Just a quick note - I haven't checked my BMI in a while and just checked it several time online - I am now at 29.9 - right at the edge of overweight/obese! This is very scary to me. I know that BMI isn't always reliable, but it's still scary to me!

Tam

tammay

I don't officially start back on SBD until tomorrow but I felt like I had to blog out some feelings. I went to bed last night at 1:30 a.m. (don't ask!) and woke up at 5 a.m. and couldn't get back to sleep. So I've barely had 4 hours of sleep and I am so tired. I'm also feeling nauseous because I woke up with a headache and took an aspirin without thinking about the fact that it was on an empty stomach, which always makes me feel a little sick. I am just so unfocused right now and feeling so down on myself.

I'm also feeling so frustrated about my weight. I am now exactly at the weight...

tammay

I was doing very well until last night when I binged on junk food. From the choices I made (chocolate brownie ice cream - I don't even like chocolate ice cream that much! - and BBQ chips) and what I left behind, it's pretty clear it was PMS cravings (salt, chocolate). Like clockwork, the depressed feeling that I felt right before I went back to eating low carb and more protein is back this morning.

I am disappointed but not beaten. I just need to stay focused. I think part of my downfall the past few months has been trying to put pressure on myself to "look thinner" because...

tammay

It always amazes me how, after I've been back on low carbing for even just a few days, my mood really becomes so much more balanced and calm. I feel like I've done a total turnaround from where I was a few days ago, before coming back to LCing. I'm so relieved!

I sent out a few resumes yesterday, which I feel good about. Today I found an interesting opportunity for a freelance writer online. I'm not sure I can qualify for it (the only kind of writing I've done is my own fiction writing and plenty of writing for my classes in grad school ) but I might just send a few samples and...

tammay

Just wanted to check in and say I'm feeling much better. Maybe my problem has been that I haven't been eating a lot of protein lately. I've been eating less than 45 gr a day, which is low for me. Now I feel so much more balanced and calm and my mood is definitely up. I'm so glad!

tammay