Hmm well someone actually took the time to send me an e-mail so I'll post. I'm a bit tipsy right now, since I'm drinking from a bit of self pity. Don't worry, I don't make it a habit. It's quite rare that I do it.

This morning I was 263.5. Yes it's a loss, but not a legitimate one. I've been sleeping a lot and not eating much lately, but I have tried to keep the sweets to a minimum and am trying to get a salad a day in.

I did FitDay one day, that was it. I am simply going to have to find another way to lose, I am absolutely NOT the type to track myself daily, it's...

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I've been on a horrible binge for the past few days, not to mention I've not gone strictly low carb in quite some time.
I let myself get really de-railed the past couple of days specifically- DAMN YOU, LoftHouse Cookies!
But today I am getting back on track. I put my breakfast in Fitday. My goal is to make TODAY a low-carb day and track everything. Hopefully I will do that tomorrow as well, but if not, well my goal is just for today. Tomorrow will take care of itself.
I weighed myself last night after I got home from work, knowing I would be at my highest. I wanted to see...

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Thanks you guys for being so supportive!

I think it was Kami who posted about "The Works" I will have to look for that.
I've done quite a bit of spiritual searching in my time, but not much lately. I've settled on a Shamanistic/Buddhist bent, but have felt so out of touch spiritually for so long. I know when I am more in tune with Nature I don't seek so much on the physical plane, and it all falls into perspective.

In the past few months I've had two friends really really push me to look deeper inside myself to see what I want to do for a living....

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I am SO FRUSTRATED with myself.

Seems my whole life I've had people around me telling me how smart I am- so why do I feel like such a waste?

I'm 39 now. Unemployed since October. Well, I have a part time minimum wage cashier job right now, but I don't consider that anything real.

I feel like such a waste of flesh and life. I'm still trying to find my purpose, or something I can thrive on, or create!

I'm a decent writer, I love to take pictures. I love to work out and I'm into the science of nutrition- BUT- how often do I write? You see...

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Very tired tonight. Absolutely **** day at work tonight.

I worked out today and yesterday and have that good-achey feeling from lifting weights.

was 265.5 today on the scale- lowest so far. Yayy

Thanks for all the comments everyone, makes me feel good to know ppl are reading.

I will try to be more wordy in my next post. *yawns*

Mmm- note- I wanted to blog a bit about why I chose the screen name I did.

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