Rambling

Today the scale read 244 lbs. That is soooo frigging awesome . When I got pg with my twins I was 245 lbs because I lost 10lbs on the cabbage soup diet. I don't even remember the last time I was 244. The funny thing is, I can see my wrist bones. Isn't that wierd. I mean of all things to notice, my wrist bones?

I can now wear my engagment ring, it's soo pretty and I LOVE it. I haven't been able to wear it since about the 5th month of pregnancy. That's over 2 years ago. I was soo amazed when it actually fit . I'm soo glad I brought it with me to Canada. my wedding band is still too tight, I think it's like a size 6, so I still have a little bit to go in order to wear it. I always had such skinny fingers, well before I gained all the weight.

My brown capri pants are getting lose, I love it. My shirts are no longer tight. I just can't believe that tihs is actually working.

So today i'm 244.. my goal weight is 170.. that would put me at 100lbs lost. I have never ever been below 180lbs so I have no idea how that feels. I can't imagine fitting into size Large, or going shopping at a normal store. What does that feel like??? I don't even shop for jewlery or anything at regular mall clothing stores.

I really hope I get to goal, I secretly think that this time I will actually do it. But I'm afraid that something will come up and I will get back to my old ways of eating. that would suck, because it's such a straggle to eat well.

I still can't believe that I lost 26lbs since March, that's really good. Imean it's not that big of a deal for some people, but considering I have PCOS and it's hard for me to lose, 26 lbs is awesome...

Ok I think I'm going to go to sleep now.. I just have soo many thoughts running through my head, just wanted to type them out.