I think that I'm liking this IF stuff!

Today I weighed in at 149lbs.
I'm happy with this. I hope to be down some more by the time of my official weigh in day on Wednesday. Magic Wednesday, so named by a friend that weighs in on that day as well.
I tried to give my scales up but am forced to admit, I'm addicted. Is that another form of an eating disorder? Probably, but I would rather have a scale addiction than gain back the weight I have worked so hard to lose. I gave my scales up for a week and gained 5 lbs. I may have gotten adjusted eventually but am not ready to stop my progress just yet. I have 5 months untill my nephew gets married. I will be at my goal or lower by that time. Oct 3rd 2008. Instead of My Big Fat Greek Wedding, I call this my BigFatFamily Wedding. At a fancy country club in Philly with a fancy dressed up new me to go with it!

I should be at a different place in my life but here is where I am. I should be more in control, have it more together, know what I want and what I am here for. But here I sit, doubting myself and my control over myself. H*ll if I had control, I wouldn't be needing to diet at all! But then I remember this is not a diet, it's a way of life.

My daughter and I have been at odds with each other. That is not normal for us. She is 30 going on 65. She thinks she knows what is best for her father and I. And she may well be right, however...that doesn't mean I am handing my life over to her. I'm just getting it back for myself! She is the one that dragged me into this way of eating. Yes folks, kicking and screaming all the way, I had to be practically forced to be a healthier version of myself. But just because she was right about that doesn't mean she is right about everything. And besides, I was right all of the time when she was a kid and she didn't always do what I told her to do. So now it's her turn to talk to deaf ears and hope that some of the info sinks in, just as I did when she was younger!