Today... I didn't eat it...

I stepped on the scale this morning only to see a 2lb gain. I was sooo pissed off.. Sure I had some salatka and it had some carrots in it but sheesh.. its a veggie.. it's not fair that I eat a little bit of something and I gain weight.. I didn't eat chocolate.. I didn't eat icecream.. I had a Polish salatka with some carrots..
In my mind I was going on and on and on how pissed of I was that instead of the darn scale moving on down it went up. I might as well have chocolate and get it over with.. since the scale is moving up anyways..

Then I looked at the pants that I was wearing.. the same capri pants that I couln't zip or button in March. The black capri pants that I can now take on and off without unzipping and unbuttoning... and I got over the fact that the scale showed a gain...

If I had the mentality that this SUCKS and it's NOT FAIR and I 'm going to eat what I want to... I would be shopping for size 26/28 clothes or bigger by now. Instead I'm getting into some 18's and 20's.

This evening I went to Walmart with my dad.. at the check out there were some Kinder Bueno hazelnut chocolates, you have to understand I LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEE any type of hazelnut chocolate.. ADORE it ... could live on this stuff...
it would have been sooo easy to pick one up.. or two.. pay for it.. put it in my purse .. and walk out of the store .. and my dad wouldn't even know it.. then I could bring it home.. and eat it in my room.. no one would know.. I could throw the wrappers away discretly...
But ofcourse I didn't buy the candy, I glanced at it and then glanced at the cute black shoes I found and decided that today that chocolate is not worth it.

I'm not saying I'm not going to have some hazelnut chocolate while I'm here.. I probably will.. but today.. I didn't buy it.. I didn't eat it...