Portia

I started a blog here a year or so ago - but it seems to have gone *poof*. No great loss. It was a pretty boring blog with few entries.

I decided to start blogging again because over the last few weeks, I've really turned a corner in terms of managing life/stress/crises which have really waylaid me this past year.

If I'm being honest with myself (and isn't that what blogs are for?) my "crises" are hardly worth noting. I am keenly aware that I live a life that most would envy and that I am free of many of the worries that plague other people.

That being said, I am a mom of small children, a wife and I work part-time, so by definition, my life will contain stress. During the past year, there have been a few major medical and emotional hurdles. I chose to let those derail my weight loss efforts. I could have persevered, but I chose not to and I am living with the consequences of that.

Today, at 239 lbs, I am unrecognizable. I am well over my highest pregnancy weight. I feel like I can hardly move. Having spent most of my life in the 140-150 lb range, I feel like some kind of alien.

The good news is, I can change that number, and I know *how* to change that number. It's definitely not going to happen by obsessing over every calorie or carb, writing down every nibble.

I plan to use this blog as a journal to record food, stats and thoughts.

I'm continuously motivated by others on this site, and I am, for the first time in a long time, certain that I can regain my former "self" in terms of weight and health.

For anyone reading this who is curious about me, I am a native NY-er, formerly an attorney, current business owner, wife and mom. I live in a beautiful seaside town with my three beloved guys - DH and two little boys, ages 3 and nearly-6. We live a charmed life and I would not change a thing except my abuse of food.

I eat to relax at night. Enough said.

I have followed LC on and off for years, reaching 200 lbs last year before getting off track.