Just a bitter little ray of sunshine.
Sobriety - Day 5*
k, so here's the rub....
Friday June 26 I woke up (again) with a hangover and said to myself I am sick of this, I'm going to quit. I made the decision, and I'm sticking with it.
My M.O. is to have a couple drinks before bed every night. and a couple drinks doesn't just mean 2 shots either. these are DRINKS. Well, I have not done that since Thursday night June 25. On Sunday June 28 I did have a bunch of beer at the bike hash, and I know I'm rationalizing, but that was a planned thing and I don't mind keeping that in.
I have not drunk myself to sleep since last thursday, and my goal is to never do that again. But, I'm not worrying about forever. I'm not even keeping it in the front of my thoughts. It's out there, but what I'm worried about is today. So, that's why I've included the asterisk with the day count. There's going to be days prolly that I'll have a drink or two with the wife, or on the bike hash, or whatever, but I am done with drinking myself to sleep every night.
It's not deprivation. It's freedom.
Hello Day 5, nice to see you again.
Give me the child. Through dangers untold and hardships unnumbered, I have fought my way here to the castle beyond the Goblin City to take back the child that you have stolen, for my will is as strong as yours, and my kingdom is as great.
You have no power over me.
Friday June 26 I woke up (again) with a hangover and said to myself I am sick of this, I'm going to quit. I made the decision, and I'm sticking with it.
My M.O. is to have a couple drinks before bed every night. and a couple drinks doesn't just mean 2 shots either. these are DRINKS. Well, I have not done that since Thursday night June 25. On Sunday June 28 I did have a bunch of beer at the bike hash, and I know I'm rationalizing, but that was a planned thing and I don't mind keeping that in.
I have not drunk myself to sleep since last thursday, and my goal is to never do that again. But, I'm not worrying about forever. I'm not even keeping it in the front of my thoughts. It's out there, but what I'm worried about is today. So, that's why I've included the asterisk with the day count. There's going to be days prolly that I'll have a drink or two with the wife, or on the bike hash, or whatever, but I am done with drinking myself to sleep every night.
It's not deprivation. It's freedom.
Hello Day 5, nice to see you again.
Give me the child. Through dangers untold and hardships unnumbered, I have fought my way here to the castle beyond the Goblin City to take back the child that you have stolen, for my will is as strong as yours, and my kingdom is as great.
You have no power over me.
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