one is posting today. Is that the snow in canada right now? Wow. I'm practically still in shorts down here in Fla. In some ways I'm jealous of all you people with the snow and some ways I'm sooooo happy to be warm.

Hope you all have a great night!

Amber

[spydersong]

Hi Amber,

We seem to be pretty quiet today also lol

[dvanbeus]

Hey Amber, any time you want to house swap for a few weeks in the winter I'd be up for it! You could do some downhill skiing and make snowmen, while I could finally get warmed up again. It was -11F here today. Brrr...

[dvanbeus]

You know you guys... I've decided that I can't afford to do this challenge... financially, mentally, or emotionally. I've been toying with the idea of quitting for a few days now and have wavered back and forth, but something happened tonight that made it conclusive. You see, I'm a self abuser... by that I mean that when I get really upset about something I cut or hurt myself in ways many people don't understand. Tonight I caught myself punishing myself in one of these very self destructive manners. Logically I know that I didn't say anything wrong, but internally I am blaming myself for everything that has gone wrong in the entire challenge. Weird behaviour, huh? It just doesn't make sense, but when things don't go as planned I take all the blame on my shoulders.

[lowcarb0rbustmypants]

Debbie,

You have a pm chica!

[dvanbeus]

Maw: BTW, just because I am leaving the challenge doesn't mean I won't be here on Wednesday to whip your butt to the gym! You won't get off that easily!

[spydersong]

having troubles....I"m just trying to work it all out, and here instead of in my head

It's so much easier to post when your staying on plan.

Yesterday I went off plan in a BIG way...Pizza and Ben & Jerrys and not in small portions either. The hard part is completely mental. I'm posting this cause I * know* that I need the support and an azzkicking, but at the same time I don't want the support, I don't want the azzkicking, I don't want to care, I don't want to admit that I am struggling.

I'm feeling like a complete failure today and not just related to food/weight. Do you ever feel like you are a fraud in your life, that all the 'good stuff' you have is just some fluke. Mentally I know that I have worked hard to get what I have and it has been earned, but I seem to feel quite frequently that I'm just waiting for someone to look a bit deeper and realize I'm a fraud. I'm unhappy in my current job, but I KNOW that if I can just hang on for another few weeks it's going to change because I'll be getting back in the classroom and teaching instead of the development work i'm doing now...

As an overall i'm just disgusted with myself. I know I have the power to achieve the weight loss...in reality it's probably the easiest thing for me to contol but...(put any and all excuses here)

my brain just shut down, so I'll end my rambling here

[dvanbeus]

Katie

Yeah, I'm a fraud in my life too... in too many ways to describe. I hope you can bounce back but I can't offer anything supportive today without just being a downer.

[simplemaw]

Hang in there, Katie! I think we've all felt like that. I sure have. I still do, a lot of the time. That's why I'm so resistant to doing the applications for graduate school. What if I'm not accepted? Forget the fact that I have a masters degree already and 2-1/2 years towards a PhD (which I decided I didn't want). As you say, those were flukes, and the schools are probably smarter now.

I also understand needing help, and knowing I need help, and pushing it away. That's why I've asked everyone to post here at least once a day, so I don't have to worry about you.

You know what you need to do - hang in there and let people in to help you - or at least to hold on to you so you don't slip off completely. These bad feelings will pass eventually, and sooner rather than later if don't give up



maw

[simplemaw]

To get back to Deb's leaving...

You know that the most important thing is for you to take care of yourself, Deb. And if that means quitting the challenge, then I'm all in favor of it.

We tossed around the possibility of keeping our group together away from the challenge. How do you all feel about that? We've got a great group here, and a lot of momentum built up, and I don't want to lose that. And I don't want to lose you four, either.

I plan to stick with the challenge myself. I like the idea of a big group of people. Not that I'm very much into the challenge aspect of it - I don't care whether I'm in first place or last place. There's something about keeping myself accountable to the big group that appeals to me. But that doesn't mean that I'm not willing to do a separate off-the-challenge group with you.

Take care of yourself, Deb! And I sure hope you can get out of the house more. That's got to help!



maw

[dvanbeus]

I'm still on the Sierra thread, at least for now I am...

All this stuff is getting too hard. I haven't gotten any more nasty PM's from anyone in about 24hours, but now I am getting e-mails from people 'on behalf of...'. I don't know if they are doing this on their own initiative or have been instructed to do so. I don't know if someone has gotten it in their head that I caused all of this and is spreading rumours. Maybe I am just the unfortunate scapegoat. I'm not pointing fingers, I JUST WANT IT TO STOP SO I CAN GO ON WITH MY LIFE! I've REALLY been trying to stay calm but after awhile it just wears at your nerves.

As I have said several times now... a site that once was safe and supportive now has me wanting to run and hide.

[spydersong]

Unless you know the name of the person sending the email..then don't even waste your time reading them. Just hit delete and let it go.

[dvanbeus]

Yeah, I did that... I kinda went on a bit of a rampage and deleted everything this afternoon... private messages, e-mails, even my online identity and pictures. It was rather scary... poor Cheri PM'ed me in the middle of all this and I think I almost bit her head off (I can't remember though since I deleted everything). Now Cheri asked me for the e-mails I mentioned and I don't have them... I have to check with DH if maybe he has a copy retained on his server, but I think I have things come in directly from my provider... Arg! I don't know... I'm not techie minded like the rest of ya!

[simplemaw]

Let's hope that you don't have any more examples to show her, Deb!

Katie, I like your new picture! You look great!

Crystal, I'm still waiting to hear how your day on weights went! (Is there a smilie for tapping one's foot impatiently?) I did my session at the gym today. It was a weights day, so I did 20 minutes on the recumbant bike, some stretching (but the mats were full so I didn't do the mat exercises), 10 minutes on the elliptical (which is getting easier on my heart, but that means I go faster so the rest of me is getting worn out!), then two sets of 10 reps each on the weight equipment. I'm very pleased with my progress on the weights. Well, on all the equipment, actually, but I'm talking about the weights at the moment. I started on about January 6 doing 10 reps on each machine. I did that for about a week, then went to 15 reps on each machine. Did that for a couple of weeks (a total of about 3 days, I think), and now I'm up to two sets of 10 reps. Next week I'm aiming for one set of 10 reps and one set of 15 reps, and the following week two sets of 15 reps each. Then I'll think about putting the weights in the machines! I am at really close to the lowest weight (actually at the lowest weight in some cases) on all of the machines. I decided to build up reps and then start working on building up the weight.

Deb, it's your day to crack the whip tomorrow. Watch out, everyone! So who's going to take Friday?

Katie and Deb, I hope you're both feeling better.

Crystal, where are you?

Dawn, I miss you!

Oh, my results for the day. 80 minutes of exercise (just 56 more minutes and I'll be through for the month! ), 224 oz of water, 34 net carbs (yogurt again today), and the scale is still stuck.

Have a great day everyone!

maw

[DoingItMyWay]

Originally posted by dvanbeus
I'm still on the Sierra thread, at least for now I am...

All this stuff is getting too hard. I haven't gotten any more nasty PM's from anyone in about 24hours, but now I am getting e-mails from people 'on behalf of...'. I don't know if they are doing this on their own initiative or have been instructed to do so. I don't know if someone has gotten it in their head that I caused all of this and is spreading rumours. Maybe I am just the unfortunate scapegoat. I'm not pointing fingers, I JUST WANT IT TO STOP SO I CAN GO ON WITH MY LIFE! I've REALLY been trying to stay calm but after awhile it just wears at your nerves.

As I have said several times now... a site that once was safe and supportive now has me wanting to run and hide.

For the time being, why don't you turn off the email and PM option in your profile. A definately do as someone else suggested, if you get something from an unknown person, just delete.

There is a quote someone once told me that I always try to keep in mind...
"It is none of your business what someone else thinks" It sounds a little weird but think about it.

Take care of yourself. Do what you need to do.
-K.

[dvanbeus]

Okay Maw! It's Wednesday already, and here I am to gently shove you out the door and in the direction of the gym! You are going to do weights again today, right?

I'll be waiting to here what you accomplished!

[dvanbeus]

Oops... just saw that you don't do weights two days in a row... hope you enjoy your cardio workout! I'm heading out for a walk/jog today myself... I'm discovering the benefits of excercise in stress relief! So, I promise to get in a good hours walk today, and if I don't one of you will have to kick me!