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Posted 06-12-2008 at 01:43 PM by NuttyNeeta
So, by the powers that be, I've been forgiven and allowed a return. I needed it too because I'm so disgusted with the other weight loss choices, I only really know this one and I need the support something bad. Thanks Tom, Dotti, FC and especially CHERI!!!
so, I joined WW with 14 of my coworkers. Paid out the $168 (wish I hadn't but hell, if i didn't then the other 14 couldn't go through the program either... there had to be at minimun 15 people) anyway, I joined 3 weeks ago and weighed in at 302.2. At the end of week 1, I weighed in at 304.6. At the end of week 2, I weighed in at 304.0. What's that tell me? That I totally SUCK at Weight Watchers too! So, I'm going to stick to Atkins 72 for the remaining 10 weeks and see what happens. I'll even give up my beer and drink only hard liquor.
My main strength comes from a severe heartbreak. A man i was going to marry but when I woke up one day, I realized that he is quite possessive and really hated when I wanted to spend extra time with my kids. I had to ask permission to visit them, or visit friends and when friends called.. I got the nth degree on who was on the phone and if i didn't automatically put it on SPEAKERPHONE then he accused me of sleeping with them. I mean for real... he's 40 something and I was almost 40. Too old for this kind of crap. So, after the 3rd time he threatened me to move out, I did. I've cried almost every night since. Not because I hate being alone (i've actually met someone since then) but because I feel like a failure.. I've lost my best friend. I need to get over it and concintrate on this lovely man who is kind and giving and works hard for a living.. and talks to me like i'm a person, not a possession.
where was i?
oh yeah. I'm back to low carbing. I did weight watchers for 2 weeks straight, no cheats and gained. Now i'll do it MY way and see if i lose. I'm determined!! I love myself today. I'm 40 and I feel beautiful. I really do.
myself today. even at 300 pounds... i'm a great woman.
HAHA I say it long enough, i will come to really believe it!!
so, I joined WW with 14 of my coworkers. Paid out the $168 (wish I hadn't but hell, if i didn't then the other 14 couldn't go through the program either... there had to be at minimun 15 people) anyway, I joined 3 weeks ago and weighed in at 302.2. At the end of week 1, I weighed in at 304.6. At the end of week 2, I weighed in at 304.0. What's that tell me? That I totally SUCK at Weight Watchers too! So, I'm going to stick to Atkins 72 for the remaining 10 weeks and see what happens. I'll even give up my beer and drink only hard liquor.
My main strength comes from a severe heartbreak. A man i was going to marry but when I woke up one day, I realized that he is quite possessive and really hated when I wanted to spend extra time with my kids. I had to ask permission to visit them, or visit friends and when friends called.. I got the nth degree on who was on the phone and if i didn't automatically put it on SPEAKERPHONE then he accused me of sleeping with them. I mean for real... he's 40 something and I was almost 40. Too old for this kind of crap. So, after the 3rd time he threatened me to move out, I did. I've cried almost every night since. Not because I hate being alone (i've actually met someone since then) but because I feel like a failure.. I've lost my best friend. I need to get over it and concintrate on this lovely man who is kind and giving and works hard for a living.. and talks to me like i'm a person, not a possession.
where was i?
oh yeah. I'm back to low carbing. I did weight watchers for 2 weeks straight, no cheats and gained. Now i'll do it MY way and see if i lose. I'm determined!! I love myself today. I'm 40 and I feel beautiful. I really do.
myself today. even at 300 pounds... i'm a great woman.HAHA I say it long enough, i will come to really believe it!!
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good for you. both for making a healthy choice with your woe, and for leaving him.
Sergeant Hulka "Stripes": "I'm gettin too old for this sh*t!" (and Roger Murtaugh too Lethal Weapon) |
Posted 06-13-2008 at 05:20 AM by roamer723
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