I began July 10th 2009. Today is July 11th 2009. Not a whole lot to blog about just yet.

My body doesn't do well with sugars and other processed foods. I'm about 360 pounds give or take a few. My body size makes me "not scale friendly." Which is actually a good thing because I can easily become, "scale obsessed."

I'm insulin resistant, I have has hypothyroidism since I was 24 years old, I have trouble walking or standing, and even personal care. My blood pressure keeps skyrocketing, I get dizzy for exertion and I can't breathe well. I've lost 100's of pounds and gained them back. I don't want to play this game anymore.

Today is day two. The diminishing appetite is kicking in. Those of you who know will understand the diminishing appetite as opposed to the insane constant craving.

Today I've made a commitment again. I started out with a smoothie. I made it with ice cubes, low carb hood dairy drink, Truvia, 1 scoop of whey protein, 1 tablespoon baking cocoa and one tablespoon of instant coffee. Yes, the coffee is an addiction, but I'm trying not to face it yet. The smoothie was awesome!

My second meal today was tuna with homemade mayo on crackers made of flax meal and psyllium husk. I flavored it with dried parm/romano cheese and garlic powder. It was awesome. This doesn't feel like dieting, it feels like getting to eat gourmet. I already made more crackers for tomorrow. They are mostly dried rather than baked.

Tonight we are going to have vegetable and sausage stir fry. Bring on the veggies!

So, this is the beginning of a different stage of willingness. For this day, I can't bear to look at all of them. I know I can't live this way anymore.

Sunday-Changed the food already Posted 08-08-2009 at 11:54 AM by Nell This is how well planning works for me, lol. I didn't have the energy to cook eggs, I woke up late ect. I had the 5X5 pita with coconut oil and natural peanut butter. What I do is drain off the peanut oil to add coconut so there isn't any extra oil. The coconut is suppossed to be good for my thyroid stuff and for candida, so it's worth the extra effort. I guess I'm going to have to start making boiled eggs ahead of time if I want to have eggs. Or have eggs for dinner. Cooking in the morning doesn't seem to work for me. Nell MAJOR LCF POSTER!

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For Sunday Posted 08-08-2009 at 12:00 AM by Nell I'm thinking ahead. Tommorrow for breakfast I could have eggs with sausage. I've got all parts of myself complaining about the fat in the sausage though. I really need to get over this diet mentality. I cannot possibly be eating enough fat that my body has enough to not burn my own. I'm not going to eat a pound of sausage, just about two ounces. Relax woman! Ok.... Wake up: Down two or 3 walnut halves to stop gluco. release Breakfast: eggs and sausage. Cook eggs with coconut oil. Ok, screw the sausage. Omlette... Continue reading... Nell MAJOR LCF POSTER!

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For Sunday Posted 08-07-2009 at 11:59 PM by Nell I'm thinking ahead. Tommorrow for breakfast I could have eggs with sausage. I've got all parts of myself complaining about the fat in the sausage though. I really need to get over this diet mentality. I cannot possibly be eating enough fat that my body has enough to not burn my own. I'm not going to eat a pound of sausage, just about two ounces. Relax woman! Ok.... Wake up: Down two or 3 walnut halves to stop gluco. release Breakfast: eggs and sausage. Cook eggs with coconut oil. Ok, screw the sausage. Omlette... Continue reading... Nell MAJOR LCF POSTER!

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Saturday August 8th Posted 08-07-2009 at 11:42 PM by Nell Well, today I ate: Breakfast: 3 cups of coffee with cream and stevia drops 2 crackers >5mg carb with natural peanut butter 2 oz. mozarella Snack: Handful of Walnuts Lunch: A peice of Chicken breast 2 crackers >5mg carb with natural peanut butter Snack: Handful of Walnuts Dinner: Whey protein smoothie with cocoa, cocunut milk, cream, truvia, and Spinach. What I'd like to do tomorrow: Get another 5X5 planned so I'm not having crackers and peanut butter twice a day.... Continue reading... Nell MAJOR LCF POSTER!

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Finally got my book yesterday Posted 08-06-2009 at 09:05 PM by Nell Well, I finally got my book yesterday. I'm following the Metabolism B diet by Dianne Kress. So far so good. I'm not sure how I feel. I get silly with panic anytime the idea of weight loss comes up. I don't even like food. One line in the book talked about how you didn't want to start eating because then you were out of control. I almost started crying when I read it. I don't know how many days of my life I spent trying to put off eating as long as possible in order to not wake the monster. Because of the progression the last few years have been like hell. It didn't matter how much I... Continue reading... Nell MAJOR LCF POSTER!

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