I have pushed thru this past week of disappointment at the scale for the umpty-ninth time. Only to have a 1.6 loss this week.

Now I do not believe that what I did this week caused that. I believe that the weight gain last week was a temporary fluke such as water retention from something I ate.

But the point is that I came dangerously close to throwing in the towel. I was so disgusted. I did spin out for a day and a half and then I dug in and faked it till I made it. I prayed to get my motivation back and God did bring something to me that did turn me around....

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I saw some wedding pix yesterday and there were two big sized gals in the bridal party. My cousin was there and spoke to one of the gals. The girl was feeling bad about having to walk down the aisle in this dress they made her wear that was strapless and showed all of her beefy skin. She told my cousin that she would rather have a root canal than walk down the aisle in this dress. I could feel her pain as I looked at the wedding pix. It was a wake-up call for me. I don't want to feel that way about myself again. I need to push thru and push on to success! I needed that.

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All that I said in my last post is bs. I gained one pound at my wi today and I am pissed. I felt like crying at the meeting but I didn't. Today I have eaten things that are not on my usual plan but I intend to start over tomorrow. I'm frustrated because my weight has been going up and down and up and down for months. Trust me I do not feel like I have been eating everything in sight at all. I have put a lot of work into my food and exercise plan each day. That is what makes it so hard. Maybe I will cry.

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I feel like I have new clothes but I actually "shopped" in my own closet. All my winter jackets fit me now. I am thrilled. I have some nice jackets that I have been unable to wear during my heavier days and years.

I got to wear my fav yesterday because it is cold out now. It seems like it was just summer. I am not ready for this fall/winter-like weather.

I also measured myself again. Even tho I have only lost 1.6 since my last measurement I lost more inches in all the right places. The belly and hips.

So the moral is that...

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I lost 1.6 today!! Yay!! I am doing the happy dance. Now I need to post another loss next week and get back on a roll.

The soup did the trick this week. I am going to make another batch for this coming week.

I ate more core-like all day and if I had earned activity points I had a treat after supper. I think that works pretty good.

I am just shy of 40 lbs lost. I am hoping to have 50lbs gone by the end of the year. I think that is reasonable.

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