Day 7 - One Week back on the VLC Wagon :D

Today marks one week back for me on lowcarbing (the vegetarian way this time ) and it's time to reflect.

Unfortunately, yesterday was rough. First day of TOM always is but this month has been one of the hardest I've had in a while, probably because after staying away from junk food for two months, I went back into the weekend binging and that put my body way out of whack (TOM was late, of course). Just very painful and very heavy this time around.

Headache came back yesterday evening, mainly because I felt one starting around my sinuses in the afternoon but didn't have Excedrin with me, so only took it when I got home which was too late (that's what happens to me!) So of course it was back to the old taking different pills, trying to relax and rest, etc.

Needless to say, yesterday was not a very constructive day...

One weird thing, though. I still had the headache pretty bad when I sat down to have my usual nondairy LC fudge but by the time I got through with eating the fudge it was gone. This has happened several times. The fudge is made out of nut butter and cocoa powder, the very things that I know trigger headaches for some people, so maybe it's just the act of being so focused on how delicious it was that took my mind off of the headache and made it go away .

However, because I took so many pills, I couldn't fall asleep. That and cramps made me stay up for most of the night. And because I couldn't sleep and had to preoccupy my mind, I started thinking about getting off of this plan and getting on to something like more what I was doing before (vegan) but with less grains and more protein. I kid you not, there was NO justification for it whatsoever. I've been feeling good, aside from the PMS/TOM crap, I haven't had cravings for carbs at all, nor for junk food, and all week I've felt much calmer, more balanced, like I can just say "oh, I'm having such-and-such for lunch" but not obsess over it and worry whether it will fill me up, be enough, be enjoyable, etc.

I actually went so far as to make menus, plug stuff into Fitday, make an alternative shopping list (I had already made a shopping list for my lowcarb menus) and, naturally, since I was "switching" plans, the binge food I would buy along with the other stuff for "just Sunday" (this has been my pattern for the past year...) All this during the early hours of the morning.

I did manage to fall asleep and wake up early to go shopping. By that time I came to my senses, realizing I didn't want to get off of lowcarbing and I didn't have any cravings for binge food. So I went shopping although I felt so out of it and bought lowcarb stuff and now I feel myself again.

I know all of this sounds crazy and I can't explain it any other way but self-sabotage. I do this in other areas in my life too - when things are starting to go well, no reason at all, I suddenly decide I need to switch. I promised myself that my motto for 2008 would be "If it's not broken, don't fix it!" because that's what I've been doing for much of my life, with food and everything else.

Although I didn't plan on weighing myself this week, I felt I needed the encouragement. My jeans have been fitting much better and I know because I binged last weekend and TOM arrived, the scale would show a loss. I also measured, so here are the totals
Weight: 139.5 (3 lbs gone!)
Bust: 38.5 (-0.5 inches)
Waist: 35.5 (-0.5)
Hips: 39 (-0.5)

I know these aren't really reflective of what's going on with my body and that a lot of the weight is water weight. I knew that when I weighed and measured this morning. But I felt like I needed the boost in confidence that I'm doing the right thing and I feel as if I am.

Yesterday's Menu:
1 egg + 1 egg white sauted in butter, zucchini, red onion, and salsa
1 cup plain yogurt with xylitol and SF Maple syrup + 1/2 cup Fiber One
Coffee with half and half

Mushrooms and veggie crumble sauted in butter with red onion and garlic, a touch of cream and dijon mustard (it's been a long time since I've eaten anything in a cream sauce!)

Salad with feta cheese and vinigrette
Nondairy lowcarb fudge (the headache breaker )

Exercise: again, headache kept me from doing much but I did get a walk in of about 80 minutes)
Water 12 glasses

Tam