Starting over is so hard to do.
Posted 05-04-2008 at 06:53 PM by terri73
I wish there was a way to convince myself that I have the ability to get on plan and stay there. I have been down this LC path a number of times. And have generally been very successful when I am dedicated.
I start the day out doing well. But throughout the day it seems like my mind starts working and finding reasons why I should go ahead and eat/drink something that I know that I should not. I cannot find the strength to stand up to myself and say no more.
I am tired of hiding. This fat is not a pretty thing to hide behind. It is gross and disgusting. It keeps me from doing the things in life that I want to do. It has taken me over. It is starting to take away things from em that I never imagined that it could. It makes me struggle to walk even short distances, to climb a single fight of stairs, and now even to put on my shoes and tie them. The fat is ruining my life, what is left of the life I used to have.
My husband said to me the other day that he wants me to lose weight because he is afraid that I am going to die. This hurt me so much. Not that he said it, but that he felt like he had to say it. I have let him down and let myself down. He loves me reguardless to the amount of fat on my body, so that isn't an issue. But I am causing him worry because of my weight. And I am sorry.
i have to get things under control again.
I start the day out doing well. But throughout the day it seems like my mind starts working and finding reasons why I should go ahead and eat/drink something that I know that I should not. I cannot find the strength to stand up to myself and say no more.
I am tired of hiding. This fat is not a pretty thing to hide behind. It is gross and disgusting. It keeps me from doing the things in life that I want to do. It has taken me over. It is starting to take away things from em that I never imagined that it could. It makes me struggle to walk even short distances, to climb a single fight of stairs, and now even to put on my shoes and tie them. The fat is ruining my life, what is left of the life I used to have.
My husband said to me the other day that he wants me to lose weight because he is afraid that I am going to die. This hurt me so much. Not that he said it, but that he felt like he had to say it. I have let him down and let myself down. He loves me reguardless to the amount of fat on my body, so that isn't an issue. But I am causing him worry because of my weight. And I am sorry.
i have to get things under control again.
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Good luck !! You can do it !!
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Posted 05-05-2008 at 06:21 AM by Reg
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Girl I know you can do this if you put your mind to it. Sometimes we need to hear harsh things to give us that good kick in the butt.
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Posted 05-05-2008 at 08:32 AM by ceceee8935
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There will always be an excuse or reason behind delaying weightloss, but girl, put that fat in motion! I have taken baby steps through my 2 1/2 week journey. I truly live one day at a time and will power is something to be reckoned with! I have prayed, walked away, sat on the toilet..anything to stay away from the things that tempt me and it truly is hard! I have shed some tears in the last couple of weeks, but each night before I fall asleep I think about how strong I am and how I made it through another day! I praise myself and truly embrace my strength. Trust me, you'll find strength you never thought existed! Good luck and get support from all of us!!!
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Posted 05-06-2008 at 10:03 PM by Karazona
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