Emotional Day

Today has been a pretty harsh day for me. My only sibling left home today. He had my dad tell mom and I yesterday evening that he was leaving today at 4pm. He says he's coming back. That he is only going across the country to visit someone.

The person he is going to visit is deceitful. I thought he had realized that when she walked out on him without telling anyone that she was leaving but I guess I was wrong. Her mother, whom she is living with, is insane and threatens to have her arrested all the time so I can imagine what she would do to my brother.

I realize he is 26 years old and has the right to go where he pleases whenever he pleases, but it doesn't make things any easier. I feel like with him gone I will have to carry the burdens that our family has alone. Honestly, this is too much for one person to do. I am sure that my parents continual arguing over things is probably part of the reason that he was willing to travel so far away from us.

But he has left me alone. He didn't even have the common decentcy to trust me enough to tell me what he was going to do, he passed that onto our father. And he left without saying goodbye. So much could happen and he never took the time to walk the 25 steps to my house to tell me that he'd see me soon. Honestly this rips heart out. I went to their house about 25 minutes before he was supposed to leave and he was already gone.

He is my only sibling. I love him. i didn't want him to go.