Diet pills?

About a year or two ago I went to my doctor and asked for Meridian. She flat out refused me. (she is stick thin) She said I could just get on a diet and do it myself- it is better for me.

I was very disappointed because I had hoped that a pill would help jump start me into weight loss because on my own I had no motivation, even tho I hated myself daily.

So I nursed a grudge about that for a while and kept eating. I watched my weight go even higher than it already was.

I actually got on the scale whenever I felt "thin" and I would be surprised that I was up a few more pounds. I knew how much I gained over the holidays. I knew that it was just too easy to gain. I wish it was as easy to lose it.

So in 2008 I began to feel that I needed to do something about this because doing something would feel better than doing nothing and just watching my weight climb and my clothes get tighter. I was not going into a bigger size. I had already done that a few times.

So now I have lost about 15 pounds and I feel better. My clothes are beginning to fit better and some are falling off. I like myself because I am doing something about my biggest problem. I know that I have a long way to go but every pound means something to me even if people cannot see it yet.