You can't out train a bad diet and....

....Organic Brown Rice Syrup is still sugar!

Two valuable lessons I have learned the last 2 days.

I was very sick yesterday and over ate for energy and to help my ailing stomach. That guilt (although I was sure I didn't feel guilty because it wasn't a binge and it was ll healthy, good for me food) must have carried over into today because today I overate w/ a vengeance.

Still it wasn't Domino's or a Ben and Jerry's 2 pint run, but I'm pretty sure I will see a gain this week.

You can't out train a bad diet.....meaning I felt the effects of yesterdays overeating for energy experiment and I felt slowed, tired, beaten up and I didn't workout w/ the same energy, intensity and fervor.

....Organic Brown Rice Syrup is still sugar! Meaning that 1 Cliff bar is too many and a thousand is not enough. Just because you buy your junk food at a health food store doesn't make it any less junky! Sugar is sugar and it's a trigger for me.

I always have an emergency energy bar in my car (Lara Bar, Hemp Bar, Greens Plus Energy Bar) because I have blood sugar problems. They have never bothered me or triggered a binge before. I suppose that's because the aforementioned energy bars did not have SUGAR in them! LOL

So when I bought a bunch of Cliff Bars this week because they were on sale I didn't think they would bother me, they were after all still in the health food family and they were not a trigger like Luna Bars are.

WRONG!!!!!!

They were 10/10 dollars and I only have 2 left.

Lesson Learned, no more junky, sweet food w/ brown rice syrup or evaporated cane juice. Sugar by any other name is just as sweet.

I wonder if this was sabotage because I am (or possibly was) back in the 150's. I have gained 28 pounds since leaving my ex last March. Maybe as I was starting to feel better about my self and more attractive I got scared.

I know in the past that I used weight as a means of protecting myself from the unwanted advances of men. I used both excessive weight and the absence of weight/curves (anorexia) to detract from my desirability.

Some things to consider as I really don't want to get involved w/ anyone at this time and my health problems make me even more leary of getting back in the game. Especially after getting screwed over by someone I really cared about 2 weeks ago.

Yes, I know...I have issues. LOL That's why I blog to work through my issues silly!