You ‘n me, we’ve been together now for awhile now haven’t we? Had some good times. 12 years at least. Every new high followed by a new low. Why can’t I get you out of my head?

I always told myself I’d hang out with you as long as I didn’t feel any long term negative FX. Well guess what, they’re finally here. I can’t hang out with you anymore like I used to. I have to get used to that and I have to accept that.

I’ve got other reasons to live besides you. You make me think I don’t, and that I don’t want those other reasons, but I do. I forget from time...

roamer723

back on the horse today. getting my head straight, and the rest will be easy.

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296.2

Oy. Not too bad for basically taking the week off. My dad came to visit for a week and we ate out a lot. Took a few trips off the deep end but still managed to do ok. Rode 5 days in a row to work last week; it’s been awhile since I’ve been able to do that. Drove dad to the airport this morning and now we’ll get back to normal life. Heh, normal.

I continue to get better at doing pushups. I’d be even better if I took more time to do them. I have starts and stops, but mainly I’m doing them when watching football games. Too bad my Gators aren’t scoring...

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285.6

new record low and loss. knocking on the 70lb club's door. 68.8

Haven't had much to say lately so have let the blog posting just go. Kids are in school, wife is back to work for the first time in 5 years, my job is meh (damn glad to have a job sir!).

I had a pretty active weekend. rode 20 miles friday. mowed the yard saturday. rode 15 miiles sunday. but now, my bike is fubar. basically, the cassette on the rear wheel is broke, where the chain will turn it when the front crank turns, but the wheel doesn't turn. think of it like your car's...

roamer723

OMG, who would've thunk I would've ever got here.

Cravings are mainly nonexistent, and I haven't even touched the stuff except for two separate spaced out instances. I haven't even popped an L-Glut in a week or so.

addiction is a *****. first the cravings, then the rationalization, then the substitution, then not wanting to let yourself down.

but if you come through it, wow. I'm not done yet, this will be a battle the rest of my life, but I'm already significantly better than I was.

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