the title is pretty self explanatory. "Taking Control". I have spent too long allowing my feelings: physical and/or mental to control me. it's time to change all that (past time, really).
as of today, I am taking back my life. I want the control back. I want to feel good and be healthy and I can't do it if I continue on the way I am.
I am embarrassed and upset with myself that I'm where I am. I honestly believed I would not ever be anywhere near close to this size again. yet...here I am basically with the same issues I had before I ever started this journey so long ago.
today and the future is MINE! it's mine to do with what I CHOOSE to do. healthy or not healthy. I choose healthy!
now I know, just my saying it is not going to make it be so. I know I'm going to have struggles along the way. I know I'm not going to be perfect. but I have to make a choice and at least start backing up my words with action on a consistent basis.
today I choose to make the changes in the behaviors that I need in order to be the "me" that I want to be.
as of today, I am taking back my life. I want the control back. I want to feel good and be healthy and I can't do it if I continue on the way I am.
I am embarrassed and upset with myself that I'm where I am. I honestly believed I would not ever be anywhere near close to this size again. yet...here I am basically with the same issues I had before I ever started this journey so long ago.
today and the future is MINE! it's mine to do with what I CHOOSE to do. healthy or not healthy. I choose healthy!
now I know, just my saying it is not going to make it be so. I know I'm going to have struggles along the way. I know I'm not going to be perfect. but I have to make a choice and at least start backing up my words with action on a consistent basis.
today I choose to make the changes in the behaviors that I need in order to be the "me" that I want to be.
November 7, Day 7
I am ashamed yet proud that I can finally celebrate almost a week on plan. this is the first time in a while I've managed to stick to it like this! I'm ashamed BECAUSE I haven't been able to but proud I finally did, lol.
Yesterday's goals:
so: ON TO DAY SEVEN!!!
today's goals:
Yesterday's goals:
- Keep kitchen clean
I was tempted to leave the GF grill till today but thought of my goals and made myself do it.
- exercise (even if it's just a little) 30 min. on the treadmill. still slow but went a tad faster for more of it than yesterday.
- eat on plan
- clean upstairs bathroom
this I did not get to. I was so tired and still hurting last night and it came down to if I'm only going to manage to get 1 more of my goals done which would be better for ME. I decided because of the way I'm feeling I REALLY need to get back into being more active and a good routine so did the treadmill. I did give myself permission to stop after 15 min IF I really needed to (if my back pain flared too much while walking). as you see above, I did do the full 30 min.
so: ON TO DAY SEVEN!!!
today's goals:
- eat on plan
- keep my kitchen clean
- clean the upstairs bathroom
- read at least 1 1/2 chapters out of my book
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