Horrible Horrible Weekend

Have had a horrible week and a bad weekend.

Food-wise, the week went fine until yesterday. But I started to have headaches every day, waking up with one, taking over-the-counter pills which made it go away for a while, then having the headache reappear in the evening and not going away which of course made it hard to fall asleep. I didn't make things any better by taking one drug after another (a nice little cocktail of Excedrine extra strength, feverfew, and Excedrine migraine - needless to say, I will not be going for that awful combination again!)

This was every single day for the whole week.

In addition to that, I developed a bad rash around the thighs and buttocks to the point where I find it hard to sit for a long period of time.

I think the frustration and the ill feeling just got the best of me on Saturday and I walked right into the grocery store near me and bought junk food and binged. Granted, it could have been worse (it could have been a whole day binge rather than an evening binge) but I am not proud of myself, especially since I had no physical cravings at all. It was just frustration and habit.

It gets worse. Then yesterday I suddenly got the bug in my head that the health issues I was having were caused by the fact that I added dairy back into my diet. I know now that this makes no sense, as I've had no problems with dairy in the past and didn't have any issues with it for three weeks. But that led me to rethink my menu trying to cut out dairy which led to a higher carb level (since it's tough to do vegan low carb) with beans and fruit and bread.

So I went shopping this morning, bought all the carby stuff, and started the new diet. But I didn't enjoy breakfast at all (a tofu scramble and fruit) or the snack (light whole wheat bread with nut butter, fruit). Went to a cafe to write and got an iced tea instead of my usual coffee and half-and-half (I'm picky about creamers in my coffee, so soy milk won't do). In the middle of my writing session, I started to feel fatigued (probably the sugars from the fruit and bread hit me) and just down and it was like boing!!! hello, insulin rush. It was like what I'd been reading in Protein Power come to life.

So now I'm back home and tomorrow I'm going shopping for some of the dairy stuff I didn't buy today (eggs, yogurt) and tomorrow morning it's back to my vegetarian lowcarb eating plan. I am not going to sabotage myself this time like I do with everything in my life.

As for the health issues, I think there are other issues involved - largely, the fact that it's been extremely hot in TX (in the 90's every day) and my skin is very sensitive to heat and the fact that I was wearing under clothing from nylon (bought some cotton undies at Wal-Mart today). The headaches have waned away from yesterday and I don't plan on relying on the "cocktail" again to make it worse.

I CAN DO THIS I CAN DO THIS I CAN DO THIS!!!

Tam