Do we ever really stop thinking about food?

This conversation came up on my meeting this week. After some discussion the answer was no. The leader tried to say it gets better but she recently had a big slip herself and she has been at goal for 11 years.

We talked about emotional eating and what to do when we want something that would be off plan.

I was listening but my mind was telling me something else. My mind was saying ya okay but when that thot comes you know what you are going to do. Don't ya?

To that I say food does not control me. My thots do not control me. I am in control of my destiny. I know what I am trying to acheive and the more I make right choices the less strength I give to my thots. It is self-sabotage to give into it.

I admit that right now I am in a great place and I am swimming along wonderfully here. I hope it never changes. But experience has taught me that I may have a thot or two someday and I need to be strong. I need to see the bigger picture not just a desire that is up in my face right now.

I had something last night that was okay because I had some points left but I know it was an old old habit and I probably shouldn't have had it. I had some soft fresh pita with my margerine on it. Not a good habit to fuel. In my heyday I could eat bread and butter one after another once I got started.

So today is a brand new day and I am not fooling around this time. I am going to get to my goal and I am going to enjoy the journey because this is for the rest of my life. I am not dieting I am living.

I have already had a dream that I reached goal and I have seen myself holding up my favorite pants and showing the difference between me and my old pants.

I know this is my time for some reason. I believe that God's favor is upon me in this effort. He sure has heard a million of my prayers for help in this area of my life.