Today I have tried to get my horrible living room back in shape. i tried the do a little, rest a little practice. Much to my surprise it has worked out really well. I work 15-20 minutes then rest for 5-10 minutes. I get plenty done without tiring out so much. I honestly feel like I have accomplished something today, for the first time in a long time.

I can feel that the time is coming to make a change. I think I am ready to stop hiding behind the fat and really work on being the person that I want to be. It feels fantastic to actually have a positive outlook today. Been...

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As look in the the mirror lately I find myself more and more disgusting. I am more humiliated everytime I see myself. I feel sad about it and I soften the feelings by eating. I wish I could understand what makes my mind convince me that I need to eat to comfort the sadness of being fat. There is no logic to it. I can sit and tell myself how ridiculous the thought of eating because I feel bad for being fat is, and it makes sense. But when it comes down to it I cannot control my emotions enough to restrain myself.

I guess really I am unhappy because I am the fattest that I have...

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Why can't my family all get along? It seems like we are constantly at each others throats. Dh wanted to talk to me like I was a child and when I answered him back in the same tone he threw a fit. Why is that the person that starts the immature talk cannot take it when they get it dished back at them? Pre teen DD is so emotional. She flies off the handle over everything so it trickles down to us. Plus DH hasn't been happy since having to take this new job in January. He has to work weekend evenings so we have no together time. No family time. I think it is making us all miserable. I cannot...

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I wish there was a way to convince myself that I have the ability to get on plan and stay there. I have been down this LC path a number of times. And have generally been very successful when I am dedicated.

I start the day out doing well. But throughout the day it seems like my mind starts working and finding reasons why I should go ahead and eat/drink something that I know that I should not. I cannot find the strength to stand up to myself and say no more.

I am tired of hiding. This fat is not a pretty thing to hide behind. It is gross and disgusting. It...

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Today has been a pretty harsh day for me. My only sibling left home today. He had my dad tell mom and I yesterday evening that he was leaving today at 4pm. He says he's coming back. That he is only going across the country to visit someone.

The person he is going to visit is deceitful. I thought he had realized that when she walked out on him without telling anyone that she was leaving but I guess I was wrong. Her mother, whom she is living with, is insane and threatens to have her arrested all the time so I can imagine what she would do to my brother.

I realize...

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