I am so torn right now. There's a part of me that wants to call my psychiatrist and ask to be put into the program. He said to call him night or day, and he would be there. It's scary, but I feel unworthy. I feel too fat, and that I'll be laughed at and not taken seriously. I almost feel the need to prove to everyone that I do have a serious problem, and the only way is by losing more weight so I'm not so fat. I don't want to be underweight. Skin and bones is not attractive to me. I just want to be thin. I feel so huge right now, and don't want to be in the fat bulimic category. They...

Denise85

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skeeweeaka

Wow...I read this today in the lobby and it is quite profound...frankly I wept...sorry but today I am an emotional mess...what can I SAY!

There will be a day that you can remember as being the day of failure. It might be a divorce, rejection, or even the death of a loved one. It is a day you will always remember.

But the next day is the first day of the rest of your life. It will be the day of new beginnings. It might not be the new beginning you were hoping for but it is a new beginning. If there are issues with that day, grieving to be completed then do...

skeeweeaka

I totally forgot about blogging. I'm going to try to post every day. Hopefully it will keep me on track. I had 2 really good weeks, then jumped off the wagon on the third. Last week was better, but not perfect. Breastfeeding really plays a factor as I try to stay just out of ketosis range. Somedays I just have to eat more carbs to keep milk flowing. Working on that balance more this week along with some more exercise. Last week I only managed 3 20 minute workouts.

This week I'm working out dropping 2 nursing sessions (naps- really only comfort nursing), eating to stay...

emehalick

I saw some wedding pix yesterday and there were two big sized gals in the bridal party. My cousin was there and spoke to one of the gals. The girl was feeling bad about having to walk down the aisle in this dress they made her wear that was strapless and showed all of her beefy skin. She told my cousin that she would rather have a root canal than walk down the aisle in this dress. I could feel her pain as I looked at the wedding pix. It was a wake-up call for me. I don't want to feel that way about myself again. I need to push thru and push on to success! I needed that.

slimdays