Health Blog (OR whatever cheesey, cliche`name for a weight loss blog that you like)

So, er yeah. This is my blog.



Hi *waves*

My name is Vi and I am an alcoholic....(oooooops wrong meeting), I mean a food-aholic, actually that isn't true either, I am a junk food-a-holic!

No, seriously...I am.

If I had only healthy food in the house and didn't binge on Domino's Pizza, ice cream, cake and cookies, I would probably be skinny! Well, maybe not skinny cause I am 39 and my metabolism ain't what it used to be,...buttttttttttttt (and yes, I have a big one of those these days :P ) I would not be THIS LARGE. (Lemme put it that way).

and yes, I am LARGE (Large Marge springs to mind from the Movie PeeWee's Big Adventure). I can't say I have ever been this large. I finally looked at myself in the mirror today and I am pretty shocked at what I saw. (It's no wonder I have been avoiding the mirror like the plague!) So...time to REALLY do something, because if I don't, I am only going to grow,

Some of it is directly my fault. I am a huge binge eater. Actually I am a recovering anorexic and bulimic. I just never did recover from the using food as a drug thing and compulsive overeating. It was ok in my 20's and 30's because I would just lose 30lbs every spring via exercise. (I should interject here and say, COE is never ok for me, but I could turn the tables on it pretty rapidly) You can't use food as a way to mask your feelings and make everything ok and expect to walk away unscathed. So yeah, that part is directly my fault.

I had a really rough year. A huge breakup, illness, debilitation, facing life for the first time as an ex smoker....living alone, it all took it's toll on me and I ate. I should really thank my compulsion for taking such good care of me the last year or so. The junk food probably kept me sane, in fact...I know it did.

Indirectly, I lost my ability to exercise. I used to be a fitness fanatic. I have always loved working out and I could always, very easily lose 30lbs every year in about 8-10 weeks. Every year without fail! So imagine how awful and powerless I felt when I could barely shuffle from the couch to the bathroom everyday for the last 9 months. I have pretty much been homebound (and couchbound ) ever since.

So that is that.

Now, about this here blog.....
I really want to focus on the positive and what I can do rather than what I cannot. I really want to make healthier choices and some of those choices may be to use WPA's for a (single) candy bar or a piece of cake. I have lost weight 100 ways to Sunday but I am tired of my quick fix mentality. I need to make a LIFE change, and maybe (if it's not too boring for you to read), we can make this change together.